Main Street
By Sinclair Lewis.
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This is Americaâ âa town of a few thousand, in a region of wheat and corn and dairies and little groves.
The town is, in our tale, called âGopher Prairie, Minnesota.â But its Main Street is the continuation of Main Streets everywhere. The story would be the same in Ohio or Montana, in Kansas or Kentucky or Illinois, and not very differently would it be told Up York State or in the Carolina hills.
Main Street is the climax of civilization. That this Ford car might stand in front of the Bon Ton Store, Hannibal invaded Rome and Erasmus wrote in Oxford cloisters. What Ole Jenson the grocer says to Ezra Stowbody the banker is the new law for London, Prague, and the unprofitable isles of the sea; whatsoever Ezra does not know and sanction, that thing is heresy, worthless for knowing and wicked to consider.
Our railway station is the final aspiration of architecture. Sam Clarkâs annual hardware turnover is the envy of the four counties which constitute Godâs Country. In the sensitive art of the Rosebud Movie Palace there is a Message, and humor strictly moral.
Such is our comfortable tradition and sure faith. Would he not betray himself an alien cynic who should otherwise portray Main Street, or distress the citizens by speculating whether there may not be other faiths?
Main Street
I
I
On a hill by the Mississippi where Chippewas camped two generations ago, a girl stood in relief against the cornflower blue of Northern sky. She saw no Indians now; she saw flour-mills and the blinking windows of skyscrapers in Minneapolis and St. Paul. Nor was she thinking of squaws and portages, and the Yankee fur-traders whose shadows were all about her. She was meditating upon walnut fudge, the plays of Brieux, the reasons why heels run over, and the fact that the chemistry instructor had stared at the new coiffure which concealed her ears.
A breeze which had crossed a thousand miles of wheat-lands bellied her taffeta skirt in a line so graceful, so full of animation and moving beauty, that the heart of a chance watcher on the lower road tightened to wistfulness over her quality of suspended freedom. She lifted her arms, she leaned back against the wind, her skirt dipped and flared, a lock blew wild. A girl on a hilltop; credulous, plastic, young; drinking the air as she longed to drink life. The eternal aching comedy of expectant youth.
It is Carol Milford, fleeing for an hour from Blodgett College.
The days of pioneering, of lassies in sunbonnets, and bears killed with axes in piney clearings, are deader now than Camelot; and a rebellious girl is the spirit of that bewildered empire called the American Middlewest.
II
Blodgett College is on the edge of Minneapolis. It is a bulwark of sound religion. It is still combating the recent heresies of Voltaire, Darwin, and Robert Ingersoll. Pious families in Minnesota, Iowa, Wisconsin, the Dakotas send their children thither, and Blodgett protects them from the wickedness of the universities. But it secretes friendly girls, young men who sing, and one lady instructress who really likes Milton and Carlyle. So the four years which Carol spent at Blodgett were not altogether wasted. The smallness of the school, the fewness of rivals, permitted her to experiment with her perilous versatility. She played tennis, gave chafing-dish parties, took a graduate seminar in the drama, went âtwosing,â and joined half a dozen societies for the practise of the arts or the tense stalking of a thing called General Culture.
In her class there were two or three prettier girls, but none more eager. She was noticeable equally in the classroom grind and at dances, though out of the three hundred students of Blodgett, scores recited more accurately and dozens Bostoned more smoothly. Every cell of her body was aliveâ âthin wrists, quince-blossom skin, ingenue eyes, black hair.
The other girls in her dormitory marveled at the slightness of her body when they saw her in sheer negligee, or darting out wet from a shower-bath. She seemed then but half as large as they had supposed; a fragile child who must be cloaked with understanding kindness. âPsychic,â the girls whispered, and âspiritual.â Yet so radioactive were her nerves, so adventurous her trust in rather vaguely conceived sweetness and light, that she was more energetic than any of the hulking young women who, with calves bulging in heavy-ribbed woolen stockings beneath decorous blue serge bloomers, thuddingly galloped across the floor of the gym in practise for the Blodgett Ladiesâ Basketball Team.
Even when she was tired her dark eyes were observant. She did not yet know the immense ability of the world to be casually cruel and proudly dull, but if she should ever learn those dismaying powers, her eyes would never become sullen or heavy or rheumily amorous.
For all her enthusiasms, for all the fondness and the âcrushesâ which she inspired, Carolâs acquaintances were shy of her. When she was most ardently singing hymns or planning deviltry she yet seemed gently aloof and critical. She was credulous, perhaps; a born hero-worshipper; yet she did question and examine unceasingly. Whatever she might become she would never be static.
Her versatility ensnared her. By turns she hoped to discover that she had an unusual voice, a talent for the piano, the ability to act, to write, to manage organizations. Always she was disappointed, but always she effervesced anewâ âover the Student Volunteers, who intended to become missionaries, over painting scenery for the dramatic club, over soliciting advertisements for the college magazine.
She was on the peak that Sunday afternoon when she played in chapel. Out of the dusk her violin took up the organ theme, and the candlelight revealed her in a straight golden frock, her arm arched to the bow, her lips serious. Every man fell in love then with religion and Carol.
Throughout senior year she anxiously related all her experiments and partial successes to a career. Daily, on the library steps or in the hall of the Main Building, the co-eds talked of âWhat shall we do when we finish college?â Even the girls who knew that they were going to be married pretended to be considering important business positions; even they who knew that they would have to work hinted about fabulous suitors. As for Carol, she was an orphan; her only near relative was a vanilla-flavored sister married to an optician in St. Paul. She had used most of the money from her fatherâs estate. She was not in loveâ âthat is, not often, nor ever long at a time. She would earn her living.
But how she was to earn it, how she was to conquer the worldâ âalmost entirely for the worldâs own goodâ âshe did not see. Most of the girls who were not betrothed meant to be teachers. Of these there were two sorts: careless young women who admitted that they intended to leave the âbeastly classroom and grubby childrenâ the minute they had a chance to marry; and studious, sometimes bulbous-browed and pop-eyed maidens who at class prayer-meetings requested God to âguide their feet along the paths of greatest usefulness.â Neither sort tempted Carol. The former seemed insincere (a favorite word of hers at this era). The earnest virgins were, she fancied, as likely to do harm as to do good by their faith in the value of parsing Caesar.
At various times during Senior year Carol finally decided upon studying law, writing motion-picture scenarios, professional nursing, and marrying an unidentified hero.
Then she found a hobby in sociology.
The sociology instructor was new. He was married, and therefore taboo, but he had come from Boston, he had lived among poets and socialists and Jews and millionaire uplifters at the University Settlement in New York, and he had a beautiful white strong neck. He led a giggling class through the prisons, the charity bureaus, the employment agencies of Minneapolis and St. Paul. Trailing at the end of the line Carol was indignant at the prodding curiosity of the others, their manner of staring at the poor as at a zoo. She felt herself a great liberator. She put her hand to her mouth, her forefinger and thumb quite painfully pinching her lower lip, and frowned, and enjoyed being aloof.
A classmate named Stewart Snyder, a competent bulky young man in a gray flannel shirt, a rusty black bow tie, and the green-and-purple class cap, grumbled to her as they walked behind the others in the muck of the South St. Paul stockyards, âThese college chumps make me tired. Theyâre so top-lofty. They ought to of worked on the farm, the way I have. These workmen put it all over them.â
âI just love common workmen,â glowed Carol.
âOnly you donât want to forget that common workmen donât think theyâre common!â
âYouâre right! I apologize!â Carolâs brows lifted in the astonishment of emotion, in a glory of abasement. Her eyes mothered the world. Stewart Snyder peered at her. He rammed his large red fists into his pockets, he jerked them out, he resolutely got rid of them by clenching his hands behind him, and he stammered:
âI know. You get people. Most of these darn co-edsâ âSay, Carol, you could do a lot for people.â
âHow?â
âOhâ âoh wellâ âyou knowâ âsympathy and everythingâ âif you wereâ âsay you were a lawyerâs wife. Youâd understand his clients. Iâm going to be a lawyer. I admit I fall down in sympathy sometimes. I get so dog-gone impatient with people that canât stand the gaff. Youâd be good for a fellow that was too serious. Make him moreâ âmoreâ âyou knowâ âsympathetic!â
His slightly pouting lips, his mastiff eyes, were begging her to beg him to go on. She fled from the steamroller of his sentiment. She cried, âOh, see those poor sheepâ âmillions and millions of them.â She darted on.
Stewart was not interesting. He hadnât a shapely white neck, and he had never lived among celebrated reformers. She wanted, just now, to have a cell in a settlement-house, like a nun without the bother of a black robe, and be kind, and read Bernard Shaw, and enormously improve a horde of grateful poor.
The supplementary reading in sociology led her to a book on village-improvementâ âtree-planting, town pageants, girlsâ clubs. It had pictures of greens and garden-walls in France, New England, Pennsylvania. She had picked it up carelessly, with a slight yawn which she patted down with her fingertips as delicately as a cat.
She dipped into the book, lounging on her window-seat, with her slim, lisle-stockinged legs crossed, and her knees up under her chin. She stroked a satin pillow while she read. About her was the clothy exuberance of a Blodgett College room: cretonne-covered window-seat, photographs of girls, a carbon print of the Coliseum, a chafing-dish, and a dozen pillows embroidered or beaded or pyrographed. Shockingly out of place was a miniature of the Dancing Bacchante. It was the only trace of Carol in the room. She had inherited the rest from generations of girl students.
It was as a part of all this commonplaceness that she regarded the treatise on village-improvement. But she suddenly stopped fidgeting. She strode into the book. She had fled halfway through it before the three oâclock bell called her to the class in English history.
She sighed, âThatâs what Iâll do after college! Iâll get my hands on one of these prairie towns and make it beautiful. Be an inspiration. I suppose Iâd better become a teacher then, butâ âI wonât be that kind of a teacher. I wonât drone. Why should they have all the garden suburbs on Long Island? Nobody has done anything with the ugly towns here in the Northwest except hold revivals and build libraries to contain the Elsie books. Iâll make âem put in a village green, and darling cottages, and a quaint Main Street!â
Thus she triumphed through the class, which was a typical Blodgett contest between a dreary teacher and unwilling children of twenty, won by the teacher because his opponents had to answer his questions, while their treacherous queries he could counter by demanding, âHave you looked that up in the library? Well then, suppose you do!â
The history instructor was a retired minister. He was sarcastic today. He begged of sporting young Mr. Charley Holmberg, âNow Charles, would it interrupt your undoubtedly fascinating pursuit of that malevolent fly if I were to ask you to tell us that you do not know anything about King John?â He spent three delightful minutes in assuring himself of the fact that no one exactly remembered the date of Magna Charta.
Carol did not hear him. She was completing the roof of a half-timbered town hall. She had found one man in the prairie village who did not appreciate her picture of winding streets and arcades, but she had assembled the town council and dramatically defeated him.
III
Though she was Minnesota-born Carol was not an intimate of the prairie villages. Her father, the smiling and shabby, the learned and teasingly kind, had come from Massachusetts, and through all her childhood he had been a judge in Mankato, which is not a prairie town, but in its garden-sheltered streets and aisles of elms is white and green New England reborn. Mankato lies between cliffs and the Minnesota River, hard by Traverse des Sioux, where the first settlers made treaties with the Indians, and the cattle-rustlers once came galloping before hell-for-leather posses.
As she climbed along the banks of the dark river Carol listened to its fables about the wide land of yellow waters and bleached buffalo bones to the West; the Southern levees and singing darkies and palm trees toward which it was forever mysteriously gliding; and she heard again the startled bells and thick puffing of high-stacked river steamers wrecked on sand-reefs sixty years ago. Along the decks she saw missionaries, gamblers in tall pot hats, and Dakota chiefs with scarlet blankets.â ââ ⌠Far off whistles at night, round the river bend, plunking paddles reechoed by the pines, and a glow on black sliding waters.
Carolâs family were self-sufficient in their inventive life, with Christmas a rite full of surprises and tenderness, and âdressing-up partiesâ spontaneous and joyously absurd. The beasts in the Milford hearth-mythology were not the obscene Night Animals who jump out of closets and eat little girls, but beneficent and bright-eyed creaturesâ âthe tam htab, who is woolly and blue and lives in the bathroom, and runs rapidly to warm small feet; the ferruginous oil stove, who purrs and knows stories; and the skitamarigg, who will play with children before breakfast if they spring out of bed and close the window at the very first line of the song about puellas which father sings while shaving.
Judge Milfordâs pedagogical scheme was to let the children read whatever they pleased, and in his brown library Carol absorbed Balzac and Rabelais and Thoreau and Max MĂźller. He gravely taught them the letters on the backs of the encyclopedias, and when polite visitors asked about the mental progress of the âlittle ones,â they were horrified to hear the children earnestly repeating A-And, And-Aus, Aus-Bis, Bis-Cal, Cal-Cha.
Carolâs mother died when she was nine. Her father retired from the judiciary when she was eleven, and took the family to Minneapolis. There he died, two years after. Her sister, a busy proper advisory soul, older than herself, had become a stranger to her even when they lived in the same house.
From those early brown and silver days and from her independence of relatives Carol retained a willingness to be different from brisk efficient book-ignoring people; an instinct to observe and wonder at their bustle even when she was taking part in it. But, she felt approvingly, as she discovered her career of town-planning, she was now roused to being brisk and efficient herself.
IV
In a month Carolâs ambition had clouded. Her hesitancy about becoming a teacher had returned. She was not, she worried, strong enough to endure the routine, and she could not picture herself standing before grinning children and pretending to be wise and decisive. But the desire for the creation of a beautiful town remained. When she encountered an item about small-town womenâs clubs or a photograph of a straggling Main Street, she was homesick for it, she felt robbed of her work.
It was the advice of the professor of English which led her to study professional library-work in a Chicago school. Her imagination carved and colored the new plan. She saw herself persuading children to read charming fairy tales, helping young men to find books on mechanics, being ever so courteous to old men who were hunting for newspapersâ âthe light of the library, an authority on books, invited to dinners with poets and explorers, reading a paper to an association of distinguished scholars.
V
The last faculty reception before commencement. In five days they would be in the cyclone of final examinations.
The house of the president had been massed with palms suggestive of polite undertaking parlors, and in the library, a ten-foot room with a globe and the portraits of Whittier and Martha Washington, the student orchestra was playing âCarmenâ and âMadame Butterfly.â Carol was dizzy with music and the emotions of parting. She saw the palms as a jungle, the pink-shaded electric globes as an opaline haze, and the eye-glassed faculty as Olympians. She was melancholy at sight of the mousey girls with whom she had âalways intended to get acquainted,â and the half dozen young men who were ready to fall in love with her.
But it was Stewart Snyder whom she encouraged. He was so much manlier than the others; he was an even warm brown, like his new ready-made suit with its padded shoulders. She sat with him, and with two cups of coffee and a chicken patty, upon a pile of presidential overshoes in the coat-closet under the stairs, and as the thin music seeped in, Stewart whispered:
âI canât stand it, this breaking up after four years! The happiest years of life.â
She believed it. âOh, I know! To think that in just a few days weâll be parting, and weâll never see some of the bunch again!â
âCarol, you got to listen to me! You always duck when I try to talk seriously to you, but you got to listen to me. Iâm going to be a big lawyer, maybe a judge, and I need you, and Iâd protect youâ ââ
His arm slid behind her shoulders. The insinuating music drained her independence. She said mournfully, âWould you take care of me?â She touched his hand. It was warm, solid.
âYou bet I would! Weâd have, Lord, weâd have bully times in Yankton, where Iâm going to settleâ ââ
âBut I want to do something with life.â
âWhatâs better than making a comfy home and bringing up some cute kids and knowing nice homey people?â
It was the immemorial male reply to the restless woman. Thus to the young Sappho spake the melon-venders; thus the captains to Zenobia; and in the damp cave over gnawed bones the hairy suitor thus protested to the woman advocate of matriarchy. In the dialect of Blodgett College but with the voice of Sappho was Carolâs answer:
âOf course. I know. I suppose thatâs so. Honestly, I do love children. But thereâs lots of women that can do housework, but Iâ âwell, if you have got a college education, you ought to use it for the world.â
âI know, but you can use it just as well in the home. And gee, Carol, just think of a bunch of us going out on an auto picnic, some nice spring evening.â
âYes.â
âAnd sleigh-riding in winter, and going fishingâ ââ
Blarrrrrrr! The orchestra had crashed into the âSoldiersâ Chorusâ; and she was protesting, âNo! No! Youâre a dear, but I want to do things. I donât understand myself but I wantâ âeverything in the world! Maybe I canât sing or write, but I know I can be an influence in library work. Just suppose I encouraged some boy and he became a great artist! I will! I will do it! Stewart dear, I canât settle down to nothing but dish-washing!â
Two minutes laterâ âtwo hectic minutesâ âthey were disturbed by an embarrassed couple also seeking the idyllic seclusion of the overshoe-closet.
After graduation she never saw Stewart Snyder again. She wrote to him once a weekâ âfor one month.
VI
A year Carol spent in Chicago. Her study of library-cataloguing, recording, books of reference, was easy and not too somniferous. She reveled in the Art Institute, in symphonies and violin recitals and chamber music, in the theater and classic dancing. She almost gave up library work to become one of the young women who dance in cheesecloth in the moonlight. She was taken to a certified Studio Party, with beer, cigarettes, bobbed hair, and a Russian Jewess who sang the âInternationale.â It cannot be reported that Carol had anything significant to say to the Bohemians. She was awkward with them, and felt ignorant, and she was shocked by the free manners which she had for years desired. But she heard and remembered discussions of Freud, Romain Rolland, syndicalism, the ConfĂŠdĂŠration GĂŠnĂŠrale du Travail, feminism vs. haremism, Chinese lyrics, nationalization of mines, Christian Science, and fishing in Ontario.
She went home, and that was the beginning and end of her Bohemian life.
The second cousin of Carolâs sisterâs husband lived in Winnetka, and once invited her out to Sunday dinner. She walked back through Wilmette and Evanston, discovered new forms of suburban architecture, and remembered her desire to recreate villages. She decided that she would give up library work and, by a miracle whose nature was not very clearly revealed to her, turn a prairie town into Georgian houses and Japanese bungalows.
The next day in library class she had to read a theme on the use of the Cumulative Index, and she was taken so seriously in the discussion that she put off her career of town-planningâ âand in the autumn she was in the public library of St. Paul.
VII
Carol was not unhappy and she was not exhilarated, in the St. Paul Library. She slowly confessed that she was not visibly affecting lives. She did, at first, put into her contact with the patrons a willingness which should have moved worlds. But so few of these stolid worlds wanted to be moved. When she was in charge of the magazine room the readers did not ask for suggestions about elevated essays. They grunted, âWanta find the Leather Goods Gazette for last February.â When she was giving out books the principal query was, âCan you tell me of a good, light, exciting love story to read? My husbandâs going away for a week.â
She was fond of the other librarians; proud of their aspirations. And by the chance of propinquity she read scores of books unnatural to her gay white littleness: volumes of anthropology with ditches of footnotes filled with heaps of small dusty type, Parisian imagistes, Hindu recipes for curry, voyages to the Solomon Isles, theosophy with modern American improvements, treatises upon success in the real-estate business. She took walks, and was sensible about shoes and diet. And never did she feel that she was living.
She went to dances and suppers at the houses of college acquaintances. Sometimes she one-stepped demurely; sometimes, in dread of lifeâs slipping past, she turned into a bacchanal, her tender eyes excited, her throat tense, as she slid down the room.
During her three years of library work several men showed diligent interest in herâ âthe treasurer of a fur-manufacturing firm, a teacher, a newspaper reporter, and a petty railroad official. None of them made her more than pause in thought. For months no male emerged from the mass. Then, at the Marburysâ, she met Dr. Will Kennicott.
II
I
It was a frail and blue and lonely Carol who trotted to the flat of the Johnson Marburys for Sunday evening supper. Mrs. Marbury was a neighbor and friend of Carolâs sister; Mr. Marbury a traveling representative of an insurance company. They made a specialty of sandwich-salad-coffee lap suppers, and they regarded Carol as their literary and artistic representative. She was the one who could be depended upon to appreciate the Caruso phonograph record, and the Chinese lantern which Mr. Marbury had brought back as his present from San Francisco. Carol found the Marburys admiring and therefore admirable.
This September Sunday evening she wore a net frock with a pale pink lining. A nap had soothed away the faint lines of tiredness beside her eyes. She was young, naive, stimulated by the coolness. She flung her coat at the chair in the hall of the flat, and exploded into the green-plush living-room. The familiar group were trying to be conversational. She saw Mr. Marbury, a woman teacher of gymnastics in a high school, a chief clerk from the Great Northern Railway offices, a young lawyer. But there was also a stranger, a thick tall man of thirty-six or -seven, with stolid brown hair, lips used to giving orders, eyes which followed everything good-naturedly, and clothes which you could never quite remember.
Mr. Marbury boomed, âCarol, come over here and meet Doc Kennicottâ âDr. Will Kennicott of Gopher Prairie. He does all our insurance-examining up in that neck of the woods, and they do say heâs some doctor!â
As she edged toward the stranger and murmured nothing in particular, Carol remembered that Gopher Prairie was a Minnesota wheat-prairie town of something over three thousand people.
âPleased to meet you,â stated Dr. Kennicott. His hand was strong; the palm soft, but the back weathered, showing golden hairs against firm red skin.
He looked at her as though she was an agreeable discovery. She tugged her hand free and fluttered, âI must go out to the kitchen and help Mrs. Marbury.â She did not speak to him again till, after she had heated the rolls and passed the paper napkins, Mr. Marbury captured her with a loud, âOh, quit fussing now. Come over here and sit down and tell us howâs tricks.â He herded her to a sofa with Dr. Kennicott, who was rather vague about the eyes, rather drooping of bulky shoulder, as though he was wondering what he was expected to do next. As their host left them, Kennicott awoke:
âMarbury tells me youâre a high mogul in the public library. I was surprised. Didnât hardly think you were old enough. I thought you were a girl, still in college maybe.â
âOh, Iâm dreadfully old. I expect to take to a lipstick, and to find a gray hair any morning now.â
âHuh! You must be frightfully oldâ âprobâly too old to be my granddaughter, I guess!â
Thus in the Vale of Arcady nymph and satyr beguiled the hours; precisely thus, and not in honeyed pentameters, discoursed Elaine and the worn Sir Launcelot in the pleached alley.
âHow do you like your work?â asked the doctor.
âItâs pleasant, but sometimes I feel shut off from thingsâ âthe steel stacks, and the everlasting cards smeared all over with red rubber stamps.â
âDonât you get sick of the city?â
âSt. Paul? Why, donât you like it? I donât know of any lovelier view than when you stand on Summit Avenue and look across Lower Town to the Mississippi cliffs and the upland farms beyond.â
âI know butâ âOf course Iâve spent nine years around the Twin Citiesâ âtook my B.A. and M.D. over at the U., and had my internship in a hospital in Minneapolis, but still, oh well, you donât get to know folks here, way you do up home. I feel Iâve got something to say about running Gopher Prairie, but you take it in a big city of two-three hundred thousand, and Iâm just one flea on the dogâs back. And then I like country driving, and the hunting in the fall. Do you know Gopher Prairie at all?â
âNo, but I hear itâs a very nice town.â
âNice? Say honestlyâ âOf course I may be prejudiced, but Iâve seen an awful lot of townsâ âone time I went to Atlantic City for the American Medical Association meeting, and I spent practically a week in New York! But I never saw a town that had such up-and-coming people as Gopher Prairie. Bresnahanâ âyou knowâ âthe famous auto manufacturerâ âhe comes from Gopher Prairie. Born and brought up there! And itâs a darn pretty town. Lots of fine maples and box-elders, and thereâs two of the dandiest lakes you ever saw, right near town! And weâve got seven miles of cement walks already, and building more every day! Course a lot of these towns still put up with plank walks, but not for us, you bet!â
âReally?â
(Why was she thinking of Stewart Snyder?)
âGopher Prairie is going to have a great future. Some of the best dairy and wheat land in the state right near thereâ âsome of it selling right now at one-fifty an acre, and I bet it will go up to two and a quarter in ten years!â
âIsâ âDo you like your profession?â
âNothing like it. Keeps you out, and yet you have a chance to loaf in the office for a change.â
âI donât mean that way. I meanâ âitâs such an opportunity for sympathy.â
Dr. Kennicott launched into a heavy, âOh, these Dutch farmers donât want sympathy. All they need is a bath and a good dose of salts.â
Carol must have flinched, for instantly he was urging, âWhat I mean isâ âI donât want you to think Iâm one of these old salts-and-quinine peddlers, but I mean: so many of my patients are husky farmers that I suppose I get kind of case-hardened.â
âIt seems to me that a doctor could transform a whole community, if he wanted toâ âif he saw it. Heâs usually the only man in the neighborhood who has any scientific training, isnât he?â
âYes, thatâs so, but I guess most of us get rusty. We land in a rut of obstetrics and typhoid and busted legs. What we need is women like you to jump on us. Itâd be you that would transform the town.â
âNo, I couldnât. Too flighty. I did used to think about doing just that, curiously enough, but I seem to have drifted away from the idea. Oh, Iâm a fine one to be lecturing you!â
âNo! Youâre just the one. You have ideas without having lost feminine charm. Say! Donât you think thereâs a lot of these women that go out for all these movements and so on that sacrificeâ ââ
After his remarks upon suffrage he abruptly questioned her about herself. His kindliness and the firmness of his personality enveloped her and she accepted him as one who had a right to know what she thought and wore and ate and read. He was positive. He had grown from a sketched-in stranger to a friend, whose gossip was important news. She noticed the healthy solidity of his chest. His nose, which had seemed irregular and large, was suddenly virile.
She was jarred out of this serious sweetness when Marbury bounced over to them and with horrible publicity yammered, âSay, what do you two think youâre doing? Telling fortunes or making love? Let me warn you that the doc is a frisky bacheldore, Carol. Come on now, folks, shake a leg. Letâs have some stunts or a dance or something.â
She did not have another word with Dr. Kennicott until their parting:
âBeen a great pleasure to meet you, Miss Milford. May I see you some time when I come down again? Iâm here quite oftenâ âtaking patients to hospitals for majors, and so on.â
âWhyâ ââ
âWhatâs your address?â
âYou can ask Mr. Marbury next time you come downâ âif you really want to know!â
âWant to know? Say, you wait!â
II
Of the lovemaking of Carol and Will Kennicott there is nothing to be told which may not be heard on every summer evening, on every shadowy block.
They were biology and mystery; their speech was slang phrases and flares of poetry; their silences were contentment, or shaky crises when his arm took her shoulder. All the beauty of youth, first discovered when it is passingâ âand all the commonplaceness of a well-to-do unmarried man encountering a pretty girl at the time when she is slightly weary of her employment and sees no glory ahead nor any man she is glad to serve.
They liked each other honestlyâ âthey were both honest. She was disappointed by his devotion to making money, but she was sure that he did not lie to patients, and that he did keep up with the medical magazines. What aroused her to something more than liking was his boyishness when they went tramping.
They walked from St. Paul down the river to Mendota, Kennicott more elastic-seeming in a cap and a soft crepe shirt, Carol youthful in a tam-oâ-shanter of mole velvet, a blue serge suit with an absurdly and agreeably broad turndown linen collar, and frivolous ankles above athletic shoes. The High Bridge crosses the Mississippi, mounting from low banks to a palisade of cliffs. Far down beneath it on the St. Paul side, upon mud flats, is a wild settlement of chicken-infested gardens and shanties patched together from discarded signboards, sheets of corrugated iron, and planks fished out of the river. Carol leaned over the rail of the bridge to look down at this Yang-tse village; in delicious imaginary fear she shrieked that she was dizzy with the height; and it was an extremely human satisfaction to have a strong male snatch her back to safety, instead of having a logical woman teacher or librarian sniff, âWell, if youâre scared, why donât you get away from the rail, then?â
From the cliffs across the river Carol and Kennicott looked back at St. Paul on its hills; an imperial sweep from the dome of the cathedral to the dome of the state capitol.
The river road led past rocky field slopes, deep glens, woods flamboyant now with September, to Mendota, white walls and a spire among trees beneath a hill, old-world in its placid ease. And for this fresh land, the place is ancient. Here is the bold stone house which General Sibley, the king of fur-traders, built in 1835, with plaster of river mud, and ropes of twisted grass for laths. It has an air of centuries. In its solid rooms Carol and Kennicott found prints from other days which the house had seenâ âtailcoats of robinâs-egg blue, clumsy Red River carts laden with luxurious furs, whiskered Union soldiers in slant forage caps and rattling sabers.
It suggested to them a common American past, and it was memorable because they had discovered it together. They talked more trustingly, more personally, as they trudged on. They crossed the Minnesota River in a rowboat ferry. They climbed the hill to the round stone tower of Fort Snelling. They saw the junction of the Mississippi and the Minnesota, and recalled the men who had come here eighty years agoâ âMaine lumbermen, York traders, soldiers from the Maryland hills.
âItâs a good country, and Iâm proud of it. Letâs make it all that those old boys dreamed about,â the unsentimental Kennicott was moved to vow.
âLetâs!â
âCome on. Come to Gopher Prairie. Show us. Make the townâ âwellâ âmake it artistic. Itâs mighty pretty, but Iâll admit we arenât any too darn artistic. Probably the lumberyard isnât as scrumptious as all these Greek temples. But go to it! Make us change!â
âI would like to. Some day!â
âNow! Youâd love Gopher Prairie. Weâve been doing a lot with lawns and gardening the past few years, and itâs so homeyâ âthe big trees andâ âAnd the best people on earth. And keen. I bet Luke Dawsonâ ââ
Carol but half listened to the names. She could not fancy their ever becoming important to her.
âI bet Luke Dawson has got more money than most of the swells on Summit Avenue; and Miss Sherwin in the high school is a regular wonderâ âreads Latin like I do English; and Sam Clark, the hardware man, heâs a corkerâ ânot a better man in the state to go hunting with; and if you want culture, besides Vida Sherwin thereâs Reverend Warren, the Congregational preacher, and Professor Mott, the superintendent of schools, and Guy Pollock, the lawyerâ âthey say he writes regular poetry andâ âand Raymie Wutherspoon, heâs not such an awful boob when you get to know him, and he sings swell. Andâ âAnd thereâs plenty of others. Lym Cass. Only of course none of them have your finesse, you might call it. But they donât make âem any more appreciative and so on. Come on! Weâre ready for you to boss us!â
They sat on the bank below the parapet of the old fort, hidden from observation. He circled her shoulder with his arm. Relaxed after the walk, a chill nipping her throat, conscious of his warmth and power, she leaned gratefully against him.
âYou know Iâm in love with you, Carol!â
She did not answer, but she touched the back of his hand with an exploring finger.
âYou say Iâm so darn materialistic. How can I help it, unless I have you to stir me up?â
She did not answer. She could not think.
âYou say a doctor could cure a town the way he does a person. Well, you cure the town of whatever ails it, if anything does, and Iâll be your surgical kit.â
She did not follow his words, only the burring resoluteness of them.
She was shocked, thrilled, as he kissed her cheek and cried, âThereâs no use saying things and saying things and saying things. Donât my arms talk to youâ ânow?â
âOh, please, please!â She wondered if she ought to be angry, but it was a drifting thought, and she discovered that she was crying.
Then they were sitting six inches apart, pretending that they had never been nearer, while she tried to be impersonal:
âI would like toâ âwould like to see Gopher Prairie.â
âTrust me! Here she is! Brought some snapshots down to show you.â
Her cheek near his sleeve, she studied a dozen village pictures. They were streaky; she saw only trees, shrubbery, a porch indistinct in leafy shadows. But she exclaimed over the lakes: dark water reflecting wooded bluffs, a flight of ducks, a fisherman in shirt sleeves and a wide straw hat, holding up a string of croppies. One winter picture of the edge of Plover Lake had the air of an etching: lustrous slide of ice, snow in the crevices of a boggy bank, the mound of a muskrat house, reeds in thin black lines, arches of frosty grasses. It was an impression of cool clear vigor.
âHowâd it be to skate there for a couple of hours, or go zinging along on a fast iceboat, and skip back home for coffee and some hot wienies?â he demanded.
âIt might beâ âfun.â
âBut hereâs the picture. Hereâs where you come in.â
A photograph of a forest clearing: pathetic new furrows straggling among stumps, a clumsy log cabin chinked with mud and roofed with hay. In front of it a sagging woman with tight-drawn hair, and a baby bedraggled, smeary, glorious-eyed.
âThose are the kind of folks I practise among, good share of the time. Nels Erdstrom, fine clean young Svenska. Heâll have a corking farm in ten years, but nowâ âI operated his wife on a kitchen table, with my driver giving the anesthetic. Look at that scared baby! Needs some woman with hands like yours. Waiting for you! Just look at that babyâs eyes, look how heâs beggingâ ââ
âDonât! They hurt me. Oh, it would be sweet to help himâ âso sweet.â
As his arms moved toward her she answered all her doubts with âSweet, so sweet.â
III
I
Under the rolling clouds of the prairie a moving mass of steel. An irritable clank and rattle beneath a prolonged roar. The sharp scent of oranges cutting the soggy smell of unbathed people and ancient baggage.
Towns as planless as a scattering of pasteboard boxes on an attic floor. The stretch of faded gold stubble broken only by clumps of willows encircling white houses and red barns.
No. 7, the way train, grumbling through Minnesota, imperceptibly climbing the giant tableland that slopes in a thousand-mile rise from hot Mississippi bottoms to the Rockies.
It is September, hot, very dusty.
There is no smug Pullman attached to the train, and the day coaches of the East are replaced by free chair cars, with each seat cut into two adjustable plush chairs, the headrests covered with doubtful linen towels. Halfway down the car is a semi-partition of carved oak columns, but the aisle is of bare, splintery, grease-blackened wood. There is no porter, no pillows, no provision for beds, but all today and all tonight they will ride in this long steel box-farmers with perpetually tired wives and children who seem all to be of the same age; workmen going to new jobs; traveling salesmen with derbies and freshly shined shoes.
They are parched and cramped, the lines of their hands filled with grime; they go to sleep curled in distorted attitudes, heads against the windowpanes or propped on rolled coats on seat-arms, and legs thrust into the aisle. They do not read; apparently they do not think. They wait. An early-wrinkled, young-old mother, moving as though her joints were dry, opens a suitcase in which are seen creased blouses, a pair of slippers worn through at the toes, a bottle of patent medicine, a tin cup, a paper-covered book about dreams which the news-butcher has coaxed her into buying. She brings out a graham cracker which she feeds to a baby lying flat on a seat and wailing hopelessly. Most of the crumbs drop on the red plush of the seat, and the woman sighs and tries to brush them away, but they leap up impishly and fall back on the plush.
A soiled man and woman munch sandwiches and throw the crusts on the floor. A large brick-colored Norwegian takes off his shoes, grunts in relief, and props his feet in their thick gray socks against the seat in front of him.
An old woman whose toothless mouth shuts like a mud-turtleâs, and whose hair is not so much white as yellow like moldy linen, with bands of pink skull apparent between the tresses, anxiously lifts her bag, opens it, peers in, closes it, puts it under the seat, and hastily picks it up and opens it and hides it all over again. The bag is full of treasures and of memories: a leather buckle, an ancient band-concert program, scraps of ribbon, lace, satin. In the aisle beside her is an extremely indignant parrakeet in a cage.
Two facing seats, overflowing with a Slovene iron-minerâs family, are littered with shoes, dolls, whisky bottles, bundles wrapped in newspapers, a sewing bag. The oldest boy takes a mouth-organ out of his coat pocket, wipes the tobacco crumbs off, and plays âMarching through Georgiaâ till every head in the car begins to ache.
The news-butcher comes through selling chocolate bars and lemon drops. A girl-child ceaselessly trots down to the water-cooler and back to her seat. The stiff paper envelope which she uses for cup drips in the aisle as she goes, and on each trip she stumbles over the feet of a carpenter, who grunts, âOuch! Look out!â
The dust-caked doors are open, and from the smoking-car drifts back a visible blue line of stinging tobacco smoke, and with it a crackle of laughter over the story which the young man in the bright blue suit and lavender tie and light yellow shoes has just told to the squat man in garage overalls.
The smell grows constantly thicker, more stale.
II
To each of the passengers his seat was his temporary home, and most of the passengers were slatternly housekeepers. But one seat looked clean and deceptively cool. In it were an obviously prosperous man and a black-haired, fine-skinned girl whose pumps rested on an immaculate horsehide bag.
They were Dr. Will Kennicott and his bride, Carol.
They had been married at the end of a year of conversational courtship, and they were on their way to Gopher Prairie after a wedding journey in the Colorado mountains.
The hordes of the way-train were not altogether new to Carol. She had seen them on trips from St. Paul to Chicago. But now that they had become her own people, to bathe and encourage and adorn, she had an acute and uncomfortable interest in them. They distressed her. They were so stolid. She had always maintained that there is no American peasantry, and she sought now to defend her faith by seeing imagination and enterprise in the young Swedish farmers, and in a traveling man working over his order-blanks. But the older people, Yankees as well as Norwegians, Germans, Finns, Canucks, had settled into submission to poverty. They were peasants, she groaned.
âIsnât there any way of waking them up? What would happen if they understood scientific agriculture?â she begged of Kennicott, her hand groping for his.
It had been a transforming honeymoon. She had been frightened to discover how tumultuous a feeling could be roused in her. Will had been lordlyâ âstalwart, jolly, impressively competent in making camp, tender and understanding through the hours when they had lain side by side in a tent pitched among pines high up on a lonely mountain spur.
His hand swallowed hers as he started from thoughts of the practise to which he was returning. âThese people? Wake âem up? What for? Theyâre happy.â
âBut theyâre so provincial. No, that isnât what I mean. Theyâreâ âoh, so sunk in the mud.â
âLook here, Carrie. You want to get over your city idea that because a manâs pants arenât pressed, heâs a fool. These farmers are mighty keen and up-and-coming.â
âI know! Thatâs what hurts. Life seems so hard for themâ âthese lonely farms and this gritty train.â
âOh, they donât mind it. Besides, things are changing. The auto, the telephone, rural free delivery; theyâre bringing the farmers in closer touch with the town. Takes time, you know, to change a wilderness like this was fifty years ago. But already, why, they can hop into the Ford or the Overland and get in to the movies on Saturday evening quicker than you could get down to âem by trolley in St. Paul.â
âBut if itâs these towns weâve been passing that the farmers run to for relief from their bleaknessâ âCanât you understand? Just look at them!â
Kennicott was amazed. Ever since childhood he had seen these towns from trains on this same line. He grumbled, âWhy, whatâs the matter with âem? Good hustling burgs. It would astonish you to know how much wheat and rye and corn and potatoes they ship in a year.â
âBut theyâre so ugly.â
âIâll admit they arenât comfy like Gopher Prairie. But give âem time.â
âWhatâs the use of giving them time unless someone has desire and training enough to plan them? Hundreds of factories trying to make attractive motor cars, but these townsâ âleft to chance. No! That canât be true. It must have taken genius to make them so scrawny!â
âOh, theyâre not so bad,â was all he answered. He pretended that his hand was the cat and hers the mouse. For the first time she tolerated him rather than encouraged him. She was staring out at Schoenstrom, a hamlet of perhaps a hundred and fifty inhabitants, at which the train was stopping.
A bearded German and his pucker-mouthed wife tugged their enormous imitation-leather satchel from under a seat and waddled out. The station agent hoisted a dead calf aboard the baggage-car. There were no other visible activities in Schoenstrom. In the quiet of the halt, Carol could hear a horse kicking his stall, a carpenter shingling a roof.
The business-center of Schoenstrom took up one side of one block, facing the railroad. It was a row of one-story shops covered with galvanized iron, or with clapboards painted red and bilious yellow. The buildings were as ill-assorted, as temporary-looking, as a mining-camp street in the motion-pictures. The railroad station was a one-room frame box, a mirey cattle-pen on one side and a crimson wheat-elevator on the other. The elevator, with its cupola on the ridge of a shingled roof, resembled a broad-shouldered man with a small, vicious, pointed head. The only habitable structures to be seen were the florid redbrick Catholic church and rectory at the end of Main Street.
Carol picked at Kennicottâs sleeve. âYou wouldnât call this a not-so-bad town, would you?â
âThese Dutch burgs are kind of slow. Still, at thatâ âSee that fellow coming out of the general store there, getting into the big car? I met him once. He owns about half the town, besides the store. Rauskukle, his name is. He owns a lot of mortgages, and he gambles in farmlands. Good nut on him, that fellow. Why, they say heâs worth three or four hundred thousand dollars! Got a dandy great big yellow brick house with tiled walks and a garden and everything, other end of townâ âcanât see it from hereâ âIâve gone past it when Iâve driven through here. Yes sir!â
âThen, if he has all that, thereâs no excuse whatever for this place! If his three hundred thousand went back into the town, where it belongs, they could burn up these shacks, and build a dream-village, a jewel! Why do the farmers and the town-people let the Baron keep it?â
âI must say I donât quite get you sometimes, Carrie. Let him? They canât help themselves! Heâs a dumm old Dutchman, and probably the priest can twist him around his finger, but when it comes to picking good farming land, heâs a regular wiz!â
âI see. Heâs their symbol of beauty. The town erects him, instead of erecting buildings.â
âHonestly, donât know what youâre driving at. Youâre kind of played out, after this long trip. Youâll feel better when you get home and have a good bath, and put on the blue negligee. Thatâs some vampire costume, you witch!â
He squeezed her arm, looked at her knowingly.
They moved on from the desert stillness of the Schoenstrom station. The train creaked, banged, swayed. The air was nauseatingly thick. Kennicott turned her face from the window, rested her head on his shoulder. She was coaxed from her unhappy mood. But she came out of it unwillingly, and when Kennicott was satisfied that he had corrected all her worries and had opened a magazine of saffron detective stories, she sat upright.
Hereâ âshe meditatedâ âis the newest empire of the world; the Northern Middlewest; a land of dairy herds and exquisite lakes, of new automobiles and tar-paper shanties and silos like red towers, of clumsy speech and a hope that is boundless. An empire which feeds a quarter of the worldâ âyet its work is merely begun. They are pioneers, these sweaty wayfarers, for all their telephones and bank-accounts and automatic pianos and cooperative leagues. And for all its fat richness, theirs is a pioneer land. What is its future? she wondered. A future of cities and factory smut where now are loping empty fields? Homes universal and secure? Or placid châteaux ringed with sullen huts? Youth free to find knowledge and laughter? Willingness to sift the sanctified lies? Or creamy-skinned fat women, smeared with grease and chalk, gorgeous in the skins of beasts and the bloody feathers of slain birds, playing bridge with puffy pink-nailed jeweled fingers, women who after much expenditure of labor and bad temper still grotesquely resemble their own flatulent lapdogs? The ancient stale inequalities, or something different in history, unlike the tedious maturity of other empires? What future and what hope?
Carolâs head ached with the riddle.
She saw the prairie, flat in giant patches or rolling in long hummocks. The width and bigness of it, which had expanded her spirit an hour ago, began to frighten her. It spread out so; it went on so uncontrollably; she could never know it. Kennicott was closeted in his detective story. With the loneliness which comes most depressingly in the midst of many people she tried to forget problems, to look at the prairie objectively.
The grass beside the railroad had been burnt over; it was a smudge prickly with charred stalks of weeds. Beyond the undeviating barbed-wire fences were clumps of goldenrod. Only this thin hedge shut them off from the plainsâ âshorn wheat-lands of autumn, a hundred acres to a field, prickly and gray nearby but in the blurred distance like tawny velvet stretched over dipping hillocks. The long rows of wheat-shocks marched like soldiers in worn yellow tabards. The newly plowed fields were black banners fallen on the distant slope. It was a martial immensity, vigorous, a little harsh, unsoftened by kindly gardens.
The expanse was relieved by clumps of oaks with patches of short wild grass; and every mile or two was a chain of cobalt slews, with the flicker of blackbirdsâ wings across them.
All this working land was turned into exuberance by the light. The sunshine was dizzy on open stubble; shadows from immense cumulus clouds were forever sliding across low mounds; and the sky was wider and loftier and more resolutely blue than the sky of citiesâ ââ ⌠she declared.
âItâs a glorious country; a land to be big in,â she crooned.
Then Kennicott startled her by chuckling, âDâ you realize the town after the next is Gopher Prairie? Home!â
III
That one wordâ âhomeâ âit terrified her. Had she really bound herself to live, inescapably, in this town called Gopher Prairie? And this thick man beside her, who dared to define her future, he was a stranger! She turned in her seat, stared at him. Who was he? Why was he sitting with her? He wasnât of her kind! His neck was heavy; his speech was heavy; he was twelve or thirteen years older than she; and about him was none of the magic of shared adventures and eagerness. She could not believe that she had ever slept in his arms. That was one of the dreams which you had but did not officially admit.
She told herself how good he was, how dependable and understanding. She touched his ear, smoothed the plane of his solid jaw, and, turning away again, concentrated upon liking his town. It wouldnât be like these barren settlements. It couldnât be! Why, it had three thousand population. That was a great many people. There would be six hundred houses or more. Andâ âThe lakes near it would be so lovely. Sheâd seen them in the photographs. They had looked charmingâ ââ ⌠hadnât they?
As the train left Wahkeenyan she began nervously to watch for the lakesâ âthe entrance to all her future life. But when she discovered them, to the left of the track, her only impression of them was that they resembled the photographs.
A mile from Gopher Prairie the track mounts a curving low ridge, and she could see the town as a whole. With a passionate jerk she pushed up the window, looked out, the arched fingers of her left hand trembling on the sill, her right hand at her breast.
And she saw that Gopher Prairie was merely an enlargement of all the hamlets which they had been passing. Only to the eyes of a Kennicott was it exceptional. The huddled low wooden houses broke the plains scarcely more than would a hazel thicket. The fields swept up to it, past it. It was unprotected and unprotecting; there was no dignity in it nor any hope of greatness. Only the tall red grain-elevator and a few tinny church-steeples rose from the mass. It was a frontier camp. It was not a place to live in, not possibly, not conceivably.
The peopleâ âtheyâd be as drab as their houses, as flat as their fields. She couldnât stay here. She would have to wrench loose from this man, and flee.
She peeped at him. She was at once helpless before his mature fixity, and touched by his excitement as he sent his magazine skittering along the aisle, stooped for their bags, came up with flushed face, and gloated, âHere we are!â
She smiled loyally, and looked away. The train was entering town. The houses on the outskirts were dusky old red mansions with wooden frills, or gaunt frame shelters like grocery boxes, or new bungalows with concrete foundations imitating stone.
Now the train was passing the elevator, the grim storage-tanks for oil, a creamery, a lumberyard, a stockyard muddy and trampled and stinking. Now they were stopping at a squat red frame station, the platform crowded with unshaven farmers and with loafersâ âunadventurous people with dead eyes. She was here. She could not go on. It was the endâ âthe end of the world. She sat with closed eyes, longing to push past Kennicott, hide somewhere in the train, flee on toward the Pacific.
Something large arose in her soul and commanded, âStop it! Stop being a whining baby!â She stood up quickly; she said, âIsnât it wonderful to be here at last!â
He trusted her so. She would make herself like the place. And she was going to do tremendous thingsâ â
She followed Kennicott and the bobbing ends of the two bags which he carried. They were held back by the slow line of disembarking passengers. She reminded herself that she was actually at the dramatic moment of the brideâs homecoming. She ought to feel exalted. She felt nothing at all except irritation at their slow progress toward the door.
Kennicott stooped to peer through the windows. He shyly exulted:
âLook! Look! Thereâs a bunch come down to welcome us! Sam Clark and the missus and Dave Dyer and Jack Elder, and, yes sir, Harry Haydock and Juanita, and a whole crowd! I guess they see us now. Yuh, yuh sure, they see us! See âem waving!â
She obediently bent her head to look out at them. She had hold of herself. She was ready to love them. But she was embarrassed by the heartiness of the cheering group. From the vestibule she waved to them, but she clung a second to the sleeve of the brakeman who helped her down before she had the courage to dive into the cataract of handshaking people, people whom she could not tell apart. She had the impression that all the men had coarse voices, large damp hands, toothbrush mustaches, bald spots, and Masonic watch-charms.
She knew that they were welcoming her. Their hands, their smiles, their shouts, their affectionate eyes overcame her. She stammered, âThank you, oh, thank you!â
One of the men was clamoring at Kennicott, âI brought my machine down to take you home, doc.â
âFine business, Sam!â cried Kennicott; and, to Carol, âLetâs jump in. That big Paige over there. Some boat, too, believe me! Sam can show speed to any of these Marmons from Minneapolis!â
Only when she was in the motor car did she distinguish the three people who were to accompany them. The owner, now at the wheel, was the essence of decent self-satisfaction; a baldish, largish, level-eyed man, rugged of neck but sleek and round of faceâ âface like the back of a spoon bowl. He was chuckling at her, âHave you got us all straight yet?â
âCourse she has! Trust Carrie to get things straight and get âem darn quick! I bet she could tell you every date in history!â boasted her husband.
But the man looked at her reassuringly and with a certainty that he was a person whom she could trust she confessed, âAs a matter of fact I havenât got anybody straight.â
âCourse you havenât, child. Well, Iâm Sam Clark, dealer in hardware, sporting goods, cream separators, and almost any kind of heavy junk you can think of. You can call me Samâ âanyway, Iâm going to call you Carrie, seeinâ âs youâve been and gone and married this poor fish of a bum medic that we keep round here.â Carol smiled lavishly, and wished that she called people by their given names more easily. âThe fat cranky lady back there beside you, who is pretending that she canât hear me giving her away, is Mrs. Samâl Clark; and this hungry-looking squirt up here beside me is Dave Dyer, who keeps his drug store running by not filling your hubbyâs prescriptions rightâ âfact you might say heâs the guy that put the âshunâ in âprescription.â So! Well, leave us take the bonny bride home. Say, doc, Iâll sell you the Candersen place for three thousand plunks. Better be thinking about building a new home for Carrie. Prettiest Frau in G.P., if you asks me!â
Contentedly Sam Clark drove off, in the heavy traffic of three Fords and the Minniemashie House Free Bus.
âI shall like Mr. Clarkâ ââ ⌠I canât call him âSamâ! Theyâre all so friendly.â She glanced at the houses; tried not to see what she saw; gave way in: âWhy do these stories lie so? They always make the brideâs homecoming a bower of roses. Complete trust in noble spouse. Lies about marriage. Iâm not changed. And this townâ âO my God! I canât go through with it. This junk-heap!â
Her husband bent over her. âYou look like you were in a brown study. Scared? I donât expect you to think Gopher Prairie is a paradise, after St. Paul. I donât expect you to be crazy about it, at first. But youâll come to like it so muchâ âlifeâs so free here and best people on earth.â
She whispered to him (while Mrs. Clark considerately turned away), âI love you for understanding. Iâm justâ âIâm beastly oversensitive. Too many books. Itâs my lack of shoulder-muscles and sense. Give me time, dear.â
âYou bet! All the time you want!â
She laid the back of his hand against her cheek, snuggled near him. She was ready for her new home.
Kennicott had told her that, with his widowed mother as housekeeper, he had occupied an old house, âbut nice and roomy, and well-heated, best furnace I could find on the market.â His mother had left Carol her love, and gone back to Lac-qui-Meurt.
It would be wonderful, she exulted, not to have to live in Other Peopleâs Houses, but to make her own shrine. She held his hand tightly and stared ahead as the car swung round a corner and stopped in the street before a prosaic frame house in a small parched lawn.
IV
A concrete sidewalk with a âparkingâ of grass and mud. A square smug brown house, rather damp. A narrow concrete walk up to it. Sickly yellow leaves in a windrow with dried wings of box-elder seeds and snags of wool from the cottonwoods. A screened porch with pillars of thin painted pine surmounted by scrolls and brackets and bumps of jigsawed wood. No shrubbery to shut off the public gaze. A lugubrious bay-window to the right of the porch. Window curtains of starched cheap lace revealing a pink marble table with a conch shell and a Family Bible.
âYouâll find it old-fashionedâ âwhat do you call it?â âMid-Victorian. I left it as is, so you could make any changes you felt were necessary.â Kennicott sounded doubtful for the first time since he had come back to his own.
âItâs a real home!â She was moved by his humility. She gaily motioned goodbye to the Clarks. He unlocked the doorâ âhe was leaving the choice of a maid to her, and there was no one in the house. She jiggled while he turned the key, and scampered in.â ââ ⌠It was next day before either of them remembered that in their honeymoon camp they had planned that he should carry her over the sill.
In hallway and front parlor she was conscious of dinginess and lugubriousness and airlessness, but she insisted, âIâll make it all jolly.â As she followed Kennicott and the bags up to their bedroom she quavered to herself the song of the fat little-gods of the hearth:
I have my own home,
To do what I please with,
To do what I please with,
My den for me and my mate and my cubs,
My own!
She was close in her husbandâs arms; she clung to him; whatever of strangeness and slowness and insularity she might find in him, none of that mattered so long as she could slip her hands beneath his coat, run her fingers over the warm smoothness of the satin back of his waistcoat, seem almost to creep into his body, find in him strength, find in the courage and kindness of her man a shelter from the perplexing world.
âSweet, so sweet,â she whispered.
IV
I
âThe Clarks have invited some folks to their house to meet us, tonight,â said Kennicott, as he unpacked his suitcase.
âOh, that is nice of them!â
âYou bet. I told you youâd like âem. Squarest people on earth. Uh, Carrieâ âWould you mind if I sneaked down to the office for an hour, just to see how things are?â
âWhy, no. Of course not. I know youâre keen to get back to work.â
âSure you donât mind?â
âNot a bit. Out of my way. Let me unpack.â
But the advocate of freedom in marriage was as much disappointed as a drooping bride at the alacrity with which he took that freedom and escaped to the world of menâs affairs. She gazed about their bedroom, and its full dismalness crawled over her: the awkward knuckly L-shape of it; the black walnut bed with apples and spotty pears carved on the headboard; the imitation maple bureau, with pink-daubed scent-bottles and a petticoated pincushion on a marble slab uncomfortably like a gravestone; the plain pine washstand and the garlanded water-pitcher and bowl. The scent was of horsehair and plush and Florida Water.
âHow could people ever live with things like this?â she shuddered. She saw the furniture as a circle of elderly judges, condemning her to death by smothering. The tottering brocade chair squeaked, âChoke herâ âchoke herâ âsmother her.â The old linen smelled of the tomb. She was alone in this house, this strange still house, among the shadows of dead thoughts and haunting repressions. âI hate it! I hate it!â she panted. âWhy did I everâ ââ
She remembered that Kennicottâs mother had brought these family relics from the old home in Lac-qui-Meurt. âStop it! Theyâre perfectly comfortable things. Theyâreâ âcomfortable. Besidesâ âOh, theyâre horrible! Weâll change them, right away.â
Then, âBut of course he has to see how things are at the officeâ ââ
She made a pretense of busying herself with unpacking. The chintz-lined, silver-fitted bag which had seemed so desirable a luxury in St. Paul was an extravagant vanity here. The daring black chemise of frail chiffon and lace was a hussy at which the deep-bosomed bed stiffened in disgust, and she hurled it into a bureau drawer, hid it beneath a sensible linen blouse.
She gave up unpacking. She went to the window, with a purely literary thought of village charmâ âhollyhocks and lanes and apple-cheeked cottagers. What she saw was the side of the Seventh-Day Adventist Churchâ âa plain clapboard wall of a sour liver color; the ash-pile back of the church; an unpainted stable; and an alley in which a Ford delivery-wagon had been stranded. This was the terraced garden below her boudoir; this was to be her scenery forâ â
âI mustnât! I mustnât! Iâm nervous this afternoon. Am I sick?â ââ ⌠Good Lord, I hope it isnât that! Not now! How people lie! How these stories lie! They say the bride is always so blushing and proud and happy when she finds that out, butâ âIâd hate it! Iâd be scared to death! Some day butâ âPlease, dear nebulous Lord, not now! Bearded sniffy old men sitting and demanding that we bear children. If they had to bear themâ â! I wish they did have to! Not now! Not till Iâve got hold of this job of liking the ash-pile out there!â ââ ⌠I must shut up. Iâm mildly insane. Iâm going out for a walk. Iâll see the town by myself. My first view of the empire Iâm going to conquer!â
She fled from the house.
She stared with seriousness at every concrete crossing, every hitching-post, every rake for leaves; and to each house she devoted all her speculation. What would they come to mean? How would they look six months from now? In which of them would she be dining? Which of these people whom she passed, now mere arrangements of hair and clothes, would turn into intimates, loved or dreaded, different from all the other people in the world?
As she came into the small business-section she inspected a broad-beamed grocer in an alpaca coat who was bending over the apples and celery on a slanted platform in front of his store. Would she ever talk to him? What would he say if she stopped and stated, âI am Mrs. Dr. Kennicott. Some day I hope to confide that a heap of extremely dubious pumpkins as a window-display doesnât exhilarate me much.â
(The grocer was Mr. Frederick F. Ludelmeyer, whose market is at the corner of Main Street and Lincoln Avenue. In supposing that only she was observant Carol was ignorant, misled by the indifference of cities. She fancied that she was slipping through the streets invisible; but when she had passed, Mr. Ludelmeyer puffed into the store and coughed at his clerk, âI seen a young woman, she come along the side street. I bet she iss Doc Kennicottâs new bride, good-looker, nice legs, but she wore a hell of a plain suit, no style, I wonder will she pay cash, I bet she goes to Howland & Gouldâs more as she does here, what you done with the poster for Fluffed Oats?â)
II
When Carol had walked for thirty-two minutes she had completely covered the town, east and west, north and south; and she stood at the corner of Main Street and Washington Avenue and despaired.
Main Street with its two-story brick shops, its story-and-a-half wooden residences, its muddy expanse from concrete walk to walk, its huddle of Fords and lumber-wagons, was too small to absorb her. The broad, straight, unenticing gashes of the streets let in the grasping prairie on every side. She realized the vastness and the emptiness of the land. The skeleton iron windmill on the farm a few blocks away, at the north end of Main Street, was like the ribs of a dead cow. She thought of the coming of the Northern winter, when the unprotected houses would crouch together in terror of storms galloping out of that wild waste. They were so small and weak, the little brown houses. They were shelters for sparrows, not homes for warm laughing people.
She told herself that down the street the leaves were a splendor. The maples were orange; the oaks a solid tint of raspberry. And the lawns had been nursed with love. But the thought would not hold. At best the trees resembled a thinned woodlot. There was no park to rest the eyes. And since not Gopher Prairie but Wakamin was the county-seat, there was no courthouse with its grounds.
She glanced through the fly-specked windows of the most pretentious building in sight, the one place which welcomed strangers and determined their opinion of the charm and luxury of Gopher Prairieâ âthe Minniemashie House. It was a tall lean shabby structure, three stories of yellow-streaked wood, the corners covered with sanded pine slabs purporting to symbolize stone. In the hotel office she could see a stretch of bare unclean floor, a line of rickety chairs with brass cuspidors between, a writing-desk with advertisements in mother-of-pearl letters upon the glass-covered back. The dining-room beyond was a jungle of stained tablecloths and catsup bottles.
She looked no more at the Minniemashie House.
A man in cuffless shirtsleeves with pink arm-garters, wearing a linen collar but no tie, yawned his way from Dyerâs Drug Store across to the hotel. He leaned against the wall, scratched a while, sighed, and in a bored way gossiped with a man tilted back in a chair. A lumber-wagon, its long green box filled with large spools of barbed-wire fencing, creaked down the block. A Ford, in reverse, sounded as though it were shaking to pieces, then recovered and rattled away. In the Greek candy-store was the whine of a peanut-roaster, and the oily smell of nuts.
There was no other sound nor sign of life.
She wanted to run, fleeing from the encroaching prairie, demanding the security of a great city. Her dreams of creating a beautiful town were ludicrous. Oozing out from every drab wall, she felt a forbidding spirit which she could never conquer.
She trailed down the street on one side, back on the other, glancing into the cross streets. It was a private Seeing Main Street tour. She was within ten minutes beholding not only the heart of a place called Gopher Prairie, but ten thousand towns from Albany to San Diego:
Dyerâs Drug Store, a corner building of regular and unreal blocks of artificial stone. Inside the store, a greasy marble soda-fountain with an electric lamp of red and green and curdled-yellow mosaic shade. Pawed-over heaps of toothbrushes and combs and packages of shaving-soap. Shelves of soap-cartons, teething-rings, garden-seeds, and patent medicines in yellow âpackages-nostrumsâ for consumption, for âwomenâs diseasesââ ânotorious mixtures of opium and alcohol, in the very shop to which her husband sent patients for the filling of prescriptions.
From a second-story window the sign âW. P. Kennicott, Phys. & Surgeon,â gilt on black sand.
A small wooden motion-picture theater called âThe Rosebud Movie Palace.â Lithographs announcing a film called Fatty in Love.
Howland & Gouldâs Grocery. In the display window, black, overripe bananas and lettuce on which a cat was sleeping. Shelves lined with red crepe paper which was now faded and torn and concentrically spotted. Flat against the wall of the second story the signs of lodgesâ âthe Knights of Pythias, the Maccabees, the Woodmen, the Masons.
Dahl & Olesonâs Meat Marketâ âa reek of blood.
A jewelry shop with tinny-looking wristwatches for women. In front of it, at the curb, a huge wooden clock which did not go.
A fly-buzzing saloon with a brilliant gold and enamel whisky sign across the front. Other saloons down the block. From them a stink of stale beer, and thick voices bellowing pidgin German or trolling out dirty songsâ âvice gone feeble and unenterprising and dullâ âthe delicacy of a mining-camp minus its vigor. In front of the saloons, farmwives sitting on the seats of wagons, waiting for their husbands to become drunk and ready to start home.
A tobacco shop called âThe Smoke House,â filled with young men shaking dice for cigarettes. Racks of magazines, and pictures of coy fat prostitutes in striped bathing-suits.
A clothing store with a display of âox-blood-shade Oxfords with bulldog toes.â Suits which looked worn and glossless while they were still new, flabbily draped on dummies like corpses with painted cheeks.
The Bon Ton Storeâ âHaydock & Simonsââ âthe largest shop in town. The first-story front of clear glass, the plates cleverly bound at the edges with brass. The second story of pleasant tapestry brick. One window of excellent clothes for men, interspersed with collars of floral piquĂŠ which showed mauve daisies on a saffron ground. Newness and an obvious notion of neatness and service. Haydock & Simons. Haydock. She had met a Haydock at the station; Harry Haydock; an active person of thirty-five. He seemed great to her, now, and very like a saint. His shop was clean!
Axel Eggeâs General Store, frequented by Scandinavian farmers. In the shallow dark window-space heaps of sleazy sateens, badly woven galateas, canvas shoes designed for women with bulging ankles, steel and red glass buttons upon cards with broken edges, a cottony blanket, a graniteware frying-pan reposing on a sun-faded crepe blouse.
Sam Clarkâs Hardware Store. An air of frankly metallic enterprise. Guns and churns and barrels of nails and beautiful shiny butcher knives.
Chester Dashawayâs House Furnishing Emporium. A vista of heavy oak rockers with leather seats, asleep in a dismal row.
Billyâs Lunch. Thick handleless cups on the wet oilcloth-covered counter. An odor of onions and the smoke of hot lard. In the doorway a young man audibly sucking a toothpick.
The warehouse of the buyer of cream and potatoes. The sour smell of a dairy.
The Ford Garage and the Buick Garage, competent one-story brick and cement buildings opposite each other. Old and new cars on grease-blackened concrete floors. Tire advertisements. The roaring of a tested motor; a racket which beat at the nerves. Surly young men in khaki union-overalls. The most energetic and vital places in town.
A large warehouse for agricultural implements. An impressive barricade of green and gold wheels, of shafts and sulky seats, belonging to machinery of which Carol knew nothingâ âpotato-planters, manure-spreaders, silage-cutters, disk-harrows, breaking-plows.
A feed store, its windows opaque with the dust of bran, a patent medicine advertisement painted on its roof.
Ye Art Shoppe, Prop. Mrs. Mary Ellen Wilks, Christian Science Library open daily free. A touching fumble at beauty. A one-room shanty of boards recently covered with rough stucco. A show-window delicately rich in error: vases starting out to imitate tree-trunks but running off into blobs of giltâ âan aluminum ashtray labeled âGreetings from Gopher Prairieââ âa Christian Science magazineâ âa stamped sofa-cushion portraying a large ribbon tied to a small poppy, the correct skeins of embroidery-silk lying on the pillow. Inside the shop, a glimpse of bad carbon prints of bad and famous pictures, shelves of phonograph records and camera films, wooden toys, and in the midst an anxious small woman sitting in a padded rocking chair.
A barber shop and pool room. A man in shirt sleeves, presumably Del Snafflin the proprietor, shaving a man who had a large Adamâs apple.
Nat Hicksâs Tailor Shop, on a side street off Main. A one-story building. A fashion-plate showing human pitchforks in garments which looked as hard as steel plate.
On another side street a raw redbrick Catholic Church with a varnished yellow door.
The post-officeâ âmerely a partition of glass and brass shutting off the rear of a mildewed room which must once have been a shop. A tilted writing-shelf against a wall rubbed black and scattered with official notices and army recruiting-posters.
The damp, yellow-brick schoolbuilding in its cindery grounds.
The State Bank, stucco masking wood.
The Farmersâ National Bank. An Ionic temple of marble. Pure, exquisite, solitary. A brass plate with âEzra Stowbody, Presât.â
A score of similar shops and establishments.
Behind them and mixed with them, the houses, meek cottages or large, comfortable, soundly uninteresting symbols of prosperity.
In all the town not one building save the Ionic bank which gave pleasure to Carolâs eyes; not a dozen buildings which suggested that, in the fifty years of Gopher Prairieâs existence, the citizens had realized that it was either desirable or possible to make this, their common home, amusing or attractive.
It was not only the unsparing unapologetic ugliness and the rigid straightness which overwhelmed her. It was the planlessness, the flimsy temporariness of the buildings, their faded unpleasant colors. The street was cluttered with electric-light poles, telephone poles, gasoline pumps for motor cars, boxes of goods. Each man had built with the most valiant disregard of all the others. Between a large new âblockâ of two-story brick shops on one side, and the firebrick Overland garage on the other side, was a one-story cottage turned into a millinery shop. The white temple of the Farmersâ Bank was elbowed back by a grocery of glaring yellow brick. One store-building had a patchy galvanized iron cornice; the building beside it was crowned with battlements and pyramids of brick capped with blocks of red sandstone.
She escaped from Main Street, fled home.
She wouldnât have cared, she insisted, if the people had been comely. She had noted a young man loafing before a shop, one unwashed hand holding the cord of an awning; a middle-aged man who had a way of staring at women as though he had been married too long and too prosaically; an old farmer, solid, wholesome, but not cleanâ âhis face like a potato fresh from the earth. None of them had shaved for three days.
âIf they canât build shrines, out here on the prairie, surely thereâs nothing to prevent their buying safety-razors!â she raged.
She fought herself: âI must be wrong. People do live here. It canât be as ugly asâ âas I know it is! I must be wrong. But I canât do it. I canât go through with it.â
She came home too seriously worried for hysteria; and when she found Kennicott waiting for her, and exulting, âHave a walk? Well, like the town? Great lawns and trees, eh?â she was able to say, with a self-protective maturity new to her, âItâs very interesting.â
III
The train which brought Carol to Gopher Prairie also brought Miss Bea Sorenson.
Miss Bea was a stalwart, corn-colored, laughing young woman, and she was bored by farm-work. She desired the excitements of city-life, and the way to enjoy city-life was, she had decided, to âgo get a yob as hired girl in Gopher Prairie.â She contentedly lugged her pasteboard telescope from the station to her cousin, Tina Malmquist, maid of all work in the residence of Mrs. Luke Dawson.
âVell, so you come to town,â said Tina.
âYa. Ay get a yob,â said Bea.
âVell.â ââ ⌠You got a fella now?â
âYa. Yim Yacobson.â
âVell. Iâm glat to see you. How much you vant a veek?â
âSex dollar.â
âThere ainât nobody pay dat. Vait! Dr. Kennicott, I tâink he marry a girl from de Cities. Maybe she pay dat. Vell. You go take a valk.â
âYa,â said Bea.
So it chanced that Carol Kennicott and Bea Sorenson were viewing Main Street at the same time.
Bea had never before been in a town larger than Scandia Crossing, which has sixty-seven inhabitants.
As she marched up the street she was meditating that it didnât hardly seem like it was possible there could be so many folks all in one place at the same time. My! It would take years to get acquainted with them all. And swell people, too! A fine big gentleman in a new pink shirt with a diamond, and not no washed-out blue denim working-shirt. A lovely lady in a longery dress (but it must be an awful hard dress to wash). And the stores!
Not just three of them, like there were at Scandia Crossing, but more than four whole blocks!
The Bon Ton Storeâ âbig as four barnsâ âmy! it would simply scare a person to go in there, with seven or eight clerks all looking at you. And the menâs suits, on figures just like human. And Axel Eggeâs, like home, lots of Swedes and Norskes in there, and a card of dandy buttons, like rubies.
A drug store with a soda fountain that was just huge, awful long, and all lovely marble; and on it there was a great big lamp with the biggest shade you ever sawâ âall different kinds colored glass stuck together; and the soda spouts, they were silver, and they came right out of the bottom of the lamp-stand! Behind the fountain there were glass shelves, and bottles of new kinds of soft drinks, that nobody ever heard of. Suppose a fella took you there!
A hotel, awful high, higher than Oscar Tollefsonâs new red barn; three stories, one right on top of another; you had to stick your head back to look clear up to the top. There was a swell traveling man in thereâ âprobably been to Chicago, lots of times.
Oh, the dandiest people to know here! There was a lady going by, you wouldnât hardly say she was any older than Bea herself; she wore a dandy new gray suit and black pumps. She almost looked like she was looking over the town, too. But you couldnât tell what she thought. Bea would like to be that wayâ âkind of quiet, so nobody would get fresh. Kind ofâ âoh, elegant.
A Lutheran Church. Here in the city thereâd be lovely sermons, and church twice on Sunday, every Sunday!
And a movie show!
A regular theater, just for movies. With the sign âChange of bill every evening.â Pictures every evening!
There were movies in Scandia Crossing, but only once every two weeks, and it took the Sorensons an hour to drive inâ âpapa was such a tightwad he wouldnât get a Ford. But here she could put on her hat any evening, and in three minutesâ walk be to the movies, and see lovely fellows in dress-suits and Bill Hart and everything!
How could they have so many stores? Why! There was one just for tobacco alone, and one (a lovely oneâ âthe Art Shoppy it was) for pictures and vases and stuff, with oh, the dandiest vase made so it looked just like a tree trunk!
Bea stood on the corner of Main Street and Washington Avenue. The roar of the city began to frighten her. There were five automobiles on the street all at the same timeâ âand one of âem was a great big car that must of cost two thousand dollarsâ âand the bus was starting for a train with five elegant-dressed fellows, and a man was pasting up red bills with lovely pictures of washing-machines on them, and the jeweler was laying out bracelets and wristwatches and everything on real velvet.
What did she care if she got six dollars a week? Or two! It was worth while working for nothing, to be allowed to stay here. And think how it would be in the evening, all lighted upâ âand not with no lamps, but with electrics! And maybe a gentleman friend taking you to the movies and buying you a strawberry ice cream soda!
Bea trudged back.
âVell? You lak it?â said Tina.
âYa. Ay lak it. Ay tâink maybe Ay stay here,â said Bea.
IV
The recently built house of Sam Clark, in which was given the party to welcome Carol, was one of the largest in Gopher Prairie. It had a clean sweep of clapboards, a solid squareness, a small tower, and a large screened porch. Inside, it was as shiny, as hard, and as cheerful as a new oak upright piano.
Carol looked imploringly at Sam Clark as he rolled to the door and shouted, âWelcome, little lady! The keys of the city are yourn!â
Beyond him, in the hallway and the living-room, sitting in a vast prim circle as though they were attending a funeral, she saw the guests. They were waiting so! They were waiting for her! The determination to be all one pretty flowerlet of appreciation leaked away. She begged of Sam, âI donât dare face them! They expect so much. Theyâll swallow me in one mouthfulâ âglump!â âlike that!â
âWhy, sister, theyâre going to love youâ âsame as I would if I didnât think the doc here would beat me up!â
âB-butâ âI donât dare! Faces to the right of me, faces in front of me, volley and wonder!â
She sounded hysterical to herself; she fancied that to Sam Clark she sounded insane. But he chuckled, âNow you just cuddle under Samâs wing, and if anybody rubbers at you too long, Iâll shoo âem off. Here we go! Watch my smokeâ âSamâl, the ladiesâ delight and the bridegroomsâ terror!â
His arm about her, he led her in and bawled, âLadies and worser halves, the bride! We wonât introduce her round yet, because sheâll never get your bum names straight anyway. Now bust up this star-chamber!â
They tittered politely, but they did not move from the social security of their circle, and they did not cease staring.
Carol had given creative energy to dressing for the event. Her hair was demure, low on her forehead with a parting and a coiled braid. Now she wished that she had piled it high. Her frock was an ingenue slip of lawn, with a wide gold sash and a low square neck, which gave a suggestion of throat and molded shoulders. But as they looked her over she was certain that it was all wrong. She wished alternately that she had worn a spinsterish high-necked dress, and that she had dared to shock them with a violent brick-red scarf which she had bought in Chicago.
She was led about the circle. Her voice mechanically produced safe remarks:
âOh, Iâm sure Iâm going to like it here ever so much,â and âYes, we did have the best time in Coloradoâ âmountains,â and âYes, I lived in St. Paul several years. Euclid P. Tinker? No, I donât remember meeting him, but Iâm pretty sure Iâve heard of him.â
Kennicott took her aside and whispered, âNow Iâll introduce you to them, one at a time.â
âTell me about them first.â
âWell, the nice-looking couple over there are Harry Haydock and his wife, Juanita. Harryâs dad owns most of the Bon Ton, but itâs Harry who runs it and gives it the pep. Heâs a hustler. Next to him is Dave Dyer the druggistâ âyou met him this afternoonâ âmighty good duck-shot. The tall husk beyond him is Jack Elderâ âJackson Elderâ âowns the planing-mill, and the Minniemashie House, and quite a share in the Farmersâ National Bank. Him and his wife are good sportsâ âhim and Sam and I go hunting together a lot. The old cheese there is Luke Dawson, the richest man in town. Next to him is Nat Hicks, the tailor.â
âReally? A tailor?â
âSure. Why not? Maybe weâre slow, but we are democratic. I go hunting with Nat same as I do with Jack Elder.â
âIâm glad. Iâve never met a tailor socially. It must be charming to meet one and not have to think about what you owe him. And do youâ âWould you go hunting with your barber, too?â
âNo butâ âNo use running this democracy thing into the ground. Besides, Iâve known Nat for years, and besides, heâs a mighty good shot andâ âThatâs the way it is, see? Next to Nat is Chet Dashaway. Great fellow for chinning. Heâll talk your arm off, about religion or politics or books or anything.â
Carol gazed with a polite approximation to interest at Mr. Dashaway, a tan person with a wide mouth. âOh, I know! Heâs the furniture-store man!â She was much pleased with herself.
âYump, and heâs the undertaker. Youâll like him. Come shake hands with him.â
âOh no, no! He doesnâtâ âhe doesnât do the embalming and all thatâ âhimself? I couldnât shake hands with an undertaker!â
âWhy not? Youâd be proud to shake hands with a great surgeon, just after heâd been carving up peopleâs bellies.â
She sought to regain her afternoonâs calm of maturity. âYes. Youâre right. I wantâ âoh, my dear, do you know how much I want to like the people you like? I want to see people as they are.â
âWell, donât forget to see people as other folks see them as they are! They have the stuff. Did you know that Percy Bresnahan came from here? Born and brought up here!â
âBresnahan?â
âYesâ âyou knowâ âpresident of the Velvet Motor Company of Boston, Mass.â âmake the Velvet Twelveâ âbiggest automobile factory in New England.â
âI think Iâve heard of him.â
âSure you have. Why, heâs a millionaire several times over! Well, Perce comes back here for the black-bass fishing almost every summer, and he says if he could get away from business, heâd rather live here than in Boston or New York or any of those places. He doesnât mind Chetâs undertaking.â
âPlease! Iâllâ âIâll like everybody! Iâll be the community sunbeam!â
He led her to the Dawsons.
Luke Dawson, lender of money on mortgages, owner of Northern cut-over land, was a hesitant man in unpressed soft gray clothes, with bulging eyes in a milky face. His wife had bleached cheeks, bleached hair, bleached voice, and a bleached manner. She wore her expensive green frock, with its passementeried bosom, bead tassels, and gaps between the buttons down the back, as though she had bought it secondhand and was afraid of meeting the former owner. They were shy. It was âProfessorâ George Edwin Mott, superintendent of schools, a Chinese mandarin turned brown, who held Carolâs hand and made her welcome.
When the Dawsons and Mr. Mott had stated that they were âpleased to meet her,â there seemed to be nothing else to say, but the conversation went on automatically.
âDo you like Gopher Prairie?â whimpered Mrs. Dawson.
âOh, Iâm sure Iâm going to be ever so happy.â
âThereâs so many nice people.â Mrs. Dawson looked to Mr. Mott for social and intellectual aid. He lectured:
âThereâs a fine class of people. I donât like some of these retired farmers who come here to spend their last daysâ âespecially the Germans. They hate to pay school-taxes. They hate to spend a cent. But the rest are a fine class of people. Did you know that Percy Bresnahan came from here? Used to go to school right at the old building!â
âI heard he did.â
âYes. Heâs a prince. He and I went fishing together, last time he was here.â
The Dawsons and Mr. Mott teetered upon weary feet, and smiled at Carol with crystallized expressions. She went on:
âTell me, Mr. Mott: Have you ever tried any experiments with any of the new educational systems? The modern kindergarten methods or the Gary system?â
âOh. Those. Most of these would-be reformers are simply notoriety-seekers. I believe in manual training, but Latin and mathematics always will be the backbone of sound Americanism, no matter what these faddists advocateâ âheaven knows what they do wantâ âknitting, I suppose, and classes in wiggling the ears!â
The Dawsons smiled their appreciation of listening to a savant. Carol waited till Kennicott should rescue her. The rest of the party waited for the miracle of being amused.
Harry and Juanita Haydock, Rita Simons and Dr. Terry Gouldâ âthe young smart set of Gopher Prairie. She was led to them. Juanita Haydock flung at her in a high, cackling, friendly voice:
âWell, this is so nice to have you here. Weâll have some good partiesâ âdances and everything. Youâll have to join the Jolly Seventeen. We play bridge and we have a supper once a month. You play, of course?â
âN-no, I donât.â
âReally? In St. Paul?â
âIâve always been such a bookworm.â
âWeâll have to teach you. Bridge is half the fun of life.â Juanita had become patronizing, and she glanced disrespectfully at Carolâs golden sash, which she had previously admired.
Harry Haydock said politely, âHow do you think youâre going to like the old burg?â
âIâm sure I shall like it tremendously.â
âBest people on earth here. Great hustlers, too. Course Iâve had lots of chances to go live in Minneapolis, but we like it here. Real he-town. Did you know that Percy Bresnahan came from here?â
Carol perceived that she had been weakened in the biological struggle by disclosing her lack of bridge. Roused to nervous desire to regain her position she turned on Dr. Terry Gould, the young and pool-playing competitor of her husband. Her eyes coquetted with him while she gushed:
âIâll learn bridge. But what I really love most is the outdoors. Canât we all get up a boating party, and fish, or whatever you do, and have a picnic supper afterwards?â
âNow youâre talking!â Dr. Gould affirmed. He looked rather too obviously at the cream-smooth slope of her shoulder. âLike fishing? Fishing is my middle name. Iâll teach you bridge. Like cards at all?â
âI used to be rather good at bezique.â
She knew that bezique was a game of cardsâ âor a game of something else. Roulette, possibly. But her lie was a triumph. Juanitaâs handsome, high-colored, horsey face showed doubt. Harry stroked his nose and said humbly, âBezique? Used to be great gambling game, wasnât it?â
While others drifted to her group, Carol snatched up the conversation. She laughed and was frivolous and rather brittle. She could not distinguish their eyes. They were a blurry theater-audience before which she self-consciously enacted the comedy of being the Clever Little Bride of Doc Kennicott:
âThese-here celebrated Open Spaces, thatâs what Iâm going out for. Iâll never read anything but the sporting-page again. Will converted me on our Colorado trip. There were so many mousey tourists who were afraid to get out of the motor bus that I decided to be Annie Oakley, the Wild Western Wampire, and I bought oh! a vociferous skirt which revealed my perfectly nice ankles to the Presbyterian glare of all the Ioway schoolmaâams, and I leaped from peak to peak like the nimble chamoys, andâ âYou may think that Herr Doctor Kennicott is a Nimrod, but you ought to have seen me daring him to strip to his B.V.D.âs and go swimming in an icy mountain brook.â
She knew that they were thinking of becoming shocked, but Juanita Haydock was admiring, at least. She swaggered on:
âIâm sure Iâm going to ruin Will as a respectable practitionerâ âIs he a good doctor, Dr. Gould?â
Kennicottâs rival gasped at this insult to professional ethics, and he took an appreciable second before he recovered his social manner. âIâll tell you, Mrs. Kennicott.â He smiled at Kennicott, to imply that whatever he might say in the stress of being witty was not to count against him in the commercio-medical warfare. âThereâs some people in town that say the doc is a fair to middlinâ diagnostician and prescription-writer, but let me whisper this to youâ âbut for heavenâs sake donât tell him I said soâ âdonât you ever go to him for anything more serious than a pendectomy of the left ear or a strabismus of the cardiograph.â
No one save Kennicott knew exactly what this meant, but they laughed, and Sam Clarkâs party assumed a glittering lemon-yellow color of brocade panels and champagne and tulle and crystal chandeliers and sporting duchesses. Carol saw that George Edwin Mott and the blanched Mr. and Mrs. Dawson were not yet hypnotized. They looked as though they wondered whether they ought to look as though they disapproved. She concentrated on them:
âBut I know whom I wouldnât have dared to go to Colorado with! Mr. Dawson there! Iâm sure heâs a regular heartbreaker. When we were introduced he held my hand and squeezed it frightfully.â
âHaw! Haw! Haw!â The entire company applauded. Mr. Dawson was beatified. He had been called many thingsâ âloan-shark, skinflint, tightwad, pussyfootâ âbut he had never before been called a flirt.
âHe is wicked, isnât he, Mrs. Dawson? Donât you have to lock him up?â
âOh no, but maybe I better,â attempted Mrs. Dawson, a tint on her pallid face.
For fifteen minutes Carol kept it up. She asserted that she was going to stage a musical comedy, that she preferred cafĂŠ parfait to beefsteak, that she hoped Dr. Kennicott would never lose his ability to make love to charming women, and that she had a pair of gold stockings. They gaped for more. But she could not keep it up. She retired to a chair behind Sam Clarkâs bulk. The smile-wrinkles solemnly flattened out in the faces of all the other collaborators in having a party, and again they stood about hoping but not expecting to be amused.
Carol listened. She discovered that conversation did not exist in Gopher Prairie. Even at this affair, which brought out the young smart set, the hunting squire set, the respectable intellectual set, and the solid financial set, they sat up with gaiety as with a corpse.
Juanita Haydock talked a good deal in her rattling voice but it was invariably of personalities: the rumor that Raymie Wutherspoon was going to send for a pair of patent leather shoes with gray buttoned tops; the rheumatism of Champ Perry; the state of Guy Pollockâs grippe; and the dementia of Jim Howland in painting his fence salmon-pink.
Sam Clark had been talking to Carol about motor cars, but he felt his duties as host. While he droned, his brows popped up and down. He interrupted himself, âMust stir âem up.â He worried at his wife, âDonât you think I better stir âem up?â He shouldered into the center of the room, and cried:
âLetâs have some stunts, folks.â
âYes, letâs!â shrieked Juanita Haydock.
âSay, Dave, give us that stunt about the Norwegian catching a hen.â
âYou bet; thatâs a slick stunt; do that, Dave!â cheered Chet Dashaway.
Mr. Dave Dyer obliged.
All the guests moved their lips in anticipation of being called on for their own stunts.
âElla, come on and recite âOld Sweetheart of Mine,â for us,â demanded Sam.
Miss Ella Stowbody, the spinster daughter of the Ionic bank, scratched her dry palms and blushed. âOh, you donât want to hear that old thing again.â
âSure we do! You bet!â asserted Sam.
âMy voice is in terrible shape tonight.â
âTut! Come on!â
Sam loudly explained to Carol, âElla is our shark at elocuting. Sheâs had professional training. She studied singing and oratory and dramatic art and shorthand for a year, in Milwaukee.â
Miss Stowbody was reciting. As encore to âAn Old Sweetheart of Mine,â she gave a peculiarly optimistic poem regarding the value of smiles.
There were four other stunts: one Jewish, one Irish, one juvenile, and Nat Hicksâs parody of Mark Antonyâs funeral oration.
During the winter Carol was to hear Dave Dyerâs hen-catching impersonation seven times, âAn Old Sweetheart of Mineâ nine times, the Jewish story and the funeral oration twice; but now she was ardent and, because she did so want to be happy and simple-hearted, she was as disappointed as the others when the stunts were finished, and the party instantly sank back into coma.
They gave up trying to be festive; they began to talk naturally, as they did at their shops and homes.
The men and women divided, as they had been tending to do all evening. Carol was deserted by the men, left to a group of matrons who steadily pattered of children, sickness, and cooksâ âtheir own shop-talk. She was piqued. She remembered visions of herself as a smart married woman in a drawing-room, fencing with clever men. Her dejection was relieved by speculation as to what the men were discussing, in the corner between the piano and the phonograph. Did they rise from these housewifely personalities to a larger world of abstractions and affairs?
She made her best curtsy to Mrs. Dawson; she twittered, âI wonât have my husband leaving me so soon! Iâm going over and pull the wretchâs ears.â She rose with a jeune fille bow. She was self-absorbed and self-approving because she had attained that quality of sentimentality. She proudly dipped across the room and, to the interest and commendation of all beholders, sat on the arm of Kennicottâs chair.
He was gossiping with Sam Clark, Luke Dawson, Jackson Elder of the planing-mill, Chet Dashaway, Dave Dyer, Harry Haydock, and Ezra Stowbody, president of the Ionic bank.
Ezra Stowbody was a troglodyte. He had come to Gopher Prairie in 1865. He was a distinguished bird of preyâ âswooping thin nose, turtle mouth, thick brows, port-wine cheeks, floss of white hair, contemptuous eyes. He was not happy in the social changes of thirty years. Three decades ago, Dr. Westlake, Julius Flickerbaugh the lawyer, Merriman Peedy the Congregational pastor and himself had been the arbiters. That was as it should be; the fine artsâ âmedicine, law, religion, and financeâ ârecognized as aristocratic; four Yankees democratically chatting with but ruling the Ohioans and Illini and Swedes and Germans who had ventured to follow them. But Westlake was old, almost retired; Julius Flickerbaugh had lost much of his practice to livelier attorneys; Reverend (not The Reverend) Peedy was dead; and nobody was impressed in this rotten age of automobiles by the âspanking graysâ which Ezra still drove. The town was as heterogeneous as Chicago. Norwegians and Germans owned stores. The social leaders were common merchants. Selling nails was considered as sacred as banking. These upstartsâ âthe Clarks, the Haydocksâ âhad no dignity. They were sound and conservative in politics, but they talked about motor cars and pump-guns and heaven only knew what newfangled fads. Mr. Stowbody felt out of place with them. But his brick house with the mansard roof was still the largest residence in town, and he held his position as squire by occasionally appearing among the younger men and reminding them by a wintry eye that without the banker none of them could carry on their vulgar businesses.
As Carol defied decency by sitting down with the men, Mr. Stowbody was piping to Mr. Dawson, âSay, Luke, when wasât Biggins first settled in Winnebago Township? Waânât it in 1879?â
âWhy no âtwaânât!â Mr. Dawson was indignant. âHe come out from Vermont in 1867â âno, wait, in 1868, it must have beenâ âand took a claim on the Rum River, quite a ways above Anoka.â
âHe did not!â roared Mr. Stowbody. âHe settled first in Blue Earth County, him and his father!â
(âWhatâs the point at issue?â) Carol whispered to Kennicott.
(âWhether this old duck Biggins had an English setter or a Llewellyn. Theyâve been arguing it all evening!â)
Dave Dyer interrupted to give tidings, âDâ tell you that Clara Biggins was in town couple days ago? She bought a hot-water bottleâ âexpensive one, tooâ âtwo dollars and thirty cents!â
âYaaaaaah!â snarled Mr. Stowbody. âCourse. Sheâs just like her grandad was. Never save a cent. Two dollars and twentyâ âthirty, was it?â âtwo dollars and thirty cents for a hot-water bottle! Brick wrapped up in a flannel petticoat just as good, anyway!â
âHowâs Ellaâs tonsils, Mr. Stowbody?â yawned Chet Dashaway.
While Mr. Stowbody gave a somatic and psychic study of them, Carol reflected, âAre they really so terribly interested in Ellaâs tonsils, or even in Ellaâs esophagus? I wonder if I could get them away from personalities? Letâs risk damnation and try.â
âThere hasnât been much labor trouble around here, has there, Mr. Stowbody?â she asked innocently.
âNo, maâam, thank God, weâve been free from that, except maybe with hired girls and farmhands. Trouble enough with these foreign farmers; if you donât watch these Swedes they turn socialist or populist or some fool thing on you in a minute. Of course, if they have loans you can make âem listen to reason. I just have âem come into the bank for a talk, and tell âem a few things. I donât mind their being democrats, so much, but I wonât stand having socialists around. But thank God, we ainât got the labor trouble they have in these cities. Even Jack Elder here gets along pretty well, in the planing-mill, donât you, Jack?â
âYep. Sure. Donât need so many skilled workmen in my place, and itâs a lot of these cranky, wage-hogging, half-baked skilled mechanics that start troubleâ âreading a lot of this anarchist literature and union papers and all.â
âDo you approve of union labor?â Carol inquired of Mr. Elder.
âMe? I should say not! Itâs like this: I donât mind dealing with my men if they think theyâve got any grievancesâ âthough Lord knows whatâs come over workmen, nowadaysâ âdonât appreciate a good job. But still, if they come to me honestly, as man to man, Iâll talk things over with them. But Iâm not going to have any outsider, any of these walking delegates, or whatever fancy names they call themselves nowâ âbunch of rich grafters, living on the ignorant workmen! Not going to have any of those fellows butting in and telling me how to run my business!â
Mr. Elder was growing more excited, more belligerent and patriotic. âI stand for freedom and constitutional rights. If any man donât like my shop, he can get up and git. Same way, if I donât like him, he gits. And thatâs all there is to it. I simply canât understand all these complications and hoop-te-doodles and government reports and wage-scales and God knows what all that these fellows are balling up the labor situation with, when itâs all perfectly simple. They like what I pay âem, or they get out. Thatâs all there is to it!â
âWhat do you think of profit-sharing?â Carol ventured.
Mr. Elder thundered his answer, while the others nodded, solemnly and in tune, like a shopwindow of flexible toys, comic mandarins and judges and ducks and clowns, set quivering by a breeze from the open door:
âAll this profit-sharing and welfare work and insurance and old-age pension is simply poppycock. Enfeebles a workmanâs independenceâ âand wastes a lot of honest profit. The half-baked thinker that isnât dry behind the ears yet, and these suffragettes and God knows what all buttinskis there are that are trying to tell a business man how to run his business, and some of these college professors are just about as bad, the whole kit and bilinâ of âem are nothing in Godâs world but socialism in disguise! And itâs my bounden duty as a producer to resist every attack on the integrity of American industry to the last ditch. Yesâ âsir!â
Mr. Elder wiped his brow.
Dave Dyer added, âSure! You bet! What they ought to do is simply to hang every one of these agitators, and that would settle the whole thing right off. Donât you think so, doc?â
âYou bet,â agreed Kennicott.
The conversation was at last relieved of the plague of Carolâs intrusions and they settled down to the question of whether the justice of the peace had sent that hobo drunk to jail for ten days or twelve. It was a matter not readily determined. Then Dave Dyer communicated his carefree adventures on the gipsy trail:
âYep. I get good time out of the flivver. âBout a week ago I motored down to New Wurttemberg. Thatâs forty-threeâ âNo, letâs see: Itâs seventeen miles to Belldale, and âbout six and three-quarters, call it seven, to Torgenquist, and itâs a good nineteen miles from there to New Wurttembergâ âseventeen and seven and nineteen, that makes, uh, let me see: seventeen and sevenâs twenty-four, plus nineteen, well say plus twenty, that makes forty-four, well anyway, say about forty-three or -four miles from here to New Wurttemberg. We got started about seven-fifteen, probâly seven-twenty, because I had to stop and fill the radiator, and we ran along, just keeping up a good steady gaitâ ââ
Mr. Dyer did finally, for reasons and purposes admitted and justified, attain to New Wurttemberg.
Onceâ âonly onceâ âthe presence of the alien Carol was recognized. Chet Dashaway leaned over and said asthmatically, âSay, uh, have you been reading this serial âTwo Outâ in Tingling Tales? Corking yarn! Gosh, the fellow that wrote it certainly can sling baseball slang!â
The others tried to look literary. Harry Haydock offered, âJuanita is a great hand for reading high-class stuff, like Mid the Magnolias by this Sara Hetwiggin Butts, and Riders of Ranch Reckless. Books. But me,â he glanced about importantly, as one convinced that no other hero had ever been in so strange a plight, âIâm so darn busy I donât have much time to read.â
âI never read anything I canât check against,â said Sam Clark.
Thus ended the literary portion of the conversation, and for seven minutes Jackson Elder outlined reasons for believing that the pike-fishing was better on the west shore of Lake Minniemashie than on the eastâ âthough it was indeed quite true that on the east shore Nat Hicks had caught a pike altogether admirable.
The talk went on. It did go on! Their voices were monotonous, thick, emphatic. They were harshly pompous, like men in the smoking-compartments of Pullman cars. They did not bore Carol. They frightened her. She panted, âThey will be cordial to me, because my man belongs to their tribe. God help me if I were an outsider!â
Smiling as changelessly as an ivory figurine she sat quiescent, avoiding thought, glancing about the living-room and hall, noting their betrayal of unimaginative commercial prosperity. Kennicott said, âDandy interior, eh? My idea of how a place ought to be furnished. Modern.â She looked polite, and observed the oiled floors, hardwood staircase, unused fireplace with tiles which resembled brown linoleum, cut-glass vases standing upon doilies, and the barred, shut, forbidding unit bookcases that were half filled with swashbuckler novels and unread-looking sets of Dickens, Kipling, O. Henry, and Elbert Hubbard.
She perceived that even personalities were failing to hold the party. The room filled with hesitancy as with a fog. People cleared their throats, tried to choke down yawns. The men shot their cuffs and the women stuck their combs more firmly into their back hair.
Then a rattle, a daring hope in every eye, the swinging of a door, the smell of strong coffee, Dave Dyerâs mewing voice in a triumphant, âThe eats!â They began to chatter. They had something to do. They could escape from themselves. They fell upon the foodâ âchicken sandwiches, maple cake, drugstore ice cream. Even when the food was gone they remained cheerful. They could go home, any time now, and go to bed!
They went, with a flutter of coats, chiffon scarfs, and goodbyes.
Carol and Kennicott walked home.
âDid you like them?â he asked.
âThey were terribly sweet to me.â
âUh, Carrieâ âYou ought to be more careful about shocking folks. Talking about gold stockings, and about showing your ankles to schoolteachers and all!â More mildly: âYou gave âem a good time, but Iâd watch out for that, âf I were you. Juanita Haydock is such a damn cat. I wouldnât give her a chance to criticize me.â
âMy poor effort to lift up the party! Was I wrong to try to amuse them?â
âNo! No! Honey, I didnât meanâ âYou were the only up-and-coming person in the bunch. I just meanâ âDonât get onto legs and all that immoral stuff. Pretty conservative crowd.â
She was silent, raw with the shameful thought that the attentive circle might have been criticizing her, laughing at her.
âDonât, please donât worry!â he pleaded.
âSilence.â
âGosh; Iâm sorry I spoke about it. I just meantâ âBut they were crazy about you. Sam said to me, âThat little lady of yours is the slickest thing that ever came to this town,â he said; and Ma Dawsonâ âI didnât hardly know whether sheâd like you or not, sheâs such a dried-up old bird, but she said, âYour bride is so quick and bright, I declare, she just wakes me up.âââ
Carol liked praise, the flavor and fatness of it, but she was so energetically being sorry for herself that she could not taste this commendation.
âPlease! Come on! Cheer up!â His lips said it, his anxious shoulder said it, his arm about her said it, as they halted on the obscure porch of their house.
âDo you care if they think Iâm flighty, Will?â
âMe? Why, I wouldnât care if the whole world thought you were this or that or anything else. Youâre myâ âwell, youâre my soul!â
He was an undefined mass, as solid-seeming as rock. She found his sleeve, pinched it, cried, âIâm glad! Itâs sweet to be wanted! You must tolerate my frivolousness. Youâre all I have!â
He lifted her, carried her into the house, and with her arms about his neck she forgot Main Street.
V
I
âWeâll steal the whole day, and go hunting. I want you to see the country round here,â Kennicott announced at breakfast. âIâd take the carâ âwant you to see how swell she runs since I put in a new piston. But weâll take a team, so we can get right out into the fields. Not many prairie chickens left now, but we might just happen to run onto a small covey.â
He fussed over his hunting-kit. He pulled his hip boots out to full length and examined them for holes. He feverishly counted his shotgun shells, lecturing her on the qualities of smokeless powder. He drew the new hammerless shotgun out of its heavy tan leather case and made her peep through the barrels to see how dazzlingly free they were from rust.
The world of hunting and camping-outfits and fishing-tackle was unfamiliar to her, and in Kennicottâs interest she found something creative and joyous. She examined the smooth stock, the carved hard rubber butt of the gun. The shells, with their brass caps and sleek green bodies and hieroglyphics on the wads, were cool and comfortably heavy in her hands.
Kennicott wore a brown canvas hunting-coat with vast pockets lining the inside, corduroy trousers which bulged at the wrinkles, peeled and scarred shoes, a scarecrow felt hat. In this uniform he felt virile. They clumped out to the livery buggy, they packed the kit and the box of lunch into the back, crying to each other that it was a magnificent day.
Kennicott had borrowed Jackson Elderâs red and white English setter, a complacent dog with a waving tail of silver hair which flickered in the sunshine. As they started, the dog yelped, and leaped at the horsesâ heads, till Kennicott took him into the buggy, where he nuzzled Carolâs knees and leaned out to sneer at farm mongrels.
The grays clattered out on the hard dirt road with a pleasant song of hoofs: Ta ta ta rat! Ta ta ta rat! It was early and fresh, the air whistling, frost bright on the goldenrod. As the sun warmed the world of stubble into a welter of yellow they turned from the high road, through the bars of a farmerâs gate, into a field, slowly bumping over the uneven earth. In a hollow of the rolling prairie they lost sight even of the country road. It was warm and placid. Locusts trilled among the dry wheat-stalks, and brilliant little flies hurtled across the buggy. A buzz of content filled the air. Crows loitered and gossiped in the sky.
The dog had been let out and after a dance of excitement he settled down to a steady quartering of the field, forth and back, forth and back, his nose down.
âPete Rustad owns this farm, and he told me he saw a small covey of chickens in the west forty, last week. Maybe weâll get some sport after all,â Kennicott chuckled blissfully.
She watched the dog in suspense, breathing quickly every time he seemed to halt. She had no desire to slaughter birds, but she did desire to belong to Kennicottâs world.
The dog stopped, on the point, a forepaw held up.
âBy golly! Heâs hit a scent! Come on!â squealed Kennicott. He leaped from the buggy, twisted the reins about the whip-socket, swung her out, caught up his gun, slipped in two shells, stalked toward the rigid dog, Carol pattering after him. The setter crawled ahead, his tail quivering, his belly close to the stubble. Carol was nervous. She expected clouds of large birds to fly up instantly. Her eyes were strained with staring. But they followed the dog for a quarter of a mile, turning, doubling, crossing two low hills, kicking through a swale of weeds, crawling between the strands of a barbed-wire fence. The walking was hard on her pavement-trained feet. The earth was lumpy, the stubble prickly and lined with grass, thistles, abortive stumps of clover. She dragged and floundered.
She heard Kennicott gasp, âLook!â Three gray birds were starting up from the stubble. They were round, dumpy, like enormous bumble bees. Kennicott was sighting, moving the barrel. She was agitated. Why didnât he fire? The birds would be gone! Then a crash, another, and two birds turned somersaults in the air, plumped down.
When he showed her the birds she had no sensation of blood. These heaps of feathers were so soft and unbruisedâ âthere was about them no hint of death. She watched her conquering man tuck them into his inside pocket, and trudged with him back to the buggy.
They found no more prairie chickens that morning.
At noon they drove into her first farmyard, a private village, a white house with no porches save a low and quite dirty stoop at the back, a crimson barn with white trimmings, a glazed brick silo, an ex-carriage-shed, now the garage of a Ford, an unpainted cow-stable, a chicken-house, a pigpen, a corncrib, a granary, the galvanized-iron skeleton tower of a windmill. The dooryard was of packed yellow clay, treeless, barren of grass, littered with rusty plowshares and wheels of discarded cultivators. Hardened trampled mud, like lava, filled the pigpen. The doors of the house were grime-rubbed, the corners and eaves were rusted with rain, and the child who stared at them from the kitchen window was smeary-faced. But beyond the barn was a clump of scarlet geraniums; the prairie breeze was sunshine in motion; the flashing metal blades of the windmill revolved with a lively hum; a horse neighed, a rooster crowed, martins flew in and out of the cow-stable.
A small spare woman with flaxen hair trotted from the house. She was twanging a Swedish patoisâ ânot in monotone, like English, but singing it, with a lyrical whine:
âPete he say you kom pretty soon hunting, doctor. My, dotâs fine you kom. Is dis de bride? Ohhhh! Ve yoost say lasâ night, ve hope maybe ve see her som day. My, soch a pretty lady!â Mrs. Rustad was shining with welcome. âVell, vell! Ay hope you lak dis country! Vonât you stay for dinner, doctor?â
âNo, but I wonder if you wouldnât like to give us a glass of milk?â condescended Kennicott.
âVell Ay should say Ay vill! You vait har a second and Ay run on de milk-house!â She nervously hastened to a tiny red building beside the windmill; she came back with a pitcher of milk from which Carol filled the thermos bottle.
As they drove off Carol admired, âSheâs the dearest thing I ever saw. And she adores you. You are the Lord of the Manor.â
âOh no,â much pleased, âbut still they do ask my advice about things. Bully people, these Scandinavian farmers. And prosperous, too. Helga Rustad, sheâs still scared of America, but her kids will be doctors and lawyers and governors of the state and any darn thing they want to.â
âI wonderâ ââ Carol was plunged back into last nightâs Weltschmerz. âI wonder if these farmers arenât bigger than we are? So simple and hardworking. The town lives on them. We townies are parasites, and yet we feel superior to them. Last night I heard Mr. Haydock talking about âhicks.â Apparently he despises the farmers because they havenât reached the social heights of selling thread and buttons.â
âParasites? Us? Whereâd the farmers be without the town? Who lends them money? Whoâ âwhy, we supply them with everything!â
âDonât you find that some of the farmers think they pay too much for the services of the towns?â
âOh, of course thereâs a lot of cranks among the farmers same as there are among any class. Listen to some of these kickers, a fellowâd think that the farmers ought to run the state and the whole shooting-matchâ âprobably if they had their way theyâd fill up the legislature with a lot of farmers in manure-covered bootsâ âyes, and theyâd come tell me I was hired on a salary now, and couldnât fix my fees! Thatâd be fine for you, wouldnât it!â
âBut why shouldnât they?â
âWhy? That bunch ofâ âTelling meâ âOh, for heavenâs sake, letâs quit arguing. All this discussing may be all right at a party butâ âLetâs forget it while weâre hunting.â
âI know. The Wonderlustâ âprobably itâs a worse affliction than the Wanderlust. I just wonderâ ââ
She told herself that she had everything in the world. And after each self-rebuke she stumbled again on âI just wonderâ ââ
They ate their sandwiches by a prairie slew: long grass reaching up out of clear water, mossy bogs, red-winged blackbirds, the scum a splash of gold-green. Kennicott smoked a pipe while she leaned back in the buggy and let her tired spirit be absorbed in the Nirvana of the incomparable sky.
They lurched to the high road and awoke from their sun-soaked drowse at the sound of the clopping hoofs. They paused to look for partridges in a rim of woods, little woods, very clean and shiny and gay, silver birches and poplars with immaculate green trunks, encircling a lake of sandy bottom, a splashing seclusion demure in the welter of hot prairie.
Kennicott brought down a fat red squirrel and at dusk he had a dramatic shot at a flight of ducks whirling down from the upper air, skimming the lake, instantly vanishing.
They drove home under the sunset. Mounds of straw, and wheat-stacks like beehives, stood out in startling rose and gold, and the green-tufted stubble glistened. As the vast girdle of crimson darkened, the fulfilled land became autumnal in deep reds and browns. The black road before the buggy turned to a faint lavender, then was blotted to uncertain grayness. Cattle came in a long line up to the barred gates of the farmyards, and over the resting land was a dark glow.
Carol had found the dignity and greatness which had failed her in Main Street.
II
Till they had a maid they took noon dinner and six oâclock supper at Mrs. Gurreyâs boardinghouse.
Mrs. Elisha Gurrey, relict of Deacon Gurrey the dealer in hay and grain, was a pointed-nosed, simpering woman with iron-gray hair drawn so tight that it resembled a soiled handkerchief covering her head. But she was unexpectedly cheerful, and her dining-room, with its thin tablecloth on a long pine table, had the decency of clean bareness.
In the line of unsmiling, methodically chewing guests, like horses at a manger, Carol came to distinguish one countenance: the pale, long, spectacled face and sandy pompadour hair of Mr. Raymond P. Wutherspoon, known as âRaymie,â professional bachelor, manager and one half the sales-force in the shoe department of the Bon Ton Store.
âYou will enjoy Gopher Prairie very much, Mrs. Kennicott,â petitioned Raymie. His eyes were like those of a dog waiting to be let in out of the cold. He passed the stewed apricots effusively. âThere are a great many bright cultured people here. Mrs. Wilks, the Christian Science reader, is a very bright womanâ âthough I am not a Scientist myself, in fact I sing in the Episcopal choir. And Miss Sherwin of the high schoolâ âshe is such a pleasing, bright girlâ âI was fitting her to a pair of tan gaiters yesterday, I declare, it really was a pleasure.â
âGimme the butter, Carrie,â was Kennicottâs comment. She defied him by encouraging Raymie:
âDo you have amateur dramatics and so on here?â
âOh yes! The townâs just full of talent. The Knights of Pythias put on a dandy minstrel show last year.â
âItâs nice youâre so enthusiastic.â
âOh, do you really think so? Lots of folks jolly me for trying to get up shows and so on. I tell them they have more artistic gifts than they know. Just yesterday I was saying to Harry Haydock: if he would read poetry, like Longfellow, or if he would join the bandâ âI get so much pleasure out of playing the cornet, and our bandleader, Del Snafflin, is such a good musician, I often say he ought to give up his barbering and become a professional musician, he could play the clarinet in Minneapolis or New York or anywhere, butâ âbut I couldnât get Harry to see it at all andâ âI hear you and the doctor went out hunting yesterday. Lovely country, isnât it. And did you make some calls? The mercantile life isnât inspiring like medicine. It must be wonderful to see how patients trust you, doctor.â
âHuh. Itâs me thatâs got to do all the trusting. Be damn sight more wonderful âf theyâd pay their bills,â grumbled Kennicott and, to Carol, he whispered something which sounded like âgentleman hen.â
But Raymieâs pale eyes were watering at her. She helped him with, âSo you like to read poetry?â
âOh yes, so muchâ âthough to tell the truth, I donât get much time for reading, weâre always so busy at the store andâ âBut we had the dandiest professional reciter at the Pythian Sisters sociable last winter.â
Carol thought she heard a grunt from the traveling salesman at the end of the table, and Kennicottâs jerking elbow was a grunt embodied. She persisted:
âDo you get to see many plays, Mr. Wutherspoon?â
He shone at her like a dim blue March moon, and sighed, âNo, but I do love the movies. Iâm a real fan. One trouble with books is that theyâre not so thoroughly safeguarded by intelligent censors as the movies are, and when you drop into the library and take out a book you never know what youâre wasting your time on. What I like in books is a wholesome, really improving story, and sometimesâ âWhy, once I started a novel by this fellow Balzac that you read about, and it told how a lady wasnât living with her husband, I mean she wasnât his wife. It went into details, disgustingly! And the English was real poor. I spoke to the library about it, and they took it off the shelves. Iâm not narrow, but I must say I donât see any use in this deliberately dragging in immorality! Life itself is so full of temptations that in literature one wants only that which is pure and uplifting.â
âWhatâs the name of that Balzac yarn? Where can I get hold of it?â giggled the traveling salesman.
Raymie ignored him. âBut the movies, they are mostly clean, and their humorâ âDonât you think that the most essential quality for a person to have is a sense of humor?â
âI donât know. I really havenât much,â said Carol.
He shook his finger at her. âNow, now, youâre too modest. Iâm sure we can all see that you have a perfectly corking sense of humor. Besides, Dr. Kennicott wouldnât marry a lady that didnât have. We all know how he loves his fun!â
âYou bet. Iâm a jokey old bird. Come on, Carrie; letâs beat it,â remarked Kennicott.
Raymie implored, âAnd what is your chief artistic interest, Mrs. Kennicott?â
âOhâ ââ Aware that the traveling salesman had murmured, âDentistry,â she desperately hazarded, âArchitecture.â
âThatâs a real nice art. Iâve always saidâ âwhen Haydock & Simons were finishing the new front on the Bon Ton building, the old man came to me, you know, Harryâs father, âD. H.,â I always call him, and he asked me how I liked it, and I said to him, âLook here, D. H.,â I saidâ âyou see, he was going to leave the front plain, and I said to him, âItâs all very well to have modern lighting and a big display-space,â I said, âbut when you get that in, you want to have some architecture, too,â I said, and he laughed and said he guessed maybe I was right, and so he had âem put on a cornice.â
âTin!â observed the traveling salesman.
Raymie bared his teeth like a belligerent mouse. âWell, what if it is tin? Thatâs not my fault. I told D. H. to make it polished granite. You make me tired!â
âLeave us go! Come on, Carrie, leave us go!â from Kennicott.
Raymie waylaid them in the hall and secretly informed Carol that she musnât mind the traveling salesmanâs coarsenessâ âhe belonged to the hwa pollwa.
Kennicott chuckled, âWell, child, how about it? Do you prefer an artistic guy like Raymie to stupid boobs like Sam Clark and me?â
âMy dear! Letâs go home, and play pinochle, and laugh, and be foolish, and slip up to bed, and sleep without dreaming. Itâs beautiful to be just a solid citizeness!â
III
From the Gopher Prairie Weekly Dauntless:
One of the most charming affairs of the season was held Tuesday evening at the handsome new residence of Sam and Mrs. Clark when many of our most prominent citizens gathered to greet the lovely new bride of our popular local physician, Dr. Will Kennicott. All present spoke of the many charms of the bride, formerly Miss Carol Milford of St. Paul. Games and stunts were the order of the day, with merry talk and conversation. At a late hour dainty refreshments were served, and the party broke up with many expressions of pleasure at the pleasant affair. Among those present were Mesdames Kennicott, Elderâ â
Dr. Will Kennicott, for the past several years one of our most popular and skilful physicians and surgeons, gave the town a delightful surprise when he returned from an extended honeymoon tour in Colorado this week with his charming bride, nĂŠe Miss Carol Milford of St. Paul, whose family are socially prominent in Minneapolis and Mankato. Mrs. Kennicott is a lady of manifold charms, not only of striking charm of appearance but is also a distinguished graduate of a school in the East and has for the past year been prominently connected in an important position of responsibility with the St. Paul Public Library, in which city Dr. âWillâ had the good fortune to meet her. The city of Gopher Prairie welcomes her to our midst and prophesies for her many happy years in the energetic city of the twin lakes and the future. The Dr. and Mrs. Kennicott will reside for the present at the Doctorâs home on Poplar Street which his charming mother has been keeping for him who has now returned to her own home at Lac-qui-Meurt leaving a host of friends who regret her absence and hope to see her soon with us again.
IV
She knew that if she was ever to effect any of the âreformsâ which she had pictured, she must have a starting-place. What confused her during the three or four months after her marriage was not lack of perception that she must be definite, but sheer careless happiness of her first home.
In the pride of being a housewife she loved every detailâ âthe brocade armchair with the weak back, even the brass water-cock on the hot-water reservoir, when she had become familiar with it by trying to scour it to brilliance.
She found a maidâ âplump radiant Bea Sorenson from Scandia Crossing. Bea was droll in her attempt to be at once a respectful servant and a bosom friend. They laughed together over the fact that the stove did not draw, over the slipperiness of fish in the pan.
Like a child playing Grandma in a trailing skirt, Carol paraded uptown for her marketing, crying greetings to housewives along the way. Everybody bowed to her, strangers and all, and made her feel that they wanted her, that she belonged here. In city shops she was merely A Customerâ âa hat, a voice to bore a harassed clerk. Here she was Mrs. Doc Kennicott, and her preferences in grapefruit and manners were known and remembered and worth discussingâ ââ ⌠even if they werenât worth fulfilling.
Shopping was a delight of brisk conferences. The very merchants whose droning she found the dullest at the two or three parties which were given to welcome her were the pleasantest confidants of all when they had something to talk aboutâ âlemons or cotton voile or floor-oil. With that skipjack Dave Dyer, the druggist, she conducted a long mock-quarrel. She pretended that he cheated her in the price of magazines and candy; he pretended she was a detective from the Twin Cities. He hid behind the prescription-counter, and when she stamped her foot he came out wailing, âHonest, I havenât done nothing crooked todayâ ânot yet.â
She never recalled her first impression of Main Street; never had precisely the same despair at its ugliness. By the end of two shopping-tours everything had changed proportions. As she never entered it, the Minniemashie House ceased to exist for her. Clarkâs Hardware Store, Dyerâs Drug Store, the groceries of Ole Jenson and Frederick Ludelmeyer and Howland & Gould, the meat markets, the notions shopâ âthey expanded, and hid all other structures. When she entered Mr. Ludelmeyerâs store and he wheezed, âGoot morninâ, Mrs. Kennicott. Vell, dis iss a fine day,â she did not notice the dustiness of the shelves nor the stupidity of the girl clerk; and she did not remember the mute colloquy with him on her first view of Main Street.
She could not find half the kinds of food she wanted, but that made shopping more of an adventure. When she did contrive to get sweetbreads at Dahl & Olesonâs Meat Market the triumph was so vast that she buzzed with excitement and admired the strong wise butcher, Mr. Dahl.
She appreciated the homely ease of village life. She liked the old men, farmers, G.A.R. veterans, who when they gossiped sometimes squatted on their heels on the sidewalk, like resting Indians, and reflectively spat over the curb.
She found beauty in the children.
She had suspected that her married friends exaggerated their passion for children. But in her work in the library, children had become individuals to her, citizens of the State with their own rights and their own senses of humor. In the library she had not had much time to give them, but now she knew the luxury of stopping, gravely asking Bessie Clark whether her doll had yet recovered from its rheumatism, and agreeing with Oscar Martinsen that it would be Good Fun to go trapping âmushrats.â
She touched the thought, âIt would be sweet to have a baby of my own. I do want one. Tinyâ âNo! Not yet! Thereâs so much to do. And Iâm still tired from the job. Itâs in my bones.â
She rested at home. She listened to the village noises common to all the world, jungle or prairie; sounds simple and charged with magicâ âdogs barking, chickens making a gurgling sound of content, children at play, a man beating a rug, wind in the cottonwood trees, a locust fiddling, a footstep on the walk, jaunty voices of Bea and a grocerâs boy in the kitchen, a clinking anvil, a pianoâ ânot too near.
Twice a week, at least, she drove into the country with Kennicott, to hunt ducks in lakes enameled with sunset, or to call on patients who looked up to her as the squireâs lady and thanked her for toys and magazines. Evenings she went with her husband to the motion pictures and was boisterously greeted by every other couple; or, till it became too cold, they sat on the porch, bawling to passersby in motors, or to neighbors who were raking the leaves. The dust became golden in the low sun; the street was filled with the fragrance of burning leaves.
V
But she hazily wanted someone to whom she could say what she thought.
On a slow afternoon when she fidgeted over sewing and wished that the telephone would ring, Bea announced Miss Vida Sherwin.
Despite Vida Sherwinâs lively blue eyes, if you had looked at her in detail you would have found her face slightly lined, and not so much sallow as with the bloom rubbed off; you would have found her chest flat, and her fingers rough from needle and chalk and penholder; her blouses and plain cloth skirts undistinguished; and her hat worn too far back, betraying a dry forehead. But you never did look at Vida Sherwin in detail. You couldnât. Her electric activity veiled her. She was as energetic as a chipmunk. Her fingers fluttered; her sympathy came out in spurts; she sat on the edge of a chair in eagerness to be near her auditor, to send her enthusiasms and optimism across.
She rushed into the room pouring out: âIâm afraid youâll think the teachers have been shabby in not coming near you, but we wanted to give you a chance to get settled. I am Vida Sherwin, and I try to teach French and English and a few other things in the high school.â
âIâve been hoping to know the teachers. You see, I was a librarianâ ââ
âOh, you neednât tell me. I know all about you! Awful how much I knowâ âthis gossipy village. We need you so much here. Itâs a dear loyal town (and isnât loyalty the finest thing in the world!) but itâs a rough diamond, and we need you for the polishing, and weâre ever so humbleâ ââ She stopped for breath and finished her compliment with a smile.
âIf I could help you in any wayâ âWould I be committing the unpardonable sin if I whispered that I think Gopher Prairie is a tiny bit ugly?â
âOf course itâs ugly. Dreadfully! Though Iâm probably the only person in town to whom you could safely say that. (Except perhaps Guy Pollock the lawyerâ âhave you met him?â âoh, you must!â âheâs simply a darlingâ âintelligence and culture and so gentle.) But I donât care so much about the ugliness. That will change. Itâs the spirit that gives me hope. Itâs sound. Wholesome. But afraid. It needs live creatures like you to awaken it. I shall slave-drive you!â
âSplendid. What shall I do? Iâve been wondering if it would be possible to have a good architect come here to lecture.â
âYe-es, but donât you think it would be better to work with existing agencies? Perhaps it will sound slow to you, but I was thinkingâ âIt would be lovely if we could get you to teach Sunday School.â
Carol had the empty expression of one who finds that she has been affectionately bowing to a complete stranger. âOh yes. But Iâm afraid I wouldnât be much good at that. My religion is so foggy.â
âI know. So is mine. I donât care a bit for dogma. Though I do stick firmly to the belief in the fatherhood of God and the brotherhood of man and the leadership of Jesus. As you do, of course.â
Carol looked respectable and thought about having tea.
âAnd thatâs all you need teach in Sunday School. Itâs the personal influence. Then thereâs the library-board. Youâd be so useful on that. And of course thereâs our womenâs study clubâ âthe Thanatopsis Club.â
âAre they doing anything? Or do they read papers made out of the Encyclopedia?â
Miss Sherwin shrugged. âPerhaps. But still, they are so earnest. They will respond to your fresher interest. And the Thanatopsis does do a good social workâ âtheyâve made the city plant ever so many trees, and they run the restroom for farmersâ wives. And they do take such an interest in refinement and culture. Soâ âin fact, so very unique.â
Carol was disappointedâ âby nothing very tangible. She said politely, âIâll think them all over. I must have a while to look around first.â
Miss Sherwin darted to her, smoothed her hair, peered at her. âOh, my dear, donât you suppose I know? These first tender days of marriageâ âtheyâre sacred to me. Home, and children that need you, and depend on you to keep them alive, and turn to you with their wrinkly little smiles. And the hearth andâ ââ She hid her face from Carol as she made an activity of patting the cushion of her chair, but she went on with her former briskness:
âI mean, you must help us when youâre ready.â ââ ⌠Iâm afraid youâll think Iâm conservative. I am! So much to conserve. All this treasure of American ideals. Sturdiness and democracy and opportunity. Maybe not at Palm Beach. But, thank heaven, weâre free from such social distinctions in Gopher Prairie. I have only one good qualityâ âoverwhelming belief in the brains and hearts of our nation, our state, our town. Itâs so strong that sometimes I do have a tiny effect on the haughty ten-thousandaires. I shake âem up and make âem believe in idealsâ âyes, in themselves. But I get into a rut of teaching. I need young critical things like you to punch me up. Tell me, what are you reading?â
âIâve been rereading The Damnation of Theron Ware. Do you know it?â
âYes. It was clever. But hard. Man wanted to tear down, not build up. Cynical. Oh, I do hope Iâm not a sentimentalist. But I canât see any use in this high-art stuff that doesnât encourage us day-laborers to plod on.â
Ensued a fifteen-minute argument about the oldest topic in the world: Itâs art but is it pretty? Carol tried to be eloquent regarding honesty of observation. Miss Sherwin stood out for sweetness and a cautious use of the uncomfortable properties of light. At the end Carol cried:
âI donât care how much we disagree. Itâs a relief to have somebody talk something besides crops. Letâs make Gopher Prairie rock to its foundations: letâs have afternoon tea instead of afternoon coffee.â
The delighted Bea helped her bring out the ancestral folding sewing-table, whose yellow and black top was scarred with dotted lines from a dressmakerâs tracing-wheel, and to set it with an embroidered lunch-cloth, and the mauve-glazed Japanese tea-set which she had brought from St. Paul. Miss Sherwin confided her latest schemeâ âmoral motion pictures for country districts, with light from a portable dynamo hitched to a Ford engine. Bea was twice called to fill the hot-water pitcher and to make cinnamon toast.
When Kennicott came home at five he tried to be courtly, as befits the husband of one who has afternoon tea. Carol suggested that Miss Sherwin stay for supper, and that Kennicott invite Guy Pollock, the much-praised lawyer, the poetic bachelor.
Yes, Pollock could come. Yes, he was over the grippe which had prevented his going to Sam Clarkâs party.
Carol regretted her impulse. The man would be an opinionated politician, heavily jocular about The Bride. But at the entrance of Guy Pollock she discovered a personality. Pollock was a man of perhaps thirty-eight, slender, still, deferential. His voice was low. âIt was very good of you to want me,â he said, and he offered no humorous remarks, and did not ask her if she didnât think Gopher Prairie was âthe livest little burg in the state.â
She fancied that his even grayness might reveal a thousand tints of lavender and blue and silver.
At supper he hinted his love for Sir Thomas Browne, Thoreau, Agnes Repplier, Arthur Symons, Claude Washburn, Charles Flandrau. He presented his idols diffidently, but he expanded in Carolâs bookishness, in Miss Sherwinâs voluminous praise, in Kennicottâs tolerance of anyone who amused his wife.
Carol wondered why Guy Pollock went on digging at routine law-cases; why he remained in Gopher Prairie. She had no one whom she could ask. Neither Kennicott nor Vida Sherwin would understand that there might be reasons why a Pollock should not remain in Gopher Prairie. She enjoyed the faint mystery. She felt triumphant and rather literary. She already had a Group. It would be only a while now before she provided the town with fanlights and a knowledge of Galsworthy. She was doing things! As she served the emergency dessert of coconut and sliced oranges, she cried to Pollock, âDonât you think we ought to get up a dramatic club?â
VI
I
When the first dubious November snow had filtered down, shading with white the bare clods in the plowed fields, when the first small fire had been started in the furnace, which is the shrine of a Gopher Prairie home, Carol began to make the house her own. She dismissed the parlor furnitureâ âthe golden oak table with brass knobs, the moldy brocade chairs, the picture of âThe Doctor.â She went to Minneapolis, to scamper through department stores and small Tenth Street shops devoted to ceramics and high thought. She had to ship her treasures, but she wanted to bring them back in her arms.
Carpenters had torn out the partition between front parlor and back parlor, thrown it into a long room on which she lavished yellow and deep blue; a Japanese obi with an intricacy of gold thread on stiff ultramarine tissue, which she hung as a panel against the maize wall; a couch with pillows of sapphire velvet and gold bands; chairs which, in Gopher Prairie, seemed flippant. She hid the sacred family phonograph in the dining-room, and replaced its stand with a square cabinet on which was a squat blue jar between yellow candles.
Kennicott decided against a fireplace. âWeâll have a new house in a couple of years, anyway.â
She decorated only one room. The rest, Kennicott hinted, sheâd better leave till he âmade a ten-strike.â
The brown cube of a house stirred and awakened; it seemed to be in motion; it welcomed her back from shopping; it lost its mildewed repression.
The supreme verdict was Kennicottâs âWell, by golly, I was afraid the new junk wouldnât be so comfortable, but I must say this divan, or whatever you call it, is a lot better than that bumpy old sofa we had, and when I look aroundâ âWell, itâs worth all it cost, I guess.â
Everyone in town took an interest in the refurnishing. The carpenters and painters who did not actually assist crossed the lawn to peer through the windows and exclaim, âFine! Looks swell!â Dave Dyer at the drug store, Harry Haydock and Raymie Wutherspoon at the Bon Ton, repeated daily, âHowâs the good work coming? I hear the house is getting to be real classy.â
Even Mrs. Bogart.
Mrs. Bogart lived across the alley from the rear of Carolâs house. She was a widow, and a Prominent Baptist, and a Good Influence. She had so painfully reared three sons to be Christian gentlemen that one of them had become an Omaha bartender, one a professor of Greek, and one, Cyrus N. Bogart, a boy of fourteen who was still at home, the most brazen member of the toughest gang in Boytown.
Mrs. Bogart was not the acid type of Good Influence. She was the soft, damp, fat, sighing, indigestive, clinging, melancholy, depressingly hopeful kind. There are in every large chicken-yard a number of old and indignant hens who resemble Mrs. Bogart, and when they are served at Sunday noon dinner, as fricasseed chicken with thick dumplings, they keep up the resemblance.
Carol had noted that Mrs. Bogart from her side window kept an eye upon the house. The Kennicotts and Mrs. Bogart did not move in the same setsâ âwhich meant precisely the same in Gopher Prairie as it did on Fifth Avenue or in Mayfair. But the good widow came calling.
She wheezed in, sighed, gave Carol a pulpy hand, sighed, glanced sharply at the revelation of ankles as Carol crossed her legs, sighed, inspected the new blue chairs, smiled with a coy sighing sound, and gave voice:
âIâve wanted to call on you so long, dearie, you know weâre neighbors, but I thought Iâd wait till you got settled, you must run in and see me, how much did that big chair cost?â
âSeventy-seven dollars!â
âSevâ âSakes alive! Well, I suppose itâs all right for them that can afford it, though I do sometimes thinkâ âOf course as our pastor said once, at Baptist Churchâ âBy the way, we havenât seen you there yet, and of course your husband was raised up a Baptist, and I do hope he wonât drift away from the fold, of course we all know there isnât anything, not cleverness or gifts of gold or anything, that can make up for humility and the inward grace and they can say what they want to about the P.E. church, but of course thereâs no church that has more history or has stayed by the true principles of Christianity better than the Baptist Church andâ âIn what church were you raised, Mrs. Kennicott?â
âW-why, I went to Congregational, as a girl in Mankato, but my college was Universalist.â
âWellâ âBut of course as the Bible says, is it the Bible, at least I know I have heard it in church and everybody admits it, itâs proper for the little bride to take her husbandâs vessel of faith, so we all hope we shall see you at the Baptist Church andâ âAs I was saying, of course I agree with Reverend Zitterel in thinking that the great trouble with this nation today is lack of spiritual faithâ âso few going to church, and people automobiling on Sunday and heaven knows what all. But still I do think that one trouble is this terrible waste of money, people feeling that theyâve got to have bathtubs and telephones in their housesâ âI heard you were selling the old furniture cheap.â
âYes!â
âWellâ âof course you know your own mind, but I canât help thinking, when Willâs ma was down here keeping house for himâ âshe used to run in to see me, real often!â âit was good enough furniture for her. But there, there, I mustnât croak, I just wanted to let you know that when you find you canât depend on a lot of these gadding young folks like the Haydocks and the Dyersâ âand heaven only knows how much money Juanita Haydock blows in in a yearâ âwhy then you may be glad to know that slow old Aunty Bogart is always right there, and heaven knowsâ ââ A portentous sigh. ââ âI hope you and your husband wonât have any of the troubles, with sickness and quarreling and wasting money and all that so many of these young couples do have andâ âBut I must be running along now, dearie. Itâs been such a pleasure andâ âJust run in and see me any time. I hope Will is well? I thought he looked a wee mite peaked.â
It was twenty minutes later when Mrs. Bogart finally oozed out of the front door. Carol ran back into the living-room and jerked open the windows. âThat woman has left damp fingerprints in the air,â she said.
II
Carol was extravagant, but at least she did not try to clear herself of blame by going about whimpering, âI know Iâm terribly extravagant but I donât seem to be able to help it.â
Kennicott had never thought of giving her an allowance. His mother had never had one! As a wage-earning spinster Carol had asserted to her fellow librarians that when she was married, she was going to have an allowance and be businesslike and modern. But it was too much trouble to explain to Kennicottâs kindly stubbornness that she was a practical housekeeper as well as a flighty playmate. She bought a budget-plan account book and made her budgets as exact as budgets are likely to be when they lack budgets.
For the first month it was a honeymoon jest to beg prettily, to confess, âI havenât a cent in the house, dear,â and to be told, âYouâre an extravagant little rabbit.â But the budget book made her realize how inexact were her finances. She became self-conscious; occasionally she was indignant that she should always have to petition him for the money with which to buy his food. She caught herself criticizing his belief that, since his joke about trying to keep her out of the poorhouse had once been accepted as admirable humor, it should continue to be his daily bon mot. It was a nuisance to have to run down the street after him because she had forgotten to ask him for money at breakfast.
But she couldnât âhurt his feelings,â she reflected. He liked the lordliness of giving largess.
She tried to reduce the frequency of begging by opening accounts and having the bills sent to him. She had found that staple groceries, sugar, flour, could be most cheaply purchased at Axel Eggeâs rustic general store. She said sweetly to Axel:
âI think Iâd better open a charge account here.â
âI donât do no business except for cash,â grunted Axel.
She flared, âDo you know who I am?â
âYuh, sure, I know. The doc is good for it. But thatâs yoost a rule I made. I make low prices. I do business for cash.â
She stared at his red impassive face, and her fingers had the undignified desire to slap him, but her reason agreed with him. âYouâre quite right. You shouldnât break your rule for me.â
Her rage had not been lost. It had been transferred to her husband. She wanted ten pounds of sugar in a hurry, but she had no money. She ran up the stairs to Kennicottâs office. On the door was a sign advertising a headache cure and stating, âThe doctor is out, back at ⸝â Naturally, the blank space was not filled out. She stamped her foot. She ran down to the drug storeâ âthe doctorâs club.
As she entered she heard Mrs. Dyer demanding, âDave, Iâve got to have some money.â
Carol saw that her husband was there, and two other men, all listening in amusement.
Dave Dyer snapped, âHow much do you want? Dollar be enough?â
âNo, it wonât! Iâve got to get some underclothes for the kids.â
âWhy, good Lord, they got enough now to fill the closet so I couldnât find my hunting boots, last time I wanted them.â
âI donât care. Theyâre all in rags. You got to give me ten dollarsâ ââ
Carol perceived that Mrs. Dyer was accustomed to this indignity. She perceived that the men, particularly Dave, regarded it as an excellent jest. She waitedâ âshe knew what would comeâ âit did. Dave yelped, âWhereâs that ten dollars I gave you last year?â and he looked to the other men to laugh. They laughed.
Cold and still, Carol walked up to Kennicott and commanded, âI want to see you upstairs.â
âWhyâ âsomething the matter?â
âYes!â
He clumped after her, up the stairs, into his barren office. Before he could get out a query she stated:
âYesterday, in front of a saloon, I heard a German farm-wife beg her husband for a quarter, to get a toy for the babyâ âand he refused. Just now Iâve heard Mrs. Dyer going through the same humiliation. And Iâ âIâm in the same position! I have to beg you for money. Daily! I have just been informed that I couldnât have any sugar because I hadnât the money to pay for it!â
âWho said that? By God, Iâll kill anyâ ââ
âTut. It wasnât his fault. It was yours. And mine. I now humbly beg you to give me the money with which to buy meals for you to eat. And hereafter to remember it. The next time, I shanât beg. I shall simply starve. Do you understand? I canât go on being a slaveâ ââ
Her defiance, her enjoyment of the role, ran out. She was sobbing against his overcoat, âHow can you shame me so?â and he was blubbering, âDog-gone it, I meant to give you some, and I forgot it. I swear I wonât again. By golly I wonât!â
He pressed fifty dollars upon her, and after that he remembered to give her money regularlyâ ââ ⌠sometimes.
Daily she determined, âBut I must have a stated amountâ âbe businesslike. System. I must do something about it.â And daily she didnât do anything about it.
III
Mrs. Bogart had, by the simpering viciousness of her comments on the new furniture, stirred Carol to economy. She spoke judiciously to Bea about leftovers. She read the cookbook again and, like a child with a picture-book, she studied the diagram of the beef which gallantly continues to browse though it is divided into cuts.
But she was a deliberate and joyous spendthrift in her preparations for her first party, the housewarming. She made lists on every envelope and laundry-slip in her desk. She sent orders to Minneapolis âfancy grocers.â She pinned patterns and sewed. She was irritated when Kennicott was jocular about âthese frightful big doings that are going on.â She regarded the affair as an attack on Gopher Prairieâs timidity in pleasure. âIâll make âem lively, if nothing else. Iâll make âem stop regarding parties as committee-meetings.â
Kennicott usually considered himself the master of the house. At his desire, she went hunting, which was his symbol of happiness, and she ordered porridge for breakfast, which was his symbol of morality. But when he came home on the afternoon before the housewarming he found himself a slave, an intruder, a blunderer. Carol wailed, âFix the furnace so you wonât have to touch it after supper. And for heavenâs sake take that horrible old doormat off the porch. And put on your nice brown and white shirt. Why did you come home so late? Would you mind hurrying? Here it is almost suppertime, and those fiends are just as likely as not to come at seven instead of eight. Please hurry!â
She was as unreasonable as an amateur leading woman on a first night, and he was reduced to humility. When she came down to supper, when she stood in the doorway, he gasped. She was in a silver sheath, the calyx of a lily, her piled hair like black glass; she had the fragility and costliness of a Viennese goblet; and her eyes were intense. He was stirred to rise from the table and to hold the chair for her; and all through supper he ate his bread dry because he felt that she would think him common if he said âWill you hand me the butter?â
IV
She had reached the calmness of not caring whether her guests liked the party or not, and a state of satisfied suspense in regard to Beaâs technique in serving, before Kennicott cried from the bay-window in the living-room, âHere comes somebody!â and Mr. and Mrs. Luke Dawson faltered in, at a quarter to eight. Then in a shy avalanche arrived the entire aristocracy of Gopher Prairie: all persons engaged in a profession, or earning more than twenty-five hundred dollars a year, or possessed of grandparents born in America.
Even while they were removing their overshoes they were peeping at the new decorations. Carol saw Dave Dyer secretively turn over the gold pillows to find a price-tag, and heard Mr. Julius Flickerbaugh, the attorney, gasp, âWell, Iâll be switched,â as he viewed the vermilion print hanging against the Japanese obi. She was amused. But her high spirits slackened as she beheld them form in dress parade, in a long, silent, uneasy circle clear round the living-room. She felt that she had been magically whisked back to her first party, at Sam Clarkâs.
âHave I got to lift them, like so many pigs of iron? I donât know that I can make them happy, but Iâll make them hectic.â
A silver flame in the darkling circle, she whirled around, drew them with her smile, and sang, âI want my party to be noisy and undignified! This is the christening of my house, and I want you to help me have a bad influence on it, so that it will be a giddy house. For me, wonât you all join in an old-fashioned square dance? And Mr. Dyer will call.â
She had a record on the phonograph; Dave Dyer was capering in the center of the floor, loose-jointed, lean, small, rusty headed, pointed of nose, clapping his hands and shouting, âSwing yâ pardnersâ âalamun lef!â
Even the millionaire Dawsons and Ezra Stowbody and âProfessorâ George Edwin Mott danced, looking only slightly foolish; and by rushing about the room and being coy and coaxing to all persons over forty-five, Carol got them into a waltz and a Virginia Reel. But when she left them to disenjoy themselves in their own way Harry Haydock put a one-step record on the phonograph, the younger people took the floor, and all the elders sneaked back to their chairs, with crystallized smiles which meant, âDonât believe Iâll try this one myself, but I do enjoy watching the youngsters dance.â
Half of them were silent; half resumed the discussions of that afternoon in the store. Ezra Stowbody hunted for something to say, hid a yawn, and offered to Lyman Cass, the owner of the flour-mill, âHow dâ you folks like the new furnace, Lym? Huh? So.â
âOh, let them alone. Donât pester them. They must like it, or they wouldnât do it.â Carol warned herself. But they gazed at her so expectantly when she flickered past that she was reconvinced that in their debauches of respectability they had lost the power of play as well as the power of impersonal thought. Even the dancers were gradually crushed by the invisible force of fifty perfectly pure and well-behaved and negative minds; and they sat down, two by two. In twenty minutes the party was again elevated to the decorum of a prayer-meeting.
âWeâre going to do something exciting,â Carol exclaimed to her new confidante, Vida Sherwin. She saw that in the growing quiet her voice had carried across the room. Nat Hicks, Ella Stowbody, and Dave Dyer were abstracted, fingers and lips slightly moving. She knew with a cold certainty that Dave was rehearsing his âstuntâ about the Norwegian catching the hen, Ella running over the first lines of âAn Old Sweetheart of Mine,â and Nat thinking of his popular parody on Mark Antonyâs oration.
âBut I will not have anybody use the word âstuntâ in my house,â she whispered to Miss Sherwin.
âThatâs good. I tell you: why not have Raymond Wutherspoon sing?â
âRaymie? Why, my dear, heâs the most sentimental yearner in town!â
âSee here, child! Your opinions on house-decorating are sound, but your opinions of people are rotten! Raymie does wag his tail. But the poor dearâ âLonging for what he calls âself-expressionâ and no training in anything except selling shoes. But he can sing. And some day when he gets away from Harry Haydockâs patronage and ridicule, heâll do something fine.â
Carol apologized for her superciliousness. She urged Raymie, and warned the planners of âstunts,â âWe all want you to sing, Mr. Wutherspoon. Youâre the only famous actor Iâm going to let appear on the stage tonight.â
While Raymie blushed and admitted, âOh, they donât want to hear me,â he was clearing his throat, pulling his clean handkerchief farther out of his breast pocket, and thrusting his fingers between the buttons of his vest.
In her affection for Raymieâs defender, in her desire to âdiscover artistic talent,â Carol prepared to be delighted by the recital.
Raymie sang âFly as a Bird,â âThou Art My Dove,â and âWhen the Little Swallow Leaves Its Tiny Nest,â all in a reasonably bad offertory tenor.
Carol was shuddering with the vicarious shame which sensitive people feel when they listen to an âelocutionistâ being humorous, or to a precocious child publicly doing badly what no child should do at all. She wanted to laugh at the gratified importance in Raymieâs half-shut eyes; she wanted to weep over the meek ambitiousness which clouded like an aura his pale face, flap ears, and sandy pompadour. She tried to look admiring, for the benefit of Miss Sherwin, that trusting admirer of all that was or conceivably could be the good, the true, and the beautiful.
At the end of the third ornithological lyric Miss Sherwin roused from her attitude of inspired vision and breathed to Carol, âMy! That was sweet! Of course Raymond hasnât an unusually good voice, but donât you think he puts such a lot of feeling into it?â
Carol lied blackly and magnificently, but without originality: âOh yes, I do think he has so much feeling!â
She saw that after the strain of listening in a cultured manner the audience had collapsed; had given up their last hope of being amused. She cried, âNow weâre going to play an idiotic game which I learned in Chicago. You will have to take off your shoes, for a starter! After that you will probably break your knees and shoulder-blades.â
Much attention and incredulity. A few eyebrows indicating a verdict that Doc Kennicottâs bride was noisy and improper.
âI shall choose the most vicious, like Juanita Haydock and myself, as the shepherds. The rest of you are wolves. Your shoes are the sheep. The wolves go out into the hall. The shepherds scatter the sheep through this room, then turn off all the lights, and the wolves crawl in from the hall and in the darkness they try to get the shoes away from the shepherdsâ âwho are permitted to do anything except bite and use blackjacks. The wolves chuck the captured shoes out into the hall. No one excused! Come on! Shoes off!â
Everyone looked at everyone else and waited for everyone else to begin.
Carol kicked off her silver slippers, and ignored the universal glance at her arches. The embarrassed but loyal Vida Sherwin unbuttoned her high black shoes. Ezra Stowbody cackled, âWell, youâre a terror to old folks. Youâre like the gals I used to go horseback-riding with, back in the sixties. Ainât much accustomed to attending parties barefoot, but here goes!â With a whoop and a gallant jerk Ezra snatched off his elastic-sided Congress shoes.
The others giggled and followed.
When the sheep had been penned up, in the darkness the timorous wolves crept into the living-room, squealing, halting, thrown out of their habit of stolidity by the strangeness of advancing through nothingness toward a waiting foe, a mysterious foe which expanded and grew more menacing. The wolves peered to make out landmarks, they touched gliding arms which did not seem to be attached to a body, they quivered with a rapture of fear. Reality had vanished. A yelping squabble suddenly rose, then Juanita Haydockâs high titter, and Guy Pollockâs astonished, âOuch! Quit! Youâre scalping me!â
Mrs. Luke Dawson galloped backward on stiff hands and knees into the safety of the lighted hallway, moaning, âI declare, I nevâ was so upset in my life!â But the propriety was shaken out of her, and she delightedly continued to ejaculate âNevâ in my lifeâ as she saw the living-room door opened by invisible hands and shoes hurling through it, as she heard from the darkness beyond the door a squawling, a bumping, a resolute âHereâs a lot of shoes. Come on, you wolves. Ow! Yâ would, would you!â
When Carol abruptly turned on the lights in the embattled living-room, half of the company were sitting back against the walls, where they had craftily remained throughout the engagement, but in the middle of the floor Kennicott was wrestling with Harry Haydockâ âtheir collars torn off, their hair in their eyes; and the owlish Mr. Julius Flickerbaugh was retreating from Juanita Haydock, and gulping with unaccustomed laughter. Guy Pollockâs discreet brown scarf hung down his back. Young Rita Simonsâs net blouse had lost two buttons, and betrayed more of her delicious plump shoulder than was regarded as pure in Gopher Prairie. Whether by shock, disgust, joy of combat, or physical activity, all the party were freed from their years of social decorum. George Edwin Mott giggled; Luke Dawson twisted his beard; Mrs. Clark insisted, âI did too, Samâ âI got a shoeâ âI never knew I could fight so terrible!â
Carol was certain that she was a great reformer.
She mercifully had combs, mirrors, brushes, needle and thread ready. She permitted them to restore the divine decency of buttons.
The grinning Bea brought downstairs a pile of soft thick sheets of paper with designs of lotus blossoms, dragons, apes, in cobalt and crimson and gray, and patterns of purple birds flying among sea-green trees in the valleys of Nowhere.
âThese,â Carol announced, âare real Chinese masquerade costumes. I got them from an importing shop in Minneapolis. You are to put them on over your clothes, and please forget that you are Minnesotans, and turn into mandarins and coolies andâ âand samurai (isnât it?), and anything else you can think of.â
While they were shyly rustling the paper costumes she disappeared. Ten minutes after she gazed down from the stairs upon grotesquely ruddy Yankee heads above Oriental robes, and cried to them, âThe Princess Winky Poo salutes her court!â
As they looked up she caught their suspense of admiration. They saw an airy figure in trousers and coat of green brocade edged with gold; a high gold collar under a proud chin; black hair pierced with jade pins; a languid peacock fan in an outstretched hand; eyes uplifted to a vision of pagoda towers. When she dropped her pose and smiled down she discovered Kennicott apoplectic with domestic prideâ âand gray Guy Pollock staring beseechingly. For a second she saw nothing in all the pink and brown mass of their faces save the hunger of the two men.
She shook off the spell and ran down. âWeâre going to have a real Chinese concert. Messrs. Pollock, Kennicott, and, well, Stowbody are drummers; the rest of us sing and play the fife.â
The fifes were combs with tissue paper; the drums were tabourets and the sewing-table. Loren Wheeler, editor of the Dauntless, led the orchestra, with a ruler and a totally inaccurate sense of rhythm. The music was a reminiscence of tom-toms heard at circus fortune-telling tents or at the Minnesota State Fair, but the whole company pounded and puffed and whined in a singsong, and looked rapturous.
Before they were quite tired of the concert Carol led them in a dancing procession to the dining-room, to blue bowls of chow mein, with lychee nuts and ginger preserved in syrup.
None of them save that city-rounder Harry Haydock had heard of any Chinese dish except chop suey. With agreeable doubt they ventured through the bamboo shoots into the golden fried noodles of the chow mein; and Dave Dyer did a not very humorous Chinese dance with Nat Hicks; and there was hubbub and contentment.
Carol relaxed, and found that she was shockingly tired. She had carried them on her thin shoulders. She could not keep it up. She longed for her father, that artist at creating hysterical parties. She thought of smoking a cigarette, to shock them, and dismissed the obscene thought before it was quite formed. She wondered whether they could for five minutes be coaxed to talk about something besides the winter top of Knute Stamquistâs Ford, and what Al Tingley had said about his mother-in-law. She sighed, âOh, let âem alone. Iâve done enough.â She crossed her trousered legs, and snuggled luxuriously above her saucer of ginger; she caught Pollockâs congratulatory still smile, and thought well of herself for having thrown a rose light on the pallid lawyer; repented the heretical supposition that any male save her husband existed; jumped up to find Kennicott and whisper, âHappy, my lord?â ââ ⌠No, it didnât cost much!â
âBest party this town ever saw. Onlyâ âDonât cross your legs in that costume. Shows your knees too plain.â
She was vexed. She resented his clumsiness. She returned to Guy Pollock and talked of Chinese religionsâ ânot that she knew anything whatever about Chinese religions, but he had read a book on the subject as, on lonely evenings in his office, he had read at least one book on every subject in the world. Guyâs thin maturity was changing in her vision to flushed youth and they were roaming an island in the yellow sea of chatter when she realized that the guests were beginning that cough which indicated, in the universal instinctive language, that they desired to go home and go to bed.
While they asserted that it had been âthe nicest party theyâd ever seenâ âmy! so clever and original,â she smiled tremendously, shook hands, and cried many suitable things regarding children, and being sure to wrap up warmly, and Raymieâs singing and Juanita Haydockâs prowess at games. Then she turned wearily to Kennicott in a house filled with quiet and crumbs and shreds of Chinese costumes.
He was gurgling, âI tell you, Carrie, you certainly are a wonder, and guess youâre right about waking folks up. Now youâve showed âem how, they wonât go on having the same old kind of parties and stunts and everything. Here! Donât touch a thing! Done enough. Pop up to bed, and Iâll clear up.â
His wise surgeonâs-hands stroked her shoulder, and her irritation at his clumsiness was lost in his strength.
V
From the Weekly Dauntless:
One of the most delightful social events of recent months was held Wednesday evening in the housewarming of Dr. and Mrs. Kennicott, who have completely redecorated their charming home on Poplar Street, and is now extremely nifty in modern color scheme. The doctor and his bride were at home to their numerous friends and a number of novelties in diversions were held, including a Chinese orchestra in original and genuine Oriental costumes, of which Ye Editor was leader. Dainty refreshments were served in true Oriental style, and one and all voted a delightful time.
VI
The week after, the Chet Dashaways gave a party. The circle of mourners kept its place all evening, and Dave Dyer did the âstuntâ of the Norwegian and the hen.
VII
I
Gopher Prairie was digging in for the winter. Through late November and all December it snowed daily; the thermometer was at zero and might drop to twenty below, or thirty. Winter is not a season in the North Middlewest; it is an industry. Storm sheds were erected at every door. In every block the householders, Sam Clark, the wealthy Mr. Dawson, all save asthmatic Ezra Stowbody who extravagantly hired a boy, were seen perilously staggering up ladders, carrying storm windows and screwing them to second-story jambs. While Kennicott put up his windows Carol danced inside the bedrooms and begged him not to swallow the screws, which he held in his mouth like an extraordinary set of external false teeth.
The universal sign of winter was the town handymanâ âMiles Bjornstam, a tall, thick, red-mustached bachelor, opinionated atheist, general-store arguer, cynical Santa Claus. Children loved him, and he sneaked away from work to tell them improbable stories of seafaring and horse-trading and bears. The childrenâs parents either laughed at him or hated him. He was the one democrat in town. He called both Lyman Cass the miller and the Finn homesteader from Lost Lake by their first names. He was known as âThe Red Swede,â and considered slightly insane.
Bjornstam could do anything with his handsâ âsolder a pan, weld an automobile spring, soothe a frightened filly, tinker a clock, carve a Gloucester schooner which magically went into a bottle. Now, for a week, he was commissioner general of Gopher Prairie. He was the only person besides the repairman at Sam Clarkâs who understood plumbing. Everybody begged him to look over the furnace and the water-pipes. He rushed from house to house till after bedtimeâ âten oâclock. Icicles from burst water-pipes hung along the skirt of his brown dog-skin overcoat; his plush cap, which he never took off in the house, was a pulp of ice and coal-dust; his red hands were cracked to rawness; he chewed the stub of a cigar.
But he was courtly to Carol. He stooped to examine the furnace flues; he straightened, glanced down at her, and hemmed, âGot to fix your furnace, no matter what else I do.â
The poorer houses of Gopher Prairie, where the services of Miles Bjornstam were a luxuryâ âwhich included the shanty of Miles Bjornstamâ âwere banked to the lower windows with earth and manure. Along the railroad the sections of snow fence, which had been stacked all summer in romantic wooden tents occupied by roving small boys, were set up to prevent drifts from covering the track.
The farmers came into town in homemade sleighs, with bed-quilts and hay piled in the rough boxes.
Fur coats, fur caps, fur mittens, overshoes buckling almost to the knees, gray knitted scarfs ten feet long, thick woolen socks, canvas jackets lined with fluffy yellow wool like the plumage of ducklings, moccasins, red flannel wristlets for the blazing chapped wrists of boysâ âthese protections against winter were busily dug out of mothball-sprinkled drawers and tar-bags in closets, and all over town small boys were squealing, âOh, thereâs my mittens!â or âLook at my shoe-packs!â There is so sharp a division between the panting summer and the stinging winter of the Northern plains that they rediscovered with surprise and a feeling of heroism this armor of an Artic explorer.
Winter garments surpassed even personal gossip as the topic at parties. It was good form to ask, âPut on your heavies yet?â There were as many distinctions in wraps as in motor cars. The lesser sort appeared in yellow and black dogskin coats, but Kennicott was lordly in a long raccoon ulster and a new seal cap. When the snow was too deep for his motor he went off on country calls in a shiny, floral, steel-tipped cutter, only his ruddy nose and his cigar emerging from the fur.
Carol herself stirred Main Street by a loose coat of nutria. Her fingertips loved the silken fur.
Her liveliest activity now was organizing outdoor sports in the motor-paralyzed town.
The automobile and bridge-whist had not only made more evident the social divisions in Gopher Prairie but they had also enfeebled the love of activity. It was so rich-looking to sit and driveâ âand so easy. Skiing and sliding were âstupidâ and âold-fashioned.â In fact, the village longed for the elegance of city recreations almost as much as the cities longed for village sports; and Gopher Prairie took as much pride in neglecting coasting as St. Paulâ âor New Yorkâ âin going coasting. Carol did inspire a successful skating-party in mid-November. Plover Lake glistened in clear sweeps of gray-green ice, ringing to the skates. On shore the ice-tipped reeds clattered in the wind, and oak twigs with stubborn last leaves hung against a milky sky. Harry Haydock did figure-eights, and Carol was certain that she had found the perfect life. But when snow had ended the skating and she tried to get up a moonlight sliding party, the matrons hesitated to stir away from their radiators and their daily bridge-whist imitations of the city. She had to nag them. They scooted down a long hill on a bobsled, they upset and got snow down their necks they shrieked that they would do it again immediatelyâ âand they did not do it again at all.
She badgered another group into going skiing. They shouted and threw snowballs, and informed her that it was such fun, and theyâd have another skiing expedition right away, and they jollily returned home and never thereafter left their manuals of bridge.
Carol was discouraged. She was grateful when Kennicott invited her to go rabbit-hunting in the woods. She waded down stilly cloisters between burnt stump and icy oak, through drifts marked with a million hieroglyphics of rabbit and mouse and bird. She squealed as he leaped on a pile of brush and fired at the rabbit which ran out. He belonged there, masculine in reefer and sweater and high-laced boots. That night she ate prodigiously of steak and fried potatoes; she produced electric sparks by touching his ear with her fingertip; she slept twelve hours; and awoke to think how glorious was this brave land.
She rose to a radiance of sun on snow. Snug in her furs she trotted uptown. Frosted shingles smoked against a sky colored like flax-blossoms, sleigh-bells clinked, shouts of greeting were loud in the thin bright air, and everywhere was a rhythmic sound of wood-sawing. It was Saturday, and the neighborsâ sons were getting up the winter fuel. Behind walls of corded wood in back yards their sawbucks stood in depressions scattered with canary-yellow flakes of sawdust. The frames of their bucksaws were cherry-red, the blades blued steel, and the fresh cut ends of the sticksâ âpoplar, maple, ironwood, birchâ âwere marked with engraved rings of growth. The boys wore shoe-packs, blue flannel shirts with enormous pearl buttons, and mackinaws of crimson, lemon yellow, and foxy brown.
Carol cried âFine day!â to the boys; she came in a glow to Howland & Gouldâs grocery, her collar white with frost from her breath; she bought a can of tomatoes as though it were Orient fruit; and returned home planning to surprise Kennicott with an omelet creole for dinner.
So brilliant was the snow-glare that when she entered the house she saw the doorknobs, the newspaper on the table, every white surface as dazzling mauve, and her head was dizzy in the pyrotechnic dimness. When her eyes had recovered she felt expanded, drunk with health, mistress of life. The world was so luminous that she sat down at her rickety little desk in the living-room to make a poem. (She got no farther than âThe sky is bright, the sun is warm, there neâer will be another storm.â)
In the mid-afternoon of this same day Kennicott was called into the country. It was Beaâs evening outâ âher evening for the Lutheran Dance. Carol was alone from three till midnight. She wearied of reading pure love stories in the magazines and sat by a radiator, beginning to brood.
Thus she chanced to discover that she had nothing to do.
II
She had, she meditated, passed through the novelty of seeing the town and meeting people, of skating and sliding and hunting. Bea was competent; there was no household labor except sewing and darning and gossipy assistance to Bea in bed-making. She couldnât satisfy her ingenuity in planning meals. At Dahl & Olesonâs Meat Market you didnât give ordersâ âyou woefully inquired whether there was anything today besides steak and pork and ham. The cuts of beef were not cuts. They were hacks. Lamb chops were as exotic as sharksâ fins. The meat-dealers shipped their best to the city, with its higher prices.
In all the shops there was the same lack of choice. She could not find a glass-headed picture-nail in town; she did not hunt for the sort of veiling she wantedâ âshe took what she could get; and only at Howland & Gouldâs was there such a luxury as canned asparagus. Routine care was all she could devote to the house. Only by such fussing as the Widow Bogartâs could she make it fill her time.
She could not have outside employment. To the village doctorâs wife it was taboo.
She was a woman with a working brain and no work.
There were only three things which she could do: Have children; start her career of reforming; or become so definitely a part of the town that she would be fulfilled by the activities of church and study-club and bridge-parties.
Children, yes, she wanted them, butâ âShe was not quite ready. She had been embarrassed by Kennicottâs frankness, but she agreed with him that in the insane condition of civilization, which made the rearing of citizens more costly and perilous than any other crime, it was inadvisable to have children till he had made more money. She was sorryâ âPerhaps he had made all the mystery of love a mechanical cautiousness butâ âShe fled from the thought with a dubious, âSome day.â
Her âreforms,â her impulses toward beauty in raw Main Street, they had become indistinct. But she would set them going now. She would! She swore it with soft fist beating the edges of the radiator. And at the end of all her vows she had no notion as to when and where the crusade was to begin.
Become an authentic part of the town? She began to think with unpleasant lucidity. She reflected that she did not know whether the people liked her. She had gone to the women at afternoon-coffees, to the merchants in their stores, with so many outpouring comments and whimsies that she hadnât given them a chance to betray their opinions of her. The men smiledâ âbut did they like her? She was lively among the womenâ âbut was she one of them? She could not recall many times when she had been admitted to the whispering of scandal which is the secret chamber of Gopher Prairie conversation.
She was poisoned with doubt, as she drooped up to bed.
Next day, through her shopping, her mind sat back and observed. Dave Dyer and Sam Clark were as cordial as she had been fancying; but wasnât there an impersonal abruptness in the âHâ are yuh?â of Chet Dashaway? Howland the grocer was curt. Was that merely his usual manner?
âItâs infuriating to have to pay attention to what people think. In St. Paul I didnât care. But here Iâm spied on. Theyâre watching me. I mustnât let it make me self-conscious,â she coaxed herselfâ âoverstimulated by the drug of thought, and offensively on the defensive.
III
A thaw which stripped the snow from the sidewalks; a ringing iron night when the lakes could be heard booming; a clear roistering morning. In tam oâshanter and tweed skirt Carol felt herself a college junior going out to play hockey. She wanted to whoop, her legs ached to run. On the way home from shopping she yielded, as a pup would have yielded. She galloped down a block and as she jumped from a curb across a welter of slush, she gave a student âYippee!â
She saw that in a window three old women were gasping. Their triple glare was paralyzing. Across the street, at another window, the curtain had secretively moved. She stopped, walked on sedately, changed from the girl Carol into Mrs. Dr. Kennicott.
She never again felt quite young enough and defiant enough and free enough to run and halloo in the public streets; and it was as a Nice Married Woman that she attended the next weekly bridge of the Jolly Seventeen.
IV
The Jolly Seventeen (the membership of which ranged from fourteen to twenty-six) was the social cornice of Gopher Prairie. It was the country club, the diplomatic set, the St. Cecilia, the Ritz oval room, the Club de Vingt. To belong to it was to be âin.â Though its membership partly coincided with that of the Thanatopsis study club, the Jolly Seventeen as a separate entity guffawed at the Thanatopsis, and considered it middle-class and even âhighbrow.â
Most of the Jolly Seventeen were young married women, with their husbands as associate members. Once a week they had a womenâs afternoon-bridge; once a month the husbands joined them for supper and evening-bridge; twice a year they had dances at I.O.O.F. Hall. Then the town exploded. Only at the annual balls of the Firemen and of the Eastern Star was there such prodigality of chiffon scarfs and tangoing and heartburnings, and these rival institutions were not selectâ âhired girls attended the Firemenâs Ball, with section-hands and laborers. Ella Stowbody had once gone to a Jolly Seventeen SoirĂŠe in the village hack, hitherto confined to chief mourners at funerals; and Harry Haydock and Dr. Terry Gould always appeared in the townâs only specimens of evening clothes.
The afternoon-bridge of the Jolly Seventeen which followed Carolâs lonely doubting was held at Juanita Haydockâs new concrete bungalow, with its door of polished oak and beveled plate-glass, jar of ferns in the plastered hall, and in the living-room, a fumed oak Morris chair, sixteen color-prints, and a square varnished table with a mat made of cigar-ribbons on which was one Illustrated Gift Edition and one pack of cards in a burnt-leather case.
Carol stepped into a sirocco of furnace heat. They were already playing. Despite her flabby resolves she had not yet learned bridge. She was winningly apologetic about it to Juanita, and ashamed that she should have to go on being apologetic.
Mrs. Dave Dyer, a sallow woman with a thin prettiness devoted to experiments in religious cults, illnesses, and scandal-bearing, shook her finger at Carol and trilled, âYouâre a naughty one! I donât believe you appreciate the honor, when you got into the Jolly Seventeen so easy!â
Mrs. Chet Dashaway nudged her neighbor at the second table. But Carol kept up the appealing bridal manner so far as possible. She twittered, âYouâre perfectly right. Iâm a lazy thing. Iâll make Will start teaching me this very evening.â Her supplication had all the sound of birdies in the nest, and Easter church-bells, and frosted Christmas cards. Internally she snarled, âThat ought to be saccharine enough.â She sat in the smallest rocking-chair, a model of Victorian modesty. But she saw or she imagined that the women who had gurgled at her so welcomingly when she had first come to Gopher Prairie were nodding at her brusquely.
During the pause after the first game she petitioned Mrs. Jackson Elder, âDonât you think we ought to get up another bobsled party soon?â
âItâs so cold when you get dumped in the snow,â said Mrs. Elder, indifferently.
âI hate snow down my neck,â volunteered Mrs. Dave Dyer, with an unpleasant look at Carol and, turning her back, she bubbled at Rita Simons, âDearie, wonât you run in this evening? Iâve got the loveliest new Butterick pattern I want to show you.â
Carol crept back to her chair. In the fervor of discussing the game they ignored her. She was not used to being a wallflower. She struggled to keep from oversensitiveness, from becoming unpopular by the sure method of believing that she was unpopular; but she hadnât much reserve of patience, and at the end of the second game, when Ella Stowbody sniffily asked her, âAre you going to send to Minneapolis for your dress for the next soirĂŠeâ âheard you were,â Carol said âDonât know yetâ with unnecessary sharpness.
She was relieved by the admiration with which the jeune fille Rita Simons looked at the steel buckles on her pumps; but she resented Mrs. Howlandâs tart demand, âDonât you find that new couch of yours is too broad to be practical?â She nodded, then shook her head, and touchily left Mrs. Howland to get out of it any meaning she desired. Immediately she wanted to make peace. She was close to simpering in the sweetness with which she addressed Mrs. Howland: âI think that is the prettiest display of beef-tea your husband has in his store.â
âOh yes, Gopher Prairie isnât so much behind the times,â gibed Mrs. Howland. Someone giggled.
Their rebuffs made her haughty; her haughtiness irritated them to franker rebuffs; they were working up to a state of painfully righteous war when they were saved by the coming of food.
Though Juanita Haydock was highly advanced in the matters of finger-bowls, doilies, and bath-mats, her ârefreshmentsâ were typical of all the afternoon-coffees. Juanitaâs best friends, Mrs. Dyer and Mrs. Dashaway, passed large dinner plates, each with a spoon, a fork, and a coffee cup without saucer. They apologized and discussed the afternoonâs game as they passed through the thicket of womenâs feet. Then they distributed hot buttered rolls, coffee poured from an enamelware pot, stuffed olives, potato salad, and angelâs-food cake. There was, even in the most strictly conforming Gopher Prairie circles, a certain option as to collations. The olives need not be stuffed. Doughnuts were in some houses well thought of as a substitute for the hot buttered rolls. But there was in all the town no heretic save Carol who omitted angelâs-food.
They ate enormously. Carol had a suspicion that the thriftier housewives made the afternoon treat do for evening supper.
She tried to get back into the current. She edged over to Mrs. McGanum. Chunky, amiable, young Mrs. McGanum with her breast and arms of a milkmaid, and her loud delayed laugh which burst startlingly from a sober face, was the daughter of old Dr. Westlake, and the wife of Westlakeâs partner, Dr. McGanum. Kennicott asserted that Westlake and McGanum and their contaminated families were tricky, but Carol had found them gracious. She asked for friendliness by crying to Mrs. McGanum, âHow is the babyâs throat now?â and she was attentive while Mrs. McGanum rocked and knitted and placidly described symptoms.
Vida Sherwin came in after school, with Miss Ethel Villets, the town librarian. Miss Sherwinâs optimistic presence gave Carol more confidence. She talked. She informed the circle, âI drove almost down to Wahkeenyan with Will, a few days ago. Isnât the country lovely! And I do admire the Scandinavian farmers down there so: their big red barns and silos and milking-machines and everything. Do you all know that lonely Lutheran church, with the tin-covered spire, that stands out alone on a hill? Itâs so bleak; somehow it seems so brave. I do think the Scandinavians are the hardiest and best peopleâ ââ
âOh, do you think so?â protested Mrs. Jackson Elder. âMy husband says the Svenskas that work in the planing-mill are perfectly terribleâ âso silent and cranky, and so selfish, the way they keep demanding raises. If they had their way theyâd simply ruin the business.â
âYes, and theyâre simply ghastly hired girls!â wailed Mrs. Dave Dyer. âI swear, I work myself to skin and bone trying to please my hired girlsâ âwhen I can get them! I do everything in the world for them. They can have their gentleman friends call on them in the kitchen any time, and they get just the same to eat as we do, if thereâs, any left over, and I practically never jump on them.â
Juanita Haydock rattled, âTheyâre ungrateful, all that class of people. I do think the domestic problem is simply becoming awful. I donât know what the countryâs coming to, with these Scandahoofian clodhoppers demanding every cent you can save, and so ignorant and impertinent, and on my word, demanding bathtubs and everythingâ âas if they werenât mighty good and lucky at home if they got a bath in the washtub.â
They were off, riding hard. Carol thought of Bea and waylaid them:
âBut isnât it possibly the fault of the mistresses if the maids are ungrateful? For generations weâve given them the leavings of food, and holes to live in. I donât want to boast, but I must say I donât have much trouble with Bea. Sheâs so friendly. The Scandinavians are sturdy and honestâ ââ
Mrs. Dave Dyer snapped, âHonest? Do you call it honest to hold us up for every cent of pay they can get? I canât say that Iâve had any of them steal anything (though you might call it stealing to eat so much that a roast of beef hardly lasts three days), but just the same I donât intend to let them think they can put anything over on me! I always make them pack and unpack their trunks downstairs, right under my eyes, and then I know they arenât being tempted to dishonesty by any slackness on my part!â
âHow much do the maids get here?â Carol ventured.
Mrs. B. J. Gougerling, wife of the banker, stated in a shocked manner, âAny place from three-fifty to five-fifty a week! I know positively that Mrs. Clark, after swearing that she wouldnât weaken and encourage them in their outrageous demands, went and paid five-fiftyâ âthink of it! practically a dollar a day for unskilled work and, of course, her food and room and a chance to do her own washing right in with the rest of the wash. How much do you pay, Mrs. Kennicott?â
âYes! How much do you pay?â insisted half a dozen.
âW-why, I pay six a week,â she feebly confessed.
They gasped. Juanita protested, âDonât you think itâs hard on the rest of us when you pay so much?â Juanitaâs demand was reinforced by the universal glower.
Carol was angry. âI donât care! A maid has one of the hardest jobs on earth. She works from ten to eighteen hours a day. She has to wash slimy dishes and dirty clothes. She tends the children and runs to the door with wet chapped hands andâ ââ
Mrs. Dave Dyer broke into Carolâs peroration with a furious, âThatâs all very well, but believe me, I do those things myself when Iâm without a maidâ âand thatâs a good share of the time for a person that isnât willing to yield and pay exorbitant wages!â
Carol was retorting, âBut a maid does it for strangers, and all she gets out of it is the payâ ââ
Their eyes were hostile. Four of them were talking at once. Vida Sherwinâs dictatorial voice cut through, took control of the revolution:
âTut, tut, tut, tut! What angry passionsâ âand what an idiotic discussion! All of you getting too serious. Stop it! Carol Kennicott, youâre probably right, but youâre too much ahead of the times. Juanita, quit looking so belligerent. What is this, a card party or a hen fight? Carol, you stop admiring yourself as the Joan of Arc of the hired girls, or Iâll spank you. You come over here and talk libraries with Ethel Villets. Boooooo! If thereâs any more pecking, Iâll take charge of the hen roost myself!â
They all laughed artificially, and Carol obediently âtalked libraries.â
A small-town bungalow, the wives of a village doctor and a village dry-goods merchant, a provincial teacher, a colloquial brawl over paying a servant a dollar more a week. Yet this insignificance echoed cellar-plots and cabinet meetings and labor conferences in Persia and Prussia, Rome and Boston, and the orators who deemed themselves international leaders were but the raised voices of a billion Juanitas denouncing a million Carols, with a hundred thousand Vida Sherwins trying to shoo away the storm.
Carol felt guilty. She devoted herself to admiring the spinsterish Miss Villetsâ âand immediately committed another offense against the laws of decency.
âWe havenât seen you at the library yet,â Miss Villets reproved.
âIâve wanted to run in so much but Iâve been getting settled andâ âIâll probably come in so often youâll get tired of me! I hear you have such a nice library.â
âThere are many who like it. We have two thousand more books than Wakamin.â
âIsnât that fine. Iâm sure you are largely responsible. Iâve had some experience, in St. Paul.â
âSo I have been informed. Not that I entirely approve of library methods in these large cities. So careless, letting tramps and all sorts of dirty persons practically sleep in the reading-rooms.â
âI know, but the poor soulsâ âWell, Iâm sure you will agree with me in one thing: The chief task of a librarian is to get people to read.â
âYou feel so? My feeling, Mrs. Kennicott, and I am merely quoting the librarian of a very large college, is that the first duty of the conscientious librarian is to preserve the books.â
âOh!â Carol repented her âOh.â Miss Villets stiffened, and attacked:
âIt may be all very well in cities, where they have unlimited funds, to let nasty children ruin books and just deliberately tear them up, and fresh young men take more books out than they are entitled to by the regulations, but Iâm never going to permit it in this library!â
âWhat if some children are destructive? They learn to read. Books are cheaper than minds.â
âNothing is cheaper than the minds of some of these children that come in and bother me simply because their mothers donât keep them home where they belong. Some librarians may choose to be so wishy-washy and turn their libraries into nursing-homes and kindergartens, but as long as Iâm in charge, the Gopher Prairie library is going to be quiet and decent, and the books well kept!â
Carol saw that the others were listening, waiting for her to be objectionable. She flinched before their dislike. She hastened to smile in agreement with Miss Villets, to glance publicly at her wristwatch, to warble that it was âso lateâ âhave to hurry homeâ âhusbandâ âsuch nice partyâ âmaybe you were right about maids, prejudiced because Bea so niceâ âsuch perfectly divine angelâs-food, Mrs. Haydock must give me the recipeâ âgoodbye, such happy partyâ ââ
She walked home. She reflected, âIt was my fault. I was touchy. And I opposed them so much. Onlyâ âI canât! I canât be one of them if I must damn all the maids toiling in filthy kitchens, all the ragged hungry children. And these women are to be my arbiters, the rest of my life!â
She ignored Beaâs call from the kitchen; she ran upstairs to the unfrequented guestroom; she wept in terror, her body a pale arc as she knelt beside a cumbrous black-walnut bed, beside a puffy mattress covered with a red quilt, in a shuttered and airless room.
VIII
I
âDonât I, in looking for things to do, show that Iâm not attentive enough to Will? Am I impressed enough by his work? I will be. Oh, I will be. If I canât be one of the town, if I must be an outcastâ ââ
When Kennicott came home she bustled, âDear, you must tell me a lot more about your cases. I want to know. I want to understand.â
âSure. You bet.â And he went down to fix the furnace.
At supper she asked, âFor instance, what did you do today?â
âDo today? How do you mean?â
âMedically. I want to understandâ ââ
âToday? Oh, there wasnât much of anything: couple chumps with bellyaches, and a sprained wrist, and a fool woman that thinks she wants to kill herself because her husband doesnât like her andâ âJust routine work.â
âBut the unhappy woman doesnât sound routine!â
âHer? Just case of nerves. You canât do much with these marriage mix-ups.â
âBut dear, please, will you tell me about the next case that you do think is interesting?â
âSure. You bet. Tell you about anything thatâ âSay, thatâs pretty good salmon. Get it at Howlandâs?â
II
Four days after the Jolly Seventeen debacle Vida Sherwin called and casually blew Carolâs world to pieces.
âMay I come in and gossip a while?â she said, with such excess of bright innocence that Carol was uneasy. Vida took off her furs with a bounce, she sat down as though it were a gymnasium exercise, she flung out:
âFeel disgracefully good, this weather! Raymond Wutherspoon says if he had my energy heâd be a grand opera singer. I always think this climate is the finest in the world, and my friends are the dearest people in the world, and my work is the most essential thing in the world. Probably I fool myself. But I know one thing for certain: Youâre the pluckiest little idiot in the world.â
âAnd so you are about to flay me alive.â Carol was cheerful about it.
âAm I? Perhaps. Iâve been wonderingâ âI know that the third party to a squabble is often the most to blame: the one who runs between A and B having a beautiful time telling each of them what the other has said. But I want you to take a big part in vitalizing Gopher Prairie and soâ âSuch a very unique opportunity andâ âAm I silly?â
âI know what you mean. I was too abrupt at the Jolly Seventeen.â
âIt isnât that. Matter of fact, Iâm glad you told them some wholesome truths about servants. (Though perhaps you were just a bit tactless.) Itâs bigger than that. I wonder if you understand that in a secluded community like this every newcomer is on test? People cordial to her but watching her all the time. I remember when a Latin teacher came here from Wellesley, they resented her broad A. Were sure it was affected. Of course they have discussed youâ ââ
âHave they talked about me much?â
âMy dear!â
âI always feel as though I walked around in a cloud, looking out at others but not being seen. I feel so inconspicuous and so normalâ âso normal that thereâs nothing about me to discuss. I canât realize that Mr. and Mrs. Haydock must gossip about me.â Carol was working up a small passion of distaste. âAnd I donât like it. It makes me crawly to think of their daring to talk over all I do and say. Pawing me over! I resent it. I hateâ ââ
âWait, child! Perhaps they resent some things in you. I want you to try and be impersonal. Theyâd paw over anybody who came in new. Didnât you, with newcomers in College?â
âYes.â
âWell then! Will you be impersonal? Iâm paying you the compliment of supposing that you can be. I want you to be big enough to help me make this town worth while.â
âIâll be as impersonal as cold boiled potatoes. (Not that I shall ever be able to help you âmake the town worth while.â) What do they say about me? Really. I want to know.â
âOf course the illiterate ones resent your references to anything farther away than Minneapolis. Theyâre so suspiciousâ âthatâs it, suspicious. And some think you dress too well.â
âOh, they do, do they! Shall I dress in gunny-sacking to suit them?â
âPlease! Are you going to be a baby?â
âIâll be good,â sulkily.
âYou certainly will, or I wonât tell you one single thing. You must understand this: Iâm not asking you to change yourself. Just want you to know what they think. You must do that, no matter how absurd their prejudices are, if youâre going to handle them. Is it your ambition to make this a better town, or isnât it?â
âI donât know whether it is or not!â
âWhyâ âwhyâ âTut, tut, now, of course it is! Why, I depend on you. Youâre a born reformer.â
âI am notâ ânot any more!â
âOf course you are.â
âOh, if I really could helpâ âSo they think Iâm affected?â
âMy lamb, they do! Now donât say theyâre nervy. After all, Gopher Prairie standards are as reasonable to Gopher Prairie as Lake Shore Drive standards are to Chicago. And thereâs more Gopher Prairies than there are Chicagos. Or Londons. Andâ âIâll tell you the whole story: They think youâre showing off when you say âAmericanâ instead of âAmmurrican.â They think youâre too frivolous. Lifeâs so serious to them that they canât imagine any kind of laughter except Juanitaâs snortling. Ethel Villets was sure you were patronizing her whenâ ââ
âOh, I was not!â
ââ âyou talked about encouraging reading; and Mrs. Elder thought you were patronizing when you said she had âsuch a pretty little car.â She thinks itâs an enormous car! And some of the merchants say youâre too flip when you talk to them in the store andâ ââ
âPoor me, when I was trying to be friendly!â
ââ âevery housewife in town is doubtful about your being so chummy with your Bea. All right to be kind, but they say you act as though she were your cousin. (Wait now! Thereâs plenty more.) And they think you were eccentric in furnishing this roomâ âthey think the broad couch and that Japanese dingus are absurd. (Wait! I know theyâre silly.) And I guess Iâve heard a dozen criticize you because you donât go to church oftener andâ ââ
âI canât stand itâ âI canât bear to realize that theyâve been saying all these things while Iâve been going about so happily and liking them. I wonder if you ought to have told me? It will make me self-conscious.â
âI wonder the same thing. Only answer I can get is the old saw about knowledge being power. And some day youâll see how absorbing it is to have power, even here; to control the townâ âOh, Iâm a crank. But I do like to see things moving.â
âIt hurts. It makes these people seem so beastly and treacherous, when Iâve been perfectly natural with them. But letâs have it all. What did they say about my Chinese housewarming party?â
âWhy, uhâ ââ
âGo on. Or Iâll make up worse things than anything you can tell me.â
âThey did enjoy it. But I guess some of them felt you were showing offâ âpretending that your husband is richer than he is.â
âI canâtâ âTheir meanness of mind is beyond any horrors I could imagine. They really thought that Iâ âAnd you want to âreformâ people like that when dynamite is so cheap? Who dared to say that? The rich or the poor?â
âFairly well assorted.â
âCanât they at least understand me well enough to see that though I might be affected and culturine, at least I simply couldnât commit that other kind of vulgarity? If they must know, you may tell them, with my compliments, that Will makes about four thousand a year, and the party cost half of what they probably thought it did. Chinese things are not very expensive, and I made my own costumeâ ââ
âStop it! Stop beating me! I know all that. What they meant was: they felt you were starting dangerous competition by giving a party such as most people here canât afford. Four thousand is a pretty big income for this town.â
âI never thought of starting competition. Will you believe that it was in all love and friendliness that I tried to give them the gayest party I could? It was foolish; it was childish and noisy. But I did mean it so well.â
âI know, of course. And it certainly is unfair of them to make fun of your having that Chinese foodâ âchow men, was it?â âand to laugh about your wearing those pretty trousersâ ââ
Carol sprang up, whimpering, âOh, they didnât do that! They didnât poke fun at my feast, that I ordered so carefully for them! And my little Chinese costume that I was so happy makingâ âI made it secretly, to surprise them. And theyâve been ridiculing it, all this while!â
She was huddled on the couch.
Vida was stroking her hair, muttering, âI shouldnâtâ ââ
Shrouded in shame, Carol did not know when Vida slipped away. The clockâs bell, at half past five, aroused her. âI must get hold of myself before Will comes. I hope he never knows what a fool his wife is.â ââ ⌠Frozen, sneering, horrible hearts.â
Like a very small, very lonely girl she trudged upstairs, slow step by step, her feet dragging, her hand on the rail. It was not her husband to whom she wanted to run for protectionâ âit was her father, her smiling understanding father, dead these twelve years.
III
Kennicott was yawning, stretched in the largest chair, between the radiator and a small kerosene stove.
Cautiously, âWill dear, I wonder if the people here donât criticize me sometimes? They must. I mean: if they ever do, you mustnât let it bother you.â
âCriticize you? Lord, I should say not. They all keep telling me youâre the swellest girl they ever saw.â
âWell, Iâve just fanciedâ âThe merchants probably think Iâm too fussy about shopping. Iâm afraid I bore Mr. Dashaway and Mr. Howland and Mr. Ludelmeyer.â
âI can tell you how that is. I didnât want to speak of it but since youâve brought it up: Chet Dashaway probably resents the fact that you got this new furniture down in the Cities instead of here. I didnât want to raise any objection at the time butâ âAfter all, I make my money here and they naturally expect me to spend it here.â
âIf Mr. Dashaway will kindly tell me how any civilized person can furnish a room out of the mortuary pieces that he callsâ ââ She remembered. She said meekly, âBut I understand.â
âAnd Howland and Ludelmeyerâ âOh, youâve probably handed âem a few roasts for the bum stocks they carry, when you just meant to jolly âem. But rats, what do we care! This is an independent town, not like these Eastern holes where you have to watch your step all the time, and live up to fool demands and social customs, and a lot of old tabbies always busy criticizing. Everybodyâs free here to do what he wants to.â He said it with a flourish, and Carol perceived that he believed it. She turned her breath of fury into a yawn.
âBy the way, Carrie, while weâre talking of this: Of course I like to keep independent, and I donât believe in this business of binding yourself to trade with the man that trades with you unless you really want to, but same time: Iâd be just as glad if you dealt with Jenson or Ludelmeyer as much as you ran, instead of Howland & Gould, who go to Dr. Gould every last time, and the whole tribe of âem the same way. I donât see why I should be paying out my good money for groceries and having them pass it on to Terry Gould!â
âIâve gone to Howland & Gould because theyâre better, and cleaner.â
âI know. I donât mean cut them out entirely. Course Jenson is trickyâ âgive you short weightâ âand Ludelmeyer is a shiftless old Dutch hog. But same time, I mean letâs keep the trade in the family whenever it is convenient, see how I mean?â
âI see.â
âWell, guess itâs about time to turn in.â
He yawned, went out to look at the thermometer, slammed the door, patted her head, unbuttoned his waistcoat, yawned, wound the clock, went down to look at the furnace, yawned, and clumped upstairs to bed, casually scratching his thick woolen undershirt.
Till he bawled, âArenât you ever coming up to bed?â she sat unmoving.
IX
I
She had tripped into the meadow to teach the lambs a pretty educational dance and found that the lambs were wolves. There was no way out between their pressing gray shoulders. She was surrounded by fangs and sneering eyes.
She could not go on enduring the hidden derision. She wanted to flee. She wanted to hide in the generous indifference of cities. She practised saying to Kennicott, âThink perhaps Iâll run down to St. Paul for a few days.â But she could not trust herself to say it carelessly; could not abide his certain questioning.
Reform the town? All she wanted was to be tolerated!
She could not look directly at people. She flushed and winced before citizens who a week ago had been amusing objects of study, and in their good-mornings she heard a cruel sniggering.
She encountered Juanita Haydock at Ole Jensonâs grocery. She besought, âOh, how do you do! Heavens, what beautiful celery that is!â
âYes, doesnât it look fresh. Harry simply has to have his celery on Sunday, drat the man!â
Carol hastened out of the shop exulting, âShe didnât make fun of me.â ââ ⌠Did she?â
In a week she had recovered from consciousness of insecurity, of shame and whispering notoriety, but she kept her habit of avoiding people. She walked the streets with her head down. When she spied Mrs. McGanum or Mrs. Dyer ahead she crossed over with an elaborate pretense of looking at a billboard. Always she was acting, for the benefit of everyone she sawâ âand for the benefit of the ambushed leering eyes which she did not see.
She perceived that Vida Sherwin had told the truth. Whether she entered a store, or swept the back porch, or stood at the bay-window in the living-room, the village peeped at her. Once she had swung along the street triumphant in making a home. Now she glanced at each house, and felt, when she was safely home, that she had won past a thousand enemies armed with ridicule. She told herself that her sensitiveness was preposterous, but daily she was thrown into panic. She saw curtains slide back into innocent smoothness. Old women who had been entering their houses slipped out again to stare at herâ âin the wintry quiet she could hear them tiptoeing on their porches. When she had for a blessed hour forgotten the searchlight, when she was scampering through a chill dusk, happy in yellow windows against gray night, her heart checked as she realized that a head covered with a shawl was thrust up over a snow-tipped bush to watch her.
She admitted that she was taking herself too seriously; that villagers gape at everyone. She became placid, and thought well of her philosophy. But next morning she had a shock of shame as she entered Ludelmeyerâs. The grocer, his clerk, and neurotic Mrs. Dave Dyer had been giggling about something. They halted, looked embarrassed, babbled about onions. Carol felt guilty. That evening when Kennicott took her to call on the crochety Lyman Casses, their hosts seemed flustered at their arrival. Kennicott jovially hooted, âWhat makes you so hangdog, Lym?â The Casses tittered feebly.
Except Dave Dyer, Sam Clark, and Raymie Wutherspoon, there were no merchants of whose welcome Carol was certain. She knew that she read mockery into greetings but she could not control her suspicion, could not rise from her psychic collapse. She alternately raged and flinched at the superiority of the merchants. They did not know that they were being rude, but they meant to have it understood that they were prosperous and ânot scared of no doctorâs wife.â They often said, âOne manâs as good as anotherâ âand a darn sight better.â This motto, however, they did not commend to farmer customers who had had crop failures. The Yankee merchants were crabbed; and Ole Jenson, Ludelmeyer, and Gus Dahl, from the âOld Country,â wished to be taken for Yankees. James Madison Howland, born in New Hampshire, and Ole Jenson, born in Sweden, both proved that they were free American citizens by grunting, âI donât know whether I got any or not,â or âWell, you canât expect me to get it delivered by noon.â
It was good form for the customers to fight back. Juanita Haydock cheerfully jabbered, âYou have it there by twelve or Iâll snatch that fresh delivery-boy bald-headed.â But Carol had never been able to play the game of friendly rudeness; and now she was certain that she never would learn it. She formed the cowardly habit of going to Axel Eggeâs.
Axel was not respectable and rude. He was still a foreigner, and he expected to remain one. His manner was heavy and uninterrogative. His establishment was more fantastic than any crossroads store. No one save Axel himself could find anything. A part of the assortment of childrenâs stockings was under a blanket on a shelf, a part in a tin gingersnap box, the rest heaped like a nest of black-cotton snakes upon a flour-barrel which was surrounded by brooms, Norwegian Bibles, dried cod for ludfisk, boxes of apricots, and a pair and a half of lumbermenâs rubber-footed boots. The place was crowded with Scandinavian farmwives, standing aloof in shawls and ancient fawn-colored leg oâ mutton jackets, awaiting the return of their lords. They spoke Norwegian or Swedish, and looked at Carol uncomprehendingly. They were a relief to herâ âthey were not whispering that she was a poseur.
But what she told herself was that Axel Eggeâs was âso picturesque and romantic.â
It was in the matter of clothes that she was most self-conscious.
When she dared to go shopping in her new checked suit with the black-embroidered sulphur collar, she had as good as invited all of Gopher Prairie (which interested itself in nothing so intimately as in new clothes and the cost thereof) to investigate her. It was a smart suit with lines unfamiliar to the dragging yellow and pink frocks of the town. The Widow Bogartâs stare, from her porch, indicated, âWell I never saw anything like that before!â Mrs. McGanum stopped Carol at the notions shop to hint, âMy, thatâs a nice suitâ âwasnât it terribly expensive?â The gang of boys in front of the drug store commented, âHey, Pudgie, play you a game of checkers on that dress.â Carol could not endure it. She drew her fur coat over the suit and hastily fastened the buttons, while the boys snickered.
II
No group angered her quite so much as these staring young rouĂŠs.
She had tried to convince herself that the village, with its fresh air, its lakes for fishing and swimming, was healthier than the artificial city. But she was sickened by glimpses of the gang of boys from fourteen to twenty who loafed before Dyerâs Drug Store, smoking cigarettes, displaying âfancyâ shoes and purple ties and coats of diamond-shaped buttons, whistling the Hoochi-Koochi and catcalling, âOh, you baby-dollâ at every passing girl.
She saw them playing pool in the stinking room behind Del Snafflinâs barber shop, and shaking dice in the Smoke House, and gathered in a snickering knot to listen to the âjuicy storiesâ of Bert Tybee, the bartender of the Minniemashie House. She heard them smacking moist lips over every love-scene at the Rosebud Movie Palace. At the counter of the Greek Confectionery Parlor, while they ate dreadful messes of decayed bananas, acid cherries, whipped cream, and gelatinous ice-cream, they screamed to one another, âHey, lemme âlone,â âQuit dog-gone you, looka what you went and done, you almost spilled my glass swater,â âLike hell I did,â âHey, gol darn your hide, donât you go sticking your coffin nail in my i-scream,â âOh you Batty, how juh like dancing with Tillie McGuire, last night? Some squeezing, heh, kid?â
By diligent consultation of American fiction she discovered that this was the only virile and amusing manner in which boys could function; that boys who were not compounded of the gutter and the mining-camp were mollycoddles and unhappy. She had taken this for granted. She had studied the boys pityingly, but impersonally. It had not occurred to her that they might touch her.
Now she was aware that they knew all about her; that they were waiting for some affectation over which they could guffaw. No schoolgirl passed their observation-posts more flushingly than did Mrs. Dr. Kennicott. In shame she knew that they glanced appraisingly at her snowy overshoes, speculating about her legs. Theirs were not young eyesâ âthere was no youth in all the town, she agonized. They were born old, grim and old and spying and censorious.
She cried again that their youth was senile and cruel on the day when she overheard Cy Bogart and Earl Haydock.
Cyrus N. Bogart, son of the righteous widow who lived across the alley, was at this time a boy of fourteen or fifteen. Carol had already seen quite enough of Cy Bogart. On her first evening in Gopher Prairie Cy had appeared at the head of a âcharivari,â banging immensely upon a discarded automobile fender. His companions were yelping in imitation of coyotes. Kennicott had felt rather complimented; had gone out and distributed a dollar. But Cy was a capitalist in charivaris. He returned with an entirely new group, and this time there were three automobile fenders and a carnival rattle. When Kennicott again interrupted his shaving, Cy piped, âNaw, you got to give us two dollars,â and he got it. A week later Cy rigged a tic-tac to a window of the living-room, and the tattoo out of the darkness frightened Carol into screaming. Since then, in four months, she had beheld Cy hanging a cat, stealing melons, throwing tomatoes at the Kennicott house, and making ski-tracks across the lawn, and had heard him explaining the mysteries of generation, with great audibility and dismaying knowledge. He was, in fact, a museum specimen of what a small town, a well-disciplined public school, a tradition of hearty humor, and a pious mother could produce from the material of a courageous and ingenious mind.
Carol was afraid of him. Far from protesting when he set his mongrel on a kitten, she worked hard at not seeing him.
The Kennicott garage was a shed littered with paint-cans, tools, a lawn-mower, and ancient wisps of hay. Above it was a loft which Cy Bogart and Earl Haydock, young brother of Harry, used as a den, for smoking, hiding from whippings, and planning secret societies. They climbed to it by a ladder on the alley side of the shed.
This morning of late January, two or three weeks after Vidaâs revelations, Carol had gone into the stable-garage to find a hammer. Snow softened her step. She heard voices in the loft above her:
âAh gee, lezâ âoh, lez go down the lake and swipe some mushrats out of somebodyâs traps,â Cy was yawning.
âAnd get our ears beat off!â grumbled Earl Haydock.
âGosh, these cigarettes are dandy. âMember when we were just kids, and used to smoke corn-silk and hayseed?â
âYup. Gosh!â
Spit. Silence.
âSay Earl, ma says if you chew tobacco you get consumption.â
âAw rats, your old lady is a crank.â
âYuh, thatâs so.â Pause. âBut she says she knows a fella that did.â
âAw, gee whiz, didnât Doc Kennicott used to chew tobacco all the time before he married this-here girl from the Cities? He used to spitâ âGee! Some shot! He could hit a tree ten feet off.â
This was news to the girl from the Cities.
âSay, how is she?â continued Earl.
âHuh? Howâs who?â
âYou know who I mean, smarty.â
A tussle, a thumping of loose boards, silence, weary narration from Cy:
âMrs. Kennicott? Oh, sheâs all right, I guess.â Relief to Carol, below. âShe gimme a hunk oâ cake, one time. But Ma says sheâs stuck-up as hell. Maâs always talking about her. Ma says if Mrs. Kennicott thought as much about the doc as she does about her clothes, the doc wouldnât look so peaked.â
Spit. Silence.
âYuh. Juanitaâs always talking about her, too,â from Earl. âShe says Mrs. Kennicott thinks she knows it all. Juanita says she has to laugh till she almost busts every time she sees Mrs. Kennicott peerading along the street with that âtake a lookâ âIâm a swell skirtâ way sheâs got. But gosh, I donât pay no attention to Juanita. Sheâs meaner ân a crab.â
âMa was telling somebody that she heard that Mrs. Kennicott claimed she made forty dollars a week when she was on some job in the Cities, and Ma says she knows posolutely that she never made but eighteen a weekâ âMa says that when sheâs lived here a while she wonât go round making a fool of herself, pulling that bighead stuff on folks that know a whole lot more than she does. Theyâre all laughing up their sleeves at her.â
âSay, jever notice how Mrs. Kennicott fusses around the house? Other evening when I was coming over here, sheâd forgot to pull down the curtain, and I watched her for ten minutes. Jeeze, youâd âaâ died laughing. She was there all alone, and she must âaâ spent five minutes getting a picture straight. It was funny as hell the way sheâd stick out her finger to straighten the pictureâ âdeedle-dee, see my tunninâ âittle finger, oh my, ainât I cute, what a fine long tail my catâs got!â
âBut say, Earl, sheâs some good-looker, just the same, and O Ignatz! the glad rags she must of bought for her wedding. Jever notice these low-cut dresses and these thin shimmy-shirts she wears? I had a good squint at âem when they were out on the line with the wash. And some ankles sheâs got, heh?â
Then Carol fled.
In her innocence she had not known that the whole town could discuss even her garments, her body. She felt that she was being dragged naked down Main Street.
The moment it was dusk she pulled down the window-shades, all the shades flush with the sill, but beyond them she felt moist fleering eyes.
III
She remembered, and tried to forget, and remembered more sharply the vulgar detail of her husbandâs having observed the ancient customs of the land by chewing tobacco. She would have preferred a prettier viceâ âgambling or a mistress. For these she might have found a luxury of forgiveness. She could not remember any fascinatingly wicked hero of fiction who chewed tobacco. She asserted that it proved him to be a man of the bold free West. She tried to align him with the hairy-chested heroes of the motion-pictures. She curled on the couch a pallid softness in the twilight, and fought herself, and lost the battle. Spitting did not identify him with rangers riding the buttes; it merely bound him to Gopher Prairieâ âto Nat Hicks the tailor and Bert Tybee the bartender.
âBut he gave it up for me. Oh, what does it matter! Weâre all filthy in some things. I think of myself as so superior, but I do eat and digest, I do wash my dirty paws and scratch. Iâm not a cool slim goddess on a column. There arenât any! He gave it up for me. He stands by me, believing that everyone loves me. Heâs the Rock of Agesâ âin a storm of meanness thatâs driving me madâ ââ ⌠it will drive me mad.â
All evening she sang Scotch ballads to Kennicott, and when she noticed that he was chewing an unlighted cigar she smiled maternally at his secret.
She could not escape asking (in the exact words and mental intonations which a thousand million women, dairy wenches and mischief-making queens, had used before her, and which a million million women will know hereafter), âWas it all a horrible mistake, my marrying him?â She quieted the doubtâ âwithout answering it.
IV
Kennicott had taken her north to Lac-qui-Meurt, in the Big Woods. It was the entrance to a Chippewa Indian reservation, a sandy settlement among Norway pines on the shore of a huge snow-glaring lake. She had her first sight of his mother, except the glimpse at the wedding. Mrs. Kennicott had a hushed and delicate breeding which dignified her woodeny over-scrubbed cottage with its worn hard cushions in heavy rockers. She had never lost the childâs miraculous power of wonder. She asked questions about books and cities. She murmured:
âWill is a dear hardworking boy but heâs inclined to be too serious, and youâve taught him how to play. Last night I heard you both laughing about the old Indian basket-seller, and I just lay in bed and enjoyed your happiness.â
Carol forgot her misery-hunting in this solidarity of family life. She could depend upon them; she was not battling alone. Watching Mrs. Kennicott flit about the kitchen she was better able to translate Kennicott himself. He was matter-of-fact, yes, and incurably mature. He didnât really play; he let Carol play with him. But he had his motherâs genius for trusting, her disdain for prying, her sure integrity.
From the two days at Lac-qui-Meurt Carol drew confidence in herself, and she returned to Gopher Prairie in a throbbing calm like those golden drugged seconds when, because he is for an instant free from pain, a sick man revels in living.
A bright hard winter day, the wind shrill, black and silver clouds booming across the sky, everything in panicky motion during the brief light. They struggled against the surf of wind, through deep snow. Kennicott was cheerful. He hailed Loren Wheeler, âBehave yourself while I been away?â The editor bellowed, âBâ gosh you stayed so long that all your patients have got well!â and importantly took notes for the Dauntless about their journey. Jackson Elder cried, âHey, folks! Howâs tricks up North?â Mrs. McGanum waved to them from her porch.
âTheyâre glad to see us. We mean something here. These people are satisfied. Why canât I be? But can I sit back all my life and be satisfied with âHey, folksâ? They want shouts on Main Street, and I want violins in a paneled room. Whyâ â?â
V
Vida Sherwin ran in after school a dozen times. She was tactful, torrentially anecdotal. She had scuttled about town and plucked compliments: Mrs. Dr. Westlake had pronounced Carol a âvery sweet, bright, cultured young woman,â and Brad Bemis, the tinsmith at Clarkâs Hardware Store, had declared that she was âeasy to work for and awful easy to look at.â
But Carol could not yet take her in. She resented this outsiderâs knowledge of her shame. Vida was not too long tolerant. She hinted, âYouâre a great brooder, child. Buck up now. The townâs quit criticizing you, almost entirely. Come with me to the Thanatopsis Club. They have some of the best papers, and current-events discussionsâ âso interesting.â
In Vidaâs demands Carol felt a compulsion, but she was too listless to obey.
It was Bea Sorenson who was really her confidante.
However charitable toward the Lower Classes she may have thought herself, Carol had been reared to assume that servants belong to a distinct and inferior species. But she discovered that Bea was extraordinarily like girls she had loved in college, and as a companion altogether superior to the young matrons of the Jolly Seventeen. Daily they became more frankly two girls playing at housework. Bea artlessly considered Carol the most beautiful and accomplished lady in the country; she was always shrieking, âMy, dotâs a swell hat!â or, âAy tâink all dese ladies yoost die when dey see how elegant you do your hair!â But it was not the humbleness of a servant, nor the hypocrisy of a slave; it was the admiration of freshman for junior.
They made out the dayâs menus together. Though they began with propriety, Carol sitting by the kitchen table and Bea at the sink or blacking the stove, the conference was likely to end with both of them by the table, while Bea gurgled over the icemanâs attempt to kiss her, or Carol admitted, âEverybody knows that the doctor is lots more clever than Dr. McGanum.â When Carol came in from marketing, Bea plunged into the hall to take off her coat, rub her frostied hands, and ask, âVos dere lots of folks uptown today?â
This was the welcome upon which Carol depended.
VI
Through her weeks of cowering there was no change in her surface life. No one save Vida was aware of her agonizing. On her most despairing days she chatted to women on the street, in stores. But without the protection of Kennicottâs presence she did not go to the Jolly Seventeen; she delivered herself to the judgment of the town only when she went shopping and on the ritualistic occasions of formal afternoon calls, when Mrs. Lyman Cass or Mrs. George Edwin Mott, with clean gloves and minute handkerchiefs and sealskin card-cases and countenances of frozen approbation, sat on the edges of chairs and inquired, âDo you find Gopher Prairie pleasing?â When they spent evenings of social profit-and-loss at the Haydocksâ or the Dyersâ she hid behind Kennicott, playing the simple bride.
Now she was unprotected. Kennicott had taken a patient to Rochester for an operation. He would be away for two or three days. She had not minded; she would loosen the matrimonial tension and be a fanciful girl for a time. But now that he was gone the house was listeningly empty. Bea was out this afternoonâ âpresumably drinking coffee and talking about âfellowsâ with her cousin Tina. It was the day for the monthly supper and evening-bridge of the Jolly Seventeen, but Carol dared not go.
She sat alone.
X
I
The house was haunted, long before evening. Shadows slipped down the walls and waited behind every chair.
Did that door move?
No. She wouldnât go to the Jolly Seventeen. She hadnât energy enough to caper before them, to smile blandly at Juanitaâs rudeness. Not today. But she did want a party. Now! If someone would come in this afternoon, someone who liked herâ âVida or Mrs. Sam Clark or old Mrs. Champ Perry or gentle Mrs. Dr. Westlake. Or Guy Pollock! Sheâd telephoneâ â
No. That wouldnât be it. They must come of themselves.
Perhaps they would.
Why not?
Sheâd have tea ready, anyway. If they cameâ âsplendid. If notâ âwhat did she care? She wasnât going to yield to the village and let down; she was going to keep up a belief in the rite of tea, to which she had always looked forward as the symbol of a leisurely fine existence. And it would be just as much fun, even if it was so babyish, to have tea by herself and pretend that she was entertaining clever men. It would!
She turned the shining thought into action. She bustled to the kitchen, stoked the wood-range, sang Schumann while she boiled the kettle, warmed up raisin cookies on a newspaper spread on the rack in the oven. She scampered upstairs to bring down her filmiest tea-cloth. She arranged a silver tray. She proudly carried it into the living-room and set it on the long cherrywood table, pushing aside a hoop of embroidery, a volume of Conrad from the library, copies of the Saturday Evening Post, the Literary Digest, and Kennicottâs National Geographic Magazine.
She moved the tray back and forth and regarded the effect. She shook her head. She busily unfolded the sewing-table set it in the bay-window, patted the tea-cloth to smoothness, moved the tray. âSome time Iâll have a mahogany tea-table,â she said happily.
She had brought in two cups, two plates. For herself, a straight chair, but for the guest the big wing-chair, which she pantingly tugged to the table.
She had finished all the preparations she could think of. She sat and waited. She listened for the doorbell, the telephone. Her eagerness was stilled. Her hands drooped.
Surely Vida Sherwin would hear the summons.
She glanced through the bay-window. Snow was sifting over the ridge of the Howland house like sprays of water from a hose. The wide yards across the street were gray with moving eddies. The black trees shivered. The roadway was gashed with ruts of ice.
She looked at the extra cup and plate. She looked at the wing-chair. It was so empty.
The tea was cold in the pot. With wearily dipping fingertip she tested it. Yes. Quite cold. She couldnât wait any longer.
The cup across from her was icily clean, glisteningly empty.
Simply absurd to wait. She poured her own cup of tea. She sat and stared at it. What was it she was going to do now? Oh yes; how idiotic; take a lump of sugar.
She didnât want the beastly tea.
She was springing up. She was on the couch, sobbing.
II
She was thinking more sharply than she had for weeks.
She reverted to her resolution to change the townâ âawaken it, prod it, âreformâ it. What if they were wolves instead of lambs? Theyâd eat her all the sooner if she was meek to them. Fight or be eaten. It was easier to change the town completely than to conciliate it! She could not take their point of view; it was a negative thing; an intellectual squalor; a swamp of prejudices and fears. She would have to make them take hers. She was not a Vincent de Paul, to govern and mold a people. What of that? The tiniest change in their distrust of beauty would be the beginning of the end; a seed to sprout and some day with thickening roots to crack their wall of mediocrity. If she could not, as she desired, do a great thing nobly and with laughter, yet she need not be content with village nothingness. She would plant one seed in the blank wall.
Was she just? Was it merely a blank wall, this town which to three thousand and more people was the center of the universe? Hadnât she, returning from Lac-qui-Meurt, felt the heartiness of their greetings? No. The ten thousand Gopher Prairies had no monopoly of greetings and friendly hands. Sam Clark was no more loyal than girl librarians she knew in St. Paul, the people she had met in Chicago. And those others had so much that Gopher Prairie complacently lackedâ âthe world of gaiety and adventure, of music and the integrity of bronze, of remembered mists from tropic isles and Paris nights and the walls of Bagdad, of industrial justice and a God who spake not in doggerel hymns.
One seed. Which seed it was did not matter. All knowledge and freedom were one. But she had delayed so long in finding that seed. Could she do something with this Thanatopsis Club? Or should she make her house so charming that it would be an influence? Sheâd make Kennicott like poetry. That was it, for a beginning! She conceived so clear a picture of their bending over large fair pages by the fire (in a nonexistent fireplace) that the spectral presences slipped away. Doors no longer moved; curtains were not creeping shadows but lovely dark masses in the dusk; and when Bea came home Carol was singing at the piano which she had not touched for many days.
Their supper was the feast of two girls. Carol was in the dining-room, in a frock of black satin edged with gold, and Bea, in blue gingham and an apron, dined in the kitchen; but the door was open between, and Carol was inquiring, âDid you see any ducks in Dahlâs window?â and Bea chanting, âNo, maâam. Say, ve have a svell time, dis afternoon. Tina she have coffee and knäckebrĂśd, and her fella vos dere, and ve yoost laughed and laughed, and her fella say he vos president and he going to make me queen of Finland, and Ay stick a fedder in may hair and say Ay bane going to go to varâ âoh, ve vos so foolish and ve laugh so!â
When Carol sat at the piano again she did not think of her husband but of the book-drugged hermit, Guy Pollock. She wished that Pollock would come calling.
âIf a girl really kissed him, heâd creep out of his den and be human. If Will were as literate as Guy, or Guy were as executive as Will, I think I could endure even Gopher Prairie. Itâs so hard to mother Will. I could be maternal with Guy. Is that what I want, something to mother, a man or a baby or a town? I will have a baby. Some day. But to have him isolated here all his receptive yearsâ â
âAnd so to bed.
âHave I found my real level in Bea and kitchen-gossip?
âOh, I do miss you, Will. But it will be pleasant to turn over in bed as often as I want to, without worrying about waking you up.
âAm I really this settled thing called a âmarried womanâ? I feel so unmarried tonight. So free. To think that there was once a Mrs. Kennicott who let herself worry over a town called Gopher Prairie when there was a whole world outside it!
âOf course Will is going to like poetry.â
III
A black February day. Clouds hewn of ponderous timber weighing down on the earth; an irresolute dropping of snow specks upon the trampled wastes. Gloom but no veiling of angularity. The lines of roofs and sidewalks sharp and inescapable.
The second day of Kennicottâs absence.
She fled from the creepy house for a walk. It was thirty below zero; too cold to exhilarate her. In the spaces between houses the wind caught her. It stung, it gnawed at nose and ears and aching cheeks, and she hastened from shelter to shelter, catching her breath in the lee of a barn, grateful for the protection of a billboard covered with ragged posters showing layer under layer of paste-smeared green and streaky red.
The grove of oaks at the end of the street suggested Indians, hunting, snowshoes, and she struggled past the earth-banked cottages to the open country, to a farm and a low hill corrugated with hard snow. In her loose nutria coat, seal toque, virginal cheeks unmarked by lines of village jealousies, she was as out of place on this dreary hillside as a scarlet tanager on an ice-floe. She looked down on Gopher Prairie. The snow, stretching without break from streets to devouring prairie beyond, wiped out the townâs pretense of being a shelter. The houses were black specks on a white sheet. Her heart shivered with that still loneliness as her body shivered with the wind.
She ran back into the huddle of streets, all the while protesting that she wanted a cityâs yellow glare of shopwindows and restaurants, or the primitive forest with hooded furs and a rifle, or a barnyard warm and steamy, noisy with hens and cattle, certainly not these dun houses, these yards choked with winter ash-piles, these roads of dirty snow and clotted frozen mud. The zest of winter was gone. Three months more, till May, the cold might drag on, with the snow ever filthier, the weakened body less resistent. She wondered why the good citizens insisted on adding the chill of prejudice, why they did not make the houses of their spirits more warm and frivolous, like the wise chatterers of Stockholm and Moscow.
She circled the outskirts of the town and viewed the slum of âSwede Hollow.â Wherever as many as three houses are gathered there will be a slum of at least one house. In Gopher Prairie, the Sam Clarks boasted, âyou donât get any of this poverty that you find in citiesâ âalways plenty of workâ âno need of charityâ âman got to be blame shiftless if he donât get ahead.â But now that the summer mask of leaves and grass was gone, Carol discovered misery and dead hope. In a shack of thin boards covered with tar-paper she saw the washerwoman, Mrs. Steinhof, working in gray steam. Outside, her six-year-old boy chopped wood. He had a torn jacket, muffler of a blue like skimmed milk. His hands were covered with red mittens through which protruded his chapped raw knuckles. He halted to blow on them, to cry disinterestedly.
A family of recently arrived Finns were camped in an abandoned stable. A man of eighty was picking up lumps of coal along the railroad.
She did not know what to do about it. She felt that these independent citizens, who had been taught that they belonged to a democracy, would resent her trying to play Lady Bountiful.
She lost her loneliness in the activity of the village industriesâ âthe railroad-yards with a freight-train switching, the wheat-elevator, oil-tanks, a slaughterhouse with blood-marks on the snow, the creamery with the sleds of farmers and piles of milk-cans, an unexplained stone hut labeled âDangerâ âPowder Stored Here.â The jolly tombstone-yard, where a utilitarian sculptor in a red calfskin overcoat whistled as he hammered the shiniest of granite headstones. Jackson Elderâs small planing-mill, with the smell of fresh pine shavings and the burr of circular saws. Most important, the Gopher Prairie Flour and Milling Company, Lyman Cass president. Its windows were blanketed with flour-dust, but it was the most stirring spot in town. Workmen were wheeling barrels of flour into a boxcar; a farmer sitting on sacks of wheat in a bobsled argued with the wheat-buyer; machinery within the mill boomed and whined, water gurgled in the ice-freed millrace.
The clatter was a relief to Carol after months of smug houses. She wished that she could work in the mill; that she did not belong to the caste of professional-manâs-wife.
She started for home, through the small slum. Before a tar-paper shack, at a gateless gate, a man in rough brown dogskin coat and black plush cap with lappets was watching her. His square face was confident, his foxy mustache was picaresque. He stood erect, his hands in his side-pockets, his pipe puffing slowly. He was forty-five or -six, perhaps.
âHow do, Mrs. Kennicott,â he drawled.
She recalled himâ âthe town handyman, who had repaired their furnace at the beginning of winter.
âOh, how do you do,â she fluttered.
âMy nameâs Bjornstam. âThe Red Swedeâ they call me. Remember? Always thought Iâd kind of like to say howdy to you again.â
âYeâ âyesâ âIâve been exploring the outskirts of town.â
âYump. Fine mess. No sewage, no street cleaning, and the Lutheran minister and the priest represent the arts and sciences. Well, thunder, we submerged tenth down here in Swede Hollow are no worse off than you folks. Thank God, we donât have to go and purr at Juanity Haydock at the Jolly Old Seventeen.â
The Carol who regarded herself as completely adaptable was uncomfortable at being chosen as comrade by a pipe-reeking odd-job man. Probably he was one of her husbandâs patients. But she must keep her dignity.
âYes, even the Jolly Seventeen isnât always so exciting. Itâs very cold again today, isnât it. Wellâ ââ
Bjornstam was not respectfully valedictory. He showed no signs of pulling a forelock. His eyebrows moved as though they had a life of their own. With a subgrin he went on:
âMaybe I hadnât ought to talk about Mrs. Haydock and her Solemcholy Seventeen in that fresh way. I suppose Iâd be tickled to death if I was invited to sit in with that gang. Iâm what they call a pariah, I guess. Iâm the town badman, Mrs. Kennicott: town atheist, and I suppose I must be an anarchist, too. Everybody who doesnât love the bankers and the Grand Old Republican Party is an anarchist.â
Carol had unconsciously slipped from her attitude of departure into an attitude of listening, her face full toward him, her muff lowered. She fumbled:
âYes, I suppose so.â Her own grudges came in a flood. âI donât see why you shouldnât criticize the Jolly Seventeen if you want to. They arenât sacred.â
âOh yes, they are! The dollar-sign has chased the crucifix clean off the map. But then, Iâve got no kick. I do what I please, and I suppose I ought to let them do the same.â
âWhat do you mean by saying youâre a pariah?â
âIâm poor, and yet I donât decently envy the rich. Iâm an old bach. I make enough money for a stake, and then I sit around by myself, and shake hands with myself, and have a smoke, and read history, and I donât contribute to the wealth of Brother Elder or Daddy Cass.â
âYouâ âI fancy you read a good deal.â
âYep. In a hit-or-a-miss way. Iâll tell you: Iâm a lone wolf. I trade horses, and saw wood, and work in lumber-campsâ âIâm a first-rate swamper. Always wished I could go to college. Though I sâpose Iâd find it pretty slow, and theyâd probably kick me out.â
âYou really are a curious person, Mr.â ââ
âBjornstam. Miles Bjornstam. Half Yank and half Swede. Usually known as âthat damn lazy big-mouthed calamity-howler that ainât satisfied with the way we run things.â No, I ainât curiousâ âwhatever you mean by that! Iâm just a bookworm. Probably too much reading for the amount of digestion Iâve got. Probably half-baked. Iâm going to get in âhalf-bakedâ first, and beat you to it, because itâs dead sure to be handed to a radical that wears jeans!â
They grinned together. She demanded:
âYou say that the Jolly Seventeen is stupid. What makes you think so?â
âOh, trust us borers into the foundation to know about your leisure class. Fact, Mrs. Kennicott, Iâll say that far as I can make out, the only people in this manâs town that do have any brainsâ âI donât mean ledger-keeping brains or duck-hunting brains or baby-spanking brains, but real imaginative brainsâ âare you and me and Guy Pollock and the foreman at the flour-mill. Heâs a socialist, the foreman. (Donât tell Lym Cass that! Lym would fire a socialist quicker than he would a horse-thief!)â
âIndeed no, I shanât tell him.â
âThis foreman and I have some great set-toâs. Heâs a regular old-line party-member. Too dogmatic. Expects to reform everything from deforestration to nosebleed by saying phrases like âsurplus value.â Like reading the prayerbook. But same time, heâs a Plato J. Aristotle compared with people like Ezry Stowbody or Professor Mott or Julius Flickerbaugh.â
âItâs interesting to hear about him.â
He dug his toe into a drift, like a schoolboy. âRats. You mean I talk too much. Well, I do, when I get hold of somebody like you. You probably want to run along and keep your nose from freezing.â
âYes, I must go, I suppose. But tell me: Why did you leave Miss Sherwin, of the high school, out of your list of the town intelligentsia?â
âI guess maybe she does belong in it. From all I can hear sheâs in everything and behind everything that looks like a reformâ âlot more than most folks realize. She lets Mrs. Reverend Warren, the president of this-here Thanatopsis Club, think sheâs running the works, but Miss Sherwin is the secret boss, and nags all the easygoing dames into doing something. But way I figure it outâ âYou see, Iâm not interested in these dinky reforms. Miss Sherwinâs trying to repair the holes in this barnacle-covered ship of a town by keeping busy bailing out the water. And Pollock tries to repair it by reading poetry to the crew! Me, I want to yank it up on the ways, and fire the poor bum of a shoemaker that built it so it sails crooked, and have it rebuilt right, from the keel up.â
âYesâ âthatâ âthat would be better. But I must run home. My poor nose is nearly frozen.â
âSay, you better come in and get warm, and see what an old bachâs shack is like.â
She looked doubtfully at him, at the low shanty, the yard that was littered with cordwood, moldy planks, a hoopless washtub. She was disquieted, but Bjornstam did not give her the opportunity to be delicate. He flung out his hand in a welcoming gesture which assumed that she was her own counselor, that she was not a Respectable Married Woman but fully a human being. With a shaky, âWell, just a moment, to warm my nose,â she glanced down the street to make sure that she was not spied on, and bolted toward the shanty.
She remained for one hour, and never had she known a more considerate host than the Red Swede.
He had but one room: bare pine floor, small workbench, wall bunk with amazingly neat bed, frying-pan and ash-stippled coffeepot on the shelf behind the potbellied cannonball stove, backwoods chairsâ âone constructed from half a barrel, one from a tilted plankâ âand a row of books incredibly assorted; Byron and Tennyson and Stevenson, a manual of gas-engines, a book by Thorstein Veblen, and a spotty treatise on âThe Care, Feeding, Diseases, and Breeding of Poultry and Cattle.â
There was but one pictureâ âa magazine color-plate of a steep-roofed village in the Harz Mountains which suggested kobolds and maidens with golden hair.
Bjornstam did not fuss over her. He suggested, âMight throw open your coat and put your feet up on the box in front of the stove.â He tossed his dogskin coat into the bunk, lowered himself into the barrel chair, and droned on:
âYeh, Iâm probably a yahoo, but by gum I do keep my independence by doing odd jobs, and thatâs more ân these polite cusses like the clerks in the banks do. When Iâm rude to some slob, it may be partly because I donât know better (and God knows Iâm not no authority on trick forks and what pants you wear with a Prince Albert), but mostly itâs because I mean something. Iâm about the only man in Johnson County that remembers the joker in the Declaration of Independence about Americans being supposed to have the right to âlife, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.â
âI meet old Ezra Stowbody on the street. He looks at me like he wants me to remember heâs a highmuckamuck and worth two hundred thousand dollars, and he says, âUh, Bjornquistâ ââ
âââBjornstamâs my name, Ezra,â I says. He knows my name, all rightee.
âââWell, whatever your name is,â he says, âI understand you have a gasoline saw. I want you to come around and saw up four cords of maple for me,â he says.
âââSo you like my looks, eh?â I says, kind of innocent.
âââWhat difference does that make? Want you to saw that wood before Saturday,â he says, real sharp. Common workman going and getting fresh with a fifth of a million dollars all walking around in a hand-me-down fur coat!
âââHereâs the difference it makes,â I says, just to devil him. âHow do you know I like your looks?â Maybe he didnât look sore! âNope,â I says, thinking it all over, âI donât like your application for a loan. Take it to another bank, only there ainât any,â I says, and I walks off on him.
âSure. Probably I was surlyâ âand foolish. But I figured there had to be one man in town independent enough to sass the banker!â
He hitched out of his chair, made coffee, gave Carol a cup, and talked on, half defiant and half apologetic, half wistful for friendliness and half amused by her surprise at the discovery that there was a proletarian philosophy.
At the door, she hinted:
âMr. Bjornstam, if you were I, would you worry when people thought you were affected?â
âHuh? Kick âem in the face! Say, if I were a seagull, and all over silver, think Iâd care what a pack of dirty seals thought about my flying?â
It was not the wind at her back, it was the thrust of Bjornstamâs scorn which carried her through town. She faced Juanita Haydock, cocked her head at Maud Dyerâs brief nod, and came home to Bea radiant. She telephoned Vida Sherwin to ârun over this evening.â She lustily played Tschaikowskyâ âthe virile chords an echo of the red laughing philosopher of the tar-paper shack.
(When she hinted to Vida, âIsnât there a man here who amuses himself by being irreverent to the village godsâ âBjornstam, some such a name?â the reform-leader said âBjornstam? Oh yes. Fixes things. Heâs awfully impertinent.â)
IV
Kennicott had returned at midnight. At breakfast he said four several times that he had missed her every moment.
On her way to market Sam Clark hailed her, âThe top oâ the morninâ to yez! Going to stop and pass the time of day mit Samâl? Warmer, eh? Whatâd the docâs thermometer say it was? Say, you folks better come round and visit with us, one of these evenings. Donât be so dog-gone proud, staying by yourselves.â
Champ Perry the pioneer, wheat-buyer at the elevator, stopped her in the post-office, held her hand in his withered paws, peered at her with faded eyes, and chuckled, âYou are so fresh and blooming, my dear. Mother was saying tâother day that a sight of you was better ân a dose of medicine.â
In the Bon Ton Store she found Guy Pollock tentatively buying a modest gray scarf. âWe havenât seen you for so long,â she said. âWouldnât you like to come in and play cribbage, some evening?â As though he meant it, Pollock begged, âMay I, really?â
While she was purchasing two yards of malines the vocal Raymie Wutherspoon tiptoed up to her, his long sallow face bobbing, and he besought, âYouâve just got to come back to my department and see a pair of patent leather slippers I set aside for you.â
In a manner of more than sacerdotal reverence he unlaced her boots, tucked her skirt about her ankles, slid on the slippers. She took them.
âYouâre a good salesman,â she said.
âIâm not a salesman at all! I just like elegant things. All this is so inartistic.â He indicated with a forlornly waving hand the shelves of shoe-boxes, the seat of thin wood perforated in rosettes, the display of shoetrees and tin boxes of blacking, the lithograph of a smirking young woman with cherry cheeks who proclaimed in the exalted poetry of advertising, âMy tootsies never got hep to what pedal perfection was till I got a pair of clever classy Cleopatra Shoes.â
âBut sometimes,â Raymie sighed, âthere is a pair of dainty little shoes like these, and I set them aside for someone who will appreciate. When I saw these I said right away, âWouldnât it be nice if they fitted Mrs. Kennicott,â and I meant to speak to you first chance I had. I havenât forgotten our jolly talks at Mrs. Gurreyâs!â
That evening Guy Pollock came in and, though Kennicott instantly impressed him into a cribbage game, Carol was happy again.
V
She did not, in recovering something of her buoyancy, forget her determination to begin the liberalizing of Gopher Prairie by the easy and agreeable propaganda of teaching Kennicott to enjoy reading poetry in the lamplight. The campaign was delayed. Twice he suggested that they call on neighbors; once he was in the country. The fourth evening he yawned pleasantly, stretched, and inquired, âWell, whatâll we do tonight? Shall we go to the movies?â
âI know exactly what weâre going to do. Now donât ask questions! Come and sit down by the table. There, are you comfy? Lean back and forget youâre a practical man, and listen to me.â
It may be that she had been influenced by the managerial Vida Sherwin; certainly she sounded as though she was selling culture. But she dropped it when she sat on the couch, her chin in her hands, a volume of Yeats on her knees, and read aloud.
Instantly she was released from the homely comfort of a prairie town. She was in the world of lonely thingsâ âthe flutter of twilight linnets, the aching call of gulls along a shore to which the netted foam crept out of darkness, the island of Aengus and the elder gods and the eternal glories that never were, tall kings and women girdled with crusted gold, the woeful incessant chanting and theâ â
âHeh-cha-cha!â coughed Dr. Kennicott. She stopped. She remembered that he was the sort of person who chewed tobacco. She glared, while he uneasily petitioned, âThatâs great stuff. Study it in college? I like poetry fineâ âJames Whitcomb Riley and some of Longfellowâ âthis âHiawatha.â Gosh, I wish I could appreciate that highbrow art stuff. But I guess Iâm too old a dog to learn new tricks.â
With pity for his bewilderment, and a certain desire to giggle, she consoled him, âThen letâs try some Tennyson. Youâve read him?â
âTennyson? You bet. Read him in school. Thereâs that:
âAnd let there be no (what is it?) of farewell
When I put out to sea,
But let theâ â
Well, I donât remember all of it butâ âOh, sure! And thereâs that âI met a little country boy whoâ ââ I donât remember exactly how it goes, but the chorus ends up, âWe are seven.âââ
âYes. Wellâ âShall we try The Idylls of the King? Theyâre so full of color.â
âGo to it. Shoot.â But he hastened to shelter himself behind a cigar.
She was not transported to Camelot. She read with an eye cocked on him, and when she saw how much he was suffering she ran to him, kissed his forehead, cried, âYou poor forced tuberose that wants to be a decent turnip!â
âLook here now, that ainâtâ ââ
âAnyway, I shanât torture you any longer.â
She could not quite give up. She read Kipling, with a great deal of emphasis:
Thereâs a regiment a-coming down the Grand Trunk Road.
He tapped his foot to the rhythm; he looked normal and reassured. But when he complimented her, âThat was fine. I donât know but what you can elocute just as good as Ella Stowbody,â she banged the book and suggested that they were not too late for the nine oâclock show at the movies.
That was her last effort to harvest the April wind, to teach divine unhappiness by a correspondence course, to buy the lilies of Avalon and the sunsets of Cockaigne in tin cans at Ole Jensonâs Grocery.
But the fact is that at the motion-pictures she discovered herself laughing as heartily as Kennicott at the humor of an actor who stuffed spaghetti down a womanâs evening frock. For a second she loathed her laughter; mourned for the day when on her hill by the Mississippi she had walked the battlements with queens. But the celebrated cinema jesterâs conceit of dropping toads into a soup-plate flung her into unwilling tittering, and the afterglow faded, the dead queens fled through darkness.
VI
She went to the Jolly Seventeenâs afternoon bridge. She had learned the elements of the game from the Sam Clarks. She played quietly and reasonably badly. She had no opinions on anything more polemic than woolen union-suits, a topic on which Mrs. Howland discoursed for five minutes. She smiled frequently, and was the complete canary-bird in her manner of thanking the hostess, Mrs. Dave Dyer.
Her only anxious period was during the conference on husbands.
The young matrons discussed the intimacies of domesticity with a frankness and a minuteness which dismayed Carol. Juanita Haydock communicated Harryâs method of shaving, and his interest in deer-shooting. Mrs. Gougerling reported fully, and with some irritation, her husbandâs inappreciation of liver and bacon. Maud Dyer chronicled Daveâs digestive disorders; quoted a recent bedtime controversy with him in regard to Christian Science, socks and the sewing of buttons upon vests; announced that she âsimply wasnât going to stand his always pawing girls when he went and got crazy-jealous if a man just danced with herâ; and rather more than sketched Daveâs varieties of kisses.
So meekly did Carol give attention, so obviously was she at last desirous of being one of them, that they looked on her fondly, and encouraged her to give such details of her honeymoon as might be of interest. She was embarrassed rather than resentful. She deliberately misunderstood. She talked of Kennicottâs overshoes and medical ideals till they were thoroughly bored. They regarded her as agreeable but green.
Till the end she labored to satisfy the inquisition. She bubbled at Juanita, the president of the club, that she wanted to entertain them. âOnly,â she said, âI donât know that I can give you any refreshments as nice as Mrs. Dyerâs salad, or that simply delicious angelâs-food we had at your house, dear.â
âFine! We need a hostess for the seventeenth of March. Wouldnât it be awfully original if you made it a St. Patrickâs Day bridge! Iâll be tickled to death to help you with it. Iâm glad youâve learned to play bridge. At first I didnât hardly know if you were going to like Gopher Prairie. Isnât it dandy that youâve settled down to being homey with us! Maybe we arenât as highbrow as the Cities, but we do have the daisiest times andâ âoh, we go swimming in summer, and dances andâ âoh, lots of good times. If folks will just take us as we are, I think weâre a pretty good bunch!â
âIâm sure of it. Thank you so much for the idea about having a St. Patrickâs Day bridge.â
âOh, thatâs nothing. I always think the Jolly Seventeen are so good at original ideas. If you knew these other towns Wakamin and Joralemon and all, youâd find out and realize that G.P. is the liveliest, smartest town in the state. Did you know that Percy Bresnahan, the famous auto manufacturer, came from here andâ âYes, I think that a St. Patrickâs Day party would be awfully cunning and original, and yet not too queer or freaky or anything.â
XI
I
She had often been invited to the weekly meetings of the Thanatopsis, the womenâs study club, but she had put it off. The Thanatopsis was, Vida Sherwin promised, âsuch a cozy group, and yet it puts you in touch with all the intellectual thoughts that are going on everywhere.â
Early in March Mrs. Westlake, wife of the veteran physician, marched into Carolâs living-room like an amiable old pussy and suggested, âMy dear, you really must come to the Thanatopsis this afternoon. Mrs. Dawson is going to be leader and the poor soul is frightened to death. She wanted me to get you to come. She says sheâs sure you will brighten up the meeting with your knowledge of books and writings. (English poetry is our topic today.) So shoo! Put on your coat!â
âEnglish poetry? Really? Iâd love to go. I didnât realize you were reading poetry.â
âOh, weâre not so slow!â
Mrs. Luke Dawson, wife of the richest man in town, gaped at them piteously when they appeared. Her expensive frock of beaver-colored satin with rows, plasters, and pendants of solemn brown beads was intended for a woman twice her size. She stood wringing her hands in front of nineteen folding chairs, in her front parlor with its faded photograph of Minnehaha Falls in 1890, its âcolored enlargementâ of Mr. Dawson, its bulbous lamp painted with sepia cows and mountains and standing on a mortuary marble column.
She creaked, âO Mrs. Kennicott, Iâm in such a fix. Iâm supposed to lead the discussion, and I wondered would you come and help?â
âWhat poet do you take up today?â demanded Carol, in her library tone of âWhat book do you wish to take out?â
âWhy, the English ones.â
âNot all of them?â
âW-why yes. Weâre learning all of European Literature this year. The club gets such a nice magazine, Culture Hints, and we follow its programs. Last year our subject was Men and Women of the Bible, and next year weâll probably take up Furnishings and China. My, it does make a body hustle to keep up with all these new culture subjects, but it is improving. So will you help us with the discussion today?â
On her way over Carol had decided to use the Thanatopsis as the tool with which to liberalize the town. She had immediately conceived enormous enthusiasm; she had chanted, âThese are the real people. When the housewives, who bear the burdens, are interested in poetry, it means something. Iâll work with themâ âfor themâ âanything!â
Her enthusiasm had become watery even before thirteen women resolutely removed their overshoes, sat down meatily, ate peppermints, dusted their fingers, folded their hands, composed their lower thoughts, and invited the naked muse of poetry to deliver her most improving message. They had greeted Carol affectionately, and she tried to be a daughter to them. But she felt insecure. Her chair was out in the open, exposed to their gaze, and it was a hard-slatted, quivery, slippery church-parlor chair, likely to collapse publicly and without warning. It was impossible to sit on it without folding the hands and listening piously.
She wanted to kick the chair and run. It would make a magnificent clatter.
She saw that Vida Sherwin was watching her. She pinched her wrist, as though she were a noisy child in church, and when she was decent and cramped again, she listened.
Mrs. Dawson opened the meeting by sighing, âIâm sure Iâm glad to see you all here today, and I understand that the ladies have prepared a number of very interesting papers, this is such an interesting subject, the poets, they have been an inspiration for higher thought, in fact wasnât it Reverend Benlick who said that some of the poets have been as much an inspiration as a good many of the ministers, and so we shall be glad to hearâ ââ
The poor lady smiled neuralgically, panted with fright, scrabbled about the small oak table to find her eyeglasses, and continued, âWe will first have the pleasure of hearing Mrs. Jenson on the subject âShakespeare and Milton.âââ
Mrs. Ole Jenson said that Shakespeare was born in 1564 and died 1616. He lived in London, England, and in Stratford-on-Avon, which many American tourists loved to visit, a lovely town with many curios and old houses well worth examination. Many people believed that Shakespeare was the greatest playwright who ever lived, also a fine poet. Not much was known about his life, but after all that did not really make so much difference, because they loved to read his numerous plays, several of the best known of which she would now criticize.
Perhaps the best known of his plays was The Merchant of Venice, having a beautiful love story and a fine appreciation of a womanâs brains, which a womanâs club, even those who did not care to commit themselves on the question of suffrage, ought to appreciate. (Laughter.) Mrs. Jenson was sure that she, for one, would love to be like Portia. The play was about a Jew named Shylock, and he didnât want his daughter to marry a Venice gentleman named Antonioâ â
Mrs. Leonard Warren, a slender, gray, nervous woman, president of the Thanatopsis and wife of the Congregational pastor, reported the birth and death dates of Byron, Scott, Moore, Burns; and wound up:
âBurns was quite a poor boy and he did not enjoy the advantages we enjoy today, except for the advantages of the fine old Scotch kirk where he heard the Word of God preached more fearlessly than even in the finest big brick churches in the big and so-called advanced cities of today, but he did not have our educational advantages and Latin and the other treasures of the mind so richly strewn before the, alas, too ofttimes inattentive feet of our youth who do not always sufficiently appreciate the privileges freely granted to every American boy rich or poor. Burns had to work hard and was sometimes led by evil companionship into low habits. But it is morally instructive to know that he was a good student and educated himself, in striking contrast to the loose ways and so-called aristocratic society-life of Lord Byron, on which I have just spoken. And certainly though the lords and earls of his day may have looked down upon Burns as a humble person, many of us have greatly enjoyed his pieces about the mouse and other rustic subjects, with their message of humble beautyâ âI am so sorry I have not got the time to quote some of them.â
Mrs. George Edwin Mott gave ten minutes to Tennyson and Browning.
Mrs. Nat Hicks, a wry-faced, curiously sweet woman, so awed by her betters that Carol wanted to kiss her, completed the dayâs grim task by a paper on âOther Poets.â The other poets worthy of consideration were Coleridge, Wordsworth, Shelley, Gray, Mrs. Hemans, and Kipling.
Miss Ella Stowbody obliged with a recital of âThe Recessionalâ and extracts from Lalla Rookh. By request, she gave âAn Old Sweetheart of Mineâ as encore.
Gopher Prairie had finished the poets. It was ready for the next weekâs labor: English Fiction and Essays.
Mrs. Dawson besought, âNow we will have a discussion of the papers, and I am sure we shall all enjoy hearing from one who we hope to have as a new member, Mrs. Kennicott, who with her splendid literary training and all should be able to give us many pointers andâ âmany helpful pointers.â
Carol had warned herself not to be so âbeastly supercilious.â She had insisted that in the belated quest of these work-stained women was an aspiration which ought to stir her tears. âBut theyâre so self-satisfied. They think theyâre doing Burns a favor. They donât believe they have a âbelated quest.â Theyâre sure that they have culture salted and hung up.â It was out of this stupor of doubt that Mrs. Dawsonâs summons roused her. She was in a panic. How could she speak without hurting them?
Mrs. Champ Perry leaned over to stroke her hand and whisper, âYou look tired, dearie. Donât you talk unless you want to.â
Affection flooded Carol; she was on her feet, searching for words and courtesies:
âThe only thing in the way of suggestionâ âI know you are following a definite program, but I do wish that now youâve had such a splendid introduction, instead of going on with some other subject next year you could return and take up the poets more in detail. Especially actual quotationsâ âeven though their lives are so interesting and, as Mrs. Warren said, so morally instructive. And perhaps there are several poets not mentioned today whom it might be worth while consideringâ âKeats, for instance, and Matthew Arnold and Rossetti and Swinburne. Swinburne would be such aâ âwell, that is, such a contrast to life as we all enjoy it in our beautiful Middle-westâ ââ
She saw that Mrs. Leonard Warren was not with her. She captured her by innocently continuing:
âUnless perhaps Swinburne tends to be, uh, more outspoken than you, than we really like. What do you think, Mrs. Warren?â
The pastorâs wife decided, âWhy, youâve caught my very thoughts, Mrs. Kennicott. Of course I have never read Swinburne, but years ago, when he was in vogue, I remember Mr. Warren saying that Swinburne (or was it Oscar Wilde? but anyway:) he said that though many so-called intellectual people posed and pretended to find beauty in Swinburne, there can never be genuine beauty without the message from the heart. But at the same time I do think you have an excellent idea, and though we have talked about Furnishings and China as the probable subject for next year, I believe that it would be nice if the program committee would try to work in another day entirely devoted to English poetry! In fact, Madame Chairman, I so move you.â
When Mrs. Dawsonâs coffee and angelâs-food had helped them to recover from the depression caused by thoughts of Shakespeareâs death they all told Carol that it was a pleasure to have her with them. The membership committee retired to the sitting-room for three minutes and elected her a member.
And she stopped being patronizing.
She wanted to be one of them. They were so loyal and kind. It was they who would carry out her aspiration. Her campaign against village sloth was actually begun! On what specific reform should she first loose her army? During the gossip after the meeting Mrs. George Edwin Mott remarked that the city hall seemed inadequate for the splendid modern Gopher Prairie. Mrs. Nat Hicks timidly wished that the young people could have free dances thereâ âthe lodge dances were so exclusive. The city hall. That was it! Carol hurried home.
She had not realized that Gopher Prairie was a city. From Kennicott she discovered that it was legally organized with a mayor and city-council and wards. She was delighted by the simplicity of voting oneâs self a metropolis. Why not?
She was a proud and patriotic citizen, all evening.
II
She examined the city hall, next morning. She had remembered it only as a bleak inconspicuousness. She found it a liver-colored frame coop half a block from Main Street. The front was an unrelieved wall of clapboards and dirty windows. It had an unobstructed view of a vacant lot and Nat Hicksâs tailor shop. It was larger than the carpenter shop beside it, but not so well built.
No one was about. She walked into the corridor. On one side was the municipal court, like a country school; on the other, the room of the volunteer fire company, with a Ford hose-cart and the ornamental helmets used in parades, at the end of the hall, a filthy two-cell jail, now empty but smelling of ammonia and ancient sweat. The whole second story was a large unfinished room littered with piles of folding chairs, a lime-crusted mortar-mixing box, and the skeletons of Fourth of July floats covered with decomposing plaster shields and faded red, white, and blue bunting. At the end was an abortive stage. The room was large enough for the community dances which Mrs. Nat Hicks advocated. But Carol was after something bigger than dances.
In the afternoon she scampered to the public library.
The library was open three afternoons and four evenings a week. It was housed in an old dwelling, sufficient but unattractive. Carol caught herself picturing pleasanter reading-rooms, chairs for children, an art collection, a librarian young enough to experiment.
She berated herself, âStop this fever of reforming everything! I will be satisfied with the library! The city hall is enough for a beginning. And itâs really an excellent library. Itâsâ âit isnât so bad.â ââ ⌠Is it possible that I am to find dishonesties and stupidity in every human activity I encounter? In schools and business and government and everything? Is there never any contentment, never any rest?â
She shook her head as though she were shaking off water, and hastened into the library, a young, light, amiable presence, modest in unbuttoned fur coat, blue suit, fresh organdy collar, and tan boots roughened from scuffling snow. Miss Villets stared at her, and Carol purred, âI was so sorry not to see you at the Thanatopsis yesterday. Vida said you might come.â
âOh. You went to the Thanatopsis. Did you enjoy it?â
âSo much. Such good papers on the poets.â Carol lied resolutely. âBut I did think they should have had you give one of the papers on poetry!â
âWellâ âOf course Iâm not one of the bunch that seem to have the time to take and run the club, and if they prefer to have papers on literature by other ladies who have no literary trainingâ âafter all, why should I complain? What am I but a city employee!â
âYouâre not! Youâre the one person that doesâ âthat doesâ âoh, you do so much. Tell me, is there, uhâ âWho are the people who control the club?â
Miss Villets emphatically stamped a date in the front of Frank on the Lower Mississippi for a small flaxen boy, glowered at him as though she were stamping a warning on his brain, and sighed:
âI wouldnât put myself forward or criticize anyone for the world, and Vida is one of my best friends, and such a splendid teacher, and there is no one in town more advanced and interested in all movements, but I must say that no matter who the president or the committees are, Vida Sherwin seems to be behind them all the time, and though she is always telling me about what she is pleased to call my âfine work in the library,â I notice that Iâm not often called on for papers, though Mrs. Lyman Cass once volunteered and told me that she thought my paper on âThe Cathedrals of Englandâ was the most interesting paper we had, the year we took up English and French travel and architecture. Butâ âAnd of course Mrs. Mott and Mrs. Warren are very important in the club, as you might expect of the wives of the superintendent of schools and the Congregational pastor, and indeed they are both very cultured, butâ âNo, you may regard me as entirely unimportant. Iâm sure what I say doesnât matter a bit!â
âYouâre much too modest, and Iâm going to tell Vida so, and, uh, I wonder if you can give me just a teeny bit of your time and show me where the magazine files are kept?â
She had won. She was profusely escorted to a room like a grandmotherâs attic, where she discovered periodicals devoted to house-decoration and town-planning, with a six-year file of the National Geographic. Miss Villets blessedly left her alone. Humming, fluttering pages with delighted fingers, Carol sat cross-legged on the floor, the magazines in heaps about her.
She found pictures of New England streets: the dignity of Falmouth, the charm of Concord, Stockbridge and Farmington and Hillhouse Avenue. The fairy-book suburb of Forest Hills on Long Island. Devonshire cottages and Essex manors and a Yorkshire High Street and Port Sunlight. The Arab village of Djeddahâ âan intricately chased jewel-box. A town in California which had changed itself from the barren brick fronts and slatternly frame sheds of a Main Street to a way which led the eye down a vista of arcades and gardens.
Assured that she was not quite mad in her belief that a small American town might be lovely, as well as useful in buying wheat and selling plows, she sat brooding, her thin fingers playing a tattoo on her cheeks. She saw in Gopher Prairie a Georgian city hall: warm brick walls with white shutters, a fanlight, a wide hall and curving stair. She saw it the common home and inspiration not only of the town but of the country about. It should contain the courtroom (she couldnât get herself to put in a jail), public library, a collection of excellent prints, restroom and model kitchen for farmwives, theater, lecture room, free community ballroom, farm-bureau, gymnasium. Forming about it and influenced by it, as medieval villages gathered about the castle, she saw a new Georgian town as graceful and beloved as Annapolis or that bowery Alexandria to which Washington rode.
All this the Thanatopsis Club was to accomplish with no difficulty whatever, since its several husbands were the controllers of business and politics. She was proud of herself for this practical view.
She had taken only half an hour to change a wire-fenced potato-plot into a walled rose-garden. She hurried out to apprize Mrs. Leonard Warren, as president of the Thanatopsis, of the miracle which had been worked.
III
At a quarter to three Carol had left home; at half-past four she had created the Georgian town; at a quarter to five she was in the dignified poverty of the Congregational parsonage, her enthusiasm pattering upon Mrs. Leonard Warren like summer rain upon an old gray roof; at two minutes to five a town of demure courtyards and welcoming dormer windows had been erected, and at two minutes past five the entire town was as flat as Babylon.
Erect in a black William and Mary chair against gray and speckly-brown volumes of sermons and Biblical commentaries and Palestine geographies upon long pine shelves, her neat black shoes firm on a rag-rug, herself as correct and low-toned as her background, Mrs. Warren listened without comment till Carol was quite through, then answered delicately:
âYes, I think you draw a very nice picture of what might easily come to passâ âsome day. I have no doubt that such villages will be found on the prairieâ âsome day. But if I might make just the least little criticism: it seems to me that you are wrong in supposing either that the city hall would be the proper start, or that the Thanatopsis would be the right instrument. After all, itâs the churches, isnât it, that are the real heart of the community. As you may possibly know, my husband is prominent in Congregational circles all through the state for his advocacy of church-union. He hopes to see all the evangelical denominations joined in one strong body, opposing Catholicism and Christian Science, and properly guiding all movements that make for morality and prohibition. Here, the combined churches could afford a splendid clubhouse, maybe a stucco and half-timber building with gargoyles and all sorts of pleasing decorations on it, which, it seems to me, would be lots better to impress the ordinary class of people than just a plain old-fashioned colonial house, such as you describe. And that would be the proper center for all educational and pleasurable activities, instead of letting them fall into the hands of the politicians.â
âI donât suppose it will take more than thirty or forty years for the churches to get together?â Carol said innocently.
âHardly that long even; things are moving so rapidly. So it would be a mistake to make any other plans.â
Carol did not recover her zeal till two days after, when she tried Mrs. George Edwin Mott, wife of the superintendent of schools.
Mrs. Mott commented, âPersonally, I am terribly busy with dressmaking and having the seamstress in the house and all, but it would be splendid to have the other members of the Thanatopsis take up the question. Except for one thing: First and foremost, we must have a new schoolbuilding. Mr. Mott says they are terribly cramped.â
Carol went to view the old building. The grades and the high school were combined in a damp yellow-brick structure with the narrow windows of an antiquated jailâ âa hulk which expressed hatred and compulsory training. She conceded Mrs. Mottâs demand so violently that for two days she dropped her own campaign. Then she built the school and city hall together, as the center of the reborn town.
She ventured to the lead-colored dwelling of Mrs. Dave Dyer. Behind the mask of winter-stripped vines and a wide porch only a foot above the ground, the cottage was so impersonal that Carol could never visualize it. Nor could she remember anything that was inside it. But Mrs. Dyer was personal enough. With Carol, Mrs. Howland, Mrs. McGanum, and Vida Sherwin she was a link between the Jolly Seventeen and the serious Thanatopsis (in contrast to Juanita Haydock, who unnecessarily boasted of being a âlowbrowâ and publicly stated that she would âsee herself in jail before sheâd write any darned old club papersâ). Mrs. Dyer was superfeminine in the kimono in which she received Carol. Her skin was fine, pale, soft, suggesting a weak voluptuousness. At afternoon-coffees she had been rude but now she addressed Carol as âdear,â and insisted on being called Maud. Carol did not quite know why she was uncomfortable in this talcum-powder atmosphere, but she hastened to get into the fresh air of her plans.
Maud Dyer granted that the city hall wasnât âso very nice,â yet, as Dave said, there was no use doing anything about it till they received an appropriation from the state and combined a new city hall with a national guard armory. Dave had given verdict, âWhat these mouthy youngsters that hang around the poolroom need is universal military training. Make men of âem.â
Mrs. Dyer removed the new schoolbuilding from the city hall:
âOh, so Mrs. Mott has got you going on her school craze! Sheâs been dinging at that till everybodyâs sick and tired. What she really wants is a big office for her dear bald-headed Gawge to sit around and look important in. Of course I admire Mrs. Mott, and Iâm very fond of her, sheâs so brainy, even if she does try to butt in and run the Thanatopsis, but I must say weâre sick of her nagging. The old building was good enough for us when we were kids! I hate these would-be women politicians, donât you?â
IV
The first week of March had given promise of spring and stirred Carol with a thousand desires for lakes and fields and roads. The snow was gone except for filthy woolly patches under trees, the thermometer leaped in a day from wind-bitten chill to itchy warmth. As soon as Carol was convinced that even in this imprisoned North, spring could exist again, the snow came down as abruptly as a paper storm in a theater; the northwest gale flung it up in a half blizzard; and with her hope of a glorified town went hope of summer meadows.
But a week later, though the snow was everywhere in slushy heaps, the promise was unmistakable. By the invisible hints in air and sky and earth which had aroused her every year through ten thousand generations she knew that spring was coming. It was not a scorching, hard, dusty day like the treacherous intruder of a week before, but soaked with languor, softened with a milky light. Rivulets were hurrying in each alley; a calling robin appeared by magic on the crab-apple tree in the Howlandsâ yard. Everybody chuckled, âLooks like winter is going,â and âThisâll bring the frost out of the roadsâ âhave the autos out pretty soon nowâ âwonder what kind of bass-fishing weâll get this summerâ âought to be good crops this year.â
Each evening Kennicott repeated, âWe better not take off our Heavy Underwear or the storm windows too soonâ âmight be ânother spell of coldâ âgot to be careful âbout catching coldâ âwonder if the coal will last through?â
The expanding forces of life within her choked the desire for reforming. She trotted through the house, planning the spring cleaning with Bea. When she attended her second meeting of the Thanatopsis she said nothing about remaking the town. She listened respectably to statistics on Dickens, Thackeray, Jane Austen, George Eliot, Scott, Hardy, Lamb, De Quincey, and Mrs. Humphry Ward, who, it seemed, constituted the writers of English Fiction and Essays.
Not till she inspected the restroom did she again become a fanatic. She had often glanced at the store-building which had been turned into a refuge in which farmwives could wait while their husbands transacted business. She had heard Vida Sherwin and Mrs. Warren caress the virtue of the Thanatopsis in establishing the restroom and in sharing with the city council the expense of maintaining it. But she had never entered it till this March day.
She went in impulsively; nodded at the matron, a plump worthy widow named Nodelquist, and at a couple of farm-women who were meekly rocking. The restroom resembled a secondhand store. It was furnished with discarded patent rockers, lopsided reed chairs, a scratched pine table, a gritty straw mat, old steel engravings of milkmaids being morally amorous under willow-trees, faded chromos of roses and fish, and a kerosene stove for warming lunches. The front window was darkened by torn net curtains and by a mound of geraniums and rubber-plants.
While she was listening to Mrs. Nodelquistâs account of how many thousands of farmersâ wives used the restroom every year, and how much they âappreciated the kindness of the ladies in providing them with this lovely place, and all free,â she thought, âKindness nothing! The kind-ladiesâ husbands get the farmersâ trade. This is mere commercial accommodation. And itâs horrible. It ought to be the most charming room in town, to comfort women sick of prairie kitchens. Certainly it ought to have a clear window, so that they can see the metropolitan life go by. Some day Iâm going to make a better restroomâ âa clubroom. Why! Iâve already planned that as part of my Georgian town hall!â
So it chanced that she was plotting against the peace of the Thanatopsis at her third meeting (which covered Scandinavian, Russian, and Polish Literature, with remarks by Mrs. Leonard Warren on the sinful paganism of the Russian so-called church). Even before the entrance of the coffee and hot rolls Carol seized on Mrs. Champ Perry, the kind and ample-bosomed pioneer woman who gave historic dignity to the modern matrons of the Thanatopsis. She poured out her plans. Mrs. Perry nodded and stroked Carolâs hand, but at the end she sighed:
âI wish I could agree with you, dearie. Iâm sure youâre one of the Lordâs anointed (even if we donât see you at the Baptist Church as often as weâd like to)! But Iâm afraid youâre too tenderhearted. When Champ and I came here we teamed-it with an oxcart from Sauk Centre to Gopher Prairie, and there was nothing here then but a stockade and a few soldiers and some log cabins. When we wanted salt pork and gunpowder, we sent out a man on horseback, and probably he was shot dead by the Injuns before he got back. We ladiesâ âof course we were all farmers at firstâ âwe didnât expect any restroom in those days. My, weâd have thought the one they have now was simply elegant! My house was roofed with hay and it leaked something terrible when it rainedâ âonly dry place was under a shelf.
âAnd when the town grew up we thought the new city hall was real fine. And I donât see any need for dance-halls. Dancing isnât what it was, anyway. We used to dance modest, and we had just as much fun as all these young folks do now with their terrible Turkey Trots and hugging and all. But if they must neglect the Lordâs injunction that young girls ought to be modest, then I guess they manage pretty well at the K.P. Hall and the Oddfellowsâ, even if some of tie lodges donât always welcome a lot of these foreigners and hired help to all their dances. And I certainly donât see any need of a farm-bureau or this domestic science demonstration you talk about. In my day the boys learned to farm by honest sweating, and every gal could cook, or her ma learned her how across her knee! Besides, ainât there a county agent at Wakamin? He comes here once a fortnight, maybe. Thatâs enough monkeying with this scientific farmingâ âChamp says thereâs nothing to it anyway.
âAnd as for a lecture hallâ âhavenât we got the churches? Good deal better to listen to a good old-fashioned sermon than a lot of geography and books and things that nobody needs to knowâ âmore ân enough heathen learning right here in the Thanatopsis. And as for trying to make a whole town in this Colonial architecture you talk aboutâ âI do love nice things; to this day I run ribbons into my petticoats, even if Champ Perry does laugh at me, the old villain! But just the same I donât believe any of us old-timers would like to see the town that we worked so hard to build being tore down to make a place that wouldnât look like nothing but some Dutch storybook and not a bit like the place we loved. And donât you think itâs sweet now? All the trees and lawns? And such comfy houses, and hot-water heat and electric lights and telephones and cement walks and everything? Why, I thought everybody from the Twin Cities always said it was such a beautiful town!â
Carol forswore herself; declared that Gopher Prairie had the color of Algiers and the gaiety of Mardi Gras.
Yet the next afternoon she was pouncing on Mrs. Lyman Cass, the hook-nosed consort of the owner of the flour-mill.
Mrs. Cassâs parlor belonged to the crammed-Victorian school, as Mrs. Luke Dawsonâs belonged to the bare-Victorian. It was furnished on two principles: First, everything must resemble something else. A rocker had a back like a lyre, a near-leather seat imitating tufted cloth, and arms like Scotch Presbyterian lions; with knobs, scrolls, shields, and spear-points on unexpected portions of the chair. The second principle of the crammed-Victorian school was that every inch of the interior must be filled with useless objects.
The walls of Mrs. Cassâs parlor were plastered with âhand-paintedâ pictures, âbuckeyeâ pictures, of birch-trees, newsboys, puppies, and church-steeples on Christmas Eve; with a plaque depicting the Exposition Building in Minneapolis, burnt-wood portraits of Indian chiefs of no tribe in particular, a pansy-decked poetic motto, a Yard of Roses, and the banners of the educational institutions attended by the Cassesâ two sonsâ âChicopee Falls Business College and McGillicuddy University. One small square table contained a card-receiver of painted china with a rim of wrought and gilded lead, a Family Bible, Grantâs Memoirs, the latest novel by Mrs. Gene Stratton Porter, a wooden model of a Swiss chalet which was also a bank for dimes, a polished abalone shell holding one black-headed pin and one empty spool, a velvet pincushion in a gilded metal slipper with âSouvenir of Troy, NYâ stamped on the toe, and an unexplained red glass dish which had warts.
Mrs. Cassâs first remark was, âI must show you all my pretty things and art objects.â
She piped, after Carolâs appeal:
âI see. You think the New England villages and Colonial houses are so much more cunning than these Middlewestern towns. Iâm glad you feel that way. Youâll be interested to know I was born in Vermont.â
âAnd donât you think we ought to try to make Gopher Praiâ ââ
âMy gracious no! We canât afford it. Taxes are much too high as it is. We ought to retrench, and not let the city council spend another cent. Uhâ âDonât you think that was a grand paper Mrs. Westlake read about Tolstoy? I was so glad she pointed out how all his silly socialistic ideas failed.â
What Mrs. Cass said was what Kennicott said, that evening. Not in twenty years would the council propose or Gopher Prairie vote the funds for a new city hall.
V
Carol had avoided exposing her plans to Vida Sherwin. She was shy of the big-sister manner; Vida would either laugh at her or snatch the idea and change it to suit herself. But there was no other hope. When Vida came in to tea Carol sketched her Utopia.
Vida was soothing but decisive:
âMy dear, youâre all off. I would like to see it: a real gardeny place to shut out the gales. But it canât be done. What could the clubwomen accomplish?â
âTheir husbands are the most important men in town. They are the town!â
âBut the town as a separate unit is not the husband of the Thanatopsis. If you knew the trouble we had in getting the city council to spend the money and cover the pumping-station with vines! Whatever you may think of Gopher Prairie women, theyâre twice as progressive as the men.â
âBut canât the men see the ugliness?â
âThey donât think itâs ugly. And how can you prove it? Matter of taste. Why should they like what a Boston architect likes?â
âWhat they like is to sell prunes!â
âWell, why not? Anyway, the point is that you have to work from the inside, with what we have, rather than from the outside, with foreign ideas. The shell ought not to be forced on the spirit. It canât be! The bright shell has to grow out of the spirit, and express it. That means waiting. If we keep after the city council for another ten years they may vote the bonds for a new school.â
âI refuse to believe that if they saw it the big men would be too tightfisted to spend a few dollars each for a buildingâ âthink!â âdancing and lectures and plays, all done cooperatively!â
âYou mention the word âcooperativeâ to the merchants and theyâll lynch you! The one thing they fear more than mail-order houses is that farmersâ cooperative movements may get started.â
âThe secret trails that lead to scared pocketbooks! Always, in everything! And I donât have any of the fine melodrama of fiction: the dictagraphs and speeches by torchlight. Iâm merely blocked by stupidity. Oh, I know Iâm a fool. I dream of Venice, and I live in Archangel and scold because the Northern seas arenât tender-colored. But at least they shanât keep me from loving Venice, and sometime Iâll run awayâ âAll right. No more.â
She flung out her hands in a gesture of renunciation.
VI
Early May; wheat springing up in blades like grass; corn and potatoes being planted; the land humming. For two days there had been steady rain. Even in town the roads were a furrowed welter of mud, hideous to view and difficult to cross. Main Street was a black swamp from curb to curb; on residence streets the grass parking beside the walks oozed gray water. It was prickly hot, yet the town was barren under the bleak sky. Softened neither by snow nor by waving boughs the houses squatted and scowled, revealed in their unkempt harshness.
As she dragged homeward Carol looked with distaste at her clay-loaded rubbers, the smeared hem of her skirt. She passed Lyman Cassâs pinnacled, dark-red, hulking house. She waded a streaky yellow pool. This morass was not her home, she insisted. Her home, and her beautiful town, existed in her mind. They had already been created. The task was done. What she really had been questing was someone to share them with her. Vida would not; Kennicott could not.
Someone to share her refuge.
Suddenly she was thinking of Guy Pollock.
She dismissed him. He was too cautious. She needed a spirit as young and unreasonable as her own. And she would never find it. Youth would never come singing. She was beaten.
Yet that same evening she had an idea which solved the rebuilding of Gopher Prairie.
Within ten minutes she was jerking the old-fashioned bell-pull of Luke Dawson. Mrs. Dawson opened the door and peered doubtfully about the edge of it. Carol kissed her cheek, and frisked into the lugubrious sitting-room.
âWell, well, youâre a sight for sore eyes!â chuckled Mr. Dawson, dropping his newspaper, pushing his spectacles back on his forehead.
âYou seem so excited,â sighed Mrs. Dawson.
âI am! Mr. Dawson, arenât you a millionaire?â
He cocked his head, and purred, âWell, I guess if I cashed in on all my securities and farm-holdings and my interests in iron on the Mesaba and in Northern timber and cut-over lands, I could push two million dollars pretty close, and Iâve made every cent of it by hard work and having the sense to not go out and spend everyâ ââ
âI think I want most of it from you!â
The Dawsons glanced at each other in appreciation of the jest; and he chirped, âYouâre worse than Reverend Benlick! He donât hardly ever strike me for more than ten dollarsâ âat a time!â
âIâm not joking. I mean it! Your children in the Cities are grown-up and well-to-do. You donât want to die and leave your name unknown. Why not do a big, original thing? Why not rebuild the whole town? Get a great architect, and have him plan a town that would be suitable to the prairie. Perhaps heâd create some entirely new form of architecture. Then tear down all these shambling buildingsâ ââ
Mr. Dawson had decided that she really did mean it. He wailed, âWhy, that would cost at least three or four million dollars!â
âBut you alone, just one man, have two of those millions!â
âMe? Spend all my hard-earned cash on building houses for a lot of shiftless beggars that never had the sense to save their money? Not that Iâve ever been mean. Mama could always have a hired girl to do the workâ âwhen we could find one. But her and I have worked our fingers to the bone andâ âspend it on a lot of these rascalsâ â?â
âPlease! Donât be angry! I just meanâ âI meanâ âOh, not spend all of it, of course, but if you led off the list, and the others came in, and if they heard you talk about a more attractive townâ ââ
âWhy now, child, youâve got a lot of notions. Besides whatâs the matter with the town? Looks good to me. Iâve had people that have traveled all over the world tell me time and again that Gopher Prairie is the prettiest place in the Middlewest. Good enough for anybody. Certainly good enough for Mama and me. Besides! Mama and me are planning to go out to Pasadena and buy a bungalow and live there.â
VII
She had met Miles Bjornstam on the street. For the second of welcome encounter this workman with the bandit mustache and the muddy overalls seemed nearer than anyone else to the credulous youth which she was seeking to fight beside her, and she told him, as a cheerful anecdote, a little of her story.
He grunted, âI never thought Iâd be agreeing with Old Man Dawson, the penny-pinching old land-thiefâ âand a fine briber he is, too. But you got the wrong slant. You arenât one of the peopleâ âyet. You want to do something for the town. I donât! I want the town to do something for itself. We donât want old Dawsonâs moneyâ ânot if itâs a gift, with a string. Weâll take it away from him, because it belongs to us. You got to get more iron and cussedness into you. Come join us cheerful bums, and some dayâ âwhen we educate ourselves and quit being bumsâ âweâll take things and run âem straight.â
He had changed from her friend to a cynical man in overalls. She could not relish the autocracy of âcheerful bums.â
She forgot him as she tramped the outskirts of town.
She had replaced the city hall project by an entirely new and highly exhilarating thought of how little was done for these unpicturesque poor.
VIII
The spring of the plains is not a reluctant virgin but brazen and soon away. The mud roads of a few days ago are powdery dust and the puddles beside them have hardened into lozenges of black sleek earth like cracked patent leather.
Carol was panting as she crept to the meeting of the Thanatopsis program committee which was to decide the subject for next fall and winter.
Madam Chairman (Miss Ella Stowbody in an oyster-colored blouse) asked if there was any new business.
Carol rose. She suggested that the Thanatopsis ought to help the poor of the town. She was ever so correct and modern. She did not, she said, want charity for them, but a chance of self-help; an employment bureau, direction in washing babies and making pleasing stews, possibly a municipal fund for home-building. âWhat do you think of my plans, Mrs. Warren?â she concluded.
Speaking judiciously, as one related to the church by marriage, Mrs. Warren gave verdict:
âIâm sure weâre all heartily in accord with Mrs. Kennicott in feeling that wherever genuine poverty is encountered, it is not only noblesse oblige but a joy to fulfil our duty to the less fortunate ones. But I must say it seems to me we should lose the whole point of the thing by not regarding it as charity. Why, thatâs the chief adornment of the true Christian and the church! The Bible has laid it down for our guidance. âFaith, Hope, and Charity,â it says, and, âThe poor ye have with ye always,â which indicates that there never can be anything to these so-called scientific schemes for abolishing charity, never! And isnât it better so? I should hate to think of a world in which we were deprived of all the pleasure of giving. Besides, if these shiftless folks realize theyâre getting charity, and not something to which they have a right, theyâre so much more grateful.â
âBesides,â snorted Miss Ella Stowbody, âtheyâve been fooling you, Mrs. Kennicott. There isnât any real poverty here. Take that Mrs. Steinhof you speak of: I send her our washing whenever thereâs too much for our hired girlâ âI must have sent her ten dollarsâ worth the past year alone! Iâm sure Papa would never approve of a city home-building fund. Papa says these folks are fakers. Especially all these tenant farmers that pretend they have so much trouble getting seed and machinery. Papa says they simply wonât pay their debts. He says heâs sure he hates to foreclose mortgages, but itâs the only way to make them respect the law.â
âAnd then think of all the clothes we give these people!â said Mrs. Jackson Elder.
Carol intruded again. âOh yes. The clothes. I was going to speak of that. Donât you think that when we give clothes to the poor, if we do give them old ones, we ought to mend them first and make them as presentable as we can? Next Christmas when the Thanatopsis makes its distribution, wouldnât it be jolly if we got together and sewed on the clothes, and trimmed hats, and made themâ ââ
âHeavens and earth, they have more time than we have! They ought to be mighty good and grateful to get anything, no matter what shape itâs in. I know Iâm not going to sit and sew for that lazy Mrs. Vopni, with all Iâve got to do!â snapped Ella Stowbody.
They were glaring at Carol. She reflected that Mrs. Vopni, whose husband had been killed by a train, had ten children.
But Mrs. Mary Ellen Wilks was smiling. Mrs. Wilks was the proprietor of Ye Art Shoppe and Magazine and Book Store, and the reader of the small Christian Science church. She made it all clear:
âIf this class of people had an understanding of Science and that we are the children of God and nothing can harm us, they wouldnât be in error and poverty.â
Mrs. Jackson Elder confirmed, âBesides, it strikes me the club is already doing enough, with tree-planting and the anti-fly campaign and the responsibility for the restroomâ âto say nothing of the fact that weâve talked of trying to get the railroad to put in a park at the station!â
âI think so too!â said Madam Chairman. She glanced uneasily at Miss Sherwin. âBut what do you think, Vida?â
Vida smiled tactfully at each of the committee, and announced, âWell, I donât believe weâd better start anything more right now. But itâs been a privilege to hear Carolâs dear generous ideas, hasnât it! Oh! There is one thing we must decide on at once. We must get together and oppose any move on the part of the Minneapolis clubs to elect another State Federation president from the Twin Cities. And this Mrs. Edgar Potbury theyâre putting forwardâ âI know there are people who think sheâs a bright interesting speaker, but I regard her as very shallow. What do you say to my writing to the Lake Ojibawasha Club, telling them that if their district will support Mrs. Warren for second vice-president, weâll support their Mrs. Hagelton (and such a dear, lovely, cultivated woman, too) for president.â
âYes! We ought to show up those Minneapolis folks!â Ella Stowbody said acidly. âAnd oh, by the way, we must oppose this movement of Mrs. Potburyâs to have the state clubs come out definitely in favor of woman suffrage. Women havenât any place in politics. They would lose all their daintiness and charm if they became involved in these horried plots and logrolling and all this awful political stuff about scandal and personalities and so on.â
Allâ âsave oneâ ânodded. They interrupted the formal business-meeting to discuss Mrs. Edgar Potburyâs husband, Mrs. Potburyâs income, Mrs. Potburyâs sedan, Mrs. Potburyâs residence, Mrs. Potburyâs oratorical style, Mrs. Potburyâs mandarin evening coat, Mrs. Potburyâs coiffure, and Mrs. Potburyâs altogether reprehensible influence on the State Federation of Womenâs Clubs.
Before the program committee adjourned they took three minutes to decide which of the subjects suggested by the magazine Culture Hints, Furnishings and China or The Bible as Literature, would be better for the coming year. There was one annoying incident. Mrs. Dr. Kennicott interfered and showed off again. She commented, âDonât you think that we already get enough of the Bible in our churches and Sunday Schools?â
Mrs. Leonard Warren, somewhat out of order but much more out of temper, cried, âWell upon my word! I didnât suppose there was anyone who felt that we could get enough of the Bible! I guess if the Grand Old Book has withstood the attacks of infidels for these two thousand years it is worth our slight consideration!â
âOh, I didnât meanâ ââ Carol begged. Inasmuch as she did mean, it was hard to be extremely lucid. âBut I wish, instead of limiting ourselves either to the Bible, or to anecdotes about the Brothers Adamâs wigs, which Culture Hints seems to regard as the significant point about furniture, we could study some of the really stirring ideas that are springing up todayâ âwhether itâs chemistry or anthropology or labor problemsâ âthe things that are going to mean so terribly much.â
Everybody cleared her polite throat.
Madam Chairman inquired, âIs there any other discussion? Will someone make a motion to adopt the suggestion of Vida Sherwinâ âto take up Furnishings and China?â
It was adopted, unanimously.
âCheckmate!â murmured Carol, as she held up her hand.
Had she actually believed that she could plant a seed of liberalism in the blank wall of mediocrity? How had she fallen into the folly of trying to plant anything whatever in a wall so smooth and sun-glazed, and so satisfying to the happy sleepers within?
XII
I
One week of authentic spring, one rare sweet week of May, one tranquil moment between the blast of winter and the charge of summer. Daily Carol walked from town into flashing country hysteric with new life.
One enchanted hour when she returned to youth and a belief in the possibility of beauty.
She had walked northward toward the upper shore of Plover Lake, taking to the railroad track, whose directness and dryness make it the natural highway for pedestrians on the plains. She stepped from tie to tie, in long strides. At each road-crossing she had to crawl over a cattle-guard of sharpened timbers. She walked the rails, balancing with arms extended, cautious heel before toe. As she lost balance her body bent over, her arms revolved wildly, and when she toppled she laughed aloud.
The thick grass beside the track, coarse and prickly with many burnings, hid canary-yellow buttercups and the mauve petals and woolly sage-green coats of the pasque flowers. The branches of the kinnikinic brush were red and smooth as lacquer on a saki bowl.
She ran down the gravelly embankment, smiled at children gathering flowers in a little basket, thrust a handful of the soft pasque flowers into the bosom of her white blouse. Fields of springing wheat drew her from the straight propriety of the railroad and she crawled through the rusty barbed-wire fence. She followed a furrow between low wheat blades and a field of rye which showed silver lights as it flowed before the wind. She found a pasture by the lake. So sprinkled was the pasture with rag-baby blossoms and the cottony herb of Indian tobacco that it spread out like a rare old Persian carpet of cream and rose and delicate green. Under her feet the rough grass made a pleasant crunching. Sweet winds blew from the sunny lake beside her, and small waves sputtered on the meadowy shore. She leaped a tiny creek bowered in pussy-willow buds. She was nearing a frivolous grove of birch and poplar and wild plum trees.
The poplar foliage had the downiness of a Corot arbor; the green and silver trunks were as candid as the birches, as slender and lustrous as the limbs of a Pierrot. The cloudy white blossoms of the plum trees filled the grove with a springtime mistiness which gave an illusion of distance.
She ran into the wood, crying out for joy of freedom regained after winter. Chokecherry blossoms lured her from the outer sun-warmed spaces to depths of green stillness, where a submarine light came through the young leaves. She walked pensively along an abandoned road. She found a moccasin-flower beside a lichen-covered log. At the end of the road she saw the open acresâ âdipping rolling fields bright with wheat.
âI believe! The woodland gods still live! And out there, the great land. Itâs beautiful as the mountains. What do I care for Thanatopsises?â
She came out on the prairie, spacious under an arch of boldly cut clouds. Small pools glittered. Above a marsh red-winged blackbirds chased a crow in a swift melodrama of the air. On a hill was silhouetted a man following a drag. His horse bent its neck and plodded, content.
A path took her to the Corinth road, leading back to town. Dandelions glowed in patches amidst the wild grass by the way. A stream golloped through a concrete culvert beneath the road. She trudged in healthy weariness.
A man in a bumping Ford rattled up beside her, hailed, âGive you a lift, Mrs. Kennicott?â
âThank you. Itâs awfully good of you, but Iâm enjoying the walk.â
âGreat day, by golly. I seen some wheat that must of been five inches high. Well, so long.â
She hadnât the dimmest notion who he was, but his greeting warmed her. This countryman gave her a companionship which she had never (whether by her fault or theirs or neither) been able to find in the matrons and commercial lords of the town.
Half a mile from town, in a hollow between hazelnut bushes and a brook, she discovered a gipsy encampment: a covered wagon, a tent, a bunch of pegged-out horses. A broad-shouldered man was squatted on his heels, holding a frying-pan over a campfire. He looked toward her. He was Miles Bjornstam.
âWell, well, what you doing out here?â he roared. âCome have a hunk oâ bacon. Pete! Hey, Pete!â
A tousled person came from behind the covered wagon.
âPete, hereâs the one honest-to-God lady in my bum town. Come on, crawl in and set a couple minutes, Mrs. Kennicott. Iâm hiking off for all summer.â
The Red Swede staggered up, rubbed his cramped knees, lumbered to the wire fence, held the strands apart for her. She unconsciously smiled at him as she went through. Her skirt caught on a barb; he carefully freed it.
Beside this man in blue flannel shirt, baggy khaki trousers, uneven suspenders, and vile felt hat, she was small and exquisite.
The surly Pete set out an upturned bucket for her. She lounged on it, her elbows on her knees. âWhere are you going?â she asked.
âJust starting off for the summer, horse-trading.â Bjornstam chuckled. His red mustache caught the sun. âRegular hoboes and public benefactors we are. Take a hike like this every once in a while. Sharks on horses. Buy âem from farmers and sell âem to others. Weâre honestâ âfrequently. Great time. Camp along the road. I was wishing I had a chance to say goodbye to you before I ducked out butâ âSay, you better come along with us.â
âIâd like to.â
âWhile youâre playing mumblety-peg with Mrs. Lym Cass, Pete and me will be rambling across Dakota, through the Bad Lands, into the butte country, and when fall comes, weâll be crossing over a pass of the Big Horn Mountains, maybe, and camp in a snowstorm, quarter of a mile right straight up above a lake. Then in the morning weâll lie snug in our blankets and look up through the pines at an eagle. Howâd it strike you? Heh? Eagle soaring and soaring all dayâ âbig wide skyâ ââ
âDonât! Or I will go with you, and Iâm afraid there might be some slight scandal. Perhaps some day Iâll do it. Goodbye.â
Her hand disappeared in his blackened leather glove. From the turn in the road she waved at him. She walked on more soberly now, and she was lonely.
But the wheat and grass were sleek velvet under the sunset; the prairie clouds were tawny gold; and she swung happily into Main Street.
II
Through the first days of June she drove with Kennicott on his calls. She identified him with the virile land; she admired him as she saw with what respect the farmers obeyed him. She was out in the early chill, after a hasty cup of coffee, reaching open country as the fresh sun came up in that unspoiled world. Meadow larks called from the tops of thin split fence-posts. The wild roses smelled clean.
As they returned in late afternoon the low sun was a solemnity of radial bands, like a heavenly fan of beaten gold; the limitless circle of the grain was a green sea rimmed with fog, and the willow windbreaks were palmy isles.
Before July the close heat blanketed them. The tortured earth cracked. Farmers panted through cornfields behind cultivators and the sweating flanks of horses. While she waited for Kennicott in the car, before a farmhouse, the seat burned her fingers and her head ached with the glare on fenders and hood.
A black thundershower was followed by a dust storm which turned the sky yellow with the hint of a coming tornado. Impalpable black dust far-borne from Dakota covered the inner sills of the closed windows.
The July heat was ever more stifling. They crawled along Main Street by day; they found it hard to sleep at night. They brought mattresses down to the living-room, and thrashed and turned by the open window. Ten times a night they talked of going out to soak themselves with the hose and wade through the dew, but they were too listless to take the trouble. On cool evenings, when they tried to go walking, the gnats appeared in swarms which peppered their faces and caught in their throats.
She wanted the Northern pines, the Eastern sea, but Kennicott declared that it would be âkind of hard to get away, just now.â The Health and Improvement Committee of the Thanatopsis asked her to take part in the anti-fly campaign, and she toiled about town persuading householders to use the flytraps furnished by the club, or giving out money prizes to fly-swatting children. She was loyal enough but not ardent, and without ever quite intending to, she began to neglect the task as heat sucked at her strength.
Kennicott and she motored North and spent a week with his motherâ âthat is, Carol spent it with his mother, while he fished for bass.
The great event was their purchase of a summer cottage, down on Lake Minniemashie.
Perhaps the most amiable feature of life in Gopher Prairie was the summer cottages. They were merely two-room shanties, with a seepage of broken-down chairs, peeling veneered tables, chromos pasted on wooden walls, and inefficient kerosene stoves. They were so thin-walled and so close together that you couldâ âand didâ âhear a baby being spanked in the fifth cottage off. But they were set among elms and lindens on a bluff which looked across the lake to fields of ripened wheat sloping up to green woods.
Here the matrons forgot social jealousies, and sat gossiping in gingham; or, in old bathing-suits, surrounded by hysterical children, they paddled for hours. Carol joined them; she ducked shrieking small boys, and helped babies construct sand-basins for unfortunate minnows. She liked Juanita Haydock and Maud Dyer when she helped them make picnic-supper for the men, who came motoring out from town each evening. She was easier and more natural with them. In the debate as to whether there should be veal loaf or poached egg on hash, she had no chance to be heretical and oversensitive.
They danced sometimes, in the evening; they had a minstrel show, with Kennicott surprisingly good as end-man; always they were encircled by children wise in the lore of woodchucks and gophers and rafts and willow whistles.
If they could have continued this normal barbaric life Carol would have been the most enthusiastic citizen of Gopher Prairie. She was relieved to be assured that she did not want bookish conversation alone; that she did not expect the town to become a Bohemia. She was content now. She did not criticize.
But in September, when the year was at its richest, custom dictated that it was time to return to town; to remove the children from the waste occupation of learning the earth, and send them back to lessons about the number of potatoes which (in a delightful world untroubled by commission-houses or shortages in freight-cars) William sold to John. The women who had cheerfully gone bathing all summer looked doubtful when Carol begged, âLetâs keep up an outdoor life this winter, letâs slide and skate.â Their hearts shut again till spring, and the nine months of cliques and radiators and dainty refreshments began all over.
III
Carol had started a salon.
Since Kennicott, Vida Sherwin, and Guy Pollock were her only lions, and since Kennicott would have preferred Sam Clark to all the poets and radicals in the entire world, her private and self-defensive clique did not get beyond one evening dinner for Vida and Guy, on her first wedding anniversary; and that dinner did not get beyond a controversy regarding Raymie Wutherspoonâs yearnings.
Guy Pollock was the gentlest person she had found here. He spoke of her new jade and cream frock naturally, not jocosely; he held her chair for her as they sat down to dinner; and he did not, like Kennicott, interrupt her to shout, âOh say, speaking of that, I heard a good story today.â But Guy was incurably hermit. He sat late and talked hard, and did not come again.
Then she met Champ Perry in the post-officeâ âand decided that in the history of the pioneers was the panacea for Gopher Prairie, for all of America. We have lost their sturdiness, she told herself. We must restore the last of the veterans to power and follow them on the backward path to the integrity of Lincoln, to the gaiety of settlers dancing in a sawmill.
She read in the records of the Minnesota Territorial Pioneers that only sixty years ago, not so far back as the birth of her own father, four cabins had composed Gopher Prairie. The log stockade which Mrs. Champ Perry was to find when she trekked in was built afterward by the soldiers as a defense against the Sioux. The four cabins were inhabited by Maine Yankees who had come up the Mississippi to St. Paul and driven north over virgin prairie into virgin woods. They ground their own corn; the men-folks shot ducks and pigeons and prairie chickens; the new breakings yielded the turnip-like rutabagas, which they ate raw and boiled and baked and raw again. For treat they had wild plums and crab-apples and tiny wild strawberries.
Grasshoppers came darkening the sky, and in an hour ate the farmwifeâs garden and the farmerâs coat. Precious horses painfully brought from Illinois, were drowned in bogs or stampeded by the fear of blizzards. Snow blew through the chinks of new-made cabins, and Eastern children, with flowery muslin dresses, shivered all winter and in summer were red and black with mosquito bites. Indians were everywhere; they camped in dooryards, stalked into kitchens to demand doughnuts, came with rifles across their backs into schoolhouses and begged to see the pictures in the geographies. Packs of timber-wolves treed the children; and the settlers found dens of rattlesnakes, killed fifty, a hundred, in a day.
Yet it was a buoyant life. Carol read enviously in the admirable Minnesota chronicles called Old Rail Fence Corners the reminiscence of Mrs. Mahlon Black, who settled in Stillwater in 1848:
âThere was nothing to parade over in those days. We took it as it came and had happy lives.â ââ ⌠We would all gather together and in about two minutes would be having a good timeâ âplaying cards or dancing.â ââ ⌠We used to waltz and dance contra dances. None of these new jigs and not wear any clothes to speak of. We covered our hides in those days; no tight skirts like now. You could take three or four steps inside our skirts and then not reach the edge. One of the boys would fiddle a while and then someone would spell him and he could get a dance. Sometimes they would dance and fiddle too.â
She reflected that if she could not have ballrooms of gray and rose and crystal, she wanted to be swinging across a puncheon-floor with a dancing fiddler. This smug in-between town, which had exchanged âMoney Muskâ for phonographs grinding out ragtime, it was neither the heroic old nor the sophisticated new. Couldnât she somehow, some yet unimagined how, turn it back to simplicity?
She herself knew two of the pioneers: the Perrys. Champ Perry was the buyer at the grain-elevator. He weighed wagons of wheat on a rough platform-scale, in the cracks of which the kernels sprouted every spring. Between times he napped in the dusty peace of his office.
She called on the Perrys at their rooms above Howland & Gouldâs grocery.
When they were already old they had lost the money, which they had invested in an elevator. They had given up their beloved yellow brick house and moved into these rooms over a store, which were the Gopher Prairie equivalent of a flat. A broad stairway led from the street to the upper hall, along which were the doors of a lawyerâs office, a dentistâs, a photographerâs âstudio,â the lodge-rooms of the Affiliated Order of Spartans and, at the back, the Perrysâ apartment.
They received her (their first caller in a month) with aged fluttering tenderness. Mrs. Perry confided, âMy, itâs a shame we got to entertain you in such a cramped place. And there ainât any water except that ole iron sink outside in the hall, but still, as I say to Champ, beggars canât be choosers. âSides, the brick house was too big for me to sweep, and it was way out, and itâs nice to be living down here among folks. Yes, weâre glad to be here. Butâ âSome day, maybe we can have a house of our own again. Weâre saving upâ âOh, dear, if we could have our own home! But these rooms are real nice, ainât they!â
As old people will, the world over, they had moved as much as possible of their familiar furniture into this small space. Carol had none of the superiority she felt toward Mrs. Lyman Cassâs plutocratic parlor. She was at home here. She noted with tenderness all the makeshifts: the darned chair-arms, the patent rocker covered with sleazy cretonne, the pasted strips of paper mending the birch-bark napkin-rings labeled âPapaâ and âMama.â
She hinted of her new enthusiasm. To find one of the âyoung folksâ who took them seriously, heartened the Perrys, and she easily drew from them the principles by which Gopher Prairie should be born againâ âshould again become amusing to live in.
This was their philosophy completeâ ââ ⌠in the era of aeroplanes and syndicalism:
The Baptist Church (and, somewhat less, the Methodist, Congregational, and Presbyterian Churches) is the perfect, the divinely ordained standard in music, oratory, philanthropy, and ethics. âWe donât need all this newfangled science, or this terrible Higher Criticism thatâs ruining our young men in colleges. What we need is to get back to the true Word of God, and a good sound belief in hell, like we used to have it preached to us.â
The Republican Party, the Grand Old Party of Blaine and McKinley, is the agent of the Lord and of the Baptist Church in temporal affairs.
All socialists ought to be hanged.
âHarold Bell Wright is a lovely writer, and he teaches such good morals in his novels, and folks say heâs made prettâ near a million dollars out of âem.â
People who make more than ten thousand a year or less than eight hundred are wicked.
Europeans are still wickeder.
It doesnât hurt any to drink a glass of beer on a warm day, but anybody who touches wine is headed straight for hell.
Virgins are not so virginal as they used to be.
Nobody needs drugstore ice cream; pie is good enough for anybody.
The farmers want too much for their wheat.
The owners of the elevator-company expect too much for the salaries they pay.
There would be no more trouble or discontent in the world if everybody worked as hard as Pa did when he cleared our first farm.
IV
Carolâs hero-worship dwindled to polite nodding, and the nodding dwindled to a desire to escape, and she went home with a headache.
Next day she saw Miles Bjornstam on the street.
âJust back from Montana. Great summer. Pumped my lungs chock-full of Rocky Mountain air. Now for another whirl at sassing the bosses of Gopher Prairie.â She smiled at him, and the Perrys faded, the pioneers faded, till they were but daguerreotypes in a black walnut cupboard.
XIII
She tried, more from loyalty than from desire, to call upon the Perrys on a November evening when Kennicott was away. They were not at home.
Like a child who has no one to play with she loitered through the dark hall. She saw a light under an office door. She knocked. To the person who opened she murmured, âDo you happen to know where the Perrys are?â She realized that it was Guy Pollock.
âIâm awfully sorry, Mrs. Kennicott, but I donât know. Wonât you come in and wait for them?â
âW-whyâ ââ she observed, as she reflected that in Gopher Prairie it is not decent to call on a man; as she decided that no, really, she wouldnât go in; and as she went in.
âI didnât know your office was up here.â
âYes, office, town-house, and château in Picardy. But you canât see the château and town-house (next to the Duke of Sutherlandâs). Theyâre beyond that inner door. They are a cot and a washstand and my other suit and the blue crepe tie you said you liked.â
âYou remember my saying that?â
âOf course. I always shall. Please try this chair.â
She glanced about the rusty officeâ âgaunt stove, shelves of tan law-books, desk-chair filled with newspapers so long sat upon that they were in holes and smudged to grayness. There were only two things which suggested Guy Pollock. On the green felt of the table-desk, between legal blanks and a clotted inkwell, was a cloissonĂŠ vase. On a swing shelf was a row of books unfamiliar to Gopher Prairie: Mosher editions of the poets, black and red German novels, a Charles Lamb in crushed levant.
Guy did not sit down. He quartered the office, a grayhound on the scent; a grayhound with glasses tilted forward on his thin nose, and a silky indecisive brown mustache. He had a golf jacket of jersey, worn through at the creases in the sleeves. She noted that he did not apologize for it, as Kennicott would have done.
He made conversation: âI didnât know you were a bosom friend of the Perrys. Champ is the salt of the earth but somehow I canât imagine him joining you in symbolic dancing, or making improvements on the diesel engine.â
âNo. Heâs a dear soul, bless him, but he belongs in the National Museum, along with General Grantâs sword, and Iâmâ âOh, I suppose Iâm seeking for a gospel that will evangelize Gopher Prairie.â
âReally? Evangelize it to what?â
âTo anything thatâs definite. Seriousness or frivolousness or both. I wouldnât care whether it was a laboratory or a carnival. But itâs merely safe. Tell me, Mr. Pollock, what is the matter with Gopher Prairie?â
âIs anything the matter with it? Isnât there perhaps something the matter with you and me? (May I join you in the honor of having something the matter?)â
â(Yes, thanks.) No, I think itâs the town.â
âBecause they enjoy skating more than biology?â
âBut Iâm not only more interested in biology than the Jolly Seventeen, but also in skating! Iâll skate with them, or slide, or throw snowballs, just as gladly as talk with you.â
(âOh no!â)
â(Yes!) But they want to stay home and embroider.â
âPerhaps. Iâm not defending the town. Itâs merelyâ âIâm a confirmed doubter of myself. (Probably Iâm conceited about my lack of conceit!) Anyway, Gopher Prairie isnât particularly bad. Itâs like all villages in all countries. Most places that have lost the smell of earth but not yet acquired the smell of patchouliâ âor of factory-smokeâ âare just as suspicious and righteous. I wonder if the small town isnât, with some lovely exceptions, a social appendix? Some day these dull market-towns may be as obsolete as monasteries. I can imagine the farmer and his local store-manager going by monorail, at the end of the day, into a city more charming than any William Morris Utopiaâ âmusic, a university, clubs for loafers like me. (Lord, how Iâd like to have a real club!)â
She asked impulsively, âYou, why do you stay here?â
âI have the Village Virus.â
âIt sounds dangerous.â
âIt is. More dangerous than the cancer that will certainly get me at fifty unless I stop this smoking. The Village Virus is the germ whichâ âitâs extraordinarily like the hookwormâ âit infects ambitious people who stay too long in the provinces. Youâll find it epidemic among lawyers and doctors and ministers and college-bred merchantsâ âall these people who have had a glimpse of the world that thinks and laughs, but have returned to their swamp. Iâm a perfect example. But I shanât pester you with my dolors.â
âYou wonât. And do sit down, so I can see you.â
He dropped into the shrieking desk-chair. He looked squarely at her; she was conscious of the pupils of his eyes; of the fact that he was a man, and lonely. They were embarrassed. They elaborately glanced away, and were relieved as he went on:
âThe diagnosis of my Village Virus is simple enough. I was born in an Ohio town about the same size as Gopher Prairie, and much less friendly. Itâd had more generations in which to form an oligarchy of respectability. Here, a stranger is taken in if he is correct, if he likes hunting and motoring and God and our Senator. There, we didnât take in even our own till we had contemptuously got used to them. It was a redbrick Ohio town, and the trees made it damp, and it smelled of rotten apples. The country wasnât like our lakes and prairie. There were small stuffy cornfields and brickyards and greasy oil-wells.
âI went to a denominational college and learned that since dictating the Bible, and hiring a perfect race of ministers to explain it, God has never done much but creep around and try to catch us disobeying it. From college I went to New York, to the Columbia Law School. And for four years I lived. Oh, I wonât rhapsodize about New York. It was dirty and noisy and breathless and ghastly expensive. But compared with the moldy academy in which I had been smotheredâ â! I went to symphonies twice a week. I saw Irving and Terry and Duse and Bernhardt, from the top gallery. I walked in Gramercy Park. And I read, oh, everything.
âThrough a cousin I learned that Julius Flickerbaugh was sick and needed a partner. I came here. Julius got well. He didnât like my way of loafing five hours and then doing my work (really not so badly) in one. We parted.
âWhen I first came here I swore Iâd âkeep up my interests.â Very lofty! I read Browning, and went to Minneapolis for the theaters. I thought I was âkeeping up.â But I guess the Village Virus had me already. I was reading four copies of cheap fiction-magazines to one poem. Iâd put off the Minneapolis trips till I simply had to go there on a lot of legal matters.
âA few years ago I was talking to a patent lawyer from Chicago, and I realized thatâ âIâd always felt so superior to people like Julius Flickerbaugh, but I saw that I was as provincial and behind-the-times as Julius. (Worse! Julius plows through the Literary Digest and the Outlook faithfully, while Iâm turning over pages of a book by Charles Flandrau that I already know by heart.)
âI decided to leave here. Stern resolution. Grasp the world. Then I found that the Village Virus had me, absolute: I didnât want to face new streets and younger menâ âreal competition. It was too easy to go on making out conveyances and arguing ditching cases. Soâ âThatâs all of the biography of a living dead man, except the diverting last chapter, the lies about my having been âa tower of strength and legal wisdomâ which some day a preacher will spin over my lean dry body.â
He looked down at his table-desk, fingering the starry enameled vase.
She could not comment. She pictured herself running across the room to pat his hair. She saw that his lips were firm, under his soft faded mustache. She sat still and maundered, âI know. The Village Virus. Perhaps it will get me. Some day Iâm goingâ âOh, no matter. At least, I am making you talk! Usually you have to be polite to my garrulousness, but now Iâm sitting at your feet.â
âIt would be rather nice to have you literally sitting at my feet, by a fire.â
âWould you have a fireplace for me?â
âNaturally! Please donât snub me now! Let the old man rave. How old are you, Carol?â
âTwenty-six, Guy.â
âTwenty-six! I was just leaving New York, at twenty-six. I heard Patti sing, at twenty-six. And now Iâm forty-seven. I feel like a child, yet Iâm old enough to be your father. So itâs decently paternal to imagine you curled at my feet.â ââ ⌠Of course I hope it isnât, but weâll reflect the morals of Gopher Prairie by officially announcing that it is!â ââ ⌠These standards that you and I live up to! Thereâs one thing thatâs the matter with Gopher Prairie, at least with the ruling-class (there is a ruling-class, despite all our professions of democracy). And the penalty we tribal rulers pay is that our subjects watch us every minute. We canât get wholesomely drunk and relax. We have to be so correct about sex morals, and inconspicuous clothes, and doing our commercial trickery only in the traditional ways, that none of us can live up to it, and we become horribly hypocritical. Unavoidably. The widow-robbing deacon of fiction canât help being hypocritical. The widows themselves demand it! They admire his unctuousness. And look at me. Suppose I did dare to make love toâ âsome exquisite married woman. I wouldnât admit it to myself. I giggle with the most revolting salaciousness over La Vie Parisienne, when I get hold of one in Chicago, yet I shouldnât even try to hold your hand. Iâm broken. Itâs the historical Anglo-Saxon way of making life miserable.â ââ ⌠Oh, my dear, I havenât talked to anybody about myself and all our selves for years.â
âGuy! Canât we do something with the town? Really?â
âNo, we canât!â He disposed of it like a judge ruling out an improper objection; returned to matters less uncomfortably energetic: âCurious. Most troubles are unnecessary. We have Nature beaten; we can make her grow wheat; we can keep warm when she sends blizzards. So we raise the devil just for pleasureâ âwars, politics, race-hatreds, labor-disputes. Here in Gopher Prairie weâve cleared the fields, and become soft, so we make ourselves unhappy artificially, at great expense and exertion: Methodists disliking Episcopalians, the man with the Hudson laughing at the man with the flivver. The worst is the commercial hatredâ âthe grocer feeling that any man who doesnât deal with him is robbing him. What hurts me is that it applies to lawyers and doctors (and decidedly to their wives!) as much as to grocers. The doctorsâ âyou know about thatâ âhow your husband and Westlake and Gould dislike one another.â
âNo! I wonât admit it!â
He grinned.
âOh, maybe once or twice, when Will has positively known of a case where Doctorâ âwhere one of the others has continued to call on patients longer than necessary, he has laughed about it, butâ ââ
He still grinned.
âNo, really! And when you say the wives of the doctors share these jealousiesâ âMrs. McGanum and I havenât any particular crush on each other; sheâs so stolid. But her mother, Mrs. Westlakeâ ânobody could be sweeter.â
âYes, Iâm sure sheâs very bland. But I wouldnât tell her my heartâs secrets if I were you, my dear. I insist that thereâs only one professional-manâs wife in this town who doesnât plot, and that is you, you blessed, credulous outsider!â
âI wonât be cajoled! I wonât believe that medicine, the priesthood of healing, can be turned into a penny-picking business.â
âSee here: Hasnât Kennicott ever hinted to you that youâd better be nice to some old woman because she tells her friends which doctor to call in? But I oughtnât toâ ââ
She remembered certain remarks which Kennicott had offered regarding the Widow Bogart. She flinched, looked at Guy beseechingly.
He sprang up, strode to her with a nervous step, smoothed her hand. She wondered if she ought to be offended by his caress. Then she wondered if he liked her hat, the new Oriental turban of rose and silver brocade.
He dropped her hand. His elbow brushed her shoulder. He flitted over to the desk-chair, his thin back stooped. He picked up the cloisonne vase. Across it he peered at her with such loneliness that she was startled. But his eyes faded into impersonality as he talked of the jealousies of Gopher Prairie. He stopped himself with a sharp, âGood Lord, Carol, youâre not a jury. You are within your legal rights in refusing to be subjected to this summing-up. Iâm a tedious old fool analyzing the obvious, while youâre the spirit of rebellion. Tell me your side. What is Gopher Prairie to you?â
âA bore!â
âCan I help?â
âHow could you?â
âI donât know. Perhaps by listening. I havenât done that tonight. But normallyâ âCanât I be the confidant of the old French plays, the tiring-maid with the mirror and the loyal ears?â
âOh, what is there to confide? The people are savorless and proud of it. And even if I liked you tremendously, I couldnât talk to you without twenty old hexes watching, whispering.â
âBut you will come talk to me, once in a while?â
âIâm not sure that I shall. Iâm trying to develop my own large capacity for dullness and contentment. Iâve failed at every positive thing Iâve tried. Iâd better âsettle down,â as they call it, and be satisfied to beâ ânothing.â
âDonât be cynical. It hurts me, in you. Itâs like blood on the wing of a hummingbird.â
âIâm not a hummingbird. Iâm a hawk; a tiny leashed hawk, pecked to death by these large, white, flabby, wormy hens. But I am grateful to you for confirming me in the faith. And Iâm going home!â
âPlease stay and have some coffee with me.â
âIâd like to. But theyâve succeeded in terrorizing me. Iâm afraid of what people might say.â
âIâm not afraid of that. Iâm only afraid of what you might say!â He stalked to her; took her unresponsive hand. âCarol! You have been happy here tonight? (Yes. Iâm begging!)â
She squeezed his hand quickly, then snatched hers away. She had but little of the curiosity of the flirt, and none of the intriganteâs joy in furtiveness. If she was the naive girl, Guy Pollock was the clumsy boy. He raced about the office; he rammed his fists into his pockets. He stammered, âIâ âIâ âIâ âOh, the devil! Why do I awaken from smooth dustiness to this jagged rawness? Iâll make Iâm going to trot down the hall and bring in the Dillons, and weâll all have coffee or something.â
âThe Dillons?â
âYes. Really quite a decent young pairâ âHarvey Dillon and his wife. Heâs a dentist, just come to town. They live in a room behind his office, same as I do here. They donât know much of anybodyâ ââ
âIâve heard of them. And Iâve never thought to call. Iâm horribly ashamed. Do bring themâ ââ
She stopped, for no very clear reason, but his expression said, her faltering admitted, that they wished they had never mentioned the Dillons. With spurious enthusiasm he said, âSplendid! I will.â From the door he glanced at her, curled in the peeled leather chair. He slipped out, came back with Dr. and Mrs. Dillon.
The four of them drank rather bad coffee which Pollock made on a kerosene burner. They laughed, and spoke of Minneapolis, and were tremendously tactful; and Carol started for home, through the November wind.
XIV
She was marching home.
âNo. I couldnât fall in love with him. I like him, very much. But heâs too much of a recluse. Could I kiss him? No! No! Guy Pollock at twenty-six I could have kissed him then, maybe, even if I were married to someone else, and probably Iâd have been glib in persuading myself that âit wasnât really wrong.â
âThe amazing thing is that Iâm not more amazed at myself. I, the virtuous young matron. Am I to be trusted? If the Prince Charming cameâ â
âA Gopher Prairie housewife, married a year, and yearning for a âPrince Charmingâ like a bachfisch of sixteen! They say that marriage is a magic change. But Iâm not changed. Butâ â
âNo! I wouldnât want to fall in love, even if the Prince did come. I wouldnât want to hurt Will. I am fond of Will. I am! He doesnât stir me, not any longer. But I depend on him. He is home and children.
âI wonder when we will begin to have children? I do want them.
âI wonder whether I remembered to tell Bea to have hominy tomorrow, instead of oatmeal? She will have gone to bed by now. Perhaps Iâll be up early enoughâ â
âEver so fond of Will. I wouldnât hurt him, even if I had to lose the mad love. If the Prince came Iâd look once at him, and run. Darn fast! Oh, Carol, you are not heroic nor fine. You are the immutable vulgar young female.
âBut Iâm not the faithless wife who enjoys confiding that sheâs âmisunderstood.â Oh, Iâm not, Iâm not!
âAm I?
âAt least I didnât whisper to Guy about Willâs faults and his blindness to my remarkable soul. I didnât! Matter of fact, Will probably understands me perfectly! If onlyâ âif he would just back me up in rousing the town.
âHow many, how incredibly many wives there must be who tingle over the first Guy Pollock who smiles at them. No! I will not be one of that herd of yearners! The coy virgin brides. Yet probably if the Prince were young and dared to face lifeâ â
âIâm not half as well oriented as that Mrs. Dillon. So obviously adoring her dentist! And seeing Guy only as an eccentric fogy.
âThey werenât silk, Mrs. Dillonâs stockings. They were lisle. Her legs are nice and slim. But no nicer than mine. I hate cotton tops on silk stockings.â ââ ⌠Are my ankles getting fat? I will not have fat ankles!
âNo. I am fond of Will. His workâ âone farmer he pulls through diphtheria is worth all my yammering for a castle in Spain. A castle with baths.
âThis hat is so tight. I must stretch it. Guy liked it.
âThereâs the house. Iâm awfully chilly. Time to get out the fur coat. I wonder if Iâll ever have a beaver coat? Nutria is not the same thing! Beaverâ âglossy. Like to run my fingers over it. Guyâs mustache like beaver. How utterly absurd!
âI am, I am fond of Will, andâ âCanât I ever find another word than âfondâ?
âHeâs home. Heâll think I was out late.
âWhy canât he ever remember to pull down the shades? Cy Bogart and all the beastly boys peeping in. But the poor dear, heâs absentminded about minuteâ âminushâ âwhatever the word is. He has so much worry and work, while I do nothing but jabber to Bea.
âI mustnât forget the hominyâ ââ
She was flying into the hall. Kennicott looked up from the Journal of the American Medical Society.
âHello! What time did you get back?â she cried.
âAbout nine. You been gadding. Here it is past eleven!â Good-natured yet not quite approving.
âDid it feel neglected?â
âWell, you didnât remember to close the lower draft in the furnace.â
âOh, Iâm so sorry. But I donât often forget things like that, do I?â
She dropped into his lap and (after he had jerked back his head to save his eyeglasses, and removed the glasses, and settled her in a position less cramping to his legs, and casually cleared his throat) he kissed her amiably, and remarked:
âNope, I must say youâre fairly good about things like that. I wasnât kicking. I just meant I wouldnât want the fire to go out on us. Leave that draft open and the fire might burn up and go out on us. And the nights are beginning to get pretty cold again. Pretty cold on my drive. I put the side-curtains up, it was so chilly. But the generator is working all right now.â
âYes. It is chilly. But I feel fine after my walk.â
âGo walking?â
âI went up to see the Perrys.â By a definite act of will she added the truth: âThey werenât in. And I saw Guy Pollock. Dropped into his office.â
âWhy, you havenât been sitting and chinning with him till eleven oâclock?â
âOf course there were some other people there andâ âWill! What do you think of Dr. Westlake?â
âWestlake? Why?â
âI noticed him on the street today.â
âWas he limping? If the poor fish would have his teeth X-rayed, Iâll bet nine and a half cents heâd find an abscess there. âRheumatismâ he calls it. Rheumatism, hell! Heâs behind the times. Wonder he doesnât bleed himself! Wellllllllâ ââ A profound and serious yawn. âI hate to break up the party, but itâs getting late, and a doctor never knows when heâll get routed out before morning.â (She remembered that he had given this explanation, in these words, not less than thirty times in the year.) âI guess we better be trotting up to bed. Iâve wound the clock and looked at the furnace. Did you lock the front door when you came in?â
They trailed upstairs, after he had turned out the lights and twice tested the front door to make sure it was fast. While they talked they were preparing for bed. Carol still sought to maintain privacy by undressing behind the screen of the closet door. Kennicott was not so reticent. Tonight, as every night, she was irritated by having to push the old plush chair out of the way before she could open the closet door. Every time she opened the door she shoved the chair. Ten times an hour. But Kennicott liked to have the chair in the room, and there was no place for it except in front of the closet.
She pushed it, felt angry, hid her anger. Kennicott was yawning, more portentously. The room smelled stale. She shrugged and became chatty:
âYou were speaking of Dr. Westlake. Tell meâ âyouâve never summed him up: Is he really a good doctor?â
âOh yes, heâs a wise old coot.â
(âThere! You see there is no medical rivalry. Not in my house!â she said triumphantly to Guy Pollock.)
She hung her silk petticoat on a closet hook, and went on, âDr. Westlake is so gentle and scholarlyâ ââ
âWell, I donât know as Iâd say he was such a whale of a scholar. Iâve always had a suspicion he did a good deal of four-flushing about that. He likes to have people think he keeps up his French and Greek and Lord knows what all; and heâs always got an old Dago book lying around the sitting-room, but Iâve got a hunch he reads detective stories âbout like the rest of us. And I donât know where heâd ever learn so dog-gone many languages anyway! He kind of lets people assume he went to Harvard or Berlin or Oxford or somewhere, but I looked him up in the medical register, and he graduated from a hick college in Pennsylvania, way back in 1861!â
âBut this is the important thing: Is he an honest doctor?â
âHow do you mean âhonestâ? Depends on what you mean.â
âSuppose you were sick. Would you call him in? Would you let me call him in?â
âNot if I were well enough to cuss and bite, I wouldnât! No, sir! I wouldnât have the old fake in the house. Makes me tired, his everlasting palavering and soft-soaping. Heâs all right for an ordinary bellyache or holding some fool womanâs hand, but I wouldnât call him in for an honest-to-God illness, not much I wouldnât, no-sir! You know I donât do much backbiting, but same timeâ âIâll tell you, Carrie: Iâve never got over being sore at Westlake for the way he treated Mrs. Jonderquist. Nothing the matter with her, what she really needed was a rest, but Westlake kept calling on her and calling on her for weeks, almost every day, and he sent her a good big fat bill, too, you can bet! I never did forgive him for that. Nice decent hardworking people like the Jonderquists!â
In her batiste nightgown she was standing at the bureau engaged in the invariable rites of wishing that she had a real dressing-table with a triple mirror, of bending toward the streaky glass and raising her chin to inspect a pinhead mole on her throat, and finally of brushing her hair. In rhythm to the strokes she went on:
âBut, Will, there isnât any of what you might call financial rivalry between you and the partnersâ âWestlake and McGanumâ âis there?â
He flipped into bed with a solemn back-somersault and a ludicrous kick of his heels as he tucked his legs under the blankets. He snorted, âLord no! I never begrudge any man a nickel he can get away from meâ âfairly.â
âBut is Westlake fair? Isnât he sly?â
âSly is the word. Heâs a fox, that boy!â
She saw Guy Pollockâs grin in the mirror. She flushed.
Kennicott, with his arms behind his head, was yawning:
âYump. Heâs smooth, too smooth. But I bet I make prettâ near as much as Westlake and McGanum both together, though Iâve never wanted to grab more than my just share. If anybody wants to go to the partners instead of to me, thatâs his business. Though I must say it makes me tired when Westlake gets hold of the Dawsons. Here Luke Dawson had been coming to me for every toe-ache and headache and a lot of little things that just wasted my time, and then when his grandchild was here last summer and had summer-complaint, I suppose, or something like that, probablyâ âyou know, the time you and I drove up to Lac-qui-Meurtâ âwhy, Westlake got hold of Ma Dawson, and scared her to death, and made her think the kid had appendicitis, and, by golly, if he and McGanum didnât operate, and holler their heads off about the terrible adhesions they found, and what a regular Charley and Will Mayo they were for classy surgery. They let on that if theyâd waited two hours more the kid would have developed peritonitis, and God knows what all; and then they collected a nice fat hundred and fifty dollars. And probably theyâd have charged three hundred, if they hadnât been afraid of me! Iâm no hog, but I certainly do hate to give old Luke ten dollarsâ worth of advice for a dollar and a half, and then see a hundred and fifty go glimmering. And if I canât do a better âpendectomy than either Westlake or McGanum, Iâll eat my hat!â
As she crept into bed she was dazzled by Guyâs blazing grin. She experimented:
âBut Westlake is cleverer than his son-in-law, donât you think?â
âYes, Westlake may be old-fashioned and all that, but heâs got a certain amount of intuition, while McGanum goes into everything bullheaded, and butts his way through like a damn yahoo, and tries to argue his patients into having whatever he diagnoses them as having! About the best thing Mac can do is to stick to baby-snatching. Heâs just about on a par with this bone-pounding chiropractor female, Mrs. Mattie Gooch.â
âMrs. Westlake and Mrs. McGanum, thoughâ âtheyâre nice. Theyâve been awfully cordial to me.â
âWell, no reason why they shouldnât be, is there? Oh, theyâre nice enoughâ âthough you can bet your bottom dollar theyâre both plugging for their husbands all the time, trying to get the business. And I donât know as I call it so damn cordial in Mrs. McGanum when I holler at her on the street and she nods back like she had a sore neck. Still, sheâs all right. Itâs Ma Westlake that makes the mischief, pussyfooting around all the time. But I wouldnât trust any Westlake out of the whole lot, and while Mrs. McGanum seems square enough, you donât never want to forget that sheâs Westlakeâs daughter. You bet!â
âWhat about Dr. Gould? Donât you think heâs worse than either Westlake or McGanum? Heâs so cheapâ âdrinking, and playing pool, and always smoking cigars in such a cocky wayâ ââ
âThatâs all right now! Terry Gould is a good deal of a tin-horn sport, but he knows a lot about medicine, and donât you forget it for one second!â
She stared down Guyâs grin, and asked more cheerfully, âIs he honest, too?â
âOoooooooooo! Gosh Iâm sleepy!â He burrowed beneath the bedclothes in a luxurious stretch, and came up like a diver, shaking his head, as he complained, âHowâs that? Who? Terry Gould honest? Donât start me laughingâ âIâm too nice and sleepy! I didnât say he was honest. I said he had savvy enough to find the index in Grayâs Anatomy, which is more than McGanum can do! But I didnât say anything about his being honest. He isnât. Terry is crooked as a dogâs hind leg. Heâs done me more than one dirty trick. He told Mrs. Glorbach, seventeen miles out, that I wasnât up-to-date in obstetrics. Fat lot of good it did him! She came right in and told me! And Terryâs lazy. Heâd let a pneumonia patient choke rather than interrupt a poker game.â
âOh no. I canât believeâ ââ
âWell now, Iâm telling you!â
âDoes he play much poker? Dr. Dillon told me that Dr. Gould wanted him to playâ ââ
âDillon told you what? Whereâd you meet Dillon? Heâs just come to town.â
âHe and his wife were at Mr. Pollockâs tonight.â
âSay, uh, whatâd you think of them? Didnât Dillon strike you as pretty light-waisted?â
âWhy no. He seemed intelligent. Iâm sure heâs much more wide-awake than our dentist.â
âWell now, the old man is a good dentist. He knows his business. And Dillonâ âI wouldnât cuddle up to the Dillons too close, if I were you. All right for Pollock, and thatâs none of our business, but weâ âI think Iâd just give the Dillons the glad hand and pass âem up.â
âBut why? He isnât a rival.â
âThatâsâ âallâ âright!â Kennicott was aggressively awake now. âHeâll work right in with Westlake and McGanum. Matter of fact, I suspect they were largely responsible for his locating here. Theyâll be sending him patients, and heâll send all that he can get hold of to them. I donât trust anybody thatâs too much hand-in-glove with Westlake. You give Dillon a shot at some fellow thatâs just bought a farm here and drifts into town to get his teeth looked at, and after Dillon gets through with him, youâll see him edging around to Westlake and McGanum, every time!â
Carol reached for her blouse, which hung on a chair by the bed. She draped it about her shoulders, and sat up studying Kennicott, her chin in her hands. In the gray light from the small electric bulb down the hall she could see that he was frowning.
âWill, this isâ âI must get this straight. Someone said to me the other day that in towns like this, even more than in cities, all the doctors hate each other, because of the moneyâ ââ
âWho said that?â
âIt doesnât matter.â
âIâll bet a hat it was your Vida Sherwin. Sheâs a brainy woman, but sheâd be a damn sight brainier if she kept her mouth shut and didnât let so much of her brains ooze out that way.â
âWill! O Will! Thatâs horrible! Aside from the vulgarityâ âSome ways, Vida is my best friend. Even if she had said it. Which, as a matter of fact, she didnât.â He reared up his thick shoulders, in absurd pink and green flannelette pajamas. He sat straight, and irritatingly snapped his fingers, and growled:
âWell, if she didnât say it, letâs forget her. Doesnât make any difference who said it, anyway. The point is that you believe it. God! To think you donât understand me any better than that! Money!â
(âThis is the first real quarrel weâve ever had,â she was agonizing.)
He thrust out his long arm and snatched his wrinkly vest from a chair. He took out a cigar, a match. He tossed the vest on the floor. He lighted the cigar and puffed savagely. He broke up the match and snapped the fragments at the footboard.
She suddenly saw the footboard of the bed as the foot-stone of the grave of love.
The room was drab-colored and ill-ventilatedâ âKennicott did not âbelieve in opening the windows so darn wide that you heat all outdoors.â The stale air seemed never to change. In the light from the hall they were two lumps of bedclothes with shoulders and tousled heads attached.
She begged, âI didnât mean to wake you up, dear. And please donât smoke. Youâve been smoking so much. Please go back to sleep. Iâm sorry.â
âBeing sorryâs all right, but Iâm going to tell you one or two things. This falling for anybodyâs say-so about medical jealousy and competition is simply part and parcel of your usual willingness to think the worst you possibly can of us poor dubs in Gopher Prairie. Trouble with women like you is, you always want to argue. Canât take things the way they are. Got to argue. Well, Iâm not going to argue about this in any way, shape, manner, or form. Trouble with you is, you donât make any effort to appreciate us. Youâre so damned superior, and think the city is such a hell of a lot finer place, and you want us to do what you want, all the timeâ ââ
âThatâs not true! Itâs I who make the effort. Itâs theyâ âitâs youâ âwho stand back and criticize. I have to come over to the townâs opinion; I have to devote myself to their interests. They canât even see my interests, to say nothing of adopting them. I get ever so excited about their old Lake Minniemashie and the cottages, but they simply guffaw (in that lovely friendly way you advertise so much) if I speak of wanting to see Taormina also.â
âSure, Tormina, whatever that isâ âsome nice expensive millionaire colony, I suppose. Sure; thatâs the idea; champagne taste and beer income; and make sure that we never will have more than a beer income, too!â
âAre you by any chance implying that I am not economical?â
âWell, I hadnât intended to, but since you bring it up yourself, I donât mind saying the grocery bills are about twice what they ought to be.â
âYes, they probably are. Iâm not economical. I canât be. Thanks to you!â
âWhere dâ you get that âthanks to youâ?â
âPlease donât be quite so colloquialâ âor shall I say vulgar?â
âIâll be as damn colloquial as I want to. How do you get that âthanks to youâ? Here about a year ago you jump me for not remembering to give you money. Well, Iâm reasonable. I didnât blame you, and I said I was to blame. But have I ever forgotten it sinceâ âpractically?â
âNo. You havenâtâ âpractically! But that isnât it. I ought to have an allowance. I will, too! I must have an agreement for a regular stated amount, every month.â
âFine idea! Of course a doctor gets a regular stated amount! Sure! A thousand one monthâ âand lucky if he makes a hundred the next.â
âVery well then, a percentage. Or something else. No matter how much you vary, you can make a rough average forâ ââ
âBut whatâs the idea? What are you trying to get at? Mean to say Iâm unreasonable? Think Iâm so unreliable and tightwad that youâve got to tie me down with a contract? By God, that hurts! I thought Iâd been pretty generous and decent, and I took a lot of pleasureâ âthinks I, âsheâll be tickled when I hand her over this twentyââ âor fifty, or whatever it was; and now seems you been wanting to make it a kind of alimony. Me, like a poor fool, thinking I was liberal all the while, and youâ ââ
âPlease stop pitying yourself! Youâre having a beautiful time feeling injured. I admit all you say. Certainly. Youâve given me money both freely and amiably. Quite as if I were your mistress!â
âCarrie!â
âI mean it! What was a magnificent spectacle of generosity to you was humiliation to me. You gave me moneyâ âgave it to your mistress, if she was complaisant, and then youâ ââ
âCarrie!â
â(Donât interrupt me!)â âthen you felt youâd discharged all obligation. Well, hereafter Iâll refuse your money, as a gift. Either Iâm your partner, in charge of the household department of our business, with a regular budget for it, or else Iâm nothing. If Iâm to be a mistress, I shall choose my lovers. Oh, I hate itâ âI hate itâ âthis smirking and hoping for moneyâ âand then not even spending it on jewels as a mistress has a right to, but spending it on double-boilers and socks for you! Yes indeed! Youâre generous! You give me a dollar, right outâ âthe only proviso is that I must spend it on a tie for you! And you give it when and as you wish. How can I be anything but uneconomical?â
âOh well, of course, looking at it that wayâ ââ
âI canât shop around, canât buy in large quantities, have to stick to stores where I have a charge account, good deal of the time, canât plan because I donât know how much money I can depend on. Thatâs what I pay for your charming sentimentalities about giving so generously. You make meâ ââ
âWait! Wait! You know youâre exaggerating. You never thought about that mistress stuff till just this minute! Matter of fact, you never have âsmirked and hoped for money.â But all the same, you may be right. You ought to run the household as a business. Iâll figure out a definite plan tomorrow, and hereafter youâll be on a regular amount or percentage, with your own checking account.â
âOh, that is decent of you!â She turned toward him, trying to be affectionate. But his eyes were pink and unlovely in the flare of the match with which he lighted his dead and malodorous cigar. His head drooped, and a ridge of flesh scattered with pale small bristles bulged out under his chin.
She sat in abeyance till he croaked:
âNo. âTisnât especially decent. Itâs just fair. And God knows I want to be fair. But I expect others to be fair, too. And youâre so high and mighty about people. Take Sam Clark; best soul that ever lived, honest and loyal and a damn good fellowâ ââ
(âYes, and a good shot at ducks, donât forget that!â)
â(Well, and he is a good shot, too!) Sam drops around in the evening to sit and visit, and by golly just because he takes a dry smoke and rolls his cigar around in his mouth, and maybe spits a few times, you look at him as if he was a hog. Oh, you didnât know I was onto you, and I certainly hope Sam hasnât noticed it, but I never miss it.â
âI have felt that way. Spittingâ âugh! But Iâm sorry you caught my thoughts. I tried to be nice; I tried to hide them.â
âMaybe I catch a whole lot more than you think I do!â
âYes, perhaps you do.â
âAnd dâ you know why Sam doesnât light his cigar when heâs here?â
âWhy?â
âHeâs so darn afraid youâll be offended if he smokes. You scare him. Every time he speaks of the weather you jump him because he ainât talking about poetry or Gertieâ âGoethe?â âor some other highbrow junk. Youâve got him so leery he scarcely dares to come here.â
âOh, I am sorry. (Though Iâm sure itâs you who are exaggerating now.)â
âWell now, I donât know as I am! And I can tell you one thing: if you keep on youâll manage to drive away every friend Iâve got.â
âThat would be horrible of me. You know I donât mean to Will, what is it about me that frightens Samâ âif I do frighten him.â
âOh, you do, all right! âStead of putting his legs up on another chair, and unbuttoning his vest, and telling a good story or maybe kidding me about something, he sits on the edge of his chair and tries to make conversation about politics, and he doesnât even cuss, and Samâs never real comfortable unless he can cuss a little!â
âIn other words, he isnât comfortable unless he can behave like a peasant in a mud hut!â
âNow thatâll be about enough of that! You want to know how you scare him? First you deliberately fire some question at him that you know darn well he canât answerâ âany fool could see you were experimenting with himâ âand then you shock him by talking of mistresses or something, like you were doing just nowâ ââ
âOf course the pure Samuel never speaks of such erring ladies in his private conversations!â
âNot when thereâs ladies around! You can bet your life on that!â
âSo the impurity lies in failing to pretend thatâ ââ
âNow we wonât go into all thatâ âeugenics or whatever damn fad you choose to call it. As I say, first you shock him, and then you become so darn flighty that nobody can follow you. Either you want to dance, or you bang the piano, or else you get moody as the devil and donât want to talk or anything else. If you must be temperamental, why canât you be that way by yourself?â
âMy dear man, thereâs nothing Iâd like better than to be by myself occasionally! To have a room of my own! I suppose you expect me to sit here and dream delicately and satisfy my âtemperamentalityâ while you wander in from the bathroom with lather all over your face, and shout, âSeen my brown pants?âââ
âHuh!â He did not sound impressed. He made no answer. He turned out of bed, his feet making one solid thud on the floor. He marched from the room, a grotesque figure in baggy union-pajamas. She heard him drawing a drink of water at the bathroom tap. She was furious at the contemptuousness of his exit. She snuggled down in bed, and looked away from him as he returned. He ignored her. As he flumped into bed he yawned, and casually stated:
âWell, youâll have plenty of privacy when we build a new house.â
âWhen?â
âOh, Iâll build it all right, donât you fret! But of course I donât expect any credit for it.â
Now it was she who grunted âHuh!â and ignored him, and felt independent and masterful as she shot up out of bed, turned her back on him, fished a lone and petrified chocolate out of her glove-box in the top right-hand drawer of the bureau, gnawed at it, found that it had coconut filling, said âDamn!â wished that she had not said it, so that she might be superior to his colloquialism, and hurled the chocolate into the wastebasket, where it made an evil and mocking clatter among the debris of torn linen collars and toothpaste box. Then, in great dignity and self-dramatization, she returned to bed.
All this time he had been talking on, embroidering his assertion that he âdidnât expect any credit.â She was reflecting that he was a rustic, that she hated him, that she had been insane to marry him, that she had married him only because she was tired of work, that she must get her long gloves cleaned, that she would never do anything more for him, and that she mustnât forget his hominy for breakfast. She was roused to attention by his storming:
âIâm a fool to think about a new house. By the time I get it built youâll probably have succeeded in your plan to get me completely in Dutch with every friend and every patient Iâve got.â
She sat up with a bounce. She said coldly, âThank you very much for revealing your real opinion of me. If thatâs the way you feel, if Iâm such a hindrance to you, I canât stay under this roof another minute. And I am perfectly well able to earn my own living. I will go at once, and you may get a divorce at your pleasure! What you want is a nice sweet cow of a woman who will enjoy having your dear friends talk about the weather and spit on the floor!â
âTut! Donât be a fool!â
âYou will very soon find out whether Iâm a fool or not! I mean it! Do you think Iâd stay here one second after I found out that I was injuring you? At least I have enough sense of justice not to do that.â
âPlease stop flying off at tangents, Carrie. Thisâ ââ
âTangents? Tangents! Let me tell youâ ââ
ââ âisnât a theater-play; itâs a serious effort to have us get together on fundamentals. Weâve both been cranky, and said a lot of things we didnât mean. I wish we were a couple oâ bloominâ poets and just talked about roses and moonshine, but weâre human. All right. Letâs cut out jabbing at each other. Letâs admit we both do fool things. See here: You know you feel superior to folks. Youâre not as bad as I say, but youâre not as good as you sayâ ânot by a long shot! Whatâs the reason youâre so superior? Why canât you take folks as they are?â
Her preparations for stalking out of the Dollâs House were not yet visible. She mused:
âI think perhaps itâs my childhood.â She halted. When she went on her voice had an artificial sound, her words the bookish quality of emotional meditation. âMy father was the tenderest man in the world, but he did feel superior to ordinary people. Well, he was! And the Minnesota Valleyâ âI used to sit there on the cliffs above Mankato for hours at a time, my chin in my hand, looking way down the valley, wanting to write poems. The shiny tilted roofs below me, and the river, and beyond it the level fields in the mist, and the rim of palisades acrossâ âIt held my thoughts in. I lived, in the valley. But the prairieâ âall my thoughts go flying off into the big space. Do you think it might be that?â
âUm, well, maybe, butâ âCarrie, you always talk so much about getting all you can out of life, and not letting the years slip by, and here you deliberately go and deprive yourself of a lot of real good home pleasure by not enjoying people unless they wear frock coats and trot outâ ââ
(âMorning clothes. Oh. Sorry. Didnât mean tâ interrupt you.â)
ââ âto a lot of tea-parties. Take Jack Elder. You think Jack hasnât got any ideas about anything but manufacturing and the tariff on lumber. But do you know that Jack is nutty about music? Heâll put a grand-opera record on the phonograph and sit and listen to it and close his eyesâ âOr you take Lym Cass. Ever realize what a well-informed man he is?â
âBut is he? Gopher Prairie calls anybody âwell-informedâ whoâs been through the State Capitol and heard about Gladstone.â
âNow Iâm telling you! Lym reads a lotâ âsolid stuffâ âhistory. Or take Mart Mahoney, the garageman. Heâs got a lot of Perry prints of famous pictures in his office. Or old Bingham Playfair, that died here âbout a year agoâ âlived seven miles out. He was a captain in the Civil War, and knew General Sherman, and they say he was a miner in Nevada right alongside of Mark Twain. Youâll find these characters in all these small towns, and a pile of savvy in every single one of them, if you just dig for it.â
âI know. And I do love them. Especially people like Champ Perry. But I canât be so very enthusiastic over the smug cits like Jack Elder.â
âThen Iâm a smug cit, too, whatever that is.â
âNo, youâre a scientist. Oh, I will try and get the music out of Mr. Elder. Only, why canât he let it come out, instead of being ashamed of it, and always talking about hunting dogs? But I will try. Is it all right now?â
âSure. But thereâs one other thing. You might give me some attention, too!â
âThatâs unjust! You have everything I am!â
âNo, I havenât. You think you respect meâ âyou always hand out some spiel about my being so âuseful.â But you never think of me as having ambitions, just as much as you haveâ ââ
âPerhaps not. I think of you as being perfectly satisfied.â
âWell, Iâm not, not by a long shot! I donât want to be a plug general practitioner all my life, like Westlake, and die in harness because I canât get out of it, and have âem say, âHe was a good fellow, but he couldnât save a cent.â Not that I care a whoop what they say, after Iâve kicked in and canât hear âem, but I want to put enough money away so you and I can be independent some day, and not have to work unless I feel like it, and I want to have a good houseâ âby golly, Iâll have as good a house as anybody in this town!â âand if we want to travel and see your Tormina or whatever it is, why we can do it, with enough money in our jeans so we wonât have to take anything off anybody, or fret about our old age. You never worry about what might happen if we got sick and didnât have a good fat wad salted away, do you!â
âI donât suppose I do.â
âWell then, I have to do it for you. And if you think for one moment I want to be stuck in this burg all my life, and not have a chance to travel and see the different points of interest and all that, then you simply donât get me. I want to have a squint at the world, muchâs you do. Only, Iâm practical about it. First place, Iâm going to make the moneyâ âIâm investing in good safe farmlands. Do you understand why now?â
âYes.â
âWill you try and see if you canât think of me as something more than just a dollar-chasing roughneck?â
âOh, my dear, I havenât been just! I am difficile. And I wonât call on the Dillons! And if Dr. Dillon is working for Westlake and McGanum, I hate him!â
XV
I
That December she was in love with her husband.
She romanticized herself not as a great reformer but as the wife of a country physician. The realities of the doctorâs household were colored by her pride.
Late at night, a step on the wooden porch, heard through her confusion of sleep; the storm-door opened; fumbling over the inner door-panels; the buzz of the electric bell. Kennicott muttering âGol darn it,â but patiently creeping out of bed, remembering to draw the covers up to keep her warm, feeling for slippers and bathrobe, clumping downstairs.
From below, half-heard in her drowsiness, a colloquy in the pidgin-German of the farmers who have forgotten the Old Country language without learning the new:
âHello, Barney, wass willst du?â
âMorgen, doctor. Die Frau ist ja awful sick. All night she been having an awful pain in de belly.â
âHow long she been this way? Wie lang, eh?â
âI dunno, maybe two days.â
âWhy didnât you come for me yesterday, instead of waking me up out of a sound sleep? Here it is two oâclock! So spätâ âwarum, eh?â
âNun aber, I know it, but she got soch a lot vorse last evening. I tâought maybe all de time it go avay, but it got a lot vorse.â
âAny fever?â
âVell ja, I tâink she got fever.â
âWhich side is the pain on?â
âHuh?â
âDas Schmertzâ âdie Wehâ âwhich side is it on? Here?â
âSo. Right here it is.â
âAny rigidity there?â
âHuh?â
âIs it rigidâ âstiffâ âI mean, does the belly feel hard to the fingers?â
âI dunno. She ainât said yet.â
âWhat she been eating?â
âVell, I tâink about vot ve alwis eat, maybe corn beef and cabbage and sausage, und so weiter. Doc, sie weint immer, all the time she holler like hell. I vish you come.â
âWell, all right, but you call me earlier, next time. Look here, Barney, you better install a phoneâ âtelephone haben. Some of you Dutchmen will be dying one of these days before you can fetch the doctor.â
The door closing. Barneyâs wagonâ âthe wheels silent in the snow, but the wagon-body rattling. Kennicott clicking the receiver-hook to rouse the night telephone-operator, giving a number, waiting, cursing mildly, waiting again, and at last growling, âHello, Gus, this is the doctor. Say, uh, send me up a team. Guess snowâs too thick for a machine. Going eight miles south. All right. Huh? The hell I will! Donât you go back to sleep. Huh? Well, thatâs all right now, you didnât wait so very darn long. All right, Gus; shoot her along. By!â
His step on the stairs; his quiet moving about the frigid room while he dressed; his abstracted and meaningless cough. She was supposed to be asleep; she was too exquisitely drowsy to break the charm by speaking. On a slip of paper laid on the bureauâ âshe could hear the pencil grinding against the marble slabâ âhe wrote his destination. He went out, hungry, chilly, unprotesting; and she, before she fell asleep again, loved him for his sturdiness, and saw the drama of his riding by night to the frightened household on the distant farm; pictured children standing at a window, waiting for him. He suddenly had in her eyes the heroism of a wireless operator on a ship in a collision; of an explorer, fever-clawed, deserted by his bearers, but going onâ âjungleâ âgoingâ â
At six, when the light faltered in as through ground glass and bleakly identified the chairs as gray rectangles, she heard his step on the porch; heard him at the furnace: the rattle of shaking the grate, the slow grinding removal of ashes, the shovel thrust into the coal-bin, the abrupt clatter of the coal as it flew into the firebox, the fussy regulation of draftsâ âthe daily sounds of a Gopher Prairie life, now first appealing to her as something brave and enduring, many-colored and free. She visioned the firebox: flames turned to lemon and metallic gold as the coal-dust sifted over them; thin twisty flutters of purple, ghost flames which gave no light, slipping up between the dark banked coals.
It was luxurious in bed, and the house would be warm for her when she rose, she reflected. What a worthless cat she was! What were her aspirations beside his capability?
She awoke again as he dropped into bed.
âSeems just a few minutes ago that you started out!â
âIâve been away four hours. Iâve operated a woman for appendicitis, in a Dutch kitchen. Came awful close to losing her, too, but I pulled her through all right. Close squeak. Barney says he shot ten rabbits last Sunday.â
He was instantly asleepâ âone hour of rest before he had to be up and ready for the farmers who came in early. She marveled that in what was to her but a night-blurred moment, he should have been in a distant place, have taken charge of a strange house, have slashed a woman, saved a life.
What wonder he detested the lazy Westlake and McGanum! How could the easy Guy Pollock understand this skill and endurance?
Then Kennicott was grumbling, âSeven-fifteen! Arenât you ever going to get up for breakfast?â and he was not a hero-scientist but a rather irritable and commonplace man who needed a shave. They had coffee, griddlecakes, and sausages, and talked about Mrs. McGanumâs atrocious alligator-hide belt. Night witchery and morning disillusion were alike forgotten in the march of realities and days.
II
Familiar to the doctorâs wife was the man with an injured leg, driven in from the country on a Sunday afternoon and brought to the house. He sat in a rocker in the back of a lumber-wagon, his face pale from the anguish of the jolting. His leg was thrust out before him, resting on a starch-box and covered with a leather-bound horse-blanket. His drab courageous wife drove the wagon, and she helped Kennicott support him as he hobbled up the steps, into the house.
âFellow cut his leg with an axâ âpretty bad gashâ âHalvor Nelson, nine miles out,â Kennicott observed.
Carol fluttered at the back of the room, childishly excited when she was sent to fetch towels and a basin of water. Kennicott lifted the farmer into a chair and chuckled, âThere we are, Halvor! Weâll have you out fixing fences and drinking aquavit in a month.â The farmwife sat on the couch, expressionless, bulky in a manâs dogskin coat and unplumbed layers of jackets. The flowery silk handkerchief which she had worn over her head now hung about her seamed neck. Her white wool gloves lay in her lap.
Kennicott drew from the injured leg the thick red âGerman sock,â the innumerous other socks of gray and white wool, then the spiral bandage. The leg was of an unwholesome dead white, with the black hairs feeble and thin and flattened, and the scar a puckered line of crimson. Surely, Carol shuddered, this was not human flesh, the rosy shining tissue of the amorous poets.
Kennicott examined the scar, smiled at Halvor and his wife, chanted, âFine, bâ gosh! Couldnât be better!â
The Nelsons looked deprecating. The farmer nodded a cue to his wife and she mourned:
âVell, how much ve going to owe you, doctor?â
âI guess itâll beâ âLetâs see: one drive out and two calls. I guess itâll be about eleven dollars in all, Lena.â
âI dunno ve can pay you yoost a little wâile, doctor.â
Kennicott lumbered over to her, patted her shoulder, roared, âWhy, Lord love you, sister, I wonât worry if I never get it! You pay me next fall, when you get your crop.â ââ ⌠Carrie! Suppose you or Bea could shake up a cup of coffee and some cold lamb for the Nelsons? They got a long cold drive ahead.â
III
He had been gone since morning; her eyes ached with reading; Vida Sherwin could not come to tea. She wandered through the house, empty as the bleary street without. The problem of âWill the doctor be home in time for supper, or shall I sit down without him?â was important in the household. Six was the rigid, the canonical supper-hour, but at half-past six he had not come. Much speculation with Bea: Had the obstetrical case taken longer than he had expected? Had he been called somewhere else? Was the snow much heavier out in the country, so that he should have taken a buggy, or even a cutter, instead of the car? Here in town it had melted a lot, but stillâ â
A honking, a shout, the motor engine raced before it was shut off.
She hurried to the window. The car was a monster at rest after furious adventures. The headlights blazed on the clots of ice in the road so that the tiniest lumps gave mountainous shadows, and the taillight cast a circle of ruby on the snow behind. Kennicott was opening the door, crying, âHere we are, old girl! Got stuck couple times, but we made it, by golly, we made it, and here we be! Come on! Food! Eatinâs!â
She rushed to him, patted his fur coat, the long hairs smooth but chilly to her fingers. She joyously summoned Bea, âAll right! Heâs here! Weâll sit right down!â
IV
There were, to inform the doctorâs wife of his successes, no clapping audiences nor book-reviews nor honorary degrees. But there was a letter written by a German farmer recently moved from Minnesota to Saskatchewan:
Dear sor, as you haf bin treading mee for a fue Weaks dis Somer and seen wat is rong wit mee so in Regarding to dat i wont to tank you. the Doctor heir say wat shot bee rong wit mee and day give mee som Madsin but it diten halp mee like wat you dit. Now day glaim dat i Woten Neet aney Madsin ad all wat you tink?
Well i haven ben tacking aney ting for about one & ½ Mont but i dont get better so i like to heir Wat you tink about it i feel like dis Disconfebil feeling around the Stomac after eating and dat Pain around Heard and down the arm and about 3 to 3½ Hour after Eating i feel weeak like and dissy and a dull Hadig. Now you gust lett mee know Wat you tink about mee, i do Wat you say.
V
She encountered Guy Pollock at the drug store. He looked at her as though he had a right to; he spoke softly. âI havenât see you, the last few days.â
âNo. Iâve been out in the country with Will several times. Heâs soâ âDo you know that people like you and me can never understand people like him? Weâre a pair of hypercritical loafers, you and I, while he quietly goes and does things.â
She nodded and smiled and was very busy about purchasing boric acid. He stared after her, and slipped away.
When she found that he was gone she was slightly disconcerted.
VI
She couldâ âat timesâ âagree with Kennicott that the shaving-and-corsets familiarity of married life was not dreary vulgarity but a wholesome frankness; that artificial reticences might merely be irritating. She was not much disturbed when for hours he sat about the living-room in his honest socks. But she would not listen to his theory that âall this romance stuff is simply moonshineâ âelegant when youâre courting, but no use busting yourself keeping it up all your life.â
She thought of surprises, games, to vary the days. She knitted an astounding purple scarf, which she hid under his supper plate. (When he discovered it he looked embarrassed, and gasped, âIs today an anniversary or something? Gosh, Iâd forgotten it!â)
Once she filled a thermos bottle with hot coffee, a corn-flakes box with cookies just baked by Bea, and bustled to his office at three in the afternoon. She hid her bundles in the hall and peeped in.
The office was shabby. Kennicott had inherited it from a medical predecessor, and changed it only by adding a white enameled operating-table, a sterilizer, a Roentgen-ray apparatus, and a small portable typewriter. It was a suite of two rooms: a waiting-room with straight chairs, shaky pine table, and those coverless and unknown magazines which are found only in the offices of dentists and doctors. The room beyond, looking on Main Street, was business-office, consulting-room, operating-room, and, in an alcove, bacteriological and chemical laboratory. The wooden floors of both rooms were bare; the furniture was brown and scaly.
Waiting for the doctor were two women, as still as though they were paralyzed, and a man in a railroad brakemanâs uniform, holding his bandaged right hand with his tanned left. They stared at Carol. She sat modestly in a stiff chair, feeling frivolous and out of place.
Kennicott appeared at the inner door, ushering out a bleached man with a trickle of wan beard, and consoling him, âAll right, Dad. Be careful about the sugar, and mind the diet I gave you. Get the prescription filled, and come in and see me next week. Say, uh, better, uh, better not drink too much beer. All right, Dad.â
His voice was artificially hearty. He looked absently at Carol. He was a medical machine now, not a domestic machine. âWhat is it, Carrie?â he droned.
âNo hurry. Just wanted to say hello.â
âWellâ ââ
Self-pity because he did not divine that this was a surprise party rendered her sad and interesting to herself, and she had the pleasure of the martyrs in saying bravely to him, âItâs nothing special. If youâre busy long Iâll trot home.â
While she waited she ceased to pity and began to mock herself. For the first time she observed the waiting-room. Oh yes, the doctorâs family had to have obi panels and a wide couch and an electric percolator, but any hole was good enough for sick tired common people who were nothing but the one means and excuse for the doctorâs existing! No. She couldnât blame Kennicott. He was satisfied by the shabby chairs. He put up with them as his patients did. It was her neglected provinceâ âshe who had been going about talking of rebuilding the whole town!
When the patients were gone she brought in her bundles.
âWhatâs those?â wondered Kennicott.
âTurn your back! Look out of the window!â
He obeyedâ ânot very much bored. When she cried âNow!â a feast of cookies and small hard candies and hot coffee was spread on the roll-top desk in the inner room.
His broad face lightened. âThatâs a new one on me! Never was more surprised in my life! And, by golly, I believe I am hungry. Say, this is fine.â
When the first exhilaration of the surprise had declined she demanded, âWill! Iâm going to refurnish your waiting-room!â
âWhatâs the matter with it? Itâs all right.â
âIt is not! Itâs hideous. We can afford to give your patients a better place. And it would be good business.â She felt tremendously politic.
âRats! I donât worry about the business. You look here now: As I told youâ âJust because I like to tuck a few dollars away, Iâll be switched if Iâll stand for your thinking Iâm nothing but a dollar-chasingâ ââ
âStop it! Quick! Iâm not hurting your feelings! Iâm not criticizing! Iâm the adoring least one of thy harem. I just meanâ ââ
Two days later, with pictures, wicker chairs, a rug, she had made the waiting-room habitable; and Kennicott admitted, âDoes look a lot better. Never thought much about it. Guess I need being bullied.â
She was convinced that she was gloriously content in her career as doctorâs-wife.
VII
She tried to free herself from the speculation and disillusionment which had been twitching at her; sought to dismiss all the opinionation of an insurgent era. She wanted to shine upon the veal-faced bristly-bearded Lyman Cass as much as upon Miles Bjornstam or Guy Pollock. She gave a reception for the Thanatopsis Club. But her real acquiring of merit was in calling upon that Mrs. Bogart whose gossipy good opinion was so valuable to a doctor.
Though the Bogart house was next door she had entered it but three times. Now she put on her new moleskin cap, which made her face small and innocent, she rubbed off the traces of a lipstickâ âand fled across the alley before her admirable resolution should sneak away.
The age of houses, like the age of men, has small relation to their years. The dull-green cottage of the good Widow Bogart was twenty years old, but it had the antiquity of Cheops, and the smell of mummy-dust. Its neatness rebuked the street. The two stones by the path were painted yellow; the outhouse was so overmodestly masked with vines and lattice that it was not concealed at all; the last iron dog remaining in Gopher Prairie stood among whitewashed conch-shells upon the lawn. The hallway was dismayingly scrubbed; the kitchen was an exercise in mathematics, with problems worked out in equidistant chairs.
The parlor was kept for visitors. Carol suggested, âLetâs sit in the kitchen. Please donât trouble to light the parlor stove.â
âNo trouble at all! My gracious, and you coming so seldom and all, and the kitchen is a perfect sight, I try to keep it clean, but Cy will track mud all over it, Iâve spoken to him about it a hundred times if Iâve spoken once, no, you sit right there, dearie, and Iâll make a fire, no trouble at all, practically no trouble at all.â
Mrs. Bogart groaned, rubbed her joints, and repeatedly dusted her hands while she made the fire, and when Carol tried to help she lamented, âOh, it doesnât matter; guess I ainât good for much but toil and workinâ anyway; seems as though thatâs what a lot of folks think.â
The parlor was distinguished by an expanse of rag carpet from which, as they entered, Mrs. Bogart hastily picked one sad dead fly. In the center of the carpet was a rug depicting a red Newfoundland dog, reclining in a green and yellow daisy field and labeled âOur Friend.â The parlor organ, tall and thin, was adorned with a mirror partly circular, partly square, and partly diamond-shaped, and with brackets holding a pot of geraniums, a mouth-organ, and a copy of The Oldtime Hymnal. On the center table was a Sears-Roebuck mail-order catalogue, a silver frame with photographs of the Baptist Church and of an elderly clergyman, and an aluminum tray containing a rattlesnakeâs rattle and a broken spectacle-lens.
Mrs. Bogart spoke of the eloquence of the Reverend Mr. Zitterel, the coldness of cold days, the price of poplar wood, Dave Dyerâs new haircut, and Cy Bogartâs essential piety. âAs I said to his Sunday School teacher, Cy may be a little wild, but thatâs because heâs got so much better brains than a lot of these boys, and this farmer that claims he caught Cy stealing âbeggies, is a liar, and I ought to have the law on him.â
Mrs. Bogart went thoroughly into the rumor that the girl waiter at Billyâs Lunch was not all she might beâ âor, rather, was quite all she might be.
âMy lands, what can you expect when everybody knows what her mother was? And if these traveling salesmen would let her alone she would be all right, though I certainly donât believe she ought to be allowed to think she can pull the wool over our eyes. The sooner sheâs sent to the school for incorrigible girls down at Sauk Centre, the better for all andâ âWonât you just have a cup of coffee, Carol dearie, Iâm sure you wonât mind old Aunty Bogart calling you by your first name when you think how long Iâve known Will, and I was such a friend of his dear lovely mother when she lived here andâ âwas that fur cap expensive? Butâ âDonât you think itâs awful, the way folks talk in this town?â
Mrs. Bogart hitched her chair nearer. Her large face, with its disturbing collection of moles and lone black hairs, wrinkled cunningly. She showed her decayed teeth in a reproving smile, and in the confidential voice of one who scents stale bedroom scandal she breathed:
âI just donât see how folks can talk and act like they do. You donât know the things that go on under cover. This townâ âwhy itâs only the religious training Iâve given Cy thatâs kept him so innocent ofâ âthings. Just the other dayâ âI never pay no attention to stories, but I heard it mighty good and straight that Harry Haydock is carrying on with a girl that clerks in a store down in Minneapolis, and poor Juanita not knowing anything about itâ âthough maybe itâs the judgment of God, because before she married Harry she acted up with more than one boyâ âWell, I donât like to say it, and maybe I ainât up-to-date, like Cy says, but I always believed a lady shouldnât even give names to all sorts of dreadful things, but just the same I know there was at least one case where Juanita and a boyâ âwell, they were just dreadful. Andâ âandâ âThen thereâs that Ole Jenson the grocer, that thinks heâs so plaguey smart, and I know he made up to a farmerâs wife andâ âAnd this awful man Bjornstam that does chores, and Nat Hicks andâ ââ
There was, it seemed, no person in town who was not living a life of shame except Mrs. Bogart, and naturally she resented it.
She knew. She had always happened to be there. Once, she whispered, she was going by when an indiscreet window-shade had been left up a couple of inches. Once she had noticed a man and woman holding hands, and right at a Methodist sociable!
âAnother thingâ âHeaven knows I never want to start trouble, but I canât help what I see from my back steps, and I notice your hired girl Bea carrying on with the grocery boys and allâ ââ
âMrs. Bogart! Iâd trust Bea as I would myself!â
âOh, dearie, you donât understand me! Iâm sure sheâs a good girl. I mean sheâs green, and I hope that none of these horrid young men that there are around town will get her into trouble! Itâs their parentsâ fault, letting them run wild and hear evil things. If I had my way there wouldnât be none of them, not boys nor girls neither, allowed to know anything aboutâ âabout things till they was married. Itâs terrible the bald way that some folks talk. It just shows and gives away what awful thoughts they got inside them, and thereâs nothing can cure them except coming right to God and kneeling down like I do at prayer-meeting every Wednesday evening, and saying, âO God, I would be a miserable sinner except for thy grace.â
âIâd make every last one of these brats go to Sunday School and learn to think about nice things âstead of about cigarettes and goings-onâ âand these dances they have at the lodges are the worst thing that ever happened to this town, lot of young men squeezing girls and finding outâ âOh, itâs dreadful. Iâve told the mayor he ought to put a stop to them andâ âThere was one boy in this town, I donât want to be suspicious or uncharitable butâ ââ
It was half an hour before Carol escaped.
She stopped on her own porch and thought viciously:
âIf that woman is on the side of the angels, then I have no choice; I must be on the side of the devil. Butâ âisnât she like me? She too wants to âreform the townâ! She too criticizes everybody! She too thinks the men are vulgar and limited! Am I like her? This is ghastly!â
That evening she did not merely consent to play cribbage with Kennicott; she urged him to play; and she worked up a hectic interest in land-deals and Sam Clark.
VIII
In courtship days Kennicott had shown her a photograph of Nels Erdstromâs baby and log cabin, but she had never seen the Erdstroms. They had become merely âpatients of the doctor.â Kennicott telephoned her on a mid-December afternoon, âWant to throw your coat on and drive out to Erdstromâs with me? Fairly warm. Nels got the jaundice.â
âOh yes!â She hastened to put on woolen stockings, high boots, sweater, muffler, cap, mittens.
The snow was too thick and the ruts frozen too hard for the motor. They drove out in a clumsy high carriage. Tucked over them was a blue woolen cover, prickly to her wrists, and outside of it a buffalo robe, humble and moth-eaten now, used ever since the bison herds had streaked the prairie a few miles to the west.
The scattered houses between which they passed in town were small and desolate in contrast to the expanse of huge snowy yards and wide street. They crossed the railroad tracks, and instantly were in the farm country. The big piebald horses snorted clouds of steam, and started to trot. The carriage squeaked in rhythm. Kennicott drove with clucks of âThere boy, take it easy!â He was thinking. He paid no attention to Carol. Yet it was he who commented, âPretty nice, over there,â as they approached an oak-grove where shifty winter sunlight quivered in the hollow between two snowdrifts.
They drove from the natural prairie to a cleared district which twenty years ago had been forest. The country seemed to stretch unchanging to the North Pole: low hill, brush-scraggly bottom, reedy creek, muskrat mound, fields with frozen brown clods thrust up through the snow.
Her ears and nose were pinched; her breath frosted her collar; her fingers ached.
âGetting colder,â she said.
âYup.â
That was all their conversation for three miles. Yet she was happy.
They reached Nels Erdstromâs at four, and with a throb she recognized the courageous venture which had lured her to Gopher Prairie: the cleared fields, furrows among stumps, a log cabin chinked with mud and roofed with dry hay. But Nels had prospered. He used the log cabin as a barn; and a new house reared up, a proud, unwise, Gopher Prairie house, the more naked and ungraceful in its glossy white paint and pink trimmings. Every tree had been cut down. The house was so unsheltered, so battered by the wind, so bleakly thrust out into the harsh clearing, that Carol shivered. But they were welcomed warmly enough in the kitchen, with its crisp new plaster, its black and nickel range, its cream separator in a corner.
Mrs. Erdstrom begged her to sit in the parlor, where there was a phonograph and an oak and leather davenport, the prairie farmerâs proofs of social progress, but she dropped down by the kitchen stove and insisted, âPlease donât mind me.â When Mrs. Erdstrom had followed the doctor out of the room Carol glanced in a friendly way at the grained pine cupboard, the framed Lutheran Konfirmations Attest, the traces of fried eggs and sausages on the dining table against the wall, and a jewel among calendars, presenting not only a lithographic young woman with cherry lips, and a Swedish advertisement of Axel Eggeâs grocery, but also a thermometer and a match-holder.
She saw that a boy of four or five was staring at her from the hall, a boy in gingham shirt and faded corduroy trousers, but large-eyed, firm-mouthed, wide-browed. He vanished, then peeped in again, biting his knuckles, turning his shoulder toward her in shyness.
Didnât she rememberâ âwhat was it?â âKennicott sitting beside her at Fort Snelling, urging, âSee how scared that baby is. Needs some woman like you.â
Magic had fluttered about her thenâ âmagic of sunset and cool air and the curiosity of lovers. She held out her hands as much to that sanctity as to the boy.
He edged into the room, doubtfully sucking his thumb.
âHello,â she said. âWhatâs your name?â
âHee, hee, hee!â
âYouâre quite right. I agree with you. Silly people like me always ask children their names.â
âHee, hee, hee!â
âCome here and Iâll tell you the story ofâ âwell, I donât know what it will be about, but it will have a slim heroine and a Prince Charming.â
He stood stoically while she spun nonsense. His giggling ceased. She was winning him. Then the telephone bellâ âtwo long rings, one short.
Mrs. Erdstrom galloped into the room, shrieked into the transmitter, âVell? Yes, yes, dis is Erdstromâs place! Heh? Oh, you vant de doctor?â
Kennicott appeared, growled into the telephone:
âWell, what do you want? Oh, hello Dave; what do you want? Which Morgenrothâs? Adolphâs? All right. Amputation? Yuh, I see. Say, Dave, get Gus to harness up and take my surgical kit down thereâ âand have him take some chloroform. Iâll go straight down from here. May not get home tonight. You can get me at Adolphâs. Huh? No, Carrie can give the anesthetic, I guess. Gâ-by. Huh? No; tell me about that tomorrowâ âtoo damn many people always listening in on this farmersâ line.â
He turned to Carol. âAdolph Morgenroth, farmer ten miles southwest of town, got his arm crushedâ âfixing his cowshed and a post caved in on himâ âsmashed him up pretty badâ âmay have to amputate, Dave Dyer says. Afraid weâll have to go right from here. Darn sorry to drag you clear down there with meâ ââ
âPlease do. Donât mind me a bit.â
âThink you could give the anesthetic? Usually have my driver do it.â
âIf youâll tell me how.â
âAll right. Say, did you hear me putting one over on these goats that are always rubbering in on party-wires? I hope they heard me! Well.â ââ ⌠Now, Bessie, donât you worry about Nels. Heâs getting along all right. Tomorrow you or one of the neighbors drive in and get this prescription filled at Dyerâs. Give him a teaspoonful every four hours. Goodbye. Hello! Hereâs the little fellow! My Lord, Bessie, it ainât possible this is the fellow that used to be so sickly? Why, say, heâs a great big strapping Svenska nowâ âgoing to be bigger ân his daddy!â
Kennicottâs bluffness made the child squirm with a delight which Carol could not evoke. It was a humble wife who followed the busy doctor out to the carriage, and her ambition was not to play Rachmaninoff better, nor to build town halls, but to chuckle at babies.
The sunset was merely a flush of rose on a dome of silver, with oak twigs and thin poplar branches against it, but a silo on the horizon changed from a red tank to a tower of violet misted over with gray. The purple road vanished, and without lights, in the darkness of a world destroyed, they swayed onâ âtoward nothing.
It was a bumpy cold way to the Morgenroth farm, and she was asleep when they arrived.
Here was no glaring new house with a proud phonograph, but a low whitewashed kitchen smelling of cream and cabbage. Adolph Morgenroth was lying on a couch in the rarely used dining-room. His heavy work-scarred wife was shaking her hands in anxiety.
Carol felt that Kennicott would do something magnificent and startling. But he was casual. He greeted the man, âWell, well, Adolph, have to fix you up, eh?â Quietly, to the wife, âHat die drug store my schwartze bag hier geschickt? Soâ âschon. Wie viel Uhr ist âs? Sieben? Nun, lassen uns ein wenig supper zuerst haben. Got any of that good beer leftâ âgiebt âs noch Bier?â
He had supped in four minutes. His coat off, his sleeves rolled up, he was scrubbing his hands in a tin basin in the sink, using the bar of yellow kitchen soap.
Carol had not dared to look into the farther room while she labored over the supper of beer, rye bread, moist cornbeef and cabbage, set on the kitchen table. The man in there was groaning. In her one glance she had seen that his blue flannel shirt was open at a corded tobacco-brown neck, the hollows of which were sprinkled with thin black and gray hairs. He was covered with a sheet, like a corpse, and outside the sheet was his right arm, wrapped in towels stained with blood.
But Kennicott strode into the other room gaily, and she followed him. With surprising delicacy in his large fingers he unwrapped the towels and revealed an arm which, below the elbow, was a mass of blood and raw flesh. The man bellowed. The room grew thick about her; she was very seasick; she fled to a chair in the kitchen. Through the haze of nausea she heard Kennicott grumbling, âAfraid it will have to come off, Adolph. What did you do? Fall on a reaper blade? Weâll fix it right up. Carrie! Carol!â
She couldnâtâ âshe couldnât get up. Then she was up, her knees like water, her stomach revolving a thousand times a second, her eyes filmed, her ears full of roaring. She couldnât reach the dining-room. She was going to faint. Then she was in the dining-room, leaning against the wall, trying to smile, flushing hot and cold along her chest and sides, while Kennicott mumbled, âSay, help Mrs. Morgenroth and me carry him in on the kitchen table. No, first go out and shove those two tables together, and put a blanket on them and a clean sheet.â
It was salvation to push the heavy tables, to scrub them, to be exact in placing the sheet. Her head cleared; she was able to look calmly in at her husband and the farmwife while they undressed the wailing man, got him into a clean nightgown, and washed his arm. Kennicott came to lay out his instruments. She realized that, with no hospital facilities, yet with no worry about it, her husbandâ âher husbandâ âwas going to perform a surgical operation, that miraculous boldness of which one read in stories about famous surgeons.
She helped them to move Adolph into the kitchen. The man was in such a funk that he would not use his legs. He was heavy, and smelled of sweat and the stable. But she put her arm about his waist, her sleek head by his chest; she tugged at him; she clicked her tongue in imitation of Kennicottâs cheerful noises.
When Adolph was on the table Kennicott laid a hemispheric steel and cotton frame on his face; suggested to Carol, âNow you sit here at his head and keep the ether drippingâ âabout this fast, see? Iâll watch his breathing. Look whoâs here! Real anesthetist! Ochsner hasnât got a better one! Class, eh?â ââ ⌠Now, now, Adolph, take it easy. This wonât hurt you a bit. Put you all nice and asleep and it wonât hurt a bit. Schweigâ mal! Bald schlaft man grat wie ein Kind. So! So! Bald gehtâs besser!â
As she let the ether drip, nervously trying to keep the rhythm that Kennicott had indicated, Carol stared at her husband with the abandon of hero-worship.
He shook his head. âBad lightâ âbad light. Here, Mrs. Morgenroth, you stand right here and hold this lamp. Hier, und diesesâ âdieses lamp haltenâ âso!â
By that streaky glimmer he worked, swiftly, at ease. The room was still. Carol tried to look at him, yet not look at the seeping blood, the crimson slash, the vicious scalpel. The ether fumes were sweet, choking. Her head seemed to be floating away from her body. Her arm was feeble.
It was not the blood but the grating of the surgical saw on the living bone that broke her, and she knew that she had been fighting off nausea, that she was beaten. She was lost in dizziness. She heard Kennicottâs voiceâ â
âSick? Trot outdoors couple minutes. Adolph will stay under now.â
She was fumbling at a doorknob which whirled in insulting circles; she was on the stoop, gasping, forcing air into her chest, her head clearing. As she returned she caught the scene as a whole: the cavernous kitchen, two milk-cans a leaden patch by the wall, hams dangling from a beam, bats of light at the stove door, and in the center, illuminated by a small glass lamp held by a frightened stout woman, Dr. Kennicott bending over a body which was humped under a sheetâ âthe surgeon, his bare arms daubed with blood, his hands, in pale-yellow rubber gloves, loosening the tourniquet, his face without emotion save when he threw up his head and clucked at the farmwife, âHold that light steady just a second moreâ ânoch blos esn wenig.â
âHe speaks a vulgar, common, incorrect German of life and death and birth and the soil. I read the French and German of sentimental lovers and Christmas garlands. And I thought that it was I who had the culture!â she worshiped as she returned to her place.
After a time he snapped, âThatâs enough. Donât give him any more ether.â He was concentrated on tying an artery. His gruffness seemed heroic to her.
As he shaped the flap of flesh she murmured, âOh, you are wonderful!â
He was surprised. âWhy, this is a cinch. Now if it had been like last weekâ âGet me some more water. Now last week I had a case with an ooze in the peritoneal cavity, and by golly if it wasnât a stomach ulcer that I hadnât suspected andâ âThere. Say, I certainly am sleepy. Letâs turn in here. Too late to drive home. And tastes to me like a storm coming.â
IX
They slept on a feather bed with their fur coats over them; in the morning they broke ice in the pitcherâ âthe vast flowered and gilt pitcher.
Kennicottâs storm had not come. When they set out it was hazy and growing warmer. After a mile she saw that he was studying a dark cloud in the north. He urged the horses to the run. But she forgot his unusual haste in wonder at the tragic landscape. The pale snow, the prickles of old stubble, and the clumps of ragged brush faded into a gray obscurity. Under the hillocks were cold shadows. The willows about a farmhouse were agitated by the rising wind, and the patches of bare wood where the bark had peeled away were white as the flesh of a leper. The snowy slews were of a harsh flatness. The whole land was cruel, and a climbing cloud of slate-edged blackness dominated the sky.
âGuess weâre about in for a blizzard,â speculated Kennicott. âWe can make Ben McGonegalâs, anyway.â
âBlizzard? Really? Whyâ âBut still we used to think they were fun when I was a girl. Daddy had to stay home from court, and weâd stand at the window and watch the snow.â
âNot much fun on the prairie. Get lost. Freeze to death. Take no chances.â He chirruped at the horses. They were flying now, the carriage rocking on the hard ruts.
The whole air suddenly crystallized into large damp flakes. The horses and the buffalo robe were covered with snow; her face was wet; the thin butt of the whip held a white ridge. The air became colder. The snowflakes were harder; they shot in level lines, clawing at her face.
She could not see a hundred feet ahead.
Kennicott was stern. He bent forward, the reins firm in his coonskin gauntlets. She was certain that he would get through. He always got through things.
Save for his presence, the world and all normal living disappeared. They were lost in the boiling snow. He leaned close to bawl, âLetting the horses have their heads. Theyâll get us home.â
With a terrifying bump they were off the road, slanting with two wheels in the ditch, but instantly they were jerked back as the horses fled on. She gasped. She tried to, and did not, feel brave as she pulled the woolen robe up about her chin.
They were passing something like a dark wall on the right. âI know that barn!â he yelped. He pulled at the reins. Peeping from the covers she saw his teeth pinch his lower lip, saw him scowl as he slackened and sawed and jerked sharply again at the racing horses.
They stopped.
âFarmhouse there. Put robe around you and come on,â he cried.
It was like diving into icy water to climb out of the carriage, but on the ground she smiled at him, her face little and childish and pink above the buffalo robe over her shoulders. In a swirl of flakes which scratched at their eyes like a maniac darkness, he unbuckled the harness. He turned and plodded back, a ponderous furry figure, holding the horsesâ bridles, Carolâs hand dragging at his sleeve.
They came to the cloudy bulk of a barn whose outer wall was directly upon the road. Feeling along it, he found a gate, led them into a yard, into the barn. The interior was warm. It stunned them with its languid quiet.
He carefully drove the horses into stalls.
Her toes were coals of pain. âLetâs run for the house,â she said.
âCanât. Not yet. Might never find it. Might get lost ten feet away from it. Sit over in this stall, near the horses. Weâll rush for the house when the blizzard lifts.â
âIâm so stiff! I canât walk!â
He carried her into the stall, stripped off her overshoes and boots, stopping to blow on his purple fingers as he fumbled at her laces. He rubbed her feet, and covered her with the buffalo robe and horse-blankets from the pile on the feed-box. She was drowsy, hemmed in by the storm. She sighed:
âYouâre so strong and yet so skilful and not afraid of blood or storm orâ ââ
âUsed to it. Only thing thatâs bothered me was the chance the ether fumes might explode, last night.â
âI donât understand.â
âWhy, Dave, the darn fool, sent me ether, instead of chloroform like I told him, and you know ether fumes are mighty inflammable, especially with that lamp right by the table. But I had to operate, of courseâ âwound chock-full of barnyard filth that way.â
âYou knew all the time thatâ âBoth you and I might have been blown up? You knew it while you were operating?â
âSure. Didnât you? Why, whatâs the matter?â
XVI
I
Kennicott was heavily pleased by her Christmas presents, and he gave her a diamond bar-pin. But she could not persuade herself that he was much interested in the rites of the morning, in the tree she had decorated, the three stockings she had hung, the ribbons and gilt seals and hidden messages. He said only:
âNice way to fix things, all right. What do you say we go down to Jack Elderâs and have a game of five hundred this afternoon?â
She remembered her fatherâs Christmas fantasies: the sacred old rag doll at the top of the tree, the score of cheap presents, the punch and carols, the roast chestnuts by the fire, and the gravity with which the judge opened the childrenâs scrawly notes and took cognizance of demands for sled-rides, for opinions upon the existence of Santa Claus. She remembered him reading out a long indictment of himself for being a sentimentalist, against the peace and dignity of the State of Minnesota. She remembered his thin legs twinkling before their sledâ â
She muttered unsteadily, âMust run up and put on my shoesâ âslippers so cold.â In the not very romantic solitude of the locked bathroom she sat on the slippery edge of the tub and wept.
II
Kennicott had five hobbies: medicine, land-investment, Carol, motoring, and hunting. It is not certain in what order he preferred them. Solid though his enthusiasms were in the matter of medicineâ âhis admiration of this city surgeon, his condemnation of that for tricky ways of persuading country practitioners to bring in surgical patients, his indignation about fee-splitting, his pride in a new X-ray apparatusâ ânone of these beatified him as did motoring.
He nursed his two-year-old Buick even in winter, when it was stored in the stable-garage behind the house. He filled the grease-cups, varnished a fender, removed from beneath the back seat the debris of gloves, copper washers, crumpled maps, dust, and greasy rags. Winter noons he wandered out and stared owlishly at the car. He became excited over a fabulous âtrip we might take next summer.â He galloped to the station, brought home railway maps, and traced motor-routes from Gopher Prairie to Winnipeg or Des Moines or Grand Marais, thinking aloud and expecting her to be effusive about such academic questions as âNow I wonder if we could stop at Baraboo and break the jump from La Crosse to Chicago?â
To him motoring was a faith not to be questioned, a high-church cult, with electric sparks for candles, and piston-rings possessing the sanctity of altar-vessels. His liturgy was composed of intoned and metrical road-comments: âThey say thereâs a pretty good hike from Duluth to International Falls.â
Hunting was equally a devotion, full of metaphysical concepts veiled from Carol. All winter he read sporting-catalogues, and thought about remarkable past shots: âââMember that time when I got two ducks on a long chance, just at sunset?â At least once a month he drew his favorite repeating shotgun, his âpump gun,â from its wrapper of greased canton flannel; he oiled the trigger, and spent silent ecstatic moments aiming at the ceiling. Sunday mornings Carol heard him trudging up to the attic and there, an hour later, she found him turning over boots, wooden duck-decoys, lunch-boxes, or reflectively squinting at old shells, rubbing their brass caps with his sleeve and shaking his head as he thought about their uselessness.
He kept the loading-tools he had used as a boy: a capper for shotgun shells, a mold for lead bullets. When once, in a housewifely frenzy for getting rid of things, she raged, âWhy donât you give these away?â he solemnly defended them, âWell, you canât tell; they might come in handy some day.â
She flushed. She wondered if he was thinking of the child they would have when, as he put it, they were âsure they could afford one.â
Mysteriously aching, nebulously sad, she slipped away, half-convinced but only half-convinced that it was horrible and unnatural, this postponement of release of mother-affection, this sacrifice to her opinionation and to his cautious desire for prosperity.
âBut it would be worse if he were like Sam Clarkâ âinsisted on having children,â she considered; then, âIf Will were the Prince, wouldnât I demand his child?â
Kennicottâs land-deals were both financial advancement and favorite game. Driving through the country, he noticed which farms had good crops; he heard the news about the restless farmer who was âthinking about selling out here and pulling his freight for Alberta.â He asked the veterinarian about the value of different breeds of stock; he inquired of Lyman Cass whether or not Einar Gyseldson really had had a yield of forty bushels of wheat to the acre. He was always consulting Julius Flickerbaugh, who handled more real estate than law, and more law than justice. He studied township maps, and read notices of auctions.
Thus he was able to buy a quarter-section of land for one hundred and fifty dollars an acre, and to sell it in a year or two, after installing a cement floor in the barn and running water in the house, for one hundred and eighty or even two hundred.
He spoke of these details to Sam Clarkâ ââ ⌠rather often.
In all his games, cars and guns and land, he expected Carol to take an interest. But he did not give her the facts which might have created interest. He talked only of the obvious and tedious aspects; never of his aspirations in finance, nor of the mechanical principles of motors.
This month of romance she was eager to understand his hobbies. She shivered in the garage while he spent half an hour in deciding whether to put alcohol or patent non-freezing liquid into the radiator, or to drain out the water entirely. âOr no, then I wouldnât want to take her out if it turned warmâ âstill, of course, I could fill the radiator againâ âwouldnât take so awful longâ âjust take a few pails of waterâ âstill, if it turned cold on me again before I drained itâ âCourse thereâs some people that put in kerosene, but they say it rots the hose-connections andâ âWhere did I put that lug-wrench?â
It was at this point that she gave up being a motorist and retired to the house.
In their new intimacy he was more communicative about his practise; he informed her, with the invariable warning not to tell, that Mrs. Sunderquist had another baby coming, that the âhired girl at Howlandâs was in trouble.â But when she asked technical questions he did not know how to answer; when she inquired, âExactly what is the method of taking out the tonsils?â he yawned, âTonsilectomy? Why you justâ âIf thereâs pus, you operate. Just take âem out. Seen the newspaper? What the devil did Bea do with it?â
She did not try again.
III
They had gone to the âmovies.â The movies were almost as vital to Kennicott and the other solid citizens of Gopher Prairie as land-speculation and guns and automobiles.
The feature film portrayed a brave young Yankee who conquered a South American republic. He turned the natives from their barbarous habits of singing and laughing to the vigorous sanity, the Pep and Punch and Go, of the North; he taught them to work in factories, to wear Klassy Kollege Klothes, and to shout, âOh, you baby doll, watch me gather in the mazuma.â He changed nature itself. A mountain which had borne nothing but lilies and cedars and loafing clouds was by his Hustle so inspirited that it broke out in long wooden sheds, and piles of iron ore to be converted into steamers to carry iron ore to be converted into steamers to carry iron ore.
The intellectual tension induced by the master film was relieved by a livelier, more lyric and less philosophical drama: Mack Schnarken and the Bathing Suit Babes in a comedy of manners entitled Right on the Coco. Mr. Schnarken was at various high moments a cook, a lifeguard, a burlesque actor, and a sculptor. There was a hotel hallway up which policemen charged, only to be stunned by plaster busts hurled upon them from the innumerous doors. If the plot lacked lucidity, the dual motif of legs and pie was clear and sure. Bathing and modeling were equally sound occasions for legs; the wedding-scene was but an approach to the thunderous climax when Mr. Schnarken slipped a piece of custard pie into the clergymanâs rear pocket.
The audience in the Rosebud Movie Palace squealed and wiped their eyes; they scrambled under the seats for overshoes, mittens, and mufflers, while the screen announced that next week Mr. Schnarken might be seen in a new, riproaring, extra-special superfeature of the Clean Comedy Corporation entitled, Under Mollieâs Bed.
âIâm glad,â said Carol to Kennicott as they stooped before the northwest gale which was torturing the barren street, âthat this is a moral country. We donât allow any of these beastly frank novels.â
âYump. Vice Society and Postal Department wonât stand for them. The American people donât like filth.â
âYes. Itâs fine. Iâm glad we have such dainty romances as Right on the Coco instead.â
âSay what in heck do you think youâre trying to do? Kid me?â
He was silent. She awaited his anger. She meditated upon his gutter patois, the Boeotian dialect characteristic of Gopher Prairie. He laughed puzzlingly. When they came into the glow of the house he laughed again. He condescended:
âIâve got to hand it to you. Youâre consistent, all right. Iâd of thought that after getting this look-in at a lot of good decent farmers, youâd get over this high-art stuff, but you hang right on.â
âWellâ ââ To herself: âHe takes advantage of my trying to be good.â
âTell you, Carrie: Thereâs just three classes of people: folks that havenât got any ideas at all; and cranks that kick about everything; and Regular Guys, the fellows with sticktuitiveness, that boost and get the worldâs work done.â
âThen Iâm probably a crank.â She smiled negligently.
âNo. I wonât admit it. You do like to talk, but at a showdown youâd prefer Sam Clark to any damn long-haired artist.â
âOhâ âwellâ ââ
âOh well!â mockingly. âMy, weâre just going to change everything, arenât we! Going to tell fellows that have been making movies for ten years how to direct âem; and tell architects how to build towns; and make the magazines publish nothing but a lot of highbrow stories about old maids, and about wives that donât know what they want. Oh, weâre a terror!â ââ ⌠Come on now, Carrie; come out of it; wake up! Youâve got a fine nerve, kicking about a movie because it shows a few legs! Why, youâre always touting these Greek dancers, or whatever they are, that donât even wear a shimmy!â
âBut, dear, the trouble with that filmâ âit wasnât that it got in so many legs, but that it giggled coyly and promised to show more of them, and then didnât keep the promise. It was Peeping Tomâs idea of humor.â
âI donât get you. Look here nowâ ââ
She lay awake, while he rumbled with sleep.
âI must go on. My âcrank ideas;â he calls them. I thought that adoring him, watching him operate, would be enough. It isnât. Not after the first thrill.
âI donât want to hurt him. But I must go on.
âIt isnât enough, to stand by while he fills an automobile radiator and chucks me bits of information.
âIf I stood by and admired him long enough, I would be content. I would become a ânice little woman.â The Village Virus. Alreadyâ âIâm not reading anything. I havenât touched the piano for a week. Iâm letting the days drown in worship of âa good deal, ten plunks more per acre.â I wonât! I wonât succumb!
âHow? Iâve failed at everything: the Thanatopsis, parties, pioneers, city hall, Guy and Vida. Butâ âIt doesnât matter! Iâm not trying to âreform the townâ now. Iâm not trying to organize Browning Clubs, and sit in clean white kids yearning up at lecturers with ribbony eyeglasses. I am trying to save my soul.
âWill Kennicott, asleep there, trusting me, thinking he holds me. And Iâm leaving him. All of me left him when he laughed at me. It wasnât enough for him that I admired him; I must change myself and grow like him. He takes advantage. No more. Itâs finished. I will go on.â
IV
Her violin lay on top of the upright piano. She picked it up. Since she had last touched it the dried strings had snapped, and upon it lay a gold and crimson cigar-band.
V
She longed to see Guy Pollock, for the confirming of the brethren in the faith. But Kennicottâs dominance was heavy upon her. She could not determine whether she was checked by fear or him, or by inertiaâ âby dislike of the emotional labor of the âscenesâ which would be involved in asserting independence. She was like the revolutionist at fifty: not afraid of death, but bored by the probability of bad steaks and bad breaths and sitting up all night on windy barricades.
The second evening after the movies she impulsively summoned Vida Sherwin and Guy to the house for popcorn and cider. In the living-room Vida and Kennicott debated âthe value of manual training in grades below the eighth,â while Carol sat beside Guy at the dining table, buttering popcorn. She was quickened by the speculation in his eyes. She murmured:
âGuy, do you want to help me?â
âMy dear! How?â
âI donât know!â
He waited.
âI think I want you to help me find out what has made the darkness of the women. Gray darkness and shadowy trees. Weâre all in it, ten million women, young married women with good prosperous husbands, and business women in linen collars, and grandmothers that gad out to teas, and wives of underpaid miners, and farmwives who really like to make butter and go to church. What is it we wantâ âand need? Will Kennicott there would say that we need lots of children and hard work. But it isnât that. Thereâs the same discontent in women with eight children and one more comingâ âalways one more coming! And you find it in stenographers and wives who scrub, just as much as in girl college-graduates who wonder how they can escape their kind parents. What do we want?â
âEssentially, I think, you are like myself, Carol; you want to go back to an age of tranquillity and charming manners. You want to enthrone good taste again.â
âJust good taste? Fastidious people? Ohâ âno! I believe all of us want the same thingsâ âweâre all together, the industrial workers and the women and the farmers and the negro race and the Asiatic colonies, and even a few of the Respectables. Itâs all the same revolt, in all the classes that have waited and taken advice. I think perhaps we want a more conscious life. Weâre tired of drudging and sleeping and dying. Weâre tired of seeing just a few people able to be individualists. Weâre tired of always deferring hope till the next generation. Weâre tired of hearing the politicians and priests and cautious reformers (and the husbands!) coax us, âBe calm! Be patient! Wait! We have the plans for a Utopia already made; just give us a bit more time and weâll produce it; trust us; weâre wiser than you.â For ten thousand years theyâve said that. We want our Utopia nowâ âand weâre going to try our hands at it. All we want isâ âeverything for all of us! For every housewife and every longshoreman and every Hindu nationalist and every teacher. We want everything. We shatnât get it. So we shatnât ever be contentâ ââ
She wondered why he was wincing. He broke in:
âSee here, my dear, I certainly hope you donât class yourself with a lot of trouble-making labor-leaders! Democracy is all right theoretically, and Iâll admit there are industrial injustices, but Iâd rather have them than see the world reduced to a dead level of mediocrity. I refuse to believe that you have anything in common with a lot of laboring men rowing for bigger wages so that they can buy wretched flivvers and hideous player-pianos andâ ââ
At this second, in Buenos Aires, a newspaper editor broke his routine of being bored by exchanges to assert, âAny injustice is better than seeing the world reduced to a gray level of scientific dullness.â At this second a clerk standing at the bar of a New York saloon stopped milling his secret fear of his nagging office-manager long enough to growl at the chauffeur beside him, âAw, you socialists make me sick! Iâm an individualist. I ainât going to be nagged by no bureaus and take orders off labor-leaders. And mean to say a hoboâs as good as you and me?â
At this second Carol realized that for all Guyâs love of dead elegances his timidity was as depressing to her as the bulkiness of Sam Clark. She realized that he was not a mystery, as she had excitedly believed; not a romantic messenger from the World Outside on whom she could count for escape. He belonged to Gopher Prairie, absolutely. She was snatched back from a dream of far countries, and found herself on Main Street.
He was completing his protest, âYou donât want to be mixed up in all this orgy of meaningless discontent?â
She soothed him. âNo, I donât. Iâm not heroic. Iâm scared by all the fighting thatâs going on in the world. I want nobility and adventure, but perhaps I want still more to curl on the hearth with someone I love.â
âWould youâ ââ
He did not finish it. He picked up a handful of popcorn, let it run through his fingers, looked at her wistfully.
With the loneliness of one who has put away a possible love Carol saw that he was a stranger. She saw that he had never been anything but a frame on which she had hung shining garments. If she had let him diffidently make love to her, it was not because she cared, but because she did not care, because it did not matter.
She smiled at him with the exasperating tactfulness of a woman checking a flirtation; a smile like an airy pat on the arm. She sighed, âYouâre a dear to let me tell you my imaginary troubles.â She bounced up, and trilled, âShall we take the popcorn in to them now?â
Guy looked after her desolately.
While she teased Vida and Kennicott she was repeating, âI must go on.â
VI
Miles Bjornstam, the pariah âRed Swede,â had brought his circular saw and portable gasoline engine to the house, to cut the cords of poplar for the kitchen range. Kennicott had given the order; Carol knew nothing of it till she heard the ringing of the saw, and glanced out to see Bjornstam, in black leather jacket and enormous ragged purple mittens, pressing sticks against the whirling blade, and flinging the stove-lengths to one side. The red irritable motor kept up a red irritable tip-tip-tip-tip-tip-tip. The whine of the saw rose till it simulated the shriek of a fire-alarm whistle at night, but always at the end it gave a lively metallic clang, and in the stillness she heard the flump of the cut stick falling on the pile.
She threw a motor robe over her, ran out. Bjornstam welcomed her, âWell, well, well! Hereâs old Miles, fresh as ever. Well say, thatâs all right; he ainât even begun to be cheeky yet; next summer heâs going to take you out on his horse-trading trip, clear into Idaho.â
âYes, and I may go!â
âHowâs tricks? Crazy about the town yet?â
âNo, but I probably shall be, some day.â
âDonât let âem get you. Kick âem in the face!â
He shouted at her while he worked. The pile of stove-wood grew astonishingly. The pale bark of the poplar sticks was mottled with lichens of sage-green and dusty gray; the newly sawed ends were fresh-colored, with the agreeable roughness of a woolen muffler. To the sterile winter air the wood gave a scent of March sap.
Kennicott telephoned that he was going into the country. Bjornstam had not finished his work at noon, and she invited him to have dinner with Bea in the kitchen. She wished that she were independent enough to dine with these her guests. She considered their friendliness, she sneered at âsocial distinctions,â she raged at her own taboosâ âand she continued to regard them as retainers and herself as a lady. She sat in the dining-room and listened through the door to Bjornstamâs booming and Beaâs giggles. She was the more absurd to herself in that, after the rite of dining alone, she could go out to the kitchen, lean against the sink, and talk to them.
They were attracted to each other; a Swedish Othello and Desdemona, more useful and amiable than their prototypes. Bjornstam told his scapes: selling horses in a Montana mining-camp, breaking a logjam, being impertinent to a âtwo-fistedâ millionaire lumberman. Bea gurgled âOh my!â and kept his coffee cup filled.
He took a long time to finish the wood. He had frequently to go into the kitchen to get warm. Carol heard him confiding to Bea, âYouâre a darn nice Swede girl. I guess if I had a woman like you I wouldnât be such a sorehead. Gosh, your kitchen is clean; makes an old bach feel sloppy. Say, thatâs nice hair you got. Huh? Me fresh? Saaaay, girl, if I ever do get fresh, youâll know it. Why, I could pick you up with one finger, and hold you in the air long enough to read Robert J. Ingersoll clean through. Ingersoll? Oh, heâs a religious writer. Sure. Youâd like him fine.â
When he drove off he waved to Bea; and Carol, lonely at the window above, was envious of their pastoral.
âAnd Iâ âBut I will go on.â
XVII
I
They were driving down the lake to the cottages that moonlit January night, twenty of them in the bobsled. They sang âToy Landâ and âSeeing Nelly Homeâ; they leaped from the low back of the sled to race over the slippery snow ruts; and when they were tired they climbed on the runners for a lift. The moon-tipped flakes kicked up by the horses settled over the revelers and dripped down their necks, but they laughed, yelped, beat their leather mittens against their chests. The harness rattled, the sleigh-bells were frantic, Jack Elderâs setter sprang beside the horses, barking.
For a time Carol raced with them. The cold air gave fictive power. She felt that she could run on all night, leap twenty feet at a stride. But the excess of energy tired her, and she was glad to snuggle under the comforters which covered the hay in the sled-box.
In the midst of the babel she found enchanted quietude.
Along the road the shadows from oak-branches were inked on the snow like bars of music. Then the sled came out on the surface of Lake Minniemashie. Across the thick ice was a veritable road, a shortcut for farmers. On the glaring expanse of the lake-levels of hard crust, flashes of green ice blown clear, chains of drifts ribbed like the sea-beachâ âthe moonlight was overwhelming. It stormed on the snow, it turned the woods ashore into crystals of fire. The night was tropical and voluptuous. In that drugged magic there was no difference between heavy heat and insinuating cold.
Carol was dream-strayed. The turbulent voices, even Guy Pollock being connotative beside her, were nothing. She repeated:
Deep on the convent-roof the snows
Are sparkling to the moon.
The words and the light blurred into one vast indefinite happiness, and she believed that some great thing was coming to her. She withdrew from the clamor into a worship of incomprehensible gods. The night expanded, she was conscious of the universe, and all mysteries stooped down to her.
She was jarred out of her ecstasy as the bobsled bumped up the steep road to the bluff where stood the cottages.
They dismounted at Jack Elderâs shack. The interior walls of unpainted boards, which had been grateful in August, were forbidding in the chill. In fur coats and mufflers tied over caps they were a strange company, bears and walruses talking. Jack Elder lighted the shavings waiting in the belly of a cast-iron stove which was like an enlarged bean-pot. They piled their wraps high on a rocker, and cheered the rocker as it solemnly tipped over backward.
Mrs. Elder and Mrs. Sam Clark made coffee in an enormous blackened tin pot; Vida Sherwin and Mrs. McGanum unpacked doughnuts and gingerbread; Mrs. Dave Dyer warmed up âhot dogsââ âfrankfurters in rolls; Dr. Terry Gould, after announcing, âLadies and gents, prepare to be shocked; shock line forms on the right,â produced a bottle of bourbon whisky.
The others danced, muttering âOuch!â as their frosted feet struck the pine planks. Carol had lost her dream. Harry Haydock lifted her by the waist and swung her. She laughed. The gravity of the people who stood apart and talked made her the more impatient for frolic.
Kennicott, Sam Clark, Jackson Elder, young Dr. McGanum, and James Madison Howland, teetering on their toes near the stove, conversed with the sedate pomposity of the commercialist. In details the men were unlike, yet they said the same things in the same hearty monotonous voices. You had to look at them to see which was speaking.
âWell, we made pretty good time coming up,â from oneâ âany one.
âYump, we hit it up after we struck the good going on the lake.â
âSeems kind of slow though, after driving an auto.â
âYump, it does, at that. Say, howâd you make out with that Sphinx tire you got?â
âSeems to hold out fine. Still, I donât knowâs I like it any better than the Roadeater Cord.â
âYump, nothing better than a Roadeater. Especially the cord. The cordâs lots better than the fabric.â
âYump, you said somethingâ âRoadeaterâs a good tire.â
âSay, howâd you come out with Pete Garsheim on his payments?â
âHeâs paying up pretty good. Thatâs a nice piece of land heâs got.â
âYump, thatâs a dandy farm.â
âYump, Peteâs got a good place there.â
They glided from these serious topics into the jocose insults which are the wit of Main Street. Sam Clark was particularly apt at them. âWhatâs this wild-eyed sale of summer caps you think youâre trying to pull off?â he clamored at Harry Haydock. âDid you steal âem, or are you just overcharging us, as usual?â ââ ⌠Oh say, speaking about caps, dâI ever tell you the good one Iâve got on Will? The doc thinks heâs a pretty good driver, fact, he thinks heâs almost got human intelligence, but one time he had his machine out in the rain, and the poor fish, he hadnât put on chains, and thinks Iâ ââ
Carol had heard the story rather often. She fled back to the dancers, and at Dave Dyerâs masterstroke of dropping an icicle down Mrs. McGanumâs back she applauded hysterically.
They sat on the floor, devouring the food. The men giggled amiably as they passed the whisky bottle, and laughed, âThereâs a real sport!â when Juanita Haydock took a sip. Carol tried to follow; she believed that she desired to be drunk and riotous; but the whisky choked her and as she saw Kennicott frown she handed the bottle on repentantly. Somewhat too late she remembered that she had given up domesticity and repentance.
âLetâs play charades!â said Raymie Wutherspoon.
âOh yes, do let us,â said Ella Stowbody.
âThatâs the caper,â sanctioned Harry Haydock.
They interpreted the word âmakingâ as May and King. The crown was a red flannel mitten cocked on Sam Clarkâs broad pink bald head. They forgot they were respectable. They made-believe. Carol was stimulated to cry:
âLetâs form a dramatic club and give a play! Shall we? Itâs been so much fun tonight!â
They looked affable.
âSure,â observed Sam Clark loyally.
âOh, do let us! I think it would be lovely to present Romeo and Juliet!â yearned Ella Stowbody.
âBe a whale of a lot of fun,â Dr. Terry Gould granted.
âBut if we did,â Carol cautioned, âit would be awfully silly to have amateur theatricals. We ought to paint our own scenery and everything, and really do something fine. Thereâd be a lot of hard work. Would youâ âwould we all be punctual at rehearsals, do you suppose?â
âYou bet!â âSure.â âThatâs the idea.â âFellow ought to be prompt at rehearsals,â they all agreed.
âThen letâs meet next week and form the Gopher Prairie Dramatic Association!â Carol sang.
She drove home loving these friends who raced through moonlit snow, had Bohemian parties, and were about to create beauty in the theater. Everything was solved. She would be an authentic part of the town, yet escape the coma of the Village Virus.â ââ ⌠She would be free of Kennicott again, without hurting him, without his knowing.
She had triumphed.
The moon was small and high now, and unheeding.
II
Though they had all been certain that they longed for the privilege of attending committee meetings and rehearsals, the dramatic association as definitely formed consisted only of Kennicott, Carol, Guy Pollock, Vida Sherwin, Ella Stowbody, the Harry Haydocks, the Dave Dyers, Raymie Wutherspoon, Dr. Terry Gould, and four new candidates: flirtatious Rita Simons, Dr. and Mrs. Harvey Dillon and Myrtle Cass, an uncomely but intense girl of nineteen. Of these fifteen only seven came to the first meeting. The rest telephoned their unparalleled regrets and engagements and illnesses, and announced that they would be present at all other meetings through eternity.
Carol was made president and director.
She had added the Dillons. Despite Kennicottâs apprehension the dentist and his wife had not been taken up by the Westlakes but had remained as definitely outside really smart society as Willis Woodford, who was teller, bookkeeper, and janitor in Stowbodyâs bank. Carol had noted Mrs. Dillon dragging past the house during a bridge of the Jolly Seventeen, looking in with pathetic lips at the splendor of the accepted. She impulsively invited the Dillons to the dramatic association meeting, and when Kennicott was brusque to them she was unusually cordial, and felt virtuous.
That self-approval balanced her disappointment at the smallness of the meeting, and her embarrassment during Raymie Wutherspoonâs repetitions of âThe stage needs uplifting,â and âI believe that there are great lessons in some plays.â
Ella Stowbody, who was a professional, having studied elocution in Milwaukee, disapproved of Carolâs enthusiasm for recent plays. Miss Stowbody expressed the fundamental principle of the American drama: the only way to be artistic is to present Shakespeare. As no one listened to her she sat back and looked like Lady Macbeth.
III
The Little Theaters, which were to give piquancy to American drama three or four years later, were only in embryo. But of this fast coming revolt Carol had premonitions. She knew from some lost magazine article that in Dublin were innovators called The Irish Players. She knew confusedly that a man named Gordon Craig had painted sceneryâ âor had he written plays? She felt that in the turbulence of the drama she was discovering a history more important than the commonplace chronicles which dealt with senators and their pompous puerilities. She had a sensation of familiarity; a dream of sitting in a Brussels cafĂŠ and going afterward to a tiny gay theater under a cathedral wall.
The advertisement in the Minneapolis paper leaped from the page to her eyes:
The Cosmos School of Music, Oratory, and Dramatic Art announces a program of four one-act plays by Schnitzler, Shaw, Yeats, and Lord Dunsany.
She had to be there! She begged Kennicott to ârun down to the Citiesâ with her.
âWell, I donât know. Be fun to take in a show, but why the deuce do you want to see those darn foreign plays, given by a lot of amateurs? Why donât you wait for a regular play, later on? Thereâs going to be some corkers coming: Lottie of Two-Gun Rancho, and Cops and Crooksâ âreal Broadway stuff, with the New York casts. Whatâs this junk you want to see? Hm. How He Lied to Her Husband. That doesnât listen so bad. Sounds racy. And, uh, well, I could go to the motor show, I suppose. Iâd like to see this new Hup roadster. Wellâ ââ
She never knew which attraction made him decide.
She had four days of delightful worryâ âover the hole in her one good silk petticoat, the loss of a string of beads from her chiffon and brown velvet frock, the catsup stain on her best georgette crepe blouse. She wailed, âI havenât a single solitary thing thatâs fit to be seen in,â and enjoyed herself very much indeed.
Kennicott went about casually letting people know that he was âgoing to run down to the Cities and see some shows.â
As the train plodded through the gray prairie, on a windless day with the smoke from the engine clinging to the fields in giant cotton-rolls, in a low and writhing wall which shut off the snowy fields, she did not look out of the window. She closed her eyes and hummed, and did not know that she was humming.
She was the young poet attacking fame and Paris.
In the Minneapolis station the crowd of lumberjacks, farmers, and Swedish families with innumerous children and grandparents and paper parcels, their foggy crowding and their clamor confused her. She felt rustic in this once familiar city, after a year and a half of Gopher Prairie. She was certain that Kennicott was taking the wrong trolley-car. By dusk, the liquor warehouses, Hebraic clothing-shops, and lodging-houses on lower Hennepin Avenue were smoky, hideous, ill-tempered. She was battered by the noise and shuttling of the rush-hour traffic. When a clerk in an overcoat too closely fitted at the waist stared at her, she moved nearer to Kennicottâs arm. The clerk was flippant and urban. He was a superior person, used to this tumult. Was he laughing at her?
For a moment she wanted the secure quiet of Gopher Prairie.
In the hotel-lobby she was self-conscious. She was not used to hotels; she remembered with jealousy how often Juanita Haydock talked of the famous hotels in Chicago. She could not face the traveling salesmen, baronial in large leather chairs. She wanted people to believe that her husband and she were accustomed to luxury and chill elegance; she was faintly angry at him for the vulgar way in which, after signing the register âDr. W. P. Kennicott & wife,â he bellowed at the clerk, âGot a nice room with bath for us, old man?â She gazed about haughtily, but as she discovered that no one was interested in her she felt foolish, and ashamed of her irritation.
She asserted, âThis silly lobby is too florid,â and simultaneously she admired it: the onyx columns with gilt capitals, the crown-embroidered velvet curtains at the restaurant door, the silk-roped alcove where pretty girls perpetually waited for mysterious men, the two-pound boxes of candy and the variety of magazines at the newsstand. The hidden orchestra was lively. She saw a man who looked like a European diplomat, in a loose topcoat and a Homburg hat. A woman with a broadtail coat, a heavy lace veil, pearl earrings, and a close black hat entered the restaurant. âHeavens! Thatâs the first really smart woman Iâve seen in a year!â Carol exulted. She felt metropolitan.
But as she followed Kennicott to the elevator the coat-check girl, a confident young woman, with cheeks powdered like lime, and a blouse low and thin and furiously crimson, inspected her, and under that supercilious glance Carol was shy again. She unconsciously waited for the bellboy to precede her into the elevator. When he snorted âGo ahead!â she was mortified. He thought she was a hayseed, she worried.
The moment she was in their room, with the bellboy safely out of the way, she looked critically at Kennicott. For the first time in months she really saw him.
His clothes were too heavy and provincial. His decent gray suit, made by Nat Hicks of Gopher Prairie, might have been of sheet iron; it had no distinction of cut, no easy grace like the diplomatâs Burberry. His black shoes were blunt and not well polished. His scarf was a stupid brown. He needed a shave.
But she forgot her doubt as she realized the ingenuities of the room. She ran about, turning on the taps of the bathtub, which gushed instead of dribbling like the taps at home, snatching the new washrag out of its envelope of oiled paper, trying the rose-shaded light between the twin beds, pulling out the drawers of the kidney-shaped walnut desk to examine the engraved stationery, planning to write on it to everyone she knew, admiring the claret-colored velvet armchair and the blue rug, testing the ice-water tap, and squealing happily when the water really did come out cold. She flung her arms about Kennicott, kissed him.
âLike it, old lady?â
âItâs adorable. Itâs so amusing. I love you for bringing me. You really are a dear!â
He looked blankly indulgent, and yawned, and condescended, âThatâs a pretty slick arrangement on the radiator, so you can adjust it at any temperature you want. Must take a big furnace to run this place. Gosh, I hope Bea remembers to turn off the drafts tonight.â
Under the glass cover of the dressing-table was a menu with the most enchanting dishes: breast of guinea hen De Vitresse, pommes de terre Ă la Russe, meringue Chantilly, gateaux Bruxelles.
âOh, letâsâ âIâm going to have a hot bath, and put on my new hat with the wool flowers, and letâs go down and eat for hours, and weâll have a cocktail!â she chanted.
While Kennicott labored over ordering it was annoying to see him permit the waiter to be impertinent, but as the cocktail elevated her to a bridge among colored stars, as the oysters came inâ ânot canned oysters in the Gopher Prairie fashion, but on the half-shellâ âshe cried, âIf you only knew how wonderful it is not to have had to plan this dinner, and order it at the butcherâs and fuss and think about it, and then watch Bea cook it! I feel so free. And to have new kinds of food, and different patterns of dishes and linen, and not worry about whether the pudding is being spoiled! Oh, this is a great moment for me!â
IV
They had all the experiences of provincials in a metropolis. After breakfast Carol bustled to a hairdresserâs, bought gloves and a blouse, and importantly met Kennicott in front of an opticianâs, in accordance with plans laid down, revised, and verified. They admired the diamonds and furs and frosty silverware and mahogany chairs and polished morocco sewing-boxes in shopwindows, and were abashed by the throngs in the department stores, and were bullied by a clerk into buying too many shirts for Kennicott, and gaped at the âclever novelty perfumesâ âjust in from New York.â Carol got three books on the theater, and spent an exultant hour in warning herself that she could not afford this rajah-silk frock, in thinking how envious it would make Juanita Haydock, in closing her eyes, and buying it. Kennicott went from shop to shop, earnestly hunting down a felt-covered device to keep the windshield of his car clear of rain.
They dined extravagantly at their hotel at night, and next morning sneaked round the corner to economize at a Childsâ Restaurant. They were tired by three in the afternoon, and dozed at the motion-pictures and said they wished they were back in Gopher Prairieâ âand by eleven in the evening they were again so lively that they went to a Chinese restaurant that was frequented by clerks and their sweethearts on paydays. They sat at a teak and marble table eating Eggs Fooyung, and listened to a brassy automatic piano, and were altogether cosmopolitan.
On the street they met people from homeâ âthe McGanums. They laughed, shook hands repeatedly, and exclaimed, âWell, this is quite a coincidence!â They asked when the McGanums had come down, and begged for news of the town they had left two days before. Whatever the McGanums were at home, here they stood out as so superior to all the undistinguishable strangers absurdly hurrying past that the Kennicotts held them as long as they could. The McGanums said goodbye as though they were going to Tibet instead of to the station to catch No. 7 north.
They explored Minneapolis. Kennicott was conversational and technical regarding gluten and cockle-cylinders and No. 1 Hard, when they were shown through the gray stone hulks and new cement elevators of the largest flour-mills in the world. They looked across Loring Park and the Parade to the towers of St. Markâs and the Procathedral, and the red roofs of houses climbing Kenwood Hill. They drove about the chain of garden-circled lakes, and viewed the houses of the millers and lumbermen and real estate peersâ âthe potentates of the expanding city. They surveyed the small eccentric bungalows with pergolas, the houses of pebbledash and tapestry brick with sleeping-porches above sun-parlors, and one vast incredible château fronting the Lake of the Isles. They tramped through a shining-new section of apartment-houses; not the tall bleak apartments of Eastern cities but low structures of cheerful yellow brick, in which each flat had its glass-enclosed porch with swinging couch and scarlet cushions and Russian brass bowls. Between a waste of tracks and a raw gouged hill they found poverty in staggering shanties.
They saw miles of the city which they had never known in their days of absorption in college. They were distinguished explorers, and they remarked, in great mutual esteem, âI bet Harry Haydockâs never seen the City like this! Why, heâd never have sense enough to study the machinery in the mills, or go through all these outlying districts. Wonder folks in Gopher Prairie wouldnât use their legs and explore, the way we do!â
They had two meals with Carolâs sister, and were bored, and felt that intimacy which beatifies married people when they suddenly admit that they equally dislike a relative of either of them.
So it was with affection but also with weariness that they approached the evening on which Carol was to see the plays at the dramatic school. Kennicott suggested not going. âSo darn tired from all this walking; donât know but what we better turn in early and get rested up.â It was only from duty that Carol dragged him and herself out of the warm hotel, into a stinking trolley, up the brownstone steps of the converted residence which lugubriously housed the dramatic school.
V
They were in a long whitewashed hall with a clumsy draw-curtain across the front. The folding chairs were filled with people who looked washed and ironed: parents of the pupils, girl students, dutiful teachers.
âStrikes me itâs going to be punk. If the first play isnât good, letâs beat it,â said Kennicott hopefully.
âAll right,â she yawned. With hazy eyes she tried to read the lists of characters, which were hidden among lifeless advertisements of pianos, music-dealers, restaurants, candy.
She regarded the Schnitzler play with no vast interest. The actors moved and spoke stiffly. Just as its cynicism was beginning to rouse her village-dulled frivolity, it was over.
âDonât think a whale of a lot of that. How about taking a sneak?â petitioned Kennicott.
âOh, letâs try the next one, How He Lied to Her Husband.â
The Shaw conceit amused her, and perplexed Kennicott:
âStrikes me itâs darn fresh. Thought it would be racy. Donât know as I think much of a play where a husband actually claims he wants a fellow to make love to his wife. No husband ever did that! Shall we shake a leg?â
âI want to see this Yeats thing, Land of Heartâs Desire. I used to love it in college.â She was awake now, and urgent. âI know you didnât care so much for Yeats when I read him aloud to you, but you just see if you donât adore him on the stage.â
Most of the cast were as unwieldy as oak chairs marching, and the setting was an arty arrangement of batik scarfs and heavy tables, but Maire Bruin was slim as Carol, and larger-eyed, and her voice was a morning bell. In her, Carol lived, and on her lifting voice was transported from this sleepy small-town husband and all the rows of polite parents to the stilly loft of a thatched cottage where in a green dimness, beside a window caressed by linden branches, she bent over a chronicle of twilight women and the ancient gods.
âWellâ âgoshâ ânice kid played that girlâ âgood-looker,â said Kennicott. âWant to stay for the last piece? Heh?â
She shivered. She did not answer.
The curtain was again drawn aside. On the stage they saw nothing but long green curtains and a leather chair. Two young men in brown robes like furniture-covers were gesturing vacuously and droning cryptic sentences full of repetitions.
It was Carolâs first hearing of Dunsany. She sympathized with the restless Kennicott as he felt in his pocket for a cigar and unhappily put it back.
Without understanding when or how, without a tangible change in the stilted intoning of the stage-puppets, she was conscious of another time and place.
Stately and aloof among vainglorious tiring-maids, a queen in robes that murmured on the marble floor, she trod the gallery of a crumbling palace. In the courtyard, elephants trumpeted, and swart men with beards dyed crimson stood with bloodstained hands folded upon their hilts, guarding the caravan from El Sharnak, the camels with Tyrian stuffs of topaz and cinnabar. Beyond the turrets of the outer wall the jungle glared and shrieked, and the sun was furious above drenched orchids. A youth came striding through the steel-bossed doors, the sword-bitten doors that were higher than ten tall men. He was in flexible mail, and under the rim of his planished morion were amorous curls. His hand was out to her; before she touched it she could feel its warmthâ â
âGosh all hemlock! What the dickens is all this stuff about, Carrie?â
She was no Syrian queen. She was Mrs. Dr. Kennicott. She fell with a jolt into a whitewashed hall and sat looking at two scared girls and a young man in wrinkled tights.
Kennicott fondly rambled as they left the hall:
âWhat the deuce did that last spiel mean? Couldnât make head or tail of it. If thatâs highbrow drama, give me a cowpuncher movie, every time! Thank God, thatâs over, and we can get to bed. Wonder if we wouldnât make time by walking over to Nicollet to take a car? One thing I will say for that dump: they had it warm enough. Must have a big hot-air furnace, I guess. Wonder how much coal it takes to run âem through the winter?â
In the car he affectionately patted her knee, and he was for a second the striding youth in armor; then he was Doc Kennicott of Gopher Prairie, and she was recaptured by Main Street. Never, not all her life, would she behold jungles and the tombs of kings. There were strange things in the world, they really existed; but she would never see them.
She would recreate them in plays!
She would make the dramatic association understand her aspiration. They would, surely they wouldâ â
She looked doubtfully at the impenetrable reality of yawning trolley conductor and sleepy passengers and placards advertising soap and underwear.
XVIII
I
She hurried to the first meeting of the play-reading committee. Her jungle romance had faded, but she retained a religious fervor, a surge of half-formed thought about the creation of beauty by suggestion.
A Dunsany play would be too difficult for the Gopher Prairie association. She would let them compromise on Shawâ âon Androcles and the Lion, which had just been published.
The committee was composed of Carol, Vida Sherwin, Guy Pollock, Raymie Wutherspoon, and Juanita Haydock. They were exalted by the picture of themselves as being simultaneously businesslike and artistic. They were entertained by Vida in the parlor of Mrs. Elisha Gurreyâs boardinghouse, with its steel engraving of Grant at Appomattox, its basket of stereoscopic views, and its mysterious stains on the gritty carpet.
Vida was an advocate of culture-buying and efficiency-systems. She hinted that they ought to have (as at the committee-meetings of the Thanatopsis) a âregular order of business,â and âthe reading of the minutes,â but as there were no minutes to read, and as no one knew exactly what was the regular order of the business of being literary, they had to give up efficiency.
Carol, as chairman, said politely, âHave you any ideas about what play weâd better give first?â She waited for them to look abashed and vacant, so that she might suggest Androcles.
Guy Pollock answered with disconcerting readiness, âIâll tell you: since weâre going to try to do something artistic, and not simply fool around, I believe we ought to give something classic. How about The School for Scandal?â
âWhyâ âDonât you think that has been done a good deal?â
âYes, perhaps it has.â
Carol was ready to say, âHow about Bernard Shaw?â when he treacherously went on, âHow would it be then to give a Greek dramaâ âsay Oedipus Tyrannus?â
âWhy, I donât believeâ ââ
Vida Sherwin intruded, âIâm sure that would be too hard for us. Now Iâve brought something that I think would be awfully jolly.â
She held out, and Carol incredulously took, a thin gray pamphlet entitled McGinertyâs Mother-in-Law. It was the sort of farce which is advertised in âschool entertainmentâ catalogues as:
Riproaring knockout, 5Â m. 3Â f., time 2Â hrs., interior set, popular with churches and all high-class occasions.
Carol glanced from the scabrous object to Vida, and realized that she was not joking.
âBut this isâ âthis isâ âwhy, itâs just aâ âWhy, Vida, I thought you appreciatedâ âwellâ âappreciated art.â
Vida snorted, âOh. Art. Oh yes. I do like art. Itâs very nice. But after all, what does it matter what kind of play we give as long as we get the association started? The thing that matters is something that none of you have spoken of, that is: what are we going to do with the money, if we make any? I think it would be awfully nice if we presented the high school with a full set of Stoddardâs travel-lectures!â
Carol moaned, âOh, but Vida dear, do forgive me but this farceâ âNow what Iâd like us to give is something distinguished. Say Shawâs Androcles. Have any of you read it?â
âYes. Good play,â said Guy Pollock.
Then Raymie Wutherspoon astoundingly spoke up:
âSo have I. I read through all the plays in the public library, soâs to be ready for this meeting. Andâ âBut I donât believe you grasp the irreligious ideas in this Androcles, Mrs. Kennicott. I guess the feminine mind is too innocent to understand all these immoral writers. Iâm sure I donât want to criticize Bernard Shaw; I understand he is very popular with the highbrows in Minneapolis; but just the sameâ âAs far as I can make out, heâs downright improper! The things he saysâ âWell, it would be a very risky thing for our young folks to see. It seems to me that a play that doesnât leave a nice taste in the mouth and that hasnât any message is nothing butâ ânothing butâ âWell, whatever it may be, it isnât art. Soâ âNow Iâve found a play that is clean, and thereâs some awfully funny scenes in it, too. I laughed out loud, reading it. Itâs called His Motherâs Heart, and itâs about a young man in college who gets in with a lot of freethinkers and boozers and everything, but in the end his motherâs influenceâ ââ
Juanita Haydock broke in with a derisive, âOh rats, Raymie! Can the motherâs influence! I say letâs give something with some class to it. I bet we could get the rights to The Girl from Kankakee, and thatâs a real show. It ran for eleven months in New York!â
âThat would be lots of fun, if it wouldnât cost too much,â reflected Vida.
Carolâs was the only vote cast against The Girl from Kankakee.
II
She disliked The Girl from Kankakee even more than she had expected. It narrated the success of a farm-lassie in clearing her brother of a charge of forgery. She became secretary to a New York millionaire and social counselor to his wife; and after a well-conceived speech on the discomfort of having money, she married his son.
There was also a humorous office-boy.
Carol discerned that both Juanita Haydock and Ella Stowbody wanted the lead. She let Juanita have it. Juanita kissed her and in the exuberant manner of a new star presented to the executive committee her theory, âWhat we want in a play is humor and pep. Thereâs where American playwrights put it all over these darn old European glooms.â
As selected by Carol and confirmed by the committee, the persons of the play were:
John Grimm, a millionaire | Guy Pollock |
His wife | Miss Vida Sherwin |
His son | Dr. Harvey Dillon |
His business rival | Raymond T. Wutherspoon |
Friend of Mrs. Grimm | Miss Ella Stowbody |
The girl from Kankakee | Mrs. Harold C. Haydock |
Her brother | Dr. Terence Gould |
Her mother | Mrs. David Dyer |
Stenographer | Miss Rita Simons |
Office-boy | Miss Myrtle Cass |
Maid in the Grimmsâ home | Mrs. W. P. Kennicott |
Direction of Mrs. Kennicott |
Among the minor lamentations was Maud Dyerâs âWell of course I suppose I look old enough to be Juanitaâs mother, even if Juanita is eight months older than I am, but I donât know as I care to have everybody noticing it andâ ââ
Carol pleaded, âOh, my dear! You two look exactly the same age. I chose you because you have such a darling complexion, and you know with powder and a white wig, anybody looks twice her age, and I want the mother to be sweet, no matter who else is.â
Ella Stowbody, the professional, perceiving that it was because of a conspiracy of jealousy that she had been given a small part, alternated between lofty amusement and Christian patience.
Carol hinted that the play would be improved by cutting, but as every actor except Vida and Guy and herself wailed at the loss of a single line, she was defeated. She told herself that, after all, a great deal could be done with direction and settings.
Sam Clark had boastfully written about the dramatic association to his schoolmate, Percy Bresnahan, president of the Velvet Motor Company of Boston. Bresnahan sent a check for a hundred dollars; Sam added twenty-five and brought the fund to Carol, fondly crying, âThere! Thatâll give you a start for putting the thing across swell!â
She rented the second floor of the city hall for two months. All through the spring the association thrilled to its own talent in that dismal room. They cleared out the bunting, ballot-boxes, handbills, legless chairs. They attacked the stage. It was a simple-minded stage. It was raised above the floor, and it did have a movable curtain, painted with the advertisement of a druggist dead these ten years, but otherwise it might not have been recognized as a stage. There were two dressing-rooms, one for men, one for women, on either side. The dressing-room doors were also the stage-entrances, opening from the house, and many a citizen of Gopher Prairie had for his first glimpse of romance the bare shoulders of the leading woman.
There were three sets of scenery: a woodland, a Poor Interior, and a Rich Interior, the last also useful for railway stations, offices, and as a background for the Swedish Quartette from Chicago. There were three gradations of lighting: full on, half on, and entirely off.
This was the only theater in Gopher Prairie. It was known as the âopâra house.â Once, strolling companies had used it for performances of The Two Orphans, and Nellie the Beautiful Cloak Model, and Othello with specialties between acts, but now the motion-pictures had ousted the gipsy drama.
Carol intended to be furiously modern in constructing the office-set, the drawing-room for Mr. Grimm, and the Humble Home near Kankakee. It was the first time that anyone in Gopher Prairie had been so revolutionary as to use enclosed scenes with continuous sidewalls. The rooms in the opâra house sets had separate wing-pieces for sides, which simplified dramaturgy, as the villain could always get out of the heroâs way by walking out through the wall.
The inhabitants of the Humble Home were supposed to be amiable and intelligent. Carol planned for them a simple set with warm color. She could see the beginning of the play: all dark save the high settles and the solid wooden table between them, which were to be illuminated by a ray from offstage. The high light was a polished copper pot filled with primroses. Less clearly she sketched the Grimm drawing-room as a series of cool high white arches.
As to how she was to produce these effects she had no notion.
She discovered that, despite the enthusiastic young writers, the drama was not half so native and close to the soil as motor cars and telephones. She discovered that simple arts require sophisticated training. She discovered that to produce one perfect stage-picture would be as difficult as to turn all of Gopher Prairie into a Georgian garden.
She read all she could find regarding staging, she bought paint and light wood; she borrowed furniture and drapes unscrupulously; she made Kennicott turn carpenter. She collided with the problem of lighting. Against the protest of Kennicott and Vida she mortgaged the association by sending to Minneapolis for a baby spotlight, a strip light, a dimming device, and blue and amber bulbs; and with the gloating rapture of a born painter first turned loose among colors, she spent absorbed evenings in grouping, dimming-painting with lights.
Only Kennicott, Guy, and Vida helped her. They speculated as to how flats could be lashed together to form a wall; they hung crocus-yellow curtains at the windows; they blacked the sheet-iron stove; they put on aprons and swept. The rest of the association dropped into the theater every evening, and were literary and superior. They had borrowed Carolâs manuals of play-production and had become extremely stagey in vocabulary.
Juanita Haydock, Rita Simons, and Raymie Wutherspoon sat on a sawhorse, watching Carol try to get the right position for a picture on the wall in the first scene.
âI donât want to hand myself anything but I believe Iâll give a swell performance in this first act,â confided Juanita. âI wish Carol wasnât so bossy though. She doesnât understand clothes. I want to wear, oh, a dandy dress I haveâ âall scarletâ âand I said to her, âWhen I enter wouldnât it knock their eyes out if I just stood there at the door in this straight scarlet thing?â But she wouldnât let me.â
Young Rita agreed, âSheâs so much taken up with her old details and carpentering and everything that she canât see the picture as a whole. Now I thought it would be lovely if we had an office-scene like the one in Little, but Oh My! Because I saw that, in Duluth. But she simply wouldnât listen at all.â
Juanita sighed, âI wanted to give one speech like Ethel Barrymore would, if she was in a play like this. (Harry and I heard her one time in Minneapolisâ âwe had dandy seats, in the orchestraâ âI just know I could imitate her.) Carol didnât pay any attention to my suggestion. I donât want to criticize but I guess Ethel knows more about acting than Carol does!â
âSay, do you think Carol has the right dope about using a strip light behind the fireplace in the second act? I told her I thought we ought to use a bunch,â offered Raymie. âAnd I suggested it would be lovely if we used a cyclorama outside the window in the first act, and what do you think she said? âYes, and it would be lovely to have Eleanora Duse play the lead,â she said, âand aside from the fact that itâs evening in the first act, youâre a great technician,â she said. I must say I think she was pretty sarcastic. Iâve been reading up, and I know I could build a cyclorama, if she didnât want to run everything.â
âYes, and another thing, I think the entrance in the first act ought to be L. U. E., not L. 3 E.,â from Juanita.
âAnd why does she just use plain white tormenters?â
âWhatâs a tormenter?â blurted Rita Simons.
The savants stared at her ignorance.
III
Carol did not resent their criticisms, she didnât very much resent their sudden knowledge, so long as they let her make pictures. It was at rehearsals that the quarrels broke. No one understood that rehearsals were as real engagements as bridge-games or sociables at the Episcopal Church. They gaily came in half an hour late, or they vociferously came in ten minutes early, and they were so hurt that they whispered about resigning when Carol protested. They telephoned, âI donât think Iâd better come out; afraid the dampness might start my toothache,â or âGuess canât make it tonight; Dave wants me to sit in on a poker game.â
When, after a month of labor, as many as nine-elevenths of the cast were often present at a rehearsal; when most of them had learned their parts and some of them spoke like human beings, Carol had a new shock in the realization that Guy Pollock and herself were very bad actors, and that Raymie Wutherspoon was a surprisingly good one. For all her visions she could not control her voice, and she was bored by the fiftieth repetition of her few lines as maid. Guy pulled his soft mustache, looked self-conscious, and turned Mr. Grimm into a limp dummy. But Raymie, as the villain, had no repressions. The tilt of his head was full of character; his drawl was admirably vicious.
There was an evening when Carol hoped she was going to make a play; a rehearsal during which Guy stopped looking abashed.
From that evening the play declined.
They were weary. âWe know our parts well enough now; whatâs the use of getting sick of them?â they complained. They began to skylark; to play with the sacred lights; to giggle when Carol was trying to make the sentimental Myrtle Cass into a humorous office-boy; to act everything but The Girl from Kankakee. After loafing through his proper part Dr. Terry Gould had great applause for his burlesque of Hamlet. Even Raymie lost his simple faith, and tried to show that he could do a vaudeville shuffle.
Carol turned on the company. âSee here, I want this nonsense to stop. Weâve simply got to get down to work.â
Juanita Haydock led the mutiny: âLook here, Carol, donât be so bossy. After all, weâre doing this play principally for the fun of it, and if we have fun out of a lot of monkey-shines, why thenâ ââ
âYe-es,â feebly.
âYou said one time that folks in G.P. didnât get enough fun out of life. And now we are having a circus, you want us to stop!â
Carol answered slowly: âI wonder if I can explain what I mean? Itâs the difference between looking at the comic page and looking at Manet. I want fun out of this, of course. Onlyâ âI donât think it would be less fun, but more, to produce as perfect a play as we can.â She was curiously exalted; her voice was strained; she stared not at the company but at the grotesques scrawled on the backs of wing-pieces by forgotten stagehands. âI wonder if you can understand the âfunâ of making a beautiful thing, the pride and satisfaction of it, and the holiness!â
The company glanced doubtfully at one another. In Gopher Prairie it is not good form to be holy except at a church, between ten-thirty and twelve on Sunday.
âBut if we want to do it, weâve got to work; we must have self-discipline.â
They were at once amused and embarrassed. They did not want to affront this mad woman. They backed off and tried to rehearse. Carol did not hear Juanita, in front, protesting to Maud Dyer, âIf she calls it fun and holiness to sweat over her darned old playâ âwell, I donât!â
IV
Carol attended the only professional play which came to Gopher Prairie that spring. It was a âtent show, presenting snappy new dramas under canvas.â The hardworking actors doubled in brass, and took tickets; and between acts sang about the moon in June, and sold Dr. Wintergreenâs Surefire Tonic for Ills of the Heart, Lungs, Kidneys, and Bowels. They presented Sunbonnet Nell: A Dramatic Comedy of the Ozarks, with J. Witherbee Boothby wringing the soul by his resonant âYuh ainât done right by mah little gal, Mr. City Man, but yer a-goinâ to find that back in these-yere hills thereâs honest folks and good shots!â
The audience, on planks beneath the patched tent, admired Mr. Boothbyâs beard and long rifle; stamped their feet in the dust at the spectacle of his heroism; shouted when the comedian aped the City Ladyâs use of a lorgnon by looking through a doughnut stuck on a fork; wept visibly over Mr. Boothbyâs Little Gal Nell, who was also Mr. Boothbyâs legal wife Pearl, and when the curtain went down, listened respectfully to Mr. Boothbyâs lecture on Dr. Wintergreenâs Tonic as a cure for tapeworms, which he illustrated by horrible pallid objects curled in bottles of yellowing alcohol.
Carol shook her head. âJuanita is right. Iâm a fool. Holiness of the drama! Bernard Shaw! The only trouble with The Girl from Kankakee is that itâs too subtle for Gopher Prairie!â
She sought faith in spacious banal phrases, taken from books: âthe instinctive nobility of simple souls,â âneed only the opportunity, to appreciate fine things,â and âsturdy exponents of democracy.â But these optimisms did not sound so loud as the laughter of the audience at the funny-manâs line, âYes, by heckelum, Iâm a smart fella.â She wanted to give up the play, the dramatic association, the town. As she came out of the tent and walked with Kennicott down the dusty spring street, she peered at this straggling wooden village and felt that she could not possibly stay here through all of tomorrow.
It was Miles Bjornstam who gave her strengthâ âhe and the fact that every seat for The Girl from Kankakee had been sold.
Bjornstam was âkeeping companyâ with Bea. Every night he was sitting on the back steps. Once when Carol appeared he grumbled, âHope youâre going to give this burg one good show. If you donât, reckon nobody ever will.â
V
It was the great night; it was the night of the play. The two dressing-rooms were swirling with actors, panting, twitchy pale. Del Snafflin the barber, who was as much a professional as Ella, having once gone on in a mob scene at a stock-company performance in Minneapolis, was making them up, and showing his scorn for amateurs with, âStand still! For the love oâ Mike, how do you expect me to get your eyelids dark if you keep a-wigglinâ?â The actors were beseeching, âHey, Del, put some red in my nostrilsâ âyou put some in Ritaâsâ âgee, you didnât hardly do anything to my face.â
They were enormously theatric. They examined Delâs makeup box, they sniffed the scent of greasepaint, every minute they ran out to peep through the hole in the curtain, they came back to inspect their wigs and costumes, they read on the whitewashed walls of the dressing-rooms the pencil inscriptions: âThe Flora Flanders Comedy Company,â and âThis is a bum theater,â and felt that they were companions of these vanished troupers.
Carol, smart in maidâs uniform, coaxed the temporary stagehands to finish setting the first act, wailed at Kennicott, the electrician, âNow for heavenâs sake remember the change in cue for the ambers in Act Two,â slipped out to ask Dave Dyer, the ticket-taker, if he could get some more chairs, warned the frightened Myrtle Cass to be sure to upset the wastebasket when John Grimm called, âHere you, Reddy.â
Del Snafflinâs orchestra of piano, violin, and cornet began to tune up and everyone behind the magic line of the proscenic arch was frightened into paralysis. Carol wavered to the hole in the curtain. There were so many people out there, staring so hardâ â
In the second row she saw Miles Bjornstam, not with Bea but alone. He really wanted to see the play! It was a good omen. Who could tell? Perhaps this evening would convert Gopher Prairie to conscious beauty.
She darted into the womenâs dressing-room, roused Maud Dyer from her fainting panic, pushed her to the wings, and ordered the curtain up.
It rose doubtfully, it staggered and trembled, but it did get up without catchingâ âthis time. Then she realized that Kennicott had forgotten to turn off the houselights. Someone out front was giggling.
She galloped round to the left wing, herself pulled the switch, looked so ferociously at Kennicott that he quaked, and fled back.
Mrs. Dyer was creeping out on the half-darkened stage. The play was begun.
And with that instant Carol realized that it was a bad play abominably acted.
Encouraging them with lying smiles, she watched her work go to pieces. The settings seemed flimsy, the lighting commonplace. She watched Guy Pollock stammer and twist his mustache when he should have been a bullying magnate; Vida Sherwin, as Grimmâs timid wife, chatter at the audience as though they were her class in high-school English; Juanita, in the leading role, defy Mr. Grimm as though she were repeating a list of things she had to buy at the grocery this morning; Ella Stowbody remark âIâd like a cup of teaâ as though she were reciting âCurfew Shall Not Ring Tonightâ; and Dr. Gould, making love to Rita Simons, squeak, âMyâ âmyâ âyouâ âareâ âaâ âwonâerfulâ âgirl.â
Myrtle Cass, as the office-boy, was so much pleased by the applause of her relatives, then so much agitated by the remarks of Cy Bogart, in the back row, in reference to her wearing trousers, that she could hardly be got off the stage. Only Raymie was so unsociable as to devote himself entirely to acting.
That she was right in her opinion of the play Carol was certain when Miles Bjornstam went out after the first act, and did not come back.
VI
Between the second and third acts she called the company together, and supplicated, âI want to know something, before we have a chance to separate. Whether weâre doing well or badly tonight, it is a beginning. But will we take it as merely a beginning? How many of you will pledge yourselves to start in with me, right away, tomorrow, and plan for another play, to be given in September?â
They stared at her; they nodded at Juanitaâs protest: âI think oneâs enough for a while. Itâs going elegant tonight, but another playâ âSeems to me itâll be time enough to talk about that next fall. Carol! I hope you donât mean to hint and suggest weâre not doing fine tonight? Iâm sure the applause shows the audience think itâs just dandy!â
Then Carol knew how completely she had failed.
As the audience seeped out she heard B. J. Gougerling the banker say to Howland the grocer, âWell, I think the folks did splendid; just as good as professionals. But I donât care much for these plays. What I like is a good movie, with auto accidents and holdups, and some git to it, and not all this talky-talk.â
Then Carol knew how certain she was to fail again.
She wearily did not blame them, company nor audience. Herself she blamed for trying to carve intaglios in good wholesome jack-pine.
âItâs the worst defeat of all. Iâm beaten. By Main Street. âI must go on.â But I canât!â
She was not vastly encouraged by the Gopher Prairie Dauntless:
⌠would be impossible to distinguish among the actors when all gave such fine account of themselves in difficult roles of this well-known New York stage play. Guy Pollock as the old millionaire could not have been bettered for his fine impersonation of the gruff old millionaire; Mrs. Harry Haydock as the young lady from the West who so easily showed the New York four-flushers where they got off was a vision of loveliness and with fine stage presence. Miss Vida Sherwin the ever popular teacher in our high school pleased as Mrs. Grimm, Dr. Gould was well suited in the role of young loverâ âgirls you better look out, remember the doc is a bachelor. The local Four Hundred also report that he is a great hand at shaking the light fantastic tootsies in the dance. As the stenographer Rita Simons was pretty as a picture, and Miss Ella Stowbodyâs long and intensive study of the drama and kindred arts in Eastern schools was seen in the fine finish of her part.
⌠to no one is greater credit to be given than to Mrs. Will Kennicott on whose capable shoulders fell the burden of directing.
âSo kindly,â Carol mused, âso well meant, so neighborlyâ âand so confoundedly untrue. Is it really my failure, or theirs?â
She sought to be sensible; she elaborately explained to herself that it was hysterical to condemn Gopher Prairie because it did not foam over the drama. Its justification was in its service as a market-town for farmers. How bravely and generously it did its work, forwarding the bread of the world, feeding and healing the farmers!
Then, on the corner below her husbandâs office, she heard a farmer holding forth:
âSure. Course I was beaten. The shipper and the grocers here wouldnât pay us a decent price for our potatoes, even though folks in the cities were howling for âem. So we says, well, weâll get a truck and ship âem right down to Minneapolis. But the commission merchants there were in cahoots with the local shipper here; they said they wouldnât pay us a cent more than he would, not even if they was nearer to the market. Well, we found we could get higher prices in Chicago, but when we tried to get freight cars to ship there, the railroads wouldnât let us have âemâ âeven though they had cars standing empty right here in the yards. There you got itâ âgood market, and these towns keeping us from it. Gus, thatâs the way these towns work all the time. They pay what they want to for our wheat, but we pay what they want us to for their clothes. Stowbody and Dawson foreclose every mortgage they can, and put in tenant farmers. The Dauntless lies to us about the Nonpartisan League, the lawyers sting us, the machinery-dealers hate to carry us over bad years, and then their daughters put on swell dresses and look at us as if we were a bunch of hoboes. Man, Iâd like to burn this town!â
Kennicott observed, âThereâs that old crank Wes Brannigan shooting off his mouth again. Gosh, but he loves to hear himself talk! They ought to run that fellow out of town!â
VII
She felt old and detached through high-school commencement week, which is the fĂŞte of youth in Gopher Prairie; through baccalaureate sermon, senior Parade, junior entertainment, commencement address by an Iowa clergyman who asserted that he believed in the virtue of virtuousness, and the procession of Decoration Day, when the few Civil War veterans followed Champ Perry, in his rusty forage-cap, along the spring-powdered road to the cemetery. She met Guy; she found that she had nothing to say to him. Her head ached in an aimless way. When Kennicott rejoiced, âWeâll have a great time this summer; move down to the lake early and wear old clothes and act natural,â she smiled, but her smile creaked.
In the prairie heat she trudged along unchanging ways, talked about nothing to tepid people, and reflected that she might never escape from them.
She was startled to find that she was using the word âescape.â
Then, for three years which passed like one curt paragraph, she ceased to find anything interesting save the Bjornstams and her baby.
XIX
I
In three years of exile from herself Carol had certain experiences chronicled as important by the Dauntless, or discussed by the Jolly Seventeen, but the event unchronicled, undiscussed, and supremely controlling, was her slow admission of longing to find her own people.
II
Bea and Miles Bjornstam were married in June, a month after The Girl from Kankakee. Miles had turned respectable. He had renounced his criticisms of state and society; he had given up roving as horse-trader, and wearing red mackinaws in lumber-camps; he had gone to work as engineer in Jackson Elderâs planing-mill; he was to be seen upon the streets endeavoring to be neighborly with suspicious men whom he had taunted for years.
Carol was the patroness and manager of the wedding. Juanita Haydock mocked, âYouâre a chump to let a good hired girl like Bea go. Besides! How do you know itâs a good thing, her marrying a sassy bum like this awful Red Swede person? Get wise! Chase the man off with a mop, and hold onto your Svenska while the holdingâs good. Huh? Me go to their Scandahoofian wedding? Not a chance!â
The other matrons echoed Juanita. Carol was dismayed by the casualness of their cruelty, but she persisted. Miles had exclaimed to her, âJack Elder says maybe heâll come to the wedding! Gee, it would be nice to have Bea meet the Boss as a regâlar married lady. Some day Iâll be so well off that Bea can play with Mrs. Elderâ âand you! Watch us!â
There was an uneasy knot of only nine guests at the service in the unpainted Lutheran Churchâ âCarol, Kennicott, Guy Pollock, and the Champ Perrys, all brought by Carol; Beaâs frightened rustic parents, her cousin Tina, and Pete, Milesâs ex-partner in horse-trading, a surly, hairy man who had bought a black suit and come twelve hundred miles from Spokane for the event.
Miles continuously glanced back at the church door. Jackson Elder did not appear. The door did not once open after the awkward entrance of the first guests. Milesâs hand closed on Beaâs arm.
He had, with Carolâs help, made his shanty over into a cottage with white curtains and a canary and a chintz chair.
Carol coaxed the powerful matrons to call on Bea. They half scoffed, half promised to go.
Beaâs successor was the oldish, broad, silent Oscarina, who was suspicious of her frivolous mistress for a month, so that Juanita Haydock was able to crow, âThere, smarty, I told you youâd run into the Domestic Problem!â But Oscarina adopted Carol as a daughter, and with her as faithful to the kitchen as Bea had been, there was nothing changed in Carolâs life.
III
She was unexpectedly appointed to the town library-board by Ole Jenson, the new mayor. The other members were Dr. Westlake, Lyman Cass, Julius Flickerbaugh the attorney, Guy Pollock, and Martin Mahoney, former livery-stable keeper and now owner of a garage. She was delighted. She went to the first meeting rather condescendingly, regarding herself as the only one besides Guy who knew anything about books or library methods. She was planning to revolutionize the whole system.
Her condescension was ruined and her humility wholesomely increased when she found the board, in the shabby room on the second floor of the house which had been converted into the library, not discussing the weather and longing to play checkers, but talking about books. She discovered that amiable old Dr. Westlake read everything in verse and âlight fictionâ; that Lyman Cass, the veal-faced, bristly-bearded owner of the mill, had tramped through Gibbon, Hume, Grote, Prescott, and the other thick historians; that he could repeat pages from themâ âand did. When Dr. Westlake whispered to her, âYes, Lym is a very well-informed man, but heâs modest about it,â she felt uninformed and immodest, and scolded at herself that she had missed the human potentialities in this vast Gopher Prairie. When Dr. Westlake quoted the Paradiso, Don Quixote, Wilhelm Meister, and the Koran, she reflected that no one she knew, not even her father, had read all four.
She came diffidently to the second meeting of the board. She did not plan to revolutionize anything. She hoped that the wise elders might be so tolerant as to listen to her suggestions about changing the shelving of the juveniles.
Yet after four sessions of the library-board she was where she had been before the first session. She had found that for all their pride in being reading men, Westlake and Cass and even Guy had no conception of making the library familiar to the whole town. They used it, they passed resolutions about it, and they left it as dead as Moses. Only the Henty books and the Elsie books and the latest optimisms by moral female novelists and virile clergymen were in general demand, and the board themselves were interested only in old, stilted volumes. They had no tenderness for the noisiness of youth discovering great literature.
If she was egotistic about her tiny learning, they were at least as much so regarding theirs. And for all their talk of the need of additional library-tax none of them was willing to risk censure by battling for it, though they now had so small a fund that, after paying for rent, heat, light, and Miss Villetsâs salary, they had only a hundred dollars a year for the purchase of books.
The Incident of the Seventeen Cents killed her none too enduring interest.
She had come to the board-meeting singing with a plan. She had made a list of thirty European novels of the past ten years, with twenty important books on psychology, education, and economics which the library lacked. She had made Kennicott promise to give fifteen dollars. If each of the board would contribute the same, they could have the books.
Lym Cass looked alarmed, scratched himself, and protested, âI think it would be a bad precedent for the board-members to contribute moneyâ âuhâ ânot that I mind, but it wouldnât be fairâ âestablish precedent. Gracious! They donât pay us a cent for our services! Certainly canât expect us to pay for the privilege of serving!â
Only Guy looked sympathetic, and he stroked the pine table and said nothing.
The rest of the meeting they gave to a bellicose investigation of the fact that there was seventeen cents less than there should be in the Fund. Miss Villets was summoned; she spent half an hour in explosively defending herself; the seventeen cents were gnawed over, penny by penny; and Carol, glancing at the carefully inscribed list which had been so lovely and exciting an hour before, was silent, and sorry for Miss Villets, and sorrier for herself.
She was reasonably regular in attendance till her two years were up and Vida Sherwin was appointed to the board in her place, but she did not try to be revolutionary. In the plodding course of her life there was nothing changed, and nothing new.
IV
Kennicott made an excellent land-deal, but as he told her none of the details, she was not greatly exalted or agitated. What did agitate her was his announcement, half whispered and half blurted, half tender and half coldly medical, that they âought to have a baby, now they could afford it.â They had so long agreed that âperhaps it would be just as well not to have any children for a while yet,â that childlessness had come to be natural. Now, she feared and longed and did not know; she hesitatingly assented, and wished that she had not assented.
As there appeared no change in their drowsy relations, she forgot all about it, and life was planless.
V
Idling on the porch of their summer cottage at the lake, on afternoons when Kennicott was in town, when the water was glazed and the whole air languid, she pictured a hundred escapes: Fifth Avenue in a snowstorm, with limousines, golden shops, a cathedral spire. A reed hut on fantastic piles above the mud of a jungle river. A suite in Paris, immense high grave rooms, with lambrequins and a balcony. The Enchanted Mesa. An ancient stone mill in Maryland, at the turn of the road, between rocky brook and abrupt hills. An upland moor of sheep and flitting cool sunlight. A clanging dock where steel cranes unloaded steamers from Buenos Aires and Tsing-tao. A Munich concert-hall, and a famous cellist playingâ âplaying to her.
One scene had a persistent witchery:
She stood on a terrace overlooking a boulevard by the warm sea. She was certain, though she had no reason for it, that the place was Mentone. Along the drive below her swept barouches, with a mechanical tlot-tlot, tlot-tlot, tlot-tlot, and great cars with polished black hoods and engines quiet as the sigh of an old man. In them were women erect, slender, enameled, and expressionless as marionettes, their small hands upon parasols, their unchanging eyes always forward, ignoring the men beside them, tall men with gray hair and distinguished faces. Beyond the drive were painted sea and painted sands, and blue and yellow pavilions. Nothing moved except the gliding carriages, and the people were small and wooden, spots in a picture drenched with gold and hard bright blues. There was no sound of sea or winds; no softness of whispers nor of falling petals; nothing but yellow and cobalt and staring light, and the never-changing tlot-tlot, tlot-tlotâ â
She startled. She whimpered. It was the rapid ticking of the clock which had hypnotized her into hearing the steady hoofs. No aching color of the sea and pride of supercilious people, but the reality of a round-bellied nickel alarm-clock on a shelf against a fuzzy unplaned pine wall, with a stiff gray washrag hanging above it and a kerosene-stove standing below.
A thousand dreams governed by the fiction she had read, drawn from the pictures she had envied, absorbed her drowsy lake afternoons, but always in the midst of them Kennicott came out from town, drew on khaki trousers which were plastered with dry fish-scales, asked, âEnjoying yourself?â and did not listen to her answer.
And nothing was changed, and there was no reason to believe that there ever would be change.
VI
Trains!
At the lake cottage she missed the passing of the trains. She realized that in town she had depended upon them for assurance that there remained a world beyond.
The railroad was more than a means of transportation to Gopher Prairie. It was a new god; a monster of steel limbs, oak ribs, flesh of gravel, and a stupendous hunger for freight; a deity created by man that he might keep himself respectful to Property, as elsewhere he had elevated and served as tribal gods the mines, cotton-mills, motor-factories, colleges, army.
The East remembered generations when there had been no railroad, and had no awe of it; but here the railroads had been before time was. The towns had been staked out on barren prairie as convenient points for future train-halts; and back in 1860 and 1870 there had been much profit, much opportunity to found aristocratic families, in the possession of advance knowledge as to where the towns would arise.
If a town was in disfavor, the railroad could ignore it, cut it off from commerce, slay it. To Gopher Prairie the tracks were eternal verities, and boards of railroad directors an omnipotence. The smallest boy or the most secluded grandam could tell you whether No. 32 had a hotbox last Tuesday, whether No. 7 was going to put on an extra day-coach; and the name of the president of the road was familiar to every breakfast table.
Even in this new era of motors the citizens went down to the station to see the trains go through. It was their romance; their only mystery besides mass at the Catholic Church; and from the trains came lords of the outer worldâ âtraveling salesmen with piping on their waistcoats, and visiting cousins from Milwaukee.
Gopher Prairie had once been a âdivision-point.â The roundhouse and repair-shops were gone, but two conductors still retained residence, and they were persons of distinction, men who traveled and talked to strangers, who wore uniforms with brass buttons, and knew all about these crooked games of con-men. They were a special caste, neither above nor below the Haydocks, but apart, artists and adventurers.
The night telegraph-operator at the railroad station was the most melodramatic figure in town: awake at three in the morning, alone in a room hectic with clatter of the telegraph key. All night he âtalkedâ to operators twenty, fifty, a hundred miles away. It was always to be expected that he would be held up by robbers. He never was, but round him was a suggestion of masked faces at the window, revolvers, cords binding him to a chair, his struggle to crawl to the key before he fainted.
During blizzards everything about the railroad was melodramatic. There were days when the town was completely shut off, when they had no mail, no express, no fresh meat, no newspapers. At last the rotary snowplow came through, bucking the drifts, sending up a geyser, and the way to the Outside was open again. The brakemen, in mufflers and fur caps, running along the tops of ice-coated freight-cars; the engineers scratching frost from the cab windows and looking out, inscrutable, self-contained, pilots of the prairie seaâ âthey were heroism, they were to Carol the daring of the quest in a world of groceries and sermons.
To the small boys the railroad was a familiar playground. They climbed the iron ladders on the sides of the boxcars; built fires behind piles of old ties; waved to favorite brakemen. But to Carol it was magic.
She was motoring with Kennicott, the car lumping through darkness, the lights showing mud-puddles and ragged weeds by the road. A train coming! A rapid chuckâaâchuck, chuckâaâchuck, chuckâaâchuck. It was hurling pastâ âthe Pacific Flyer, an arrow of golden flame. Light from the firebox splashed the under side of the trailing smoke. Instantly the vision was gone; Carol was back in the long darkness; and Kennicott was giving his version of that fire and wonder: âNo. 19. Must be âbout ten minutes late.â
In town, she listened from bed to the express whistling in the cut a mile north. Uuuuuuu!â âfaint, nervous, distrait, horn of the free night riders journeying to the tall towns where were laughter and banners and the sound of bellsâ âUuuuu! Uuuuu!â âthe world going byâ âUuuuuuu!â âfainter, more wistful, gone.
Down here there were no trains. The stillness was very great. The prairie encircled the lake, lay round her, raw, dusty, thick. Only the train could cut it. Some day she would take a train; and that would be a great taking.
VII
She turned to the Chautauqua as she had turned to the dramatic association, to the library-board.
Besides the permanent Mother Chautauqua, in New York, there are, all over these States, commercial Chautauqua companies which send out to every smallest town troupes of lecturers and âentertainersâ to give a week of culture under canvas. Living in Minneapolis, Carol had never encountered the ambulant Chautauqua, and the announcement of its coming to Gopher Prairie gave her hope that others might be doing the vague things which she had attempted. She pictured a condensed university course brought to the people. Mornings when she came in from the lake with Kennicott she saw placards in every shopwindow, and strung on a cord across Main Street, a line of pennants alternately worded âThe Boland Chautauqua coming!â and âA solid week of inspiration and enjoyment!â But she was disappointed when she saw the program. It did not seem to be a tabloid university; it did not seem to be any kind of a university; it seemed to be a combination of vaudeville performance Y.M.C.A. lecture, and the graduation exercises of an elocution class.
She took her doubt to Kennicott. He insisted, âWell, maybe it wonât be so awful darn intellectual, the way you and I might like it, but itâs a whole lot better than nothing.â Vida Sherwin added, âThey have some splendid speakers. If the people donât carry off so much actual information, they do get a lot of new ideas, and thatâs what counts.â
During the Chautauqua Carol attended three evening meetings, two afternoon meetings, and one in the morning. She was impressed by the audience: the sallow women in skirts and blouses, eager to be made to think, the men in vests and shirtsleeves, eager to be allowed to laugh, and the wriggling children, eager to sneak away. She liked the plain benches, the portable stage under its red marquee, the great tent over all, shadowy above strings of incandescent bulbs at night and by day casting an amber radiance on the patient crowd. The scent of dust and trampled grass and sunbaked wood gave her an illusion of Syrian caravans; she forgot the speakers while she listened to noises outside the tent: two farmers talking hoarsely, a wagon creaking down Main Street, the crow of a rooster. She was content. But it was the contentment of the lost hunter stopping to rest.
For from the Chautauqua itself she got nothing but wind and chaff and heavy laughter, the laughter of yokels at old jokes, a mirthless and primitive sound like the cries of beasts on a farm.
These were the several instructors in the condensed universityâs seven-day course:
Nine lecturers, four of them ex-ministers, and one an ex-congressman, all of them delivering âinspirational addresses.â The only facts or opinions which Carol derived from them were: Lincoln was a celebrated president of the United States, but in his youth extremely poor. James J. Hill was the best-known railroad-man of the West, and in his youth extremely poor. Honesty and courtesy in business are preferable to boorishness and exposed trickery, but this is not to be taken personally, since all persons in Gopher Prairie are known to be honest and courteous. London is a large city. A distinguished statesman once taught Sunday School.
Four âentertainersâ who told Jewish stories, Irish stories, German stories, Chinese stories, and Tennessee mountaineer stories, most of which Carol had heard.
A âlady elocutionistâ who recited Kipling and imitated children.
A lecturer with motion-pictures of an Andean exploration; excellent pictures and a halting narrative.
Three brass-bands, a company of six opera-singers, a Hawaiian sextette, and four youths who played saxophones and guitars disguised as washboards. The most applauded pieces were those, such as the âLuciaâ inevitability, which the audience had heard most often.
The local superintendent, who remained through the week while the other enlighteners went to other Chautauquas for their daily performances. The superintendent was a bookish, underfed man who worked hard at rousing artificial enthusiasm, at trying to make the audience cheer by dividing them into competitive squads and telling them that they were intelligent and made splendid communal noises. He gave most of the morning lectures, droning with equal unhappy facility about poetry, the Holy Land, and the injustice to employers in any system of profit-sharing.
The final item was a man who neither lectured, inspired, nor entertained; a plain little man with his hands in his pockets. All the other speakers had confessed, âI cannot keep from telling the citizens of your beautiful city that none of the talent on this circuit have found a more charming spot or more enterprising and hospitable people.â But the little man suggested that the architecture of Gopher Prairie was haphazard, and that it was sottish to let the lakefront be monopolized by the cinder-heaped wall of the railroad embankment. Afterward the audience grumbled, âMaybe that guyâs got the right dope, but whatâs the use of looking on the dark side of things all the time? New ideas are first-rate, but not all this criticism. Enough trouble in life without looking for it!â
Thus the Chautauqua, as Carol saw it. After it, the town felt proud and educated.
VIII
Two weeks later the Great War smote Europe.
For a month Gopher Prairie had the delight of shuddering, then, as the war settled down to a business of trench-fighting, they forgot.
When Carol talked about the Balkans, and the possibility of a German revolution, Kennicott yawned, âOh yes, itâs a great old scrap, but itâs none of our business. Folks out here are too busy growing corn to monkey with any fool war that those foreigners want to get themselves into.â
It was Miles Bjornstam who said, âI canât figure it out. Iâm opposed to wars, but still, seems like Germany has got to be licked because them Junkers stands in the way of progress.â
She was calling on Miles and Bea, early in autumn. They had received her with cries, with dusting of chairs, and a running to fetch water for coffee. Miles stood and beamed at her. He fell often and joyously into his old irreverence about the lords of Gopher Prairie, but alwaysâ âwith a certain difficultyâ âhe added something decorous and appreciative.
âLots of people have come to see you, havenât they?â Carol hinted.
âWhy, Beaâs cousin Tina comes in right along, and the foreman at the mill, andâ âOh, we have good times. Say, take a look at that Bea! Wouldnât you think she was a canary-bird, to listen to her, and to see that Scandahoofian towhead of hers? But say, know what she is? Sheâs a mother hen! Way she fusses over meâ âway she makes old Miles wear a necktie! Hate to spoil her by letting her hear it, but sheâs one pretty darn niceâ âniceâ âHell! What do we care if none of the dirty snobs come and call? Weâve got each other.â
Carol worried about their struggle, but she forgot it in the stress of sickness and fear. For that autumn she knew that a baby was coming, that at last life promised to be interesting in the peril of the great change.
XX
I
The baby was coming. Each morning she was nauseated, chilly, bedraggled, and certain that she would never again be attractive; each twilight she was afraid. She did not feel exalted, but unkempt and furious. The period of daily sickness crawled into an endless time of boredom. It became difficult for her to move about, and she raged that she, who had been slim and light-footed, should have to lean on a stick, and be heartily commented upon by street gossips. She was encircled by greasy eyes. Every matron hinted, âNow that youâre going to be a mother, dearie, youâll get over all these ideas of yours and settle down.â She felt that willy-nilly she was being initiated into the assembly of housekeepers; with the baby for hostage, she would never escape; presently she would be drinking coffee and rocking and talking about diapers.
âI could stand fighting them. Iâm used to that. But this being taken in, being taken as a matter of course, I canât stand itâ âand I must stand it!â
She alternately detested herself for not appreciating the kindly women, and detested them for their advice: lugubrious hints as to how much she would suffer in labor, details of baby-hygiene based on long experience and total misunderstanding, superstitious cautions about the things she must eat and read and look at in prenatal care for the babyâs soul, and always a pest of simpering babytalk. Mrs. Champ Perry bustled in to lend Ben Hur, as a preventive of future infant immorality. The Widow Bogart appeared trailing pinkish exclamations, âAnd how is our lovely âittle muzzy today! My, ainât it just like they always say: being in a Family Way does make the girlie so lovely, just like a Madonna. Tell meâ ââ Her whisper was tinged with salaciousnessâ ââdoes oo feel the dear itsy one stirring, the pledge of love? I remember with Cy, of course he was so bigâ ââ
âI do not look lovely, Mrs. Bogart. My complexion is rotten, and my hair is coming out, and I look like a potato-bag, and I think my arches are falling, and he isnât a pledge of love, and Iâm afraid he will look like us, and I donât believe in mother-devotion, and the whole business is a confounded nuisance of a biological process,â remarked Carol.
Then the baby was born, without unusual difficulty: a boy with straight back and strong legs. The first day she hated him for the tides of pain and hopeless fear he had caused; she resented his raw ugliness. After that she loved him with all the devotion and instinct at which she had scoffed. She marveled at the perfection of the miniature hands as noisily as did Kennicott, she was overwhelmed by the trust with which the baby turned to her; passion for him grew with each unpoetic irritating thing she had to do for him.
He was named Hugh, for her father.
Hugh developed into a thin healthy child with a large head and straight delicate hair of a faint brown. He was thoughtful and casualâ âa Kennicott.
For two years nothing else existed. She did not, as the cynical matrons had prophesied, âgive up worrying about the world and other folksâ babies soon as she got one of her own to fight for.â The barbarity of that willingness to sacrifice other children so that one child might have too much was impossible to her. But she would sacrifice herself. She understood consecrationâ âshe who answered Kennicottâs hints about having Hugh christened: âI refuse to insult my baby and myself by asking an ignorant young man in a frock coat to sanction him, to permit me to have him! I refuse to subject him to any devil-chasing rites! If I didnât give my babyâ âmy babyâ âenough sanctification in those nine hours of hell, then he canât get any more out of the Reverend Mr. Zitterel!â
âWell, Baptists hardly ever christen kids. I was kind of thinking more about Reverend Warren,â said Kennicott.
Hugh was her reason for living, promise of accomplishment in the future, shrine of adorationâ âand a diverting toy. âI thought Iâd be a dilettante mother, but Iâm as dismayingly natural as Mrs. Bogart,â she boasted.
For twoâ âyears Carol was a part of the town; as much one of Our Young Mothers as Mrs. McGanum. Her opinionation seemed dead; she had no apparent desire for escape; her brooding centered on Hugh. While she wondered at the pearl texture of his ear she exulted, âI feel like an old woman, with a skin like sandpaper, beside him, and Iâm glad of it! He is perfect. He shall have everything. He shanât always stay here in Gopher Prairie.â ââ ⌠I wonder which is really the best, Harvard or Yale or Oxford?â
II
The people who hemmed her in had been brilliantly reinforced by Mr. and Mrs. Whittier N. Smailâ âKennicottâs Uncle Whittier and Aunt Bessie.
The true Main Streetite defines a relative as a person to whose house you go uninvited, to stay as long as you like. If you hear that Lym Cass on his journey East has spent all his time âvisitingâ in Oyster Center, it does not mean that he prefers that village to the rest of New England, but that he has relatives there. It does not mean that he has written to the relatives these many years, nor that they have ever given signs of a desire to look upon him. But âyou wouldnât expect a man to go and spend good money at a hotel in Boston, when his own third cousins live right in the same state, would you?â
When the Smails sold their creamery in North Dakota they visited Mr. Smailâs sister, Kennicottâs mother, at Lac-qui-Meurt, then plodded on to Gopher Prairie to stay with their nephew. They appeared unannounced, before the baby was born, took their welcome for granted, and immediately began to complain of the fact that their room faced north.
Uncle Whittier and Aunt Bessie assumed that it was their privilege as relatives to laugh at Carol, and their duty as Christians to let her know how absurd her ânotionsâ were. They objected to the food, to Oscarinaâs lack of friendliness, to the wind, the rain, and the immodesty of Carolâs maternity gowns. They were strong and enduring; for an hour at a time they could go on heaving questions about her fatherâs income, about her theology, and about the reason why she had not put on her rubbers when she had gone across the street. For fussy discussion they had a rich, full genius, and their example developed in Kennicott a tendency to the same form of affectionate flaying.
If Carol was so indiscreet as to murmur that she had a small headache, instantly the two Smails and Kennicott were at it. Every five minutes, every time she sat down or rose or spoke to Oscarina, they twanged, âIs your head better now? Where does it hurt? Donât you keep hartshorn in the house? Didnât you walk too far today? Have you tried hartshorn? Donât you keep some in the house so it will be handy? Does it feel better now? How does it feel? Do your eyes hurt, too? What time do you usually get to bed? As late as that? Well! How does it feel now?â
In her presence Uncle Whittier snorted at Kennicott, âCarol get these headaches often? Huh? Be better for her if she didnât go gadding around to all these bridge-whist parties, and took some care of herself once in a while!â
They kept it up, commenting, questioning, commenting, questioning, till her determination broke and she bleated, âFor heavenâs sake, donât dis-cuss it! My headâs all right!â
She listened to the Smails and Kennicott trying to determine by dialectics whether the copy of the Dauntless, which Aunt Bessie wanted to send to her sister in Alberta, ought to have two or four cents postage on it. Carol would have taken it to the drug store and weighed it, but then she was a dreamer, while they were practical people (as they frequently admitted). So they sought to evolve the postal rate from their inner consciousnesses, which, combined with entire frankness in thinking aloud, was their method of settling all problems.
The Smails did not âbelieve in all this nonsenseâ about privacy and reticence. When Carol left a letter from her sister on the table, she was astounded to hear from Uncle Whittier, âI see your sister says her husband is doing fine. You ought to go see her oftener. I asked Will and he says you donât go see her very often. My! You ought to go see her oftener!â
If Carol was writing a letter to a classmate, or planning the weekâs menus, she could be certain that Aunt Bessie would pop in and titter, âNow donât let me disturb you, I just wanted to see where you were, donât stop, Iâm not going to stay only a second. I just wondered if you could possibly have thought that I didnât eat the onions this noon because I didnât think they were properly cooked, but that wasnât the reason at all, it wasnât because I didnât think they were well cooked, Iâm sure that everything in your house is always very dainty and nice, though I do think that Oscarina is careless about some things, she doesnât appreciate the big wages you pay her, and she is so cranky, all these Swedes are so cranky, I donât really see why you have a Swede, butâ âBut that wasnât it, I didnât eat them not because I didnât think they werenât cooked proper, it was justâ âI find that onions donât agree with me, itâs very strange, ever since I had an attack of biliousness one time, I have found that onions, either fried onions or raw ones, and Whittier does love raw onions with vinegar and sugar on themâ ââ
It was pure affection.
Carol was discovering that the one thing that can be more disconcerting than intelligent hatred is demanding love.
She supposed that she was being gracefully dull and standardized in the Smailsâ presence, but they scented the heretic, and with forward-stooping delight they sat and tried to drag out her ludicrous concepts for their amusement. They were like the Sunday-afternoon mob starting at monkeys in the zoo, poking fingers and making faces and giggling at the resentment of the more dignified race.
With a loose-lipped, superior, village smile Uncle Whittier hinted, âWhatâs this I hear about your thinking Gopher Prairie ought to be all tore down and rebuilt, Carrie? I donât know where folks get these newfangled ideas. Lots of farmers in Dakota getting âem these days. About cooperation. Think they can run stores better ân storekeepers! Huh!â
âWhit and I didnât need no cooperation as long as we was farming!â triumphed Aunt Bessie. âCarrie, tell your old auntie now: donât you ever go to church on Sunday? You do go sometimes? But you ought to go every Sunday! When youâre as old as I am, youâll learn that no matter how smart folks think they are, God knows a whole lot more than they do, and then youâll realize and be glad to go and listen to your pastor!â
In the manner of one who has just beheld a two-headed calf they repeated that they had ânever heard such funny ideas!â They were staggered to learn that a real tangible person, living in Minnesota, and married to their own flesh-and-blood relation, could apparently believe that divorce may not always be immoral; that illegitimate children do not bear any special and guaranteed form of curse; that there are ethical authorities outside of the Hebrew Bible; that men have drunk wine yet not died in the gutter; that the capitalistic system of distribution and the Baptist wedding-ceremony were not known in the Garden of Eden; that mushrooms are as edible as corn-beef hash; that the word âdudeâ is no longer frequently used; that there are Ministers of the Gospel who accept evolution; that some persons of apparent intelligence and business ability do not always vote the Republican ticket straight; that it is not a universal custom to wear scratchy flannels next the skin in winter; that a violin is not inherently more immoral than a chapel organ; that some poets do not have long hair; and that Jews are not always peddlers or pants-makers.
âWhere does she get all them theâries?â marveled Uncle Whittier Smail; while Aunt Bessie inquired, âDo you suppose thereâs many folks got notions like hers? My! If there are,â and her tone settled the fact that there were not, âI just donât know what the worldâs coming to!â
Patientlyâ âmore or lessâ âCarol awaited the exquisite day when they would announce departure. After three weeks Uncle Whittier remarked, âWe kinda like Gopher Prairie. Guess maybe weâll stay here. Weâd been wondering what weâd do, now weâve sold the creamery and my farms. So I had a talk with Ole Jenson about his grocery, and I guess Iâll buy him out and storekeep for a while.â
He did.
Carol rebelled. Kennicott soothed her: âOh, we wonât see much of them. Theyâll have their own house.â
She resolved to be so chilly that they would stay away. But she had no talent for conscious insolence. They found a house, but Carol was never safe from their appearance with a hearty, âThought weâd drop in this evening and keep you from being lonely. Why, you ainât had them curtains washed yet!â Invariably, whenever she was touched by the realization that it was they who were lonely, they wrecked her pitying affection by commentsâ âquestionsâ âcommentsâ âadvice.
They immediately became friendly with all of their own race, with the Luke Dawsons, the Deacon Piersons, and Mrs. Bogart; and brought them along in the evening. Aunt Bessie was a bridge over whom the older women, bearing gifts of counsel and the ignorance of experience, poured into Carolâs island of reserve. Aunt Bessie urged the good Widow Bogart, âDrop in and see Carrie real often. Young folks today donât understand housekeeping like we do.â
Mrs. Bogart showed herself perfectly willing to be an associate relative.
Carol was thinking up protective insults when Kennicottâs mother came down to stay with Brother Whittier for two months. Carol was fond of Mrs. Kennicott. She could not carry out her insults.
She felt trapped.
She had been kidnaped by the town. She was Aunt Bessieâs niece, and she was to be a mother. She was expected, she almost expected herself, to sit forever talking of babies, cooks, embroidery stitches, the price of potatoes, and the tastes of husbands in the matter of spinach.
She found a refuge in the Jolly Seventeen. She suddenly understood that they could be depended upon to laugh with her at Mrs. Bogart, and she now saw Juanita Haydockâs gossip not as vulgarity but as gaiety and remarkable analysis.
Her life had changed, even before Hugh appeared. She looked forward to the next bridge of the Jolly Seventeen, and the security of whispering with her dear friends Maud Dyer and Juanita and Mrs. McGanum.
She was part of the town. Its philosophy and its feuds dominated her.
III
She was no longer irritated by the cooing of the matrons, nor by their opinion that diet didnât matter so long as the Little Ones had plenty of lace and moist kisses, but she concluded that in the care of babies as in politics, intelligence was superior to quotations about pansies. She liked best to talk about Hugh to Kennicott, Vida, and the Bjornstams. She was happily domestic when Kennicott sat by her on the floor, to watch baby make faces. She was delighted when Miles, speaking as one man to another, admonished Hugh, âI wouldnât stand them skirts if I was you. Come on. Join the union and strike. Make âem give you pants.â
As a parent, Kennicott was moved to establish the first child-welfare week held in Gopher Prairie. Carol helped him weigh babies and examine their throats, and she wrote out the diets for mute German and Scandinavian mothers.
The aristocracy of Gopher Prairie, even the wives of the rival doctors, took part, and for several days there was community spirit and much uplift. But this reign of love was overthrown when the prize for Best Baby was awarded not to decent parents but to Bea and Miles Bjornstam! The good matrons glared at Olaf Bjornstam, with his blue eyes, his honey-colored hair, and magnificent back, and they remarked, âWell, Mrs. Kennicott, maybe that Swede brat is as healthy as your husband says he is, but let me tell you I hate to think of the future that awaits any boy with a hired girl for a mother and an awful irreligious socialist for a pa!â
She raged, but so violent was the current of their respectability, so persistent was Aunt Bessie in running to her with their blabber, that she was embarrassed when she took Hugh to play with Olaf. She hated herself for it, but she hoped that no one saw her go into the Bjornstam shanty. She hated herself and the townâs indifferent cruelty when she saw Beaâs radiant devotion to both babies alike; when she saw Miles staring at them wistfully.
He had saved money, had quit Elderâs planing-mill and started a dairy on a vacant lot near his shack. He was proud of his three cows and sixty chickens, and got up nights to nurse them.
âIâll be a big farmer before you can bat an eye! I tell you that young fellow Olaf is going to go East to college along with the Haydock kids. Uhâ âLots of folks dropping in to chin with Bea and me now. Say! Ma Bogart come in one day! She wasâ âI liked the old lady fine. And the mill foreman comes in right along. Oh, we got lots of friends. You bet!â
IV
Though the town seemed to Carol to change no more than the surrounding fields, there was a constant shifting, these three years. The citizen of the prairie drifts always westward. It may be because he is the heir of ancient migrationsâ âand it may be because he finds within his own spirit so little adventure that he is driven to seek it by changing his horizon. The towns remain unvaried, yet the individual faces alter like classes in college. The Gopher Prairie jeweler sells out, for no discernible reason, and moves on to Alberta or the state of Washington, to open a shop precisely like his former one, in a town precisely like the one he has left. There is, except among professional men and the wealthy, small permanence either of residence or occupation. A man becomes farmer, grocer, town policeman, garageman, restaurant-owner, postmaster, insurance-agent, and farmer all over again, and the community more or less patiently suffers from his lack of knowledge in each of his experiments.
Ole Jenson the grocer and Dahl the butcher moved on to South Dakota and Idaho. Luke and Mrs. Dawson picked up ten thousand acres of prairie soil, in the magic portable form of a small check book, and went to Pasadena, to a bungalow and sunshine and cafeterias. Chet Dashaway sold his furniture and undertaking business and wandered to Los Angeles, where, the Dauntless reported, âOur good friend Chester has accepted a fine position with a real-estate firm, and his wife has in the charming social circles of the Queen City of the Southwestland that same popularity which she enjoyed in our own society sets.â
Rita Simons was married to Terry Gould, and rivaled Juanita Haydock as the gayest of the Young Married Set. But Juanita also acquired merit. Harryâs father died, Harry became senior partner in the Bon Ton Store, and Juanita was more acidulous and shrewd and cackling than ever. She bought an evening frock, and exposed her collarbone to the wonder of the Jolly Seventeen, and talked of moving to Minneapolis.
To defend her position against the new Mrs. Terry Gould she sought to attach Carol to her faction by giggling that âsome folks might call Rita innocent, but Iâve got a hunch that she isnât half as ignorant of things as brides are supposed to beâ âand of course Terry isnât one-two-three as a doctor alongside of your husband.â
Carol herself would gladly have followed Mr. Ole Jenson, and migrated even to another Main Street; flight from familiar tedium to new tedium would have for a time the outer look and promise of adventure. She hinted to Kennicott of the probable medical advantages of Montana and Oregon. She knew that he was satisfied with Gopher Prairie, but it gave her vicarious hope to think of going, to ask for railroad folders at the station, to trace the maps with a restless forefinger.
Yet to the casual eye she was not discontented, she was not an abnormal and distressing traitor to the faith of Main Street.
The settled citizen believes that the rebel is constantly in a stew of complaining and, hearing of a Carol Kennicott, he gasps, âWhat an awful person! She must be a Holy Terror to live with! Glad my folks are satisfied with things way they are!â Actually, it was not so much as five minutes a day that Carol devoted to lonely desires. It is probable that the agitated citizen has within his circle at least one inarticulate rebel with aspirations as wayward as Carolâs.
The presence of the baby had made her take Gopher Prairie and the brown house seriously, as natural places of residence. She pleased Kennicott by being friendly with the complacent maturity of Mrs. Clark and Mrs. Elder, and when she had often enough been in conference upon the Eldersâ new Cadillac car, or the job which the oldest Clark boy had taken in the office of the flour-mill, these topics became important, things to follow up day by day.
With nine-tenths of her emotion concentrated upon Hugh, she did not criticize shops, streets, acquaintancesâ ââ ⌠this year or two. She hurried to Uncle Whittierâs store for a package of corn-flakes, she abstractedly listened to Uncle Whittierâs denunciation of Martin Mahoney for asserting that the wind last Tuesday had been south and not southwest, she came back along streets that held no surprises nor the startling faces of strangers. Thinking of Hughâs teething all the way, she did not reflect that this store, these drab blocks, made up all her background. She did her work, and she triumphed over winning from the Clarks at five hundred.
The most considerable event of the two years after the birth of Hugh occurred when Vida Sherwin resigned from the high school and was married. Carol was her attendant, and as the wedding was at the Episcopal Church, all the women wore new kid slippers and long white kid gloves, and looked refined.
For years Carol had been little sister to Vida, and had never in the least known to what degree Vida loved her and hated her and in curious strained ways was bound to her.
XXI
I
Gray steel that seems unmoving because it spins so fast in the balanced flywheel, gray snow in an avenue of elms, gray dawn with the sun behind itâ âthis was the gray of Vida Sherwinâs life at thirty-six.
She was small and active and sallow; her yellow hair was faded, and looked dry; her blue silk blouses and modest lace collars and high black shoes and sailor hats were as literal and uncharming as a schoolroom desk; but her eyes determined her appearance, revealed her as a personage and a force, indicated her faith in the goodness and purpose of everything. They were blue, and they were never still; they expressed amusement, pity, enthusiasm. If she had been seen in sleep, with the wrinkles beside her eyes stilled and the creased lids hiding the radiant irises, she would have lost her potency.
She was born in a hill-smothered Wisconsin village where her father was a prosy minister; she labored through a sanctimonious college; she taught for two years in an iron-range town of blurry-faced Tatars and Montenegrins, and wastes of ore, and when she came to Gopher Prairie, its trees and the shining spaciousness of the wheat prairie made her certain that she was in paradise.
She admitted to her fellow-teachers that the schoolbuilding was slightly damp, but she insisted that the rooms were âarranged so convenientlyâ âand then that bust of President McKinley at the head of the stairs, itâs a lovely artwork, and isnât it an inspiration to have the brave, honest, martyr president to think about!â She taught French, English, and history, and the Sophomore Latin class, which dealt in matters of a metaphysical nature called Indirect Discourse and the Ablative Absolute. Each year she was reconvinced that the pupils were beginning to learn more quickly. She spent four winters in building up the Debating Society, and when the debate really was lively one Friday afternoon, and the speakers of pieces did not forget their lines, she felt rewarded.
She lived an engrossed useful life, and seemed as cool and simple as an apple. But secretly she was creeping among fears, longing, and guilt. She knew what it was, but she dared not name it. She hated even the sound of the word âsex.â When she dreamed of being a woman of the harem, with great white warm limbs, she awoke to shudder, defenseless in the dusk of her room. She prayed to Jesus, always to the Son of God, offering him the terrible power of her adoration, addressing him as the eternal lover, growing passionate, exalted, large, as she contemplated his splendor. Thus she mounted to endurance and surcease.
By day, rattling about in many activities, she was able to ridicule her blazing nights of darkness. With spurious cheerfulness she announced everywhere, âI guess Iâm a born spinster,â and âNo one will ever marry a plain schoolmaâam like me,â and âYou men, great big noisy bothersome creatures, we women wouldnât have you round the place, dirtying up nice clean rooms, if it wasnât that you have to be petted and guided. We just ought to say âScat!â to all of you!â
But when a man held her close at a dance, even when âProfessorâ George Edwin Mott patted her hand paternally as they considered the naughtinesses of Cy Bogart, she quivered, and reflected how superior she was to have kept her virginity.
In the autumn of 1911, a year before Dr. Will Kennicott was married, Vida was his partner at a five-hundred tournament. She was thirty-four then; Kennicott about thirty-six. To her he was a superb, boyish, diverting creature; all the heroic qualities in a manly magnificent body. They had been helping the hostess to serve the Waldorf salad and coffee and gingerbread. They were in the kitchen, side by side on a bench, while the others ponderously supped in the room beyond.
Kennicott was masculine and experimental. He stroked Vidaâs hand, he put his arm carelessly about her shoulder.
âDonât!â she said sharply.
âYouâre a cunning thing,â he offered, patting the back of her shoulder in an exploratory manner.
While she strained away, she longed to move nearer to him. He bent over, looked at her knowingly. She glanced down at his left hand as it touched her knee. She sprang up, started noisily and needlessly to wash the dishes. He helped her. He was too lazy to adventure furtherâ âand too used to women in his profession. She was grateful for the impersonality of his talk. It enabled her to gain control. She knew that she had skirted wild thoughts.
A month after, on a sleighing-party, under the buffalo robes in the bobsled, he whispered, âYou pretend to be a grown-up schoolteacher, but youâre nothing but a kiddie.â His arm was about her. She resisted.
âDonât you like the poor lonely bachelor?â he yammered in a fatuous way.
âNo, I donât! You donât care for me in the least. Youâre just practising on me.â
âYouâre so mean! Iâm terribly fond of you.â
âIâm not of you. And Iâm not going to let myself be fond of you, either.â
He persistently drew her toward him. She clutched his arm. Then she threw off the robe, climbed out of the sled, raced after it with Harry Haydock. At the dance which followed the sleigh-ride Kennicott was devoted to the watery prettiness of Maud Dyer, and Vida was noisily interested in getting up a Virginia Reel. Without seeming to watch Kennicott, she knew that he did not once look at her.
That was all of her first love-affair.
He gave no sign of remembering that he was âterribly fond.â She waited for him; she reveled in longing, and in a sense of guilt because she longed. She told herself that she did not want part of him; unless he gave her all his devotion she would never let him touch her; and when she found that she was probably lying, she burned with scorn. She fought it out in prayer. She knelt in a pink flannel nightgown, her thin hair down her back, her forehead as full of horror as a mask of tragedy, while she identified her love for the Son of God with her love for a mortal, and wondered if any other woman had ever been so sacrilegious. She wanted to be a nun and observe perpetual adoration. She bought a rosary, but she had been so bitterly reared as a Protestant that she could not bring herself to use it.
Yet none of her intimates in the school and in the boardinghouse knew of her abyss of passion. They said she was âso optimistic.â
When she heard that Kennicott was to marry a girl, pretty, young, and imposingly from the Cities, Vida despaired. She congratulated Kennicott; carelessly ascertained from him the hour of marriage. At that hour, sitting in her room, Vida pictured the wedding in St. Paul. Full of an ecstasy which horrified her, she followed Kennicott and the girl who had stolen her place, followed them to the train, through the evening, the night.
She was relieved when she had worked out a belief that she wasnât really shameful, that there was a mystical relation between herself and Carol, so that she was vicariously yet veritably with Kennicott, and had the right to be.
She saw Carol during the first five minutes in Gopher Prairie. She stared at the passing motor, at Kennicott and the girl beside him. In that fog world of transference of emotion Vida had no normal jealousy but a conviction that, since through Carol she had received Kennicottâs love, then Carol was a part of her, an astral self, a heightened and more beloved self. She was glad of the girlâs charm, of the smooth black hair, the airy head and young shoulders. But she was suddenly angry. Carol glanced at her for a quarter-second, but looked past her, at an old roadside barn. If she had made the great sacrifice, at least she expected gratitude and recognition, Vida raged, while her conscious schoolroom mind fussily begged her to control this insanity.
During her first call half of her wanted to welcome a fellow reader of books; the other half itched to find out whether Carol knew anything about Kennicottâs former interest in herself. She discovered that Carol was not aware that he had ever touched another womanâs hand. Carol was an amusing, naive, curiously learned child. While Vida was most actively describing the glories of the Thanatopsis, and complimenting this librarian on her training as a worker, she was fancying that this girl was the child born of herself and Kennicott; and out of that symbolizing she had a comfort she had not known for months.
When she came home, after supper with the Kennicotts and Guy Pollock, she had a sudden and rather pleasant backsliding from devotion. She bustled into her room, she slammed her hat on the bed, and chattered, âI donât care! Iâm a lot like herâ âexcept a few years older. Iâm light and quick, too, and I can talk just as well as she can, and Iâm sureâ âMen are such fools. Iâd be ten times as sweet to make love to as that dreamy baby. And I am as good-looking!â
But as she sat on the bed and stared at her thin thighs, defiance oozed away. She mourned:
âNo. Iâm not. Dear God, how we fool ourselves! I pretend Iâm âspiritual.â I pretend my legs are graceful. They arenât. Theyâre skinny. Old-maidish. I hate it! I hate that impertinent young woman! A selfish cat, taking his love for granted.â ââ ⌠No, sheâs adorable.â ââ ⌠I donât think she ought to be so friendly with Guy Pollock.â
For a year Vida loved Carol, longed to and did not pry into the details of her relations with Kennicott, enjoyed her spirit of play as expressed in childish tea-parties, and, with the mystic bond between them forgotten, was healthily vexed by Carolâs assumption that she was a sociological messiah come to save Gopher Prairie. This last facet of Vidaâs thought was the one which, after a year, was most often turned to the light. In a testy way she brooded, âThese people that want to change everything all of a sudden without doing any work, make me tired! Here I have to go and work for four years, picking out the pupils for debates, and drilling them, and nagging at them to get them to look up references, and begging them to choose their own subjectsâ âfour years, to get up a couple of good debates! And she comes rushing in, and expects in one year to change the whole town into a lollypop paradise with everybody stopping everything else to grow tulips and drink tea. And itâs a comfy homey old town, too!â
She had such an outburst after each of Carolâs campaignsâ âfor better Thanatopsis programs, for Shavian plays, for more human schoolsâ âbut she never betrayed herself, and always she was penitent.
Vida was, and always would be, a reformer, a liberal. She believed that details could excitingly be altered, but that things-in-general were comely and kind and immutable. Carol was, without understanding or accepting it, a revolutionist, a radical, and therefore possessed of âconstructive ideas,â which only the destroyer can have, since the reformer believes that all the essential constructing has already been done. After years of intimacy it was this unexpressed opposition more than the fancied loss of Kennicottâs love which held Vida irritably fascinated.
But the birth of Hugh revived the transcendental emotion. She was indignant that Carol should not be utterly fulfilled in having borne Kennicottâs child. She admitted that Carol seemed to have affection and immaculate care for the baby, but she began to identify herself now with Kennicott, and in this phase to feel that she had endured quite too much from Carolâs instability.
She recalled certain other women who had come from the Outside and had not appreciated Gopher Prairie. She remembered the rectorâs wife who had been chilly to callers and who was rumored throughout the town to have said, âRe-ah-ly I cawnât endure this bucolic heartiness in the responses.â The woman was positively known to have worn handkerchiefs in her bodice as paddingâ âoh, the town had simply roared at her. Of course the rector and she were got rid of in a few months.
Then there was the mysterious woman with the dyed hair and penciled eyebrows, who wore tight English dresses, like basques, who smelled of stale musk, who flirted with the men and got them to advance money for her expenses in a lawsuit, who laughed at Vidaâs reading at a school-entertainment, and went off owing a hotel-bill and the three hundred dollars she had borrowed.
Vida insisted that she loved Carol, but with some satisfaction she compared her to these traducers of the town.
II
Vida had enjoyed Raymie Wutherspoonâs singing in the Episcopal choir; she had thoroughly reviewed the weather with him at Methodist sociables and in the Bon Ton. But she did not really know him till she moved to Mrs. Gurreyâs boardinghouse. It was five years after her affair with Kennicott. She was thirty-nine, Raymie perhaps a year younger.
She said to him, and sincerely, âMy! You can do anything, with your brains and tact and that heavenly voice. You were so good in The Girl from Kankakee. You made me feel terribly stupid. If youâd gone on the stage, I believe youâd be just as good as anybody in Minneapolis. But still, Iâm not sorry you stuck to business. Itâs such a constructive career.â
âDo you really think so?â yearned Raymie, across the applesauce.
It was the first time that either of them had found a dependable intellectual companionship. They looked down on Willis Woodford the bank-clerk, and his anxious babycentric wife, the silent Lyman Casses, the slangy traveling man, and the rest of Mrs. Gurreyâs unenlightened guests. They sat opposite, and they sat late. They were exhilarated to find that they agreed in confession of faith:
âPeople like Sam Clark and Harry Haydock arenât earnest about music and pictures and eloquent sermons and really refined movies, but then, on the other hand, people like Carol Kennicott put too much stress on all this art. Folks ought to appreciate lovely things, but just the same, they got to be practical andâ âthey got to look at things in a practical way.â
Smiling, passing each other the pressed-glass pickle-dish, seeing Mrs. Gurreyâs linty supper-cloth irradiated by the light of intimacy, Vida and Raymie talked about Carolâs rose-colored turban, Carolâs sweetness, Carolâs new low shoes, Carolâs erroneous theory that there was no need of strict discipline in school, Carolâs amiability in the Bon Ton, Carolâs flow of wild ideas, which, honestly, just simply made you nervous trying to keep track of them.
About the lovely display of gentsâ shirts in the Bon Ton window as dressed by Raymie, about Raymieâs offertory last Sunday, the fact that there werenât any of these new solos as nice as âJerusalem the Golden,â and the way Raymie stood up to Juanita Haydock when she came into the store and tried to run things and he as much as told her that she was so anxious to have folks think she was smart and bright that she said things she didnât mean, and anyway, Raymie was running the shoe department, and if Juanita, or Harry either, didnât like the way he ran things, they could go get another man.
About Vidaâs new jabot which made her look thirty-two (Vidaâs estimate) or twenty-two (Raymieâs estimate), Vidaâs plan to have the high-school Debating Society give a playlet, and the difficulty of keeping the younger boys well behaved on the playground when a big lubber like Cy Bogart acted up so.
About the picture postcard which Mrs. Dawson had sent to Mrs. Cass from Pasadena, showing roses growing right outdoors in February, the change in time on No. 4, the reckless way Dr. Gould always drove his auto, the reckless way almost all these people drove their autos, the fallacy of supposing that these socialists could carry on a government for as much as six months if they ever did have a chance to try out their theories, and the crazy way in which Carol jumped from subject to subject.
Vida had once beheld Raymie as a thin man with spectacles, mournful drawn-out face, and colorless stiff hair. Now she noted that his jaw was square, that his long hands moved quickly and were bleached in a refined manner, and that his trusting eyes indicated that he had âled a clean life.â She began to call him âRay,â and to bounce in defense of his unselfishness and thoughtfulness every time Juanita Haydock or Rita Gould giggled about him at the Jolly Seventeen.
On a Sunday afternoon of late autumn they walked down to Lake Minniemashie. Ray said that he would like to see the ocean; it must be a grand sight; it must be much grander than a lake, even a great big lake. Vida had seen it, she stated modestly; she had seen it on a summer trip to Cape Cod.
âHave you been clear to Cape Cod? Massachusetts? I knew youâd traveled, but I never realized youâd been that far!â
Made taller and younger by his interest she poured out, âOh my yes. It was a wonderful trip. So many points of interest through Massachusettsâ âhistorical. Thereâs Lexington where we turned back the redcoats, and Longfellowâs home at Cambridge, and Cape Codâ âjust everythingâ âfishermen and whale-ships and sand-dunes and everything.â
She wished that she had a little cane to carry. He broke off a willow branch.
âMy, youâre strong!â she said.
âNo, not very. I wish there was a Y.M.C.A. here, so I could take up regular exercise. I used to think I could do pretty good acrobatics, if I had a chance.â
âIâm sure you could. Youâre unusually lithe, for a large man.â
âOh no, not so very. But I wish we had a Y.M. It would be dandy to have lectures and everything, and Iâd like to take a class in improving the memoryâ âI believe a fellow ought to go on educating himself and improving his mind even if he is in business, donât you, Vidaâ âI guess Iâm kind of fresh to call you âVidaâ!â
âIâve been calling you âRayâ for weeks!â
He wondered why she sounded tart.
He helped her down the bank to the edge of the lake but dropped her hand abruptly, and as they sat on a willow log and he brushed her sleeve, he delicately moved over and murmured, âOh, excuse meâ âaccident.â
She stared at the mud-browned chilly water, the floating gray reeds.
âYou look so thoughtful,â he said.
She threw out her hands. âI am! Will you kindly tell me whatâs the use ofâ âanything! Oh, donât mind me. Iâm a moody old hen. Tell me about your plan for getting a partnership in the Bon Ton. I do think youâre right: Harry Haydock and that mean old Simons ought to give you one.â
He hymned the old unhappy wars in which he had been Achilles and the mellifluous Nestor, yet gone his righteous ways unheeded by the cruel kings.â ââ ⌠âWhy, if Iâve told âem once, Iâve told âem a dozen times to get in a sideline of lightweight pants for gentsâ summer wear, and of course here they go and let a cheap kike like Rifkin beat them to it and grab the trade right off âem, and then Harry saidâ âyou know how Harry is, maybe he donât mean to be grouchy, but heâs such a soreheadâ ââ
He gave her a hand to rise. âIf you donât mind. I think a fellow is awful if a lady goes on a walk with him and she canât trust him and he tries to flirt with her and all.â
âIâm sure youâre highly trustworthy!â she snapped, and she sprang up without his aid. Then, smiling excessively, âUhâ âdonât you think Carol sometimes fails to appreciate Dr. Willâs ability?â
III
Ray habitually asked her about his window-trimming, the display of the new shoes, the best music for the entertainment at the Eastern Star, and (though he was recognized as a professional authority on what the town called âgentsâ furnishingsâ) about his own clothes. She persuaded him not to wear the small bow ties which made him look like an elongated Sunday School scholar. Once she burst out:
âRay, I could shake you! Do you know youâre too apologetic? You always appreciate other people too much. You fuss over Carol Kennicott when she has some crazy theory that we all ought to turn anarchists or live on figs and nuts or something. And you listen when Harry Haydock tries to show off and talk about turnovers and credits and things you know lots better than he does. Look folks in the eye! Glare at âem! Talk deep! Youâre the smartest man in town, if you only knew it. You are!â
He could not believe it. He kept coming back to her for confirmation. He practised glaring and talking deep, but he circuitously hinted to Vida that when he had tried to look Harry Haydock in the eye, Harry had inquired, âWhatâs the matter with you, Raymie? Got a pain?â But afterward Harry had asked about Kantbeatum socks in a manner which, Ray felt, was somehow different from his former condescension.
They were sitting on the squat yellow satin settee in the boardinghouse parlor. As Ray reannounced that he simply wouldnât stand it many more years if Harry didnât give him a partnership, his gesticulating hand touched Vidaâs shoulders.
âOh, excuse me!â he pleaded.
âItâs all right. Well, I think I must be running up to my room. Headache,â she said briefly.
IV
Ray and she had stopped in at Dyerâs for a hot chocolate on their way home from the movies, that March evening. Vida speculated, âDo you know that I may not be here next year?â
âWhat do you mean?â
With her fragile narrow nails she smoothed the glass slab which formed the top of the round table at which they sat. She peeped through the glass at the perfume-boxes of black and gold and citron in the hollow table. She looked about at shelves of red rubber water-bottles, pale yellow sponges, washrags with blue borders, hairbrushes of polished cherry backs. She shook her head like a nervous medium coming out of a trance, stared at him unhappily, demanded:
âWhy should I stay here? And I must make up my mind. Now. Time to renew our teaching-contracts for next year. I think Iâll go teach in some other town. Everybody here is tired of me. I might as well go. Before folks come out and say theyâre tired of me. I have to decide tonight. I might as wellâ âOh, no matter. Come. Letâs skip. Itâs late.â
She sprang up, ignoring his wail of âVida! Wait! Sit down! Gosh! Iâm flabbergasted! Gee! Vida!â She marched out. While he was paying his check she got ahead. He ran after her, blubbering, âVida! Wait!â In the shade of the lilacs in front of the Gougerling house he came up with her, stayed her flight by a hand on her shoulder.
âOh, donât! Donât! What does it matter?â she begged. She was sobbing, her soft wrinkly lids soaked with tears. âWho cares for my affection or help? I might as well drift on, forgotten. O Ray, please donât hold me. Let me go. Iâll just decide not to renew my contract here, andâ âand driftâ âway offâ ââ
His hand was steady on her shoulder. She dropped her head, rubbed the back of his hand with her cheek.
They were married in June.
V
They took the Ole Jenson house. âItâs small,â said Vida, âbut itâs got the dearest vegetable garden, and I love having time to get near to Nature for once.â
Though she became Vida Wutherspoon technically, and though she certainly had no ideals about the independence of keeping her name, she continued to be known as Vida Sherwin.
She had resigned from the school, but she kept up one class in English. She bustled about on every committee of the Thanatopsis; she was always popping into the restroom to make Mrs. Nodelquist sweep the floor; she was appointed to the library-board to succeed Carol; she taught the senior Girlsâ Class in the Episcopal Sunday School, and tried to revive the Kingâs Daughters. She exploded into self-confidence and happiness; her draining thoughts were by marriage turned into energy. She became daily and visibly more plump, and though she chattered as eagerly, she was less obviously admiring of marital bliss, less sentimental about babies, sharper in demanding that the entire town share her reformsâ âthe purchase of a park, the compulsory cleaning of backyards.
She penned Harry Haydock at his desk in the Bon Ton; she interrupted his joking; she told him that it was Ray who had built up the shoe department and menâs department; she demanded that he be made a partner. Before Harry could answer she threatened that Ray and she would start a rival shop. âIâll clerk behind the counter myself, and a Certain Party is all ready to put up the money.â
She rather wondered who the Certain Party was.
Ray was made a one-sixth partner.
He became a glorified floorwalker, greeting the men with new poise, no longer coyly subservient to pretty women. When he was not affectionately coercing people into buying things they did not need, he stood at the back of the store, glowing, abstracted, feeling masculine as he recalled the tempestuous surprises of love revealed by Vida.
The only remnant of Vidaâs identification of herself with Carol was a jealousy when she saw Kennicott and Ray together, and reflected that some people might suppose that Kennicott was his superior. She was sure that Carol thought so, and she wanted to shriek, âYou neednât try to gloat! I wouldnât have your pokey old husband. He hasnât one single bit of Rayâs spiritual nobility.â
XXII
I
The greatest mystery about a human being is not his reaction to sex or praise, but the manner in which he contrives to put in twenty-four hours a day. It is this which puzzles the longshoreman about the clerk, the Londoner about the bushman. It was this which puzzled Carol in regard to the married Vida. Carol herself had the baby, a larger house to care for, all the telephone calls for Kennicott when he was away; and she read everything, while Vida was satisfied with newspaper headlines.
But after detached brown years in boardinghouses, Vida was hungry for housework, for the most pottering detail of it. She had no maid, nor wanted one. She cooked, baked, swept, washed supper-cloths, with the triumph of a chemist in a new laboratory. To her the hearth was veritably the altar. When she went shopping she hugged the cans of soup, and she bought a mop or a side of bacon as though she were preparing for a reception. She knelt beside a bean sprout and crooned, âI raised this with my own handsâ âI brought this new life into the world.â
âI love her for being so happy,â Carol brooded. âI ought to be that way. I worship the baby, but the houseworkâ âOh, I suppose Iâm fortunate; so much better off than farm-women on a new clearing, or people in a slum.â
It has not yet been recorded that any human being has gained a very large or permanent contentment from meditation upon the fact that he is better off than others.
In Carolâs own twenty-four hours a day she got up, dressed the baby, had breakfast, talked to Oscarina about the dayâs shopping, put the baby on the porch to play, went to the butcherâs to choose between steak and pork chops, bathed the baby, nailed up a shelf, had dinner, put the baby to bed for a nap, paid the iceman, read for an hour, took the baby out for a walk, called on Vida, had supper, put the baby to bed, darned socks, listened to Kennicottâs yawning comment on what a fool Dr. McGanum was to try to use that cheap X-ray outfit of his on an epithelioma, repaired a frock, drowsily heard Kennicott stoke the furnace, tried to read a page of Thorstein Veblenâ âand the day was gone.
Except when Hugh was vigorously naughty, or whiney, or laughing, or saying âI like my chairâ with thrilling maturity, she was always enfeebled by loneliness. She no longer felt superior about that misfortune. She would gladly have been converted to Vidaâs satisfaction in Gopher Prairie and mopping the floor.
II
Carol drove through an astonishing number of books from the public library and from city shops. Kennicott was at first uncomfortable over her disconcerting habit of buying them. A book was a book, and if you had several thousand of them right here in the library, free, why the dickens should you spend your good money? After worrying about it for two or three years, he decided that this was one of the Funny Ideas which she had caught as a librarian and from which she would never entirely recover.
The authors whom she read were most of them frightfully annoyed by the Vida Sherwins. They were young American sociologists, young English realists, Russian horrorists; Anatole France, Rolland, Nexo, Wells, Shaw, Key, Edgar Lee Masters, Theodore Dreiser, Sherwood Anderson, Henry Mencken, and all the other subversive philosophers and artists whom women were consulting everywhere, in batik-curtained studios in New York, in Kansas farmhouses, San Francisco drawing-rooms, Alabama schools for negroes. From them she got the same confused desire which the million other women felt; the same determination to be class-conscious without discovering the class of which she was to be conscious.
Certainly her reading precipitated her observations of Main Street, of Gopher Prairie and of the several adjacent Gopher Prairies which she had seen on drives with Kennicott. In her fluid thought certain convictions appeared, jaggedly, a fragment of an impression at a time, while she was going to sleep, or manicuring her nails, or waiting for Kennicott.
These convictions she presented to Vida Sherwinâ âVida Wutherspoonâ âbeside a radiator, over a bowl of not very good walnuts and pecans from Uncle Whittierâs grocery, on an evening when both Kennicott and Raymie had gone out of town with the other officers of the Ancient and Affiliated Order of Spartans, to inaugurate a new chapter at Wakamin. Vida had come to the house for the night. She helped in putting Hugh to bed, sputtering the while about his soft skin. Then they talked till midnight.
What Carol said that evening, what she was passionately thinking, was also emerging in the minds of women in ten thousand Gopher Prairies. Her formulations were not pat solutions but visions of a tragic futility. She did not utter them so compactly that they can be given in her words; they were roughened with âWell, you seeâ and âif you get what I meanâ and âI donât know that Iâm making myself clear.â But they were definite enough, and indignant enough.
III
In reading popular stories and seeing plays, asserted Carol, she had found only two traditions of the American small town. The first tradition, repeated in scores of magazines every month, is that the American village remains the one sure abode of friendship, honesty, and clean sweet marriageable girls. Therefore all men who succeed in painting in Paris or in finance in New York at last become weary of smart women, return to their native towns, assert that cities are vicious, marry their childhood sweethearts and, presumably, joyously abide in those towns until death.
The other tradition is that the significant features of all villages are whiskers, iron dogs upon lawns, gold bricks, checkers, jars of gilded cattails, and shrewd comic old men who are known as âhicksâ and who ejaculate âWaal I swan.â This altogether admirable tradition rules the vaudeville stage, facetious illustrators, and syndicated newspaper humor, but out of actual life it passed forty years ago. Carolâs small town thinks not in hoss-swapping but in cheap motor cars, telephones, ready-made clothes, silos, alfalfa, kodaks, phonographs, leather-upholstered Morris chairs, bridge-prizes, oil-stocks, motion-pictures, land-deals, unread sets of Mark Twain, and a chaste version of national politics.
With such a small-town life a Kennicott or a Champ Perry is content, but there are also hundreds of thousands, particularly women and young men, who are not at all content. The more intelligent young people (and the fortunate widows!) flee to the cities with agility and, despite the fictional tradition, resolutely stay there, seldom returning even for holidays. The most protesting patriots of the towns leave them in old age, if they can afford it, and go to live in California or in the cities.
The reason, Carol insisted, is not a whiskered rusticity. It is nothing so amusing!
It is an unimaginatively standardized background, a sluggishness of speech and manners, a rigid ruling of the spirit by the desire to appear respectable. It is contentmentâ ââ ⌠the contentment of the quiet dead, who are scornful of the living for their restless walking. It is negation canonized as the one positive virtue. It is the prohibition of happiness. It is slavery self-sought and self-defended. It is dullness made God.
A savorless people, gulping tasteless food, and sitting afterward, coatless and thoughtless, in rocking-chairs prickly with inane decorations, listening to mechanical music, saying mechanical things about the excellence of Ford automobiles, and viewing themselves as the greatest race in the world.
IV
She had inquired as to the effect of this dominating dullness upon foreigners. She remembered the feeble exotic quality to be found in the first-generation Scandinavians; she recalled the Norwegian Fair at the Lutheran Church, to which Bea had taken her. There, in the bondestue, the replica of a Norse farm kitchen, pale women in scarlet jackets embroidered with gold thread and colored beads, in black skirts with a line of blue, green-striped aprons, and ridged caps very pretty to set off a fresh face, had served rommegrod og lefseâ âsweet cakes and sour milk pudding spiced with cinnamon. For the first time in Gopher Prairie Carol had found novelty. She had reveled in the mild foreignness of it.
But she saw these Scandinavian women zealously exchanging their spiced puddings and red jackets for fried pork chops and congealed white blouses, trading the ancient Christmas hymns of the fjords for âSheâs My Jazzland Cutie,â being Americanized into uniformity, and in less than a generation losing in the grayness whatever pleasant new customs they might have added to the life of the town. Their sons finished the process. In ready-made clothes and ready-made high-school phrases they sank into propriety, and the sound American customs had absorbed without one trace of pollution another alien invasion.
And along with these foreigners, she felt herself being ironed into glossy mediocrity, and she rebelled, in fear.
The respectability of the Gopher Prairies, said Carol, is reinforced by vows of poverty and chastity in the matter of knowledge. Except for half a dozen in each town the citizens are proud of that achievement of ignorance which it is so easy to come by. To be âintellectualâ or âartisticâ or, in their own word, to be âhighbrow,â is to be priggish and of dubious virtue.
Large experiments in politics and in cooperative distribution, ventures requiring knowledge, courage, and imagination, do originate in the West and Middlewest, but they are not of the towns, they are of the farmers. If these heresies are supported by the townsmen it is only by occasional teachers doctors, lawyers, the labor unions, and workmen like Miles Bjornstam, who are punished by being mocked as âcranks,â as âhalf-baked parlor socialists.â The editor and the rector preach at them. The cloud of serene ignorance submerges them in unhappiness and futility.
V
Here Vida observed, âYesâ âwellâ âDo you know, Iâve always thought that Ray would have made a wonderful rector. He has what I call an essentially religious soul. My! Heâd have read the service beautifully! I suppose itâs too late now, but as I tell him, he can also serve the world by selling shoes andâ âI wonder if we oughtnât to have family-prayers?â
VI
Doubtless all small towns, in all countries, in all ages, Carol admitted, have a tendency to be not only dull but mean, bitter, infested with curiosity. In France or Tibet quite as much as in Wyoming or Indiana these timidities are inherent in isolation.
But a village in a country which is taking pains to become altogether standardized and pure, which aspires to succeed Victorian England as the chief mediocrity of the world, is no longer merely provincial, no longer downy and restful in its leaf-shadowed ignorance. It is a force seeking to dominate the earth, to drain the hills and sea of color, to set Dante at boosting Gopher Prairie, and to dress the high gods in Klassy Kollege Klothes. Sure of itself, it bullies other civilizations, as a traveling salesman in a brown derby conquers the wisdom of China and tacks advertisements of cigarettes over arches for centuries dedicate to the sayings of Confucius.
Such a society functions admirably in the large production of cheap automobiles, dollar watches, and safety razors. But it is not satisfied until the entire world also admits that the end and joyous purpose of living is to ride in flivvers, to make advertising-pictures of dollar watches, and in the twilight to sit talking not of love and courage but of the convenience of safety razors.
And such a society, such a nation, is determined by the Gopher Prairies. The greatest manufacturer is but a busier Sam Clark, and all the rotund senators and presidents are village lawyers and bankers grown nine feet tall.
Though a Gopher Prairie regards itself as a part of the Great World, compares itself to Rome and Vienna, it will not acquire the scientific spirit, the international mind, which would make it great. It picks at information which will visibly procure money or social distinction. Its conception of a community ideal is not the grand manner, the noble aspiration, the fine aristocratic pride, but cheap labor for the kitchen and rapid increase in the price of land. It plays at cards on greasy oilcloth in a shanty, and does not know that prophets are walking and talking on the terrace.
If all the provincials were as kindly as Champ Perry and Sam Clark there would be no reason for desiring the town to seek great traditions. It is the Harry Haydocks, the Dave Dyers, the Jackson Elders, small busy men crushingly powerful in their common purpose, viewing themselves as men of the world but keeping themselves men of the cash-register and the comic film, who make the town a sterile oligarchy.
VII
She had sought to be definite in analyzing the surface ugliness of the Gopher Prairies. She asserted that it is a matter of universal similarity; of flimsiness of construction, so that the towns resemble frontier camps; of neglect of natural advantages, so that the hills are covered with brush, the lakes shut off by railroads, and the creeks lined with dumping-grounds; of depressing sobriety of color; rectangularity of buildings; and excessive breadth and straightness of the gashed streets, so that there is no escape from gales and from sight of the grim sweep of land, nor any windings to coax the loiterer along, while the breadth which would be majestic in an avenue of palaces makes the low shabby shops creeping down the typical Main Street the more mean by comparison.
The universal similarityâ âthat is the physical expression of the philosophy of dull safety. Nine-tenths of the American towns are so alike that it is the completest boredom to wander from one to another. Always, west of Pittsburg, and often, east of it, there is the same lumber yard, the same railroad station, the same Ford garage, the same creamery, the same boxlike houses and two-story shops. The new, more conscious houses are alike in their very attempts at diversity: the same bungalows, the same square houses of stucco or tapestry brick. The shops show the same standardized, nationally advertised wares; the newspapers of sections three thousand miles apart have the same âsyndicated featuresâ; the boy in Arkansas displays just such a flamboyant ready-made suit as is found on just such a boy in Delaware, both of them iterate the same slang phrases from the same sporting-pages, and if one of them is in college and the other is a barber, no one may surmise which is which.
If Kennicott were snatched from Gopher Prairie and instantly conveyed to a town leagues away, he would not realize it. He would go down apparently the same Main Street (almost certainly it would be called Main Street); in the same drug store he would see the same young man serving the same ice-cream soda to the same young woman with the same magazines and phonograph records under her arm. Not till he had climbed to his office and found another sign on the door, another Dr. Kennicott inside, would he understand that something curious had presumably happened.
Finally, behind all her comments, Carol saw the fact that the prairie towns no more exist to serve the farmers who are their reason of existence than do the great capitals; they exist to fatten on the farmers, to provide for the townsmen large motors and social preferment; and, unlike the capitals, they do not give to the district in return for usury a stately and permanent center, but only this ragged camp. It is a âparasitic Greek civilizationââ âminus the civilization.
âThere we are then,â said Carol. âThe remedy? Is there any? Criticism, perhaps, for the beginning of the beginning. Oh, thereâs nothing that attacks the Tribal God Mediocrity that doesnât help a littleâ ââ ⌠and probably thereâs nothing that helps very much. Perhaps some day the farmers will build and own their market-towns. (Think of the club they could have!) But Iâm afraid I havenât any âreform program.â Not any more! The trouble is spiritual, and no League or Party can enact a preference for gardens rather than dumping-grounds.â ââ ⌠Thereâs my confession. Well?â
âIn other words, all you want is perfection?â
âYes! Why not?â
âHow you hate this place! How can you expect to do anything with it if you havenât any sympathy?â
âBut I have! And affection. Or else I wouldnât fume so. Iâve learned that Gopher Prairie isnât just an eruption on the prairie, as I thought first, but as large as New York. In New York I wouldnât know more than forty or fifty people, and I know that many here. Go on! Say what youâre thinking.â
âWell, my dear, if I did take all your notions seriously, it would be pretty discouraging. Imagine how a person would feel, after working hard for years and helping to build up a nice town, to have you airily flit in and simply say âRotten!â Think thatâs fair?â
âWhy not? It must be just as discouraging for the Gopher Prairieite to see Venice and make comparisons.â
âIt would not! I imagine gondolas are kind of nice to ride in, but weâve got better bathrooms! Butâ âMy dear, youâre not the only person in this town who has done some thinking for herself, although (pardon my rudeness) Iâm afraid you think so. Iâll admit we lack some things. Maybe our theater isnât as good as shows in Paris. All right! I donât want to see any foreign culture suddenly forced on usâ âwhether itâs street-planning or table-manners or crazy communistic ideas.â
Vida sketched what she termed âpractical things that will make a happier and prettier town, but that do belong to our life, that actually are being done.â Of the Thanatopsis Club she spoke; of the restroom, the fight against mosquitos, the campaign for more gardens and shade-trees and sewersâ âmatters not fantastic and nebulous and distant, but immediate and sure.
Carolâs answer was fantastic and nebulous enough:
âYes.â ââ ⌠Yes.â ââ ⌠I know. Theyâre good. But if I could put through all those reforms at once, Iâd still want startling, exotic things. Life is comfortable and clean enough here already. And so secure. What it needs is to be less secure, more eager. The civic improvements which Iâd like the Thanatopsis to advocate are Strindberg plays, and classic dancersâ âexquisite legs beneath tulleâ âand (I can see him so clearly!) a thick, black-bearded, cynical Frenchman who would sit about and drink and sing opera and tell bawdy stories and laugh at our proprieties and quote Rabelais and not be ashamed to kiss my hand!â
âHuh! Not sure about the rest of it but I guess thatâs what you and all the other discontented young women really want: some stranger kissing your hand!â At Carolâs gasp, the old squirrel-like Vida darted out and cried, âOh, my dear, donât take that too seriously. I just meantâ ââ
âI know. You just meant it. Go on. Be good for my soul. Isnât it funny: here we all areâ âme trying to be good for Gopher Prairieâs soul, and Gopher Prairie trying to be good for my soul. What are my other sins?â
âOh, thereâs plenty of them. Possibly some day we shall have your fat cynical Frenchman (horrible, sneering, tobacco-stained object, ruining his brains and his digestion with vile liquor!) but, thank heaven, for a while weâll manage to keep busy with our lawns and pavements! You see, these things really are coming! The Thanatopsis is getting somewhere. And youâ ââ Her tone italicized the wordsâ ââto my great disappointment, are doing less, not more, than the people you laugh at! Sam Clark, on the school-board, is working for better school ventilation. Ella Stowbody (whose elocuting you always think is so absurd) has persuaded the railroad to share the expense of a parked space at the station, to do away with that vacant lot.
âYou sneer so easily. Iâm sorry, but I do think thereâs something essentially cheap in your attitude. Especially about religion.
âIf you must know, youâre not a sound reformer at all. Youâre an impossibilist. And you give up too easily. You gave up on the new city hall, the anti-fly campaign, club papers, the library-board, the dramatic associationâ âjust because we didnât graduate into Ibsen the very first thing. You want perfection all at once. Do you know what the finest thing youâve done isâ âaside from bringing Hugh into the world? It was the help you gave Dr. Will during baby-welfare week. You didnât demand that each baby be a philosopher and artist before you weighed him, as you do with the rest of us.
âAnd now Iâm afraid perhaps Iâll hurt you. Weâre going to have a new schoolbuilding in this townâ âin just a few yearsâ âand weâll have it without one bit of help or interest from you!
âProfessor Mott and I and some others have been dinging away at the moneyed men for years. We didnât call on you because you would never stand the pound-pound-pounding year after year without one bit of encouragement. And weâve won! Iâve got the promise of everybody who counts that just as soon as war-conditions permit, theyâll vote the bonds for the schoolhouse. And weâll have a wonderful buildingâ âlovely brown brick, with big windows, and agricultural and manual-training departments. When we get it, thatâll be my answer to all your theories!â
âIâm glad. And Iâm ashamed I havenât had any part in getting it. Butâ âPlease donât think Iâm unsympathetic if I ask one question: Will the teachers in the hygienic new building go on informing the children that Persia is a yellow spot on the map, and âCaesarâ the title of a book of grammatical puzzles?â
VIII
Vida was indignant; Carol was apologetic; they talked for another hour, the eternal Mary and Marthaâ âan immoralist Mary and a reformist Martha. It was Vida who conquered.
The fact that she had been left out of the campaign for the new schoolbuilding disconcerted Carol. She laid her dreams of perfection aside. When Vida asked her to take charge of a group of Camp Fire Girls, she obeyed, and had definite pleasure out of the Indian dances and ritual and costumes. She went more regularly to the Thanatopsis. With Vida as lieutenant and unofficial commander she campaigned for a village nurse to attend poor families, raised the fund herself, saw to it that the nurse was young and strong and amiable and intelligent.
Yet all the while she beheld the burly cynical Frenchman and the diaphanous dancers as clearly as the child sees its air-born playmates; she relished the Camp Fire Girls not because, in Vidaâs words, âthis Scout training will help so much to make them Good Wives,â but because she hoped that the Sioux dances would bring subversive color into their dinginess.
She helped Ella Stowbody to set out plants in the tiny triangular park at the railroad station; she squatted in the dirt, with a small curved trowel and the most decorous of gardening gauntlets; she talked to Ella about the public-spiritedness of fuchsias and cannas; and she felt that she was scrubbing a temple deserted by the gods and empty even of incense and the sound of chanting. Passengers looking from trains saw her as a village woman of fading prettiness, incorruptible virtue, and no abnormalities; the baggageman heard her say, âOh yes, I do think it will be a good example for the childrenâ; and all the while she saw herself running garlanded through the streets of Babylon.
Planting led her to botanizing. She never got much farther than recognizing the tiger lily and the wild rose, but she rediscovered Hugh. âWhat does the buttercup say, mummy?â he cried, his hand full of straggly grasses, his cheek gilded with pollen. She knelt to embrace him; she affirmed that he made life more than full; she was altogether reconciledâ ââ ⌠for an hour.
But she awoke at night to hovering death. She crept away from the hump of bedding that was Kennicott; tiptoed into the bathroom and, by the mirror in the door of the medicine-cabinet, examined her pallid face.
Wasnât she growing visibly older in ratio as Vida grew plumper and younger? Wasnât her nose sharper? Wasnât her neck granulated? She stared and choked. She was only thirty. But the five years since her marriageâ âhad they not gone by as hastily and stupidly as though she had been under ether; would time not slink past till death? She pounded her fist on the cool enameled rim of the bathtub and raged mutely against the indifferent gods:
âI donât care! I wonât endure it! They lie soâ âVida and Will and Aunt Bessieâ âthey tell me I ought to be satisfied with Hugh and a good home and planting seven nasturtiums in a station garden! I am I! When I die the world will be annihilated, as far as Iâm concerned. I am I! Iâm not content to leave the sea and the ivory towers to others. I want them for me! Damn Vida! Damn all of them! Do they think they can make me believe that a display of potatoes at Howland & Gouldâs is enough beauty and strangeness?â
XXIII
I
When America entered the Great European War, Vida sent Raymie off to an officersâ training-campâ âless than a year after her wedding. Raymie was diligent and rather strong. He came out a first lieutenant of infantry, and was one of the earliest sent abroad.
Carol grew definitely afraid of Vida as Vida transferred the passion which had been released in marriage to the cause of the war; as she lost all tolerance. When Carol was touched by the desire for heroism in Raymie and tried tactfully to express it, Vida made her feel like an impertinent child.
By enlistment and draft, the sons of Lyman Cass, Nat Hicks, Sam Clark joined the army. But most of the soldiers were the sons of German and Swedish farmers unknown to Carol. Dr. Terry Gould and Dr. McGanum became captains in the medical corps, and were stationed at camps in Iowa and Georgia. They were the only officers, besides Raymie, from the Gopher Prairie district. Kennicott wanted to go with them, but the several doctors of the town forgot medical rivalry and, meeting in council, decided that he would do better to wait and keep the town well till he should be needed. Kennicott was forty-two now; the only youngish doctor left in a radius of eighteen miles. Old Dr. Westlake, who loved comfort like a cat, protestingly rolled out at night for country calls, and hunted through his collar-box for his G.A.R. button.
Carol did not quite know what she thought about Kennicottâs going. Certainly she was no Spartan wife. She knew that he wanted to go; she knew that this longing was always in him, behind his unchanged trudging and remarks about the weather. She felt for him an admiring affectionâ âand she was sorry that she had nothing more than affection.
Cy Bogart was the spectacular warrior of the town. Cy was no longer the weedy boy who had sat in the loft speculating about Carolâs egotism and the mysteries of generation. He was nineteen now, tall, broad, busy, the âtown sport,â famous for his ability to drink beer, to shake dice, to tell undesirable stories, and, from his post in front of Dyerâs drug store, to embarrass the girls by âjollyingâ them as they passed. His face was at once peach-bloomed and pimply.
Cy was to be heard publishing it abroad that if he couldnât get the Widow Bogartâs permission to enlist, heâd run away and enlist without it. He shouted that he âhated every dirty Hun; by gosh, if he could just poke a bayonet into one big fat Heinie and learn him some decency and democracy, heâd die happy.â Cy got much reputation by whipping a farmboy named Adolph Pochbauer for being a âdamn hyphenated German.ââ ââ ⌠This was the younger Pochbauer, who was killed in the Argonne, while he was trying to bring the body of his Yankee captain back to the lines. At this time Cy Bogart was still dwelling in Gopher Prairie and planning to go to war.
II
Everywhere Carol heard that the war was going to bring a basic change in psychology, to purify and uplift everything from marital relations to national politics, and she tried to exult in it. Only she did not find it. She saw the women who made bandages for the Red Cross giving up bridge, and laughing at having to do without sugar, but over the surgical-dressings they did not speak of God and the souls of men, but of Miles Bjornstamâs impudence, of Terry Gouldâs scandalous carryings-on with a farmerâs daughter four years ago, of cooking cabbage, and of altering blouses. Their references to the war touched atrocities only. She herself was punctual, and efficient at making dressings, but she could not, like Mrs. Lyman Cass and Mrs. Bogart, fill the dressings with hate for enemies.
When she protested to Vida, âThe young do the work while these old ones sit around and interrupt us and gag with hate because theyâre too feeble to do anything but hate,â then Vida turned on her:
âIf you canât be reverent, at least donât be so pert and opinionated, now when men and women are dying. Some of usâ âwe have given up so much, and weâre glad to. At least we expect that you others shanât try to be witty at our expense.â
There was weeping.
Carol did desire to see the Prussian autocracy defeated; she did persuade herself that there were no autocracies save that of Prussia; she did thrill to motion-pictures of troops embarking in New York; and she was uncomfortable when she met Miles Bjornstam on the street and he croaked:
âHowâs tricks? Things going fine with me; got two new cows. Well, have you become a patriot? Eh? Sure, theyâll bring democracyâ âthe democracy of death. Yes, sure, in every war since the Garden of Eden the workmen have gone out to fight each other for perfectly good reasonsâ âhanded to them by their bosses. Now me, Iâm wise. Iâm so wise that I know I donât know anything about the war.â
It was not a thought of the war that remained with her after Milesâs declamation but a perception that she and Vida and all of the good-intentioners who wanted to âdo something for the common peopleâ were insignificant, because the âcommon peopleâ were able to do things for themselves, and highly likely to, as soon as they learned the fact. The conception of millions of workmen like Miles taking control frightened her, and she scuttled rapidly away from the thought of a time when she might no longer retain the position of Lady Bountiful to the Bjornstams and Beas and Oscarinas whom she lovedâ âand patronized.
III
It was in June, two months after Americaâs entrance into the war, that the momentous event happenedâ âthe visit of the great Percy Bresnahan, the millionaire president of the Velvet Motor Car Company of Boston, the one native son who was always to be mentioned to strangers.
For two weeks there were rumors. Sam Clark cried to Kennicott, âSay, I hear Perce Bresnahan is coming! By golly itâll be great to see the old scout, eh?â Finally the Dauntless printed, on the front page with a No. 1 head, a letter from Bresnahan to Jackson Elder:
Dear Jack:
Well, Jack, I find I can make it. Iâm to go to Washington as a dollar a year man for the government, in the aviation motor section, and tell them how much I donât know about carburetors. But before I start in being a hero I want to shoot out and catch me a big black bass and cuss out you and Sam Clark and Harry Haydock and Will Kennicott and the rest of you pirates. Iâll land in G.P. on June 7, on No. 7 from Mpls. Shake a day-day. Tell Bert Tybee to save me a glass of beer.
All members of the social, financial, scientific, literary, and sporting sets were at No. 7 to meet Bresnahan; Mrs. Lyman Cass was beside Del Snafflin the barber, and Juanita Haydock almost cordial to Miss Villets the librarian. Carol saw Bresnahan laughing down at them from the train vestibuleâ âbig, immaculate, overjawed, with the eye of an executive. In the voice of the professional Good Fellow he bellowed, âHowdy, folks!â As she was introduced to him (not he to her) Bresnahan looked into her eyes, and his handshake was warm, unhurried.
He declined the offers of motors; he walked off, his arm about the shoulder of Nat Hicks the sporting tailor, with the elegant Harry Haydock carrying one of his enormous pale leather bags, Del Snafflin the other, Jack Elder bearing an overcoat, and Julius Flickerbaugh the fishing-tackle. Carol noted that though Bresnahan wore spats and a stick, no small boy jeered. She decided, âI must have Will get a double-breasted blue coat and a wing collar and a dotted bow-tie like his.â
That evening, when Kennicott was trimming the grass along the walk with sheep-shears, Bresnahan rolled up, alone. He was now in corduroy trousers, khaki shirt open at the throat, a white boating hat, and marvelous canvas-and-leather shoes. âOn the job there, old Will! Say, my Lord, this is living, to come back and get into a regular man-sized pair of pants. They can talk all they want to about the city, but my idea of a good time is to loaf around and see you boys and catch a gamey bass!â
He hustled up the walk and blared at Carol, âWhereâs that little fellow? I hear youâve got one fine big he-boy that youâre holding out on me!â
âHeâs gone to bed,â rather briefly.
âI know. And rules are rules, these days. Kids get routed through the shop like a motor. But look here, sister; Iâm one great hand at busting rules. Come on now, let Uncle Perce have a look at him. Please now, sister?â
He put his arm about her waist; it was a large, strong, sophisticated arm, and very agreeable; he grinned at her with a devastating knowingness, while Kennicott glowed inanely. She flushed; she was alarmed by the ease with which the big-city man invaded her guarded personality. She was glad, in retreat, to scamper ahead of the two men upstairs to the hall-room in which Hugh slept. All the way Kennicott muttered, âWell, well, say, gee whittakers but itâs good to have you back, certainly is good to see you!â
Hugh lay on his stomach, making an earnest business of sleeping. He burrowed his eyes in the dwarf blue pillow to escape the electric light, then sat up abruptly, small and frail in his woolly nightdrawers, his floss of brown hair wild, the pillow clutched to his breast. He wailed. He stared at the stranger, in a manner of patient dismissal. He explained confidentially to Carol, âDaddy wouldnât let it be morning yet. What does the pillow say?â
Bresnahan dropped his arm caressingly on Carolâs shoulder; he pronounced, âMy Lord, youâre a lucky girl to have a fine young husk like that. I figure Will knew what he was doing when he persuaded you to take a chance on an old bum like him! They tell me you come from St. Paul. Weâre going to get you to come to Boston some day.â He leaned over the bed. âYoung man, youâre the slickest sight Iâve seen this side of Boston. With your permission, may we present you with a slight token of our regard and appreciation of your long service?â
He held out a red rubber Pierrot. Hugh remarked, âGimme it,â hid it under the bedclothes, and stared at Bresnahan as though he had never seen the man before.
For once Carol permitted herself the spiritual luxury of not asking âWhy, Hugh dear, what do you say when someone gives you a present?â The great man was apparently waiting. They stood in inane suspense till Bresnahan led them out, rumbling, âHow about planning a fishing-trip, Will?â
He remained for half an hour. Always he told Carol what a charming person she was; always he looked at her knowingly.
âYes. He probably would make a woman fall in love with him. But it wouldnât last a week. Iâd get tired of his confounded buoyancy. His hypocrisy. Heâs a spiritual bully. He makes me rude to him in self-defense. Oh yes, he is glad to be here. He does like us. Heâs so good an actor that he convinces his own self.â ââ ⌠Iâd hate him in Boston. Heâd have all the obvious big-city things. Limousines. Discreet evening-clothes. Order a clever dinner at a smart restaurant. Drawing-room decorated by the best firmâ âbut the pictures giving him away. Iâd rather talk to Guy Pollock in his dusty office.â ââ ⌠How I lie! His arm coaxed my shoulder and his eyes dared me not to admire him. Iâd be afraid of him. I hate him!â ââ ⌠Oh, the inconceivable egotistic imagination of women! All this stew of analysis about a man, a good, decent, friendly, efficient man, because he was kind to me, as Willâs wife!â
IV
The Kennicotts, the Elders, the Clarks, and Bresnahan went fishing at Red Squaw Lake. They drove forty miles to the lake in Elderâs new Cadillac. There was much laughter and bustle at the start, much storing of lunch-baskets and jointed poles, much inquiry as to whether it would really bother Carol to sit with her feet up on a roll of shawls. When they were ready to go Mrs. Clark lamented, âOh, Sam, I forgot my magazine,â and Bresnahan bullied, âCome on now, if you women think youâre going to be literary, you canât go with us tough guys!â Everyone laughed a great deal, and as they drove on Mrs. Clark explained that though probably she would not have read it, still, she might have wanted to, while the other girls had a nap in the afternoon, and she was right in the middle of a serialâ âit was an awfully exciting storyâ âit seems that this girl was a Turkish dancer (only she was really the daughter of an American lady and a Russian prince) and men kept running after her, just disgustingly, but she remained pure, and there was a sceneâ â
While the men floated on the lake, casting for black bass, the women prepared lunch and yawned. Carol was a little resentful of the manner in which the men assumed that they did not care to fish. âI donât want to go with them, but I would like the privilege of refusing.â
The lunch was long and pleasant. It was a background for the talk of the great man come home, hints of cities and large imperative affairs and famous people, jocosely modest admissions that, yes, their friend Perce was doing about as well as most of these âBoston swells that think so much of themselves because they come from rich old families and went to college and everything. Believe me, itâs us new business men that are running Beantown today, and not a lot of fussy old bucks snoozing in their clubs!â
Carol realized that he was not one of the sons of Gopher Prairie who, if they do not actually starve in the East, are invariably spoken of as âhighly successfulâ; and she found behind his too incessant flattery a genuine affection for his mates. It was in the matter of the war that he most favored and thrilled them. Dropping his voice while they bent nearer (there was no one within two miles to overhear), he disclosed the fact that in both Boston and Washington heâd been getting a lot of inside stuff on the warâ âright straight from headquartersâ âhe was in touch with some menâ âcouldnât name them but they were darn high up in both the War and State Departmentsâ âand he would sayâ âonly for Peteâs sake they mustnât breathe one word of this; it was strictly on the Q.T. and not generally known outside of Washingtonâ âbut just between ourselvesâ âand they could take this for gospelâ âSpain had finally decided to join the Entente allies in the Grand Scrap. Yes, sir, thereâd be two million fully equipped Spanish soldiers fighting with us in France in one month now. Some surprise for Germany, all right!
âHow about the prospects for revolution in Germany?â reverently asked Kennicott.
The authority grunted, âNothing to it. The one thing you can bet on is that no matter what happens to the German people, win or lose, theyâll stick by the Kaiser till hell freezes over. I got that absolutely straight, from a fellow whoâs on the inside of the inside in Washington. No, sir! I donât pretend to know much about international affairs but one thing you can put down as settled is that Germany will be a Hohenzollern empire for the next forty years. At that, I donât know as itâs so bad. The Kaiser and the Junkers keep a firm hand on a lot of these red agitators whoâd be worse than a king if they could get control.â
âIâm terribly interested in this uprising that overthrew the Czar in Russia,â suggested Carol. She had finally been conquered by the manâs wizard knowledge of affairs.
Kennicott apologized for her: âCarrieâs nuts about this Russian revolution. Is there much to it, Perce?â
âThere is not!â Bresnahan said flatly. âI can speak by the book there. Carol, honey, Iâm surprised to find you talking like a New York Russian Jew, or one of these long-hairs! I can tell you, only you donât need to let everyone in on it, this is confidential, I got it from a man whoâs close to the State Department, but as a matter of fact the Czar will be back in power before the end of the year. You read a lot about his retiring and about his being killed, but I know heâs got a big army back of him, and heâll show these damn agitators, lazy beggars hunting for a soft berth bossing the poor goats that fall for âem, heâll show âem where they get off!â
Carol was sorry to hear that the Czar was coming back, but she said nothing. The others had looked vacant at the mention of a country so far away as Russia. Now they edged in and asked Bresnahan what he thought about the Packard car, investments in Texas oil-wells, the comparative merits of young men born in Minnesota and in Massachusetts, the question of prohibition, the future cost of motor tires, and wasnât it true that American aviators put it all over these Frenchmen?
They were glad to find that he agreed with them on every point.
As she heard Bresnahan announce, âWeâre perfectly willing to talk to any committee the men may choose, but weâre not going to stand for some outside agitator butting in and telling us how weâre going to run our plant!â Carol remembered that Jackson Elder (now meekly receiving New Ideas) had said the same thing in the same words.
While Sam Clark was digging up from his memory a long and immensely detailed story of the crushing things he had said to a Pullman porter, named George, Bresnahan hugged his knees and rocked and watched Carol. She wondered if he did not understand the laboriousness of the smile with which she listened to Kennicottâs account of the âgood one he had on Carrie,â that marital, coyly improper, ten-times-told tale of how she had forgotten to attend to Hugh because she was âall het up pounding the boxââ âwhich may be translated as âeagerly playing the piano.â She was certain that Bresnahan saw through her when she pretended not to hear Kennicottâs invitation to join a game of cribbage. She feared the comments he might make; she was irritated by her fear.
She was equally irritated, when the motor returned through Gopher Prairie, to find that she was proud of sharing in Bresnahanâs kudos as people waved, and Juanita Haydock leaned from a window. She said to herself, âAs though I cared whether Iâm seen with this fat phonograph!â and simultaneously, âEverybody has noticed how much Will and I are playing with Mr. Bresnahan.â
The town was full of his stories, his friendliness, his memory for names, his clothes, his trout-flies, his generosity. He had given a hundred dollars to Father Klubok the priest, and a hundred to the Reverend Mr. Zitterel the Baptist minister, for Americanization work.
At the Bon Ton, Carol heard Nat Hicks the tailor exulting:
âOld Perce certainly pulled a good one on this fellow Bjornstam that always is shooting off his mouth. Heâs supposed to of settled down since he got married, but Lord, those fellows that think they know it all, they never change. Well, the Red Swede got the grand razz handed to him, all right. He had the nerve to breeze up to Perce, at Dave Dyerâs, and he said, he said to Perce, âIâve always wanted to look at a man that was so useful that folks would pay him a million dollars for existing,â and Perce gave him the once-over and come right back, âHave, eh?â he says. âWell,â he says, âIâve been looking for a man so useful sweeping floors that I could pay him four dollars a day. Want the job, my friend?â Ha, ha, ha! Say, you know how lippy Bjornstam is? Well for once he didnât have a thing to say. He tried to get fresh, and tell what a rotten town this is, and Perce come right back at him, âIf you donât like this country, you better get out of it and go back to Germany, where you belong!â Say, maybe us fellows didnât give Bjornstam the horselaugh though! Oh, Perce is the white-haired boy in this burg, all rightee!â
V
Bresnahan had borrowed Jackson Elderâs motor; he stopped at the Kennicottsâ; he bawled at Carol, rocking with Hugh on the porch, âBetter come for a ride.â
She wanted to snub him. âThanks so much, but Iâm being maternal.â
âBring him along! Bring him along!â Bresnahan was out of the seat, stalking up the sidewalk, and the rest of her protests and dignities were feeble.
She did not bring Hugh along.
Bresnahan was silent for a mile, in words, but he looked at her as though he meant her to know that he understood everything she thought.
She observed how deep was his chest.
âLovely fields over there,â he said.
âYou really like them? Thereâs no profit in them.â
He chuckled. âSister, you canât get away with it. Iâm onto you. You consider me a big bluff. Well, maybe I am. But so are you, my dearâ âand pretty enough so that Iâd try to make love to you, if I werenât afraid youâd slap me.â
âMr. Bresnahan, do you talk that way to your wifeâs friends? And do you call them âsisterâ?â
âAs a matter of fact, I do! And I make âem like it. Score two!â But his chuckle was not so rotund, and he was very attentive to the ammeter.
In a moment he was cautiously attacking: âThatâs a wonderful boy, Will Kennicott. Great work these country practitioners are doing. The other day, in Washington, I was talking to a big scientific shark, a professor in Johns Hopkins medical school, and he was saying that no one has ever sufficiently appreciated the general practitioner and the sympathy and help he gives folks. These crack specialists, the young scientific fellows, theyâre so cocksure and so wrapped up in their laboratories that they miss the human element. Except in the case of a few freak diseases that no respectable human being would waste his time having, itâs the old doc that keeps a community well, mind and body. And strikes me that Will is one of the steadiest and clearest-headed counter practitioners Iâve ever met. Eh?â
âIâm sure he is. Heâs a servant of reality.â
âCome again? Um. Yes. All of that, whatever that is.â ââ ⌠Say, child, you donât care a whole lot for Gopher Prairie, if Iâm not mistaken.â
âNope.â
âThereâs where youâre missing a big chance. Thereâs nothing to these cities. Believe me, I know! This is a good town, as they go. Youâre lucky to be here. I wish I could shy on!â
âVery well, why donât you?â
âHuh? Whyâ âLordâ âcanât get away frâ ââ
âYou donât have to stay. I do! So I want to change it. Do you know that men like you, prominent men, do quite a reasonable amount of harm by insisting that your native towns and native states are perfect? Itâs you who encourage the denizens not to change. They quote you, and go on believing that they live in paradise, andâ ââ She clenched her fist. âThe incredible dullness of it!â
âSuppose you were right. Even so, donât you think you waste a lot of thundering on one poor scared little town? Kind of mean!â
âI tell you itâs dull. Dull!â
âThe folks donât find it dull. These couples like the Haydocks have a high old time; dances and cardsâ ââ
âThey donât. Theyâre bored. Almost everyone here is. Vacuousness and bad manners and spiteful gossipâ âthatâs what I hate.â
âThose thingsâ âcourse theyâre here. So are they in Boston! And every place else! Why, the faults you find in this town are simply human nature, and never will be changed.â
âPerhaps. But in a Boston all the good Carols (Iâll admit I have no faults) can find one another and play. But hereâ âIâm alone, in a stale poolâ âexcept as itâs stirred by the great Mr. Bresnahan!â
âMy Lord, to hear you tell it, a fellowâd think that all the denizens, as you impolitely call âem, are so confoundedly unhappy that itâs a wonder they donât all up and commit suicide. But they seem to struggle along somehow!â
âThey donât know what they miss. And anybody can endure anything. Look at men in mines and in prisons.â
He drew up on the south shore of Lake Minniemashie. He glanced across the reeds reflected on the water, the quiver of wavelets like crumpled tinfoil, the distant shores patched with dark woods, silvery oats and deep yellow wheat. He patted her hand. âSisâ âCarol, youâre a darling girl, but youâre difficult. Know what I think?â
âYes.â
âHumph. Maybe you do, butâ âMy humble (not too humble!) opinion is that you like to be different. You like to think youâre peculiar. Why, if you knew how many tens of thousands of women, especially in New York, say just what you do, youâd lose all the fun of thinking youâre a lone genius and youâd be on the bandwagon whooping it up for Gopher Prairie and a good decent family life. Thereâs always about a million young women just out of college who want to teach their grandmothers how to suck eggs.â
âHow proud you are of that homely rustic metaphor! You use it at âbanquetsâ and directorsâ meetings, and boast of your climb from a humble homestead.â
âHuh! You may have my number. Iâm not telling. But look here: Youâre so prejudiced against Gopher Prairie that you overshoot the mark; you antagonize those who might be inclined to agree with you in some particulars butâ âGreat guns, the town canât be all wrong!â
âNo, it isnât. But it could be. Let me tell you a fable. Imagine a cavewoman complaining to her mate. She doesnât like one single thing; she hates the damp cave, the rats running over her bare legs, the stiff skin garments, the eating of half-raw meat, her husbandâs bushy face, the constant battles, and the worship of the spirits who will hoodoo her unless she gives the priests her best claw necklace. Her man protests, âBut it canât all be wrong!â and he thinks he has reduced her to absurdity. Now you assume that a world which produces a Percy Bresnahan and a Velvet Motor Company must be civilized. It is? Arenât we only about halfway along in barbarism? I suggest Mrs. Bogart as a test. And weâll continue in barbarism just as long as people as nearly intelligent as you continue to defend things as they are because they are.â
âYouâre a fair spieler, child. But, by golly, Iâd like to see you try to design a new manifold, or run a factory and keep a lot of your fellow reds from Czech-slovenski-magyar-godknowswheria on the job! Youâd drop your theories so darn quick! Iâm not any defender of things as they are. Sure. Theyâre rotten. Only Iâm sensible.â
He preached his gospel: love of outdoors, Playing the Game, loyalty to friends. She had the neophyteâs shock of discovery that, outside of tracts, conservatives do not tremble and find no answer when an iconoclast turns on them, but retort with agility and confusing statistics.
He was so much the man, the worker, the friend, that she liked him when she most tried to stand out against him; he was so much the successful executive that she did not want him to despise her. His manner of sneering at what he called âparlor socialistsâ (though the phrase was not overwhelmingly new) had a power which made her wish to placate his company of well-fed, speed-loving administrators. When he demanded, âWould you like to associate with nothing but a lot of turkey-necked, horn-spectacled nuts that have adenoids and need a haircut, and that spend all their time kicking about âconditionsâ and never do a lick of work?â she said, âNo, but just the sameâ ââ When he asserted, âEven if your cavewoman was right in knocking the whole works, I bet some red-blooded Regular Fellow, some real He-man, found her a nice dry cave, and not any whining criticizing radical,â she wriggled her head feebly, between a nod and a shake.
His large hands, sensual lips, easy voice supported his self-confidence. He made her feel young and softâ âas Kennicott had once made her feel. She had nothing to say when he bent his powerful head and experimented, âMy dear, Iâm sorry Iâm going away from this town. Youâd be a darling child to play with. You are pretty! Some day in Boston Iâll show you how we buy a lunch. Well, hang it, got to be starting back.â
The only answer to his gospel of beef which she could find, when she was home, was a wail of âBut just the sameâ ââ
She did not see him again before he departed for Washington.
His eyes remained. His glances at her lips and hair and shoulders had revealed to her that she was not a wife-and-mother alone, but a girl; that there still were men in the world, as there had been in college days.
That admiration led her to study Kennicott, to tear at the shroud of intimacy, to perceive the strangeness of the most familiar.
XXIV
I
All that midsummer month Carol was sensitive to Kennicott. She recalled a hundred grotesqueries: her comic dismay at his having chewed tobacco, the evening when she had tried to read poetry to him; matters which had seemed to vanish with no trace or sequence. Always she repeated that he had been heroically patient in his desire to join the army. She made much of her consoling affection for him in little things. She liked the homeliness of his tinkering about the house; his strength and handiness as he tightened the hinges of a shutter; his boyishness when he ran to her to be comforted because he had found rust in the barrel of his pump-gun. But at the highest he was to her another Hugh, without the glamor of Hughâs unknown future.
There was, late in June, a day of heat-lightning.
Because of the work imposed by the absence of the other doctors the Kennicotts had not moved to the lake cottage but remained in town, dusty and irritable. In the afternoon, when she went to Oleson & McGuireâs (formerly Dahl & Olesonâs), Carol was vexed by the assumption of the youthful clerk, recently come from the farm, that he had to be neighborly and rude. He was no more brusquely familiar than a dozen other clerks of the town, but her nerves were heat-scorched.
When she asked for codfish, for supper, he grunted, âWhat dâyou want that darned old dry stuff for?â
âI like it!â
âPunk! Guess the doc can afford something better than that. Try some of the new wienies we got in. Swell. The Haydocks use âem.â
She exploded. âMy dear young man, it is not your duty to instruct me in housekeeping, and it doesnât particularly concern me what the Haydocks condescend to approve!â
He was hurt. He hastily wrapped up the leprous fragment of fish; he gaped as she trailed out. She lamented, âI shouldnât have spoken so. He didnât mean anything. He doesnât know when he is being rude.â
Her repentance was not proof against Uncle Whittier when she stopped in at his grocery for salt and a package of safety matches. Uncle Whittier, in a shirt collarless and soaked with sweat in a brown streak down his back, was whining at a clerk, âCome on now, get a hustle on and lug that pound cake up to Misâ Cassâs. Some folks in this town think a storekeeper ainât got nothing to do but chase out phone-orders.â ââ ⌠Hello, Carrie. That dress you got on looks kind of low in the neck to me. May be decent and modestâ âI suppose Iâm old-fashionedâ âbut I never thought much of showing the whole town a womanâs bust! Hee, hee, hee!â ââ ⌠Afternoon, Mrs. Hicks. Sage? Just out of it. Lemme sell you some other spices. Heh?â Uncle Whittier was nasally indignant âCertainly! Got plenty other spices jusâ good as sage for any purpâse whatever! Whatâs the matter withâ âwell, with allspice?â When Mrs. Hicks had gone, he raged, âSome folks donât know what they want!â
âSweating sanctimonious bullyâ âmy husbandâs uncle!â thought Carol.
She crept into Dave Dyerâs. Dave held up his arms with, âDonât shoot! I surrender!â She smiled, but it occurred to her that for nearly five years Dave had kept up this game of pretending that she threatened his life.
As she went dragging through the prickly-hot street she reflected that a citizen of Gopher Prairie does not have jestsâ âhe has a jest. Every cold morning for five winters Lyman Cass had remarked, âFair to middlinâ chillyâ âget worse before it gets better.â Fifty times had Ezra Stowbody informed the public that Carol had once asked, âShall I endorse this check on the back?â Fifty times had Sam Clark called to her, âWhereâd you steal that hat?â Fifty times had the mention of Barney Cahoon, the town drayman, like a nickel in a slot produced from Kennicott the apocryphal story of Barneyâs directing a minister, âCome down to the depot and get your case of religious booksâ âtheyâre leaking!â
She came home by the unvarying route. She knew every house-front, every street-crossing, every billboard, every tree, every dog. She knew every blackened banana-skin and empty cigarette-box in the gutters. She knew every greeting. When Jim Howland stopped and gaped at her there was no possibility that he was about to confide anything but his grudging, âWell, haryuh tâday?â
All her future life, this same red-labeled bread-crate in front of the bakery, this same thimble-shaped crack in the sidewalk a quarter of a block beyond Stowbodyâs granite hitching-postâ â
She silently handed her purchases to the silent Oscarina. She sat on the porch, rocking, fanning, twitchy with Hughâs whining.
Kennicott came home, grumbled, âWhat the devil is the kid yapping about?â
âI guess you can stand it ten minutes if I can stand it all day!â
He came to supper in his shirt sleeves, his vest partly open, revealing discolored suspenders.
âWhy donât you put on your nice Palm Beach suit, and take off that hideous vest?â she complained.
âToo much trouble. Too hot to go upstairs.â
She realized that for perhaps a year she had not definitely looked at her husband. She regarded his table-manners. He violently chased fragments of fish about his plate with a knife and licked the knife after gobbling them. She was slightly sick. She asserted, âIâm ridiculous. What do these things matter! Donât be so simple!â But she knew that to her they did matter, these solecisms and mixed tenses of the table.
She realized that they found little to say; that, incredibly, they were like the talked-out couples whom she had pitied at restaurants.
Bresnahan would have spouted in a lively, exciting, unreliable manner.
She realized that Kennicottâs clothes were seldom pressed. His coat was wrinkled; his trousers would flap at the knees when he arose. His shoes were unblacked, and they were of an elderly shapelessness. He refused to wear soft hats; cleaved to a hard derby, as a symbol of virility and prosperity; and sometimes he forgot to take it off in the house. She peeped at his cuffs. They were frayed in prickles of starched linen. She had turned them once; she clipped them every week; but when she had begged him to throw the shirt away, last Sunday morning at the crisis of the weekly bath, he had uneasily protested, âOh, itâll wear quite a while yet.â
He was shaved (by himself or more socially by Del Snafflin) only three times a week. This morning had not been one of the three times.
Yet he was vain of his new turndown collars and sleek ties; he often spoke of the âsloppy dressingâ of Dr. McGanum; and he laughed at old men who wore detachable cuffs or Gladstone collars.
Carol did not care much for the creamed codfish that evening.
She noted that his nails were jagged and ill-shaped from his habit of cutting them with a pocketknife and despising a nail-file as effeminate and urban. That they were invariably clean, that his were the scoured fingers of the surgeon, made his stubborn untidiness the more jarring. They were wise hands, kind hands, but they were not the hands of love.
She remembered him in the days of courtship. He had tried to please her, then, had touched her by sheepishly wearing a colored band on his straw hat. Was it possible that those days of fumbling for each other were gone so completely? He had read books, to impress her; had said (she recalled it ironically) that she was to point out his every fault; had insisted once, as they sat in the secret place beneath the walls of Fort Snellingâ â
She shut the door on her thoughts. That was sacred ground. But it was a shame thatâ â
She nervously pushed away her cake and stewed apricots.
After supper, when they had been driven in from the porch by mosquitos, when Kennicott had for the two-hundredth time in five years commented, âWe must have a new screen on the porchâ âlets all the bugs in,â they sat reading, and she noted, and detested herself for noting, and noted again his habitual awkwardness. He slumped down in one chair, his legs up on another, and he explored the recesses of his left ear with the end of his little fingerâ âshe could hear the faint smackâ âhe kept it upâ âhe kept it upâ â
He blurted, âOh. Forgot tell you. Some of the fellows coming in to play poker this evening. Suppose we could have some crackers and cheese and beer?â
She nodded.
âHe might have mentioned it before. Oh well, itâs his house.â
The poker-party straggled in: Sam Clark, Jack Elder, Dave Dyer, Jim Howland. To her they mechanically said, âââDeveninâ,â but to Kennicott, in a heroic male manner, âWell, well, shall we start playing? Got a hunch Iâm going to lick somebody real bad.â No one suggested that she join them. She told herself that it was her own fault, because she was not more friendly; but she remembered that they never asked Mrs. Sam Clark to play.
Bresnahan would have asked her.
She sat in the living-room, glancing across the hall at the men as they humped over the dining table.
They were in shirt sleeves; smoking, chewing, spitting incessantly; lowering their voices for a moment so that she did not hear what they said and afterward giggling hoarsely; using over and over the canonical phrases: âThree to dole,â âI raise you a finif,â âCome on now, ante up; what do you think this is, a pink tea?â The cigar-smoke was acrid and pervasive. The firmness with which the men mouthed their cigars made the lower part of their faces expressionless, heavy, unappealing. They were like politicians cynically dividing appointments.
How could they understand her world?
Did that faint and delicate world exist? Was she a fool? She doubted her world, doubted herself, and was sick in the acid, smoke-stained air.
She slipped back into brooding upon the habituality of the house.
Kennicott was as fixed in routine as an isolated old man. At first he had amorously deceived himself into liking her experiments with foodâ âthe one medium in which she could express imaginationâ âbut now he wanted only his round of favorite dishes: steak, roast beef, boiled pigâs-feet, oatmeal, baked apples. Because at some more flexible period he had advanced from oranges to grapefruit he considered himself an epicure.
During their first autumn she had smiled over his affection for his hunting-coat, but now that the leather had come unstitched in dribbles of pale yellow thread, and tatters of canvas, smeared with dirt of the fields and grease from gun-cleaning, hung in a border of rags, she hated the thing.
Wasnât her whole life like that hunting-coat?
She knew every nick and brown spot on each piece of the set of china purchased by Kennicottâs mother in 1895â âdiscreet china with a pattern of washed-out forget-me-nots, rimmed with blurred gold: the gravy-boat, in a saucer which did not match, the solemn and evangelical covered vegetable-dishes, the two platters.
Twenty times had Kennicott sighed over the fact that Bea had broken the other platterâ âthe medium-sized one.
The kitchen.
Damp black iron sink, damp whitey-yellow drainboard with shreds of discolored wood which from long scrubbing were as soft as cotton thread, warped table, alarm clock, stove bravely blackened by Oscarina but an abomination in its loose doors and broken drafts and oven that never would keep an even heat.
Carol had done her best by the kitchen: painted it white, put up curtains, replaced a six-year-old calendar by a color print. She had hoped for tiling, and a kerosene range for summer cooking, but Kennicott always postponed these expenses.
She was better acquainted with the utensils in the kitchen than with Vida Sherwin or Guy Pollock. The can-opener, whose soft gray metal handle was twisted from some ancient effort to pry open a window, was more pertinent to her than all the cathedrals in Europe; and more significant than the future of Asia was the never-settled weekly question as to whether the small kitchen knife with the unpainted handle or the second-best buckhorn carving-knife was better for cutting up cold chicken for Sunday supper.
II
She was ignored by the males till midnight. Her husband called, âSuppose we could have some eats, Carrie?â As she passed through the dining-room the men smiled on her, belly-smiles. None of them noticed her while she was serving the crackers and cheese and sardines and beer. They were determining the exact psychology of Dave Dyer in standing pat, two hours before.
When they were gone she said to Kennicott, âYour friends have the manners of a barroom. They expect me to wait on them like a servant. Theyâre not so much interested in me as they would be in a waiter, because they donât have to tip me. Unfortunately! Well, good night.â
So rarely did she nag in this petty, hot-weather fashion that he was astonished rather than angry. âHey! Wait! Whatâs the idea? I must say I donât get you. The boysâ âBarroom? Why, Perce Bresnahan was saying there isnât a finer bunch of royal good fellows anywhere than just the crowd that were here tonight!â
They stood in the lower hall. He was too shocked to go on with his duties of locking the front door and winding his watch and the clock.
âBresnahan! Iâm sick of him!â She meant nothing in particular.
âWhy, Carrie, heâs one of the biggest men in the country! Boston just eats out of his hand!â
âI wonder if it does? How do we know but that in Boston, among well-bred people, he may be regarded as an absolute lout? The way he calls women âSister,â and the wayâ ââ
âNow look here! Thatâll do! Of course I know you donât mean itâ âyouâre simply hot and tired, and trying to work off your peeve on me. But just the same, I wonât stand your jumping on Perce. Youâ âItâs just like your attitude toward the warâ âso darn afraid that America will become militaristicâ ââ
âBut you are the pure patriot!â
âBy God, I am!â
âYes, I heard you talking to Sam Clark tonight about ways of avoiding the income tax!â
He had recovered enough to lock the door; he clumped upstairs ahead of her, growling, âYou donât know what youâre talking about. Iâm perfectly willing to pay my full taxâ âfact, Iâm in favor of the income taxâ âeven though I do think itâs a penalty on frugality and enterpriseâ âfact, itâs an unjust, darn-fool tax. But just the same, Iâll pay it. Only, Iâm not idiot enough to pay more than the government makes me pay, and Sam and I were just figuring out whether all automobile expenses oughnât to be exemptions. Iâll take a lot off you, Carrie, but I donât propose for one second to stand your saying Iâm not patriotic. You know mighty well and good that Iâve tried to get away and join the army. And at the beginning of the whole fracas I saidâ âIâve said right alongâ âthat we ought to have entered the war the minute Germany invaded Belgium. You donât get me at all. You canât appreciate a manâs work. Youâre abnormal. Youâve fussed so much with these fool novels and books and all this highbrow junkâ âYou like to argue!â
It ended, a quarter of an hour later, in his calling her a âneuroticâ before he turned away and pretended to sleep.
For the first time they had failed to make peace.
âThere are two races of people, only two, and they live side by side. His calls mine âneuroticâ; mine calls his âstupid.â Weâll never understand each other, never; and itâs madness for us to debateâ âto lie together in a hot bed in a creepy roomâ âenemies, yoked.â
III
It clarified in her the longing for a place of her own.
âWhile itâs so hot, I think Iâll sleep in the spare room,â she said next day.
âNot a bad idea.â He was cheerful and kindly.
The room was filled with a lumbering double bed and a cheap pine bureau. She stored the bed in the attic; replaced it by a cot which, with a denim cover, made a couch by day; put in a dressing-table, a rocker transformed by a cretonne cover; had Miles Bjornstam build bookshelves.
Kennicott slowly understood that she meant to keep up her seclusion. In his queries, âChanging the whole room?â âPutting your books in there?â she caught his dismay. But it was so easy, once her door was closed, to shut out his worry. That hurt herâ âthe ease of forgetting him.
Aunt Bessie Smail sleuthed out this anarchy. She yammered, âWhy, Carrie, you ainât going to sleep all alone by yourself? I donât believe in that. Married folks should have the same room, of course! Donât go getting silly notions. No telling what a thing like that might lead to. Suppose I up and told your Uncle Whit that I wanted a room of my own!â
Carol spoke of recipes for corn-pudding.
But from Mrs. Dr. Westlake she drew encouragement. She had made an afternoon call on Mrs. Westlake. She was for the first time invited upstairs, and found the suave old woman sewing in a white and mahogany room with a small bed.
âOh, do you have your own royal apartments, and the doctor his?â Carol hinted.
âIndeed I do! The doctor says itâs bad enough to have to stand my temper at meals. Doâ ââ Mrs. Westlake looked at her sharply. âWhy, donât you do the same thing?â
âIâve been thinking about it.â Carol laughed in an embarrassed way. âThen you wouldnât regard me as a complete hussy if I wanted to be by myself now and then?â
âWhy, child, every woman ought to get off by herself and turn over her thoughtsâ âabout children, and God, and how bad her complexion is, and the way men donât really understand her, and how much work she finds to do in the house, and how much patience it takes to endure some things in a manâs love.â
âYes!â Carol said it in a gasp, her hands twisted together. She wanted to confess not only her hatred for the Aunt Bessies but her covert irritation toward those she best loved: her alienation from Kennicott, her disappointment in Guy Pollock, her uneasiness in the presence of Vida. She had enough self-control to confine herself to, âYes. Men! The dear blundering souls, we do have to get off and laugh at them.â
âOf course we do. Not that you have to laugh at Dr. Kennicott so much, but my man, heavens, now thereâs a rare old bird! Reading storybooks when he ought to be tending to business! âMarcus Westlake,â I say to him, âyouâre a romantic old fool.â And does he get angry? He does not! He chuckles and says, âYes, my beloved, folks do say that married people grow to resemble each other!â Drat him!â Mrs. Westlake laughed comfortably.
After such a disclosure what could Carol do but return the courtesy by remarking that as for Kennicott, he wasnât romantic enoughâ âthe darling. Before she left she had babbled to Mrs. Westlake her dislike for Aunt Bessie, the fact that Kennicottâs income was now more than five thousand a year, her view of the reason why Vida had married Raymie (which included some thoroughly insincere praise of Raymieâs âkind heartâ), her opinion of the library-board, just what Kennicott had said about Mrs. Carthalâs diabetes, and what Kennicott thought of the several surgeons in the Cities.
She went home soothed by confession, inspirited by finding a new friend.
IV
The tragicomedy of the âdomestic situation.â
Oscarina went back home to help on the farm, and Carol had a succession of maids, with gaps between. The lack of servants was becoming one of the most cramping problems of the prairie town. Increasingly the farmersâ daughters rebelled against village dullness, and against the unchanged attitude of the Juanitas toward âhired girls.â They went off to city kitchens, or to city shops and factories, that they might be free and even human after hours.
The Jolly Seventeen were delighted at Carolâs desertion by the loyal Oscarina. They reminded her that she had said, âI donât have any trouble with maids; see how Oscarina stays on.â
Between incumbencies of Finn maids from the North Woods, Germans from the prairies, occasional Swedes and Norwegians and Icelanders, Carol did her own workâ âand endured Aunt Bessieâs skittering in to tell her how to dampen a broom for fluffy dust, how to sugar doughnuts, how to stuff a goose. Carol was deft, and won shy praise from Kennicott, but as her shoulder blades began to sting, she wondered how many millions of women had lied to themselves during the death-rimmed years through which they had pretended to enjoy the puerile methods persisting in housework.
She doubted the convenience and, as a natural sequent, the sanctity of the monogamous and separate home which she had regarded as the basis of all decent life.
She considered her doubts vicious. She refused to remember how many of the women of the Jolly Seventeen nagged their husbands and were nagged by them.
She energetically did not whine to Kennicott. But her eyes ached; she was not the girl in breeches and a flannel shirt who had cooked over a campfire in the Colorado mountains five years ago. Her ambition was to get to bed at nine; her strongest emotion was resentment over rising at half-past six to care for Hugh. The back of her neck ached as she got out of bed. She was cynical about the joys of a simple laborious life. She understood why workmen and workmenâs wives are not grateful to their kind employers.
At mid-morning, when she was momentarily free from the ache in her neck and back, she was glad of the reality of work. The hours were living and nimble. But she had no desire to read the eloquent little newspaper essays in praise of labor which are daily written by the white-browed journalistic prophets. She felt independent and (though she hid it) a bit surly.
In cleaning the house she pondered upon the maidâs-room. It was a slant-roofed, small-windowed hole above the kitchen, oppressive in summer, frigid in winter. She saw that while she had been considering herself an unusually good mistress, she had been permitting her friends Bea and Oscarina to live in a sty. She complained to Kennicott. âWhatâs the matter with it?â he growled, as they stood on the perilous stairs dodging up from the kitchen. She commented upon the sloping roof of unplastered boards stained in brown rings by the rain, the uneven floor, the cot and its tumbled discouraged-looking quilts, the broken rocker, the distorting mirror.
âMaybe it ainât any Hotel Radisson parlor, but still, itâs so much better than anything these hired girls are accustomed to at home that they think itâs fine. Seems foolish to spend money when they wouldnât appreciate it.â
But that night he drawled, with the casualness of a man who wishes to be surprising and delightful, âCarrie, donât know but what we might begin to think about building a new house, one of these days. Howâd you like that?â
âW-whyâ ââ
âIâm getting to the point now where I feel we can afford oneâ âand a corker! Iâll show this burg something like a real house! Weâll put one over on Sam and Harry! Make folks sit up anâ take notice!â
âYes,â she said.
He did not go on.
Daily he returned to the subject of the new house, but as to time and mode he was indefinite. At first she believed. She babbled of a low stone house with lattice windows and tulip-beds, of colonial brick, of a white frame cottage with green shutters and dormer windows. To her enthusiasms he answered, âWell, ye-es, might be worth thinking about. Remember where I put my pipe?â When she pressed him he fidgeted, âI donât know; seems to me those kind of houses you speak of have been overdone.â
It proved that what he wanted was a house exactly like Sam Clarkâs, which was exactly like every third new house in every town in the country: a square, yellow stolidity with immaculate clapboards, a broad screened porch, tidy grass-plots, and concrete walks; a house resembling the mind of a merchant who votes the party ticket straight and goes to church once a month and owns a good car.
He admitted, âWell, yes, maybe it isnât so darn artistic butâ âMatter of fact, though, I donât want a place just like Samâs. Maybe I would cut off that fool tower heâs got, and I think probably it would look better painted a nice cream color. That yellow on Samâs house is too kind of flashy. Then thereâs another kind of house thatâs mighty nice and substantial-looking, with shingles, in a nice brown stain, instead of clapboardsâ âseen some in Minneapolis. Youâre way off your base when you say I only like one kind of house!â
Uncle Whittier and Aunt Bessie came in one evening when Carol was sleepily advocating a rose-garden cottage.
âYouâve had a lot of experience with housekeeping, aunty, and donât you think,â Kennicott appealed, âthat it would be sensible to have a nice square house, and pay more attention to getting a crackajack furnace than to all this architecture and doodads?â
Aunt Bessie worked her lips as though they were an elastic band. âWhy of course! I know how it is with young folks like you, Carrie; you want towers and bay-windows and pianos and heaven knows what all, but the thing to get is closets and a good furnace and a handy place to hang out the washing, and the rest donât matter.â
Uncle Whittier dribbled a little, put his face near to Carolâs, and sputtered, âCourse it donât! What dâyou care what folks think about the outside of your house? Itâs the inside youâre living in. None of my business, but I must say you young folks thatâd rather have cakes than potatoes get me riled.â
She reached her room before she became savage. Below, dreadfully near, she could hear the broom-swish of Aunt Bessieâs voice, and the mop-pounding of Uncle Whittierâs grumble. She had a reasonless dread that they would intrude on her, then a fear that she would yield to Gopher Prairieâs conception of duty toward an Aunt Bessie and go downstairs to be ânice.â She felt the demand for standardized behavior coming in waves from all the citizens who sat in their sitting-rooms watching her with respectable eyes, waiting, demanding, unyielding. She snarled, âOh, all right, Iâll go!â She powdered her nose, straightened her collar, and coldly marched downstairs. The three elders ignored her. They had advanced from the new house to agreeable general fussing. Aunt Bessie was saying, in a tone like the munching of dry toast:
âI do think Mr. Stowbody ought to have had the rain-pipe fixed at our store right away. I went to see him on Tuesday morning before ten, no, it was couple minutes after ten, but anyway, it was long before noonâ âI know because I went right from the bank to the meat market to get some steakâ âmy! I think itâs outrageous, the prices Oleson & McGuire charge for their meat, and it isnât as if they gave you a good cut either but just any old thing, and I had time to get it, and I stopped in at Mrs. Bogartâs to ask about her rheumatismâ ââ
Carol was watching Uncle Whittier. She knew from his taut expression that he was not listening to Aunt Bessie but herding his own thoughts, and that he would interrupt her bluntly. He did:
âWill, where cân I get an extra pair of pants for this coat and vest? Dâ want to pay too much.â
âWell, guess Nat Hicks could make you up a pair. But if I were you, Iâd drop into Ike Rifkinâsâ âhis prices are lower than the Bon Tonâs.â
âHumph. Got the new stove in your office yet?â
âNo, been looking at some at Sam Clarkâs butâ ââ
âWell, yâ ought get ât in. Donât do to put off getting a stove all summer, and then have it come cold on you in the fall.â
Carol smiled upon them ingratiatingly. âDo you dears mind if I slip up to bed? Iâm rather tiredâ âcleaned the upstairs today.â
She retreated. She was certain that they were discussing her, and foully forgiving her. She lay awake till she heard the distant creak of a bed which indicated that Kennicott had retired. Then she felt safe.
It was Kennicott who brought up the matter of the Smails at breakfast. With no visible connection he said, âUncle Whit is kind of clumsy, but just the same, heâs a pretty wise old coot. Heâs certainly making good with the store.â
Carol smiled, and Kennicott was pleased that she had come to her senses. âAs Whit says, after all the first thing is to have the inside of a house right, and darn the people on the outside looking in!â
It seemed settled that the house was to be a sound example of the Sam Clark school.
Kennicott made much of erecting it entirely for her and the baby. He spoke of closets for her frocks, and âa comfy sewing-room.â But when he drew on a leaf from an old account-book (he was a paper-saver and a string-picker) the plans for the garage, he gave much more attention to a cement floor and a workbench and a gasoline-tank than he had to sewing-rooms.
She sat back and was afraid.
In the present rookery there were odd thingsâ âa step up from the hall to the dining-room, a picturesqueness in the shed and bedraggled lilac bush. But the new place would be smooth, standardized, fixed. It was probable, now that Kennicott was past forty, and settled, that this would be the last venture he would ever make in building. So long as she stayed in this ark, she would always have a possibility of change, but once she was in the new house, there she would sit for all the rest of her lifeâ âthere she would die. Desperately she wanted to put it off, against the chance of miracles. While Kennicott was chattering about a patent swing-door for the garage she saw the swing-doors of a prison.
She never voluntarily returned to the project. Aggrieved, Kennicott stopped drawing plans, and in ten days the new house was forgotten.
V
Every year since their marriage Carol had longed for a trip through the East. Every year Kennicott had talked of attending the American Medical Association convention, âand then afterwards we could do the East up brown. I know New York clean throughâ âspent pretty near a week thereâ âbut I would like to see New England and all these historic places and have some seafood.â He talked of it from February to May, and in May he invariably decided that coming confinement-cases or land-deals would prevent his âgetting away from home-base for very long this yearâ âand no sense going till we can do it right.â
The weariness of dish-washing had increased her desire to go. She pictured herself looking at Emersonâs manse, bathing in a surf of jade and ivory, wearing a trottoir and a summer fur, meeting an aristocratic Stranger. In the spring Kennicott had pathetically volunteered, âSâpose youâd like to get in a good long tour this summer, but with Gould and Mac away and so many patients depending on me, donât see how I can make it. By golly, I feel like a tightwad though, not taking you.â Through all this restless July after she had tasted Bresnahanâs disturbing flavor of travel and gaiety, she wanted to go, but she said nothing. They spoke of and postponed a trip to the Twin Cities. When she suggested, as though it were a tremendous joke, âI think baby and I might up and leave you, and run off to Cape Cod by ourselves!â his only reaction was âGolly, donât know but what you may almost have to do that, if we donât get in a trip next year.â
Toward the end of July he proposed, âSay, the Beavers are holding a convention in Joralemon, street fair and everything. We might go down tomorrow. And Iâd like to see Dr. Calibree about some business. Put in the whole day. Might help some to make up for our trip. Fine fellow, Dr. Calibree.â
Joralemon was a prairie town of the size of Gopher Prairie.
Their motor was out of order, and there was no passenger-train at an early hour. They went down by freight-train, after the weighty and conversational business of leaving Hugh with Aunt Bessie. Carol was exultant over this irregular jaunting. It was the first unusual thing, except the glance of Bresnahan, that had happened since the weaning of Hugh. They rode in the caboose, the small red cupola-topped car jerked along at the end of the train. It was a roving shanty, the cabin of a land schooner, with black oilcloth seats along the side, and for desk, a pine board to be let down on hinges. Kennicott played seven-up with the conductor and two brakemen. Carol liked the blue silk kerchiefs about the brakemenâs throats; she liked their welcome to her, and their air of friendly independence. Since there were no sweating passengers crammed in beside her, she reveled in the trainâs slowness. She was part of these lakes and tawny wheat-fields. She liked the smell of hot earth and clean grease; and the leisurely chugâaâchug, chugâaâchug of the trucks was a song of contentment in the sun.
She pretended that she was going to the Rockies. When they reached Joralemon she was radiant with holiday-making.
Her eagerness began to lessen the moment they stopped at a red frame station exactly like the one they had just left at Gopher Prairie, and Kennicott yawned, âRight on time. Just in time for dinner at the Calibreesâ. I phoned the doctor from G.P. that weâd be here. âWeâll catch the freight that gets in before twelve,â I told him. He said heâd meet us at the depot and take us right up to the house for dinner. Calibree is a good man, and youâll find his wife is a mighty brainy little woman, bright as a dollar. By golly, there he is.â
Dr. Calibree was a squat, clean-shaven, conscientious-looking man of forty. He was curiously like his own brown-painted motor car, with eyeglasses for windshield. âWant you to meet my wife, doctorâ âCarrie, make you âquainted with Dr. Calibree,â said Kennicott. Calibree bowed quietly and shook her hand, but before he had finished shaking it he was concentrating upon Kennicott with, âNice to see you, doctor. Say, donât let me forget to ask you about what you did in that exopthalmic goiter caseâ âthat Bohemian woman at Wahkeenyan.â
The two men, on the front seat of the car, chanted goiters and ignored her. She did not know it. She was trying to feed her illusion of adventure by staring at unfamiliar housesâ ââ ⌠drab cottages, artificial stone bungalows, square painty stolidities with immaculate clapboards and broad screened porches and tidy grass-plots.
Calibree handed her over to his wife, a thick woman who called her âdearie,â and asked if she was hot and, visibly searching for conversation, produced, âLetâs see, you and the doctor have a Little One, havenât you?â At dinner Mrs. Calibree served the corned beef and cabbage and looked steamy, looked like the steamy leaves of cabbage. The men were oblivious of their wives as they gave the social passwords of Main Street, the orthodox opinions on weather, crops, and motor cars, then flung away restraint and gyrated in the debauch of shop-talk. Stroking his chin, drawling in the ecstasy of being erudite, Kennicott inquired, âSay, doctor, what success have you had with thyroid for treatment of pains in the legs before childbirth?â
Carol did not resent their assumption that she was too ignorant to be admitted to masculine mysteries. She was used to it. But the cabbage and Mrs. Calibreeâs monotonous âI donât know what weâre coming to with all this difficulty getting hired girlsâ were gumming her eyes with drowsiness. She sought to clear them by appealing to Calibree, in a manner of exaggerated liveliness, âDoctor, have the medical societies in Minnesota ever advocated legislation for help to nursing mothers?â
Calibree slowly revolved toward her. âUhâ âIâve neverâ âuhâ ânever looked into it. I donât believe much in getting mixed up in politics.â He turned squarely from her and, peering earnestly at Kennicott, resumed, âDoctor, whatâs been your experience with unilateral pyelonephritis? Buckburn of Baltimore advocates decapsulation and nephrotomy, but seems to meâ ââ
Not till after two did they rise. In the lee of the stonily mature trio Carol proceeded to the street fair which added mundane gaiety to the annual rites of the United and Fraternal Order of Beavers. Beavers, human Beavers, were everywhere: thirty-second degree Beavers in gray sack suits and decent derbies, more flippant Beavers in crash summer coats and straw hats, rustic Beavers in shirt sleeves and frayed suspenders; but whatever his caste-symbols, every Beaver was distinguished by an enormous shrimp-colored ribbon lettered in silver, âSir Knight and Brother, U.F.O.B., Annual State Convention.â On the motherly shirtwaist of each of their wives was a badge, âSir Knightâs Lady.â The Duluth delegation had brought their famous Beaver amateur band, in Zouave costumes of green velvet jacket, blue trousers, and scarlet fez. The strange thing was that beneath their scarlet pride the Zouavesâ faces remained those of American businessmen, pink, smooth, eye-glassed; and as they stood playing in a circle, at the corner of Main Street and Second, as they tootled on fifes or with swelling cheeks blew into cornets, their eyes remained as owlish as though they were sitting at desks under the sign âThis Is My Busy Day.â
Carol had supposed that the Beavers were average citizens organized for the purposes of getting cheap life-insurance and playing poker at the lodge-rooms every second Wednesday, but she saw a large poster which proclaimed:
Beavers
U.F.O.B.
The greatest influence for good citizenship in the country. The jolliest aggregation of red-blooded, openhanded, hustle-em-up good fellows in the world.
Joralemon welcomes you to her hospitable city.
Kennicott read the poster and to Calibree admired, âStrong lodge, the Beavers. Never joined. Donât know but what I will.â
Calibree adumbrated, âTheyâre a good bunch. Good strong lodge. See that fellow there thatâs playing the snare drum? Heâs the smartest wholesale grocer in Duluth, they say. Guess it would be worth joining. Oh say, are you doing much insurance examining?â
They went on to the street fair.
Lining one block of Main Street were the âattractionsââ âtwo hotdog stands, a lemonade and popcorn stand, a merry-go-round, and booths in which balls might be thrown at rag dolls, if one wished to throw balls at rag dolls. The dignified delegates were shy of the booths, but country boys with brick-red necks and pale-blue ties and bright-yellow shoes, who had brought sweethearts into town in somewhat dusty and listed Fords, were wolfing sandwiches, drinking strawberry pop out of bottles, and riding the revolving crimson and gold horses. They shrieked and giggled; peanut-roasters whistled; the merry-go-round pounded out monotonous music; the barkers bawled, âHereâs your chanceâ âhereâs your chanceâ âcome on here, boyâ âcome on hereâ âgive that girl a good timeâ âgive her a swell timeâ âhereâs your chance to win a genuwine gold watch for five cents, half a dime, the twentieth part of a dollah!â The prairie sun jabbed the unshaded street with shafts that were like poisonous thorns the tinny cornices above the brick stores were glaring; the dull breeze scattered dust on sweaty Beavers who crawled along in tight scorching new shoes, up two blocks and back, up two blocks and back, wondering what to do next, working at having a good time.
Carolâs head ached as she trailed behind the unsmiling Calibrees along the block of booths. She chirruped at Kennicott, âLetâs be wild! Letâs ride on the merry-go-round and grab a gold ring!â
Kennicott considered it, and mumbled to Calibree, âThink you folks would like to stop and try a ride on the merry-go-round?â
Calibree considered it, and mumbled to his wife, âThink youâd like to stop and try a ride on the merry-go-round?â
Mrs. Calibree smiled in a washed-out manner, and sighed, âOh no, I donât believe I care to much, but you folks go ahead and try it.â
Calibree stated to Kennicott, âNo, I donât believe we care to a whole lot, but you folks go ahead and try it.â
Kennicott summarized the whole case against wildness: âLetâs try it some other time, Carrie.â
She gave it up. She looked at the town. She saw that in adventuring from Main Street, Gopher Prairie, to Main Street, Joralemon, she had not stirred. There were the same two-story brick groceries with lodge-signs above the awnings; the same one-story wooden millinery shop; the same firebrick garages; the same prairie at the open end of the wide street; the same people wondering whether the levity of eating a hotdog sandwich would break their taboos.
They reached Gopher Prairie at nine in the evening.
âYou look kind of hot,â said Kennicott.
âYes.â
âJoralemon is an enterprising town, donât you think so?â
She broke. âNo! I think itâs an ash-heap.â
âWhy, Carrie!â
He worried over it for a week. While he ground his plate with his knife as he energetically pursued fragments of bacon, he peeped at her.
XXV
I
âCarrieâs all right. Sheâs finicky, but sheâll get over it. But I wish sheâd hurry up about it! What she canât understand is that a fellow practising medicine in a small town like this has got to cut out the highbrow stuff, and not spend all his time going to concerts and shining his shoes. (Not but what he might be just as good at all these intellectual and art things as some other folks, if he had the time for it!)â Dr. Will Kennicott was brooding in his office, during a free moment toward the end of the summer afternoon. He hunched down in his tilted desk-chair, undid a button of his shirt, glanced at the state news in the back of the Journal of the American Medical Association, dropped the magazine, leaned back with his right thumb hooked in the armhole of his vest and his left thumb stroking the back of his hair.
âBy golly, sheâs taking an awful big chance, though. Youâd expect her to learn by and by that I wonât be a parlor lizard. She says we try to âmake her over.â Well, sheâs always trying to make me over, from a perfectly good M.D. into a damn poet with a socialist necktie! Sheâd have a fit if she knew how many women would be willing to cuddle up to Friend Will and comfort him, if heâd give âem the chance! Thereâs still a few dames that think the old man isnât so darn unattractive! Iâm glad Iâve ducked all that woman-game since Iâve been married butâ âBe switched if sometimes I donât feel tempted to shine up to some girl that has sense enough to take life as it is; some frau that doesnât want to talk Longfellow all the time, but just hold my hand and say, âYou look all in, honey. Take it easy, and donât try to talk.â
âCarrie thinks sheâs such a whale at analyzing folks. Giving the town the once-over. Telling us where we get off. Why, sheâd simply turn up her toes and croak if she found out how much she doesnât know about the high old times a wise guy could have in this burg on the Q.T., if he wasnât faithful to his wife. But I am. At that, no matter what faults sheâs got, thereâs nobody here, no, nor in Minnâaplus either, thatâs as nice-looking and square and bright as Carrie. She ought to of been an artist or a writer or one of those things. But once she took a shot at living here, she ought to stick by it. Prettyâ âLord yes. But cold. She simply doesnât know what passion is. She simply hasnât got an Ă-dea how hard it is for a full-blooded man to go on pretending to be satisfied with just being endured. It gets awful tiresome, having to feel like a criminal just because Iâm normal. Sheâs getting so she doesnât even care for my kissing her. Wellâ â
âI guess I can weather it, same as I did earning my way through school and getting started in practise. But I wonder how long I can stand being an outsider in my own home?â
He sat up at the entrance of Mrs. Dave Dyer. She slumped into a chair and gasped with the heat. He chuckled, âWell, well, Maud, this is fine. Whereâs the subscription-list? What cause do I get robbed for, this trip?â
âI havenât any subscription-list, Will. I want to see you professionally.â
âAnd you a Christian Scientist? Have you given that up? What next? New Thought or Spiritualism?â
âNo, I have not given it up!â
âStrikes me itâs kind of a knock on the sisterhood, your coming to see a doctor!â
âNo, it isnât. Itâs just that my faith isnât strong enough yet. So there now! And besides, you are kind of consoling, Will. I mean as a man, not just as a doctor. Youâre so strong and placid.â
He sat on the edge of his desk, coatless, his vest swinging open with the thick gold line of his watch-chain across the gap, his hands in his trousers pockets, his big arms bent and easy. As she purred he cocked an interested eye. Maud Dyer was neurotic, religiocentric, faded; her emotions were moist, and her figure was unsystematicâ âsplendid thighs and arms, with thick ankles, and a body that was bulgy in the wrong places. But her milky skin was delicious, her eyes were alive, her chestnut hair shone, and there was a tender slope from her ears to the shadowy place below her jaw.
With unusual solicitude he uttered his stock phrase, âWell, what seems to be the matter, Maud?â
âIâve got such a backache all the time. Iâm afraid the organic trouble that you treated me for is coming back.â
âAny definite signs of it?â
âN-no, but I think youâd better examine me.â
âNope. Donât believe itâs necessary, Maud. To be honest, between old friends, I think your troubles are mostly imaginary. I canât really advise you to have an examination.â
She flushed, looked out of the window. He was conscious that his voice was not impersonal and even.
She turned quickly. âWill, you always say my troubles are imaginary. Why canât you be scientific? Iâve been reading an article about these new nerve-specialists, and they claim that lots of âimaginaryâ ailments, yes, and lots of real pain, too, are what they call psychoses, and they order a change in a womanâs way of living so she can get on a higher planeâ ââ
âWait! Wait! Whoa-up! Wait now! Donât mix up your Christian Science and your psychology! Theyâre two entirely different fads! Youâll be mixing in socialism next! Youâre as bad as Carrie, with your âpsychoses.â Why, Good Lord, Maud, I could talk about neuroses and psychoses and inhibitions and repressions and complexes just as well as any damn specialist, if I got paid for it, if I was in the city and had the nerve to charge the fees that those fellows do. If a specialist stung you for a hundred-dollar consultation-fee and told you to go to New York to duck Daveâs nagging, youâd do it, to save the hundred dollars! But you know meâ âIâm your neighborâ âyou see me mowing the lawnâ âyou figure Iâm just a plug general practitioner. If I said, âGo to New York,â Dave and you would laugh your heads off and say, âLook at the airs Will is putting on. What does he think he is?â
âAs a matter of fact, youâre right. You have a perfectly well-developed case of repression of sex instinct, and it raises the old Ned with your body. What you need is to get away from Dave and travel, yes, and go to every dog-gone kind of New Thought and Bahai and Swami and Hooptedoodle meeting you can find. I know it, well âs you do. But how can I advise it? Dave would be up here taking my hide off. Iâm willing to be family physician and priest and lawyer and plumber and wet-nurse, but I draw the line at making Dave loosen up on money. Too hard a job in weather like this! So, savvy, my dear? Believe it will rain if this heat keepsâ ââ
âBut, Will, heâd never give it to me on my say-so. Heâd never let me go away. You know how Dave is: so jolly and liberal in society, and oh, just loves to match quarters, and such a perfect sport if he loses! But at home he pinches a nickel till the buffalo drips blood. I have to nag him for every single dollar.â
âSure, I know, but itâs your fight, honey. Keep after him. Heâd simply resent my butting in.â
He crossed over and patted her shoulder. Outside the window, beyond the fly-screen that was opaque with dust and cottonwood lint, Main Street was hushed except for the impatient throb of a standing motor car. She took his firm hand, pressed his knuckles against her cheek.
âO Will, Dave is so mean and little and noisyâ âthe shrimp! Youâre so calm. When heâs cutting up at parties I see you standing back and watching himâ âthe way a mastiff watches a terrier.â
He fought for professional dignity with, âDaveâs not a bad fellow.â
Lingeringly she released his hand. âWill, drop round by the house this evening and scold me. Make me be good and sensible. And Iâm so lonely.â
âIf I did, Dave would be there, and weâd have to play cards. Itâs his evening off from the store.â
âNo. The clerk just got called to Corinthâ âmother sick. Dave will be in the store till midnight. Oh, come on over. Thereâs some lovely beer on the ice, and we can sit and talk and be all cool and lazy. That wouldnât be wrong of us, would it!â
âNo, no, course it wouldnât be wrong. But still, oughtnât toâ ââ He saw Carol, slim black and ivory, cool, scornful of intrigue.
âAll right. But Iâll be so lonely.â
Her throat seemed young, above her loose blouse of muslin and machine-lace.
âTell you, Maud: Iâll drop in just for a minute, if I happen to be called down that way.â
âIf youâd like,â demurely. âO Will, I just want comfort. I know youâre all married, and my, such a proud papa, and of course nowâ âIf I could just sit near you in the dusk, and be quiet, and forget Dave! You will come?â
âSure I will!â
âIâll expect you. Iâll be lonely if you donât come! Goodbye.â
He cursed himself: âDarned fool, whatâd I promise to go for? Iâll have to keep my promise, or sheâll feel hurt. Sheâs a good, decent, affectionate girl, and Daveâs a cheap skate, all right. Sheâs got more life to her than Carol has. All my fault, anyway. Why canât I be more cagey, like Calibree and McGanum and the rest of the doctors? Oh, I am, but Maudâs such a demanding idiot. Deliberately bamboozling me into going up there tonight. Matter of principle: ought not to let her get away with it. I wonât go. Iâll call her up and tell her I wonât go. Me, with Carrie at home, finest little woman in the world, and a messy-minded female like Maud Dyerâ âno, sir! Though thereâs no need of hurting her feelings. I may just drop in for a second, to tell her I canât stay. All my fault anyway; ought never to have started in and jollied Maud along in the old days. If itâs my fault, Iâve got no right to punish Maud. I could just drop in for a second and then pretend I had a country call and beat it. Damn nuisance, though, having to fake up excuses. Lord, why canât the women let you alone? Just because once or twice, seven hundred million years ago, you were a poor fool, why canât they let you forget it? Maudâs own fault. Iâll stay strictly away. Take Carrie to the movies, and forget Maud.â ââ ⌠But it would be kind of hot at the movies tonight.â
He fled from himself. He rammed on his hat, threw his coat over his arm, banged the door, locked it, tramped downstairs. âI wonât go!â he said sturdily and, as he said it, he would have given a good deal to know whether he was going.
He was refreshed, as always, by the familiar windows and faces. It restored his soul to have Sam Clark trustingly bellow, âBetter come down to the lake this evening and have a swim, doc. Ainât you going to open your cottage at all, this summer? By golly, we miss you.â He noted the progress on the new garage. He had triumphed in the laying of every course of bricks; in them he had seen the growth of the town. His pride was ushered back to its throne by the respectfulness of Oley Sundquist: âEveninâ, doc! The woman is a lot better. That was swell medicine you gave her.â He was calmed by the mechanicalness of the tasks at home: burning the gray web of a tent-worm on the wild cherry tree, sealing with gum a cut in the right front tire of the car, sprinkling the road before the house. The hose was cool to his hands. As the bright arrows fell with a faint puttering sound, a crescent of blackness was formed in the gray dust.
Dave Dyer came along.
âWhere going, Dave?â
âDown to the store. Just had supper.â
âBut Thursdayâs your night off.â
âSure, but Pete went home. His motherâs supposed to be sick. Gosh, these clerks you get nowadaysâ âoverpay âem and then they wonât work!â
âThatâs tough, Dave. Youâll have to work clear up till twelve, then.â
âYup. Better drop in and have a cigar, if youâre downtown.â
âWell, I may, at that. May have to go down and see Mrs. Champ Perry. Sheâs ailing. So long, Dave.â
Kennicott had not yet entered the house. He was conscious that Carol was near him, that she was important, that he was afraid of her disapproval; but he was content to be alone. When he had finished sprinkling he strolled into the house, up to the babyâs room, and cried to Hugh, âStory-time for the old man, eh?â
Carol was in a low chair, framed and haloed by the window behind her, an image in pale gold. The baby curled in her lap, his head on her arm, listening with gravity while she sang from Gene Field:
âTis little Luddy-Dud in the morningâ â
âTis little Luddy-Dud at night:
And all day long
âTis the same dear song
Of that growing, crowing, knowing little sprite.
Kennicott was enchanted.
âMaud Dyer? I should say not!â
When the current maid bawled upstairs, âSupper on de table!â Kennicott was upon his back, flapping his hands in the earnest effort to be a seal, thrilled by the strength with which his son kicked him. He slipped his arm about Carolâs shoulder; he went down to supper rejoicing that he was cleansed of perilous stuff. While Carol was putting the baby to bed he sat on the front steps. Nat Hicks, tailor and rouĂŠ, came to sit beside him. Between waves of his hand as he drove off mosquitos, Nat whispered, âSay, doc, you donât feel like imagining youâre a bacheldore again, and coming out for a Time tonight, do you?â
âAs how?â
âYou know this new dressmaker, Mrs. Swiftwaite?â âswell dame with blondine hair? Well, sheâs a pretty good goer. Me and Harry Haydock are going to take her and that fat wren that works in the Bon Tonâ ânice kid, tooâ âon an auto ride tonight. Maybe weâll drive down to that farm Harry bought. Weâre taking some beer, and some of the smoothest rye you ever laid tongue to. Iâm not predicting none, but if we donât have a picnic, Iâll miss my guess.â
âGo to it. No skin off my ear, Nat. Think I want to be fifth wheel in the coach?â
âNo, but look here: The little Swiftwaite has a friend with her from Winona, dandy looker and some gay bird, and Harry and me thought maybe youâd like to sneak off for one evening.â
âNoâ ânoâ ââ
âRats now, doc, forget your everlasting dignity. You used to be a pretty good sport yourself, when you were foot-free.â
It may have been the fact that Mrs. Swiftwaiteâs friend remained to Kennicott an ill-told rumor, it may have been Carolâs voice, wistful in the pallid evening as she sang to Hugh, it may have been natural and commendable virtue, but certainly he was positive:
âNope. Iâm married for keeps. Donât pretend to be any saint. Like to get out and raise Cain and shoot a few drinks. But a fellow owes a dutyâ âStraight now, wonât you feel like a sneak when you come back to the missus after your jamboree?â
âMe? My moral in life is, âWhat they donât know wonât hurt âem none.â The way to handle wives, like the fellow says, is to catch âem early, treat âem rough, and tell âem nothing!â
âWell, thatâs your business, I suppose. But I canât get away with it. Besides thatâ âway I figure it, this illicit lovemaking is the one game that you always lose at. If you do lose, you feel foolish; and if you win, as soon as you find out how little it is that youâve been scheming for, why then you lose worse than ever. Nature stinging us, as usual. But at that, I guess a lot of wives in this burg would be surprised if they knew everything that goes on behind their backs, eh, Nattie?â
âWould they! Say, boy! If the good wives knew what some of the boys get away with when they go down to the Cities, why, theyâd throw a fit! Sure you wonât come, doc? Think of getting all cooled off by a good long drive, and then the love-ly Swiftwaiteâs white hand mixing you a good stiff highball!â
âNope. Nope. Sorry. Guess I wonât,â grumbled Kennicott.
He was glad that Nat showed signs of going. But he was restless. He heard Carol on the stairs. âCome have a seatâ âhave the whole earth!â he shouted jovially.
She did not answer his joviality. She sat on the porch, rocked silently, then sighed, âSo many mosquitos out here. You havenât had the screen fixed.â
As though he was testing her he said quietly, âHead aching again?â
âOh, not much, butâ âThis maid is so slow to learn. I have to show her everything. I had to clean most of the silver myself. And Hugh was so bad all afternoon. He whined so. Poor soul, he was hot, but he did wear me out.â
âUhâ âYou usually want to get out. Like to walk down to the lake shore? (The girl can stay home.) Or go to the movies? Come on, letâs go to the movies! Or shall we jump in the car and run out to Samâs, for a swim?â
âIf you donât mind, dear, Iâm afraid Iâm rather tired.â
âWhy donât you sleep downstairs tonight, on the couch? Be cooler. Iâm going to bring down my mattress. Come on! Keep the old man company. Canât tellâ âI might get scared of burglars. Lettinâ little fellow like me stay all alone by himself!â
âItâs sweet of you to think of it, but I like my own room so much. But you go ahead and do it, dear. Why donât you sleep on the couch, instead of putting your mattress on the floor? Well I believe Iâll run in and read for just a secondâ âwant to look at the last Vogueâ âand then perhaps Iâll go bye-bye. Unless you want me, dear? Of course if thereâs anything you really want me for?â
âNo. No.â ââ ⌠Matter of fact, I really ought to run down and see Mrs. Champ Perry. Sheâs ailing. So you skip in andâ âMay drop in at the drug store. If Iâm not home when you get sleepy, donât wait up for me.â
He kissed her, rambled off, nodded to Jim Howland, stopped indifferently to speak to Mrs. Terry Gould. But his heart was racing, his stomach was constricted. He walked more slowly. He reached Dave Dyerâs yard. He glanced in. On the porch, sheltered by a wild-grape vine, was the figure of a woman in white. He heard the swing-couch creak as she sat up abruptly, peered, then leaned back and pretended to relax.
âBe nice to have some cool beer. Just drop in for a second,â he insisted, as he opened the Dyer gate.
II
Mrs. Bogart was calling upon Carol, protected by Aunt Bessie Smail.
âHave you heard about this awful woman thatâs supposed to have come here to do dressmakingâ âa Mrs. Swiftwaiteâ âawful peroxide blonde?â moaned Mrs. Bogart. âThey say thereâs some of the awfullest goings-on at her houseâ âmere boys and old gray-headed rips sneaking in there evenings and drinking licker and every kind of goings-on. We women canât never realize the carnal thoughts in the hearts of men. I tell you, even though I been acquainted with Will Kennicott almost since he was a mere boy, seems like, I wouldnât trust even him! Who knows what designinâ women might tempt him! Especially a doctor, with women rushinâ in to see him at his office and all! You know I never hint around, but havenât you felt thatâ ââ
Carol was furious. âI donât pretend that Will has no faults. But one thing I do know: Heâs as simple-hearted about what you call âgoings-onâ as a babe. And if he ever were such a sad dog as to look at another woman, I certainly hope heâd have spirit enough to do the tempting, and not be coaxed into it, as in your depressing picture!â
âWhy, what a wicked thing to say, Carrie!â from Aunt Bessie.
âNo, I mean it! Oh, of course, I donât mean it! Butâ âI know every thought in his head so well that he couldnât hide anything even if he wanted to. Now this morningâ âHe was out late, last night; he had to go see Mrs. Perry, who is ailing, and then fix a manâs hand, and this morning he was so quiet and thoughtful at breakfast andâ ââ She leaned forward, breathed dramatically to the two perched harpies, âWhat do you suppose he was thinking of?â
âWhat?â trembled Mrs. Bogart.
âWhether the grass needs cutting, probably! There, there! Donât mind my naughtiness. I have some fresh-made raisin cookies for you.â
XXVI
I
Carolâs liveliest interest was in her walks with the baby. Hugh wanted to know what the box-elder tree said, and what the Ford garage said, and what the big cloud said, and she told him, with a feeling that she was not in the least making up stories, but discovering the souls of things. They had an especial fondness for the hitching-post in front of the mill. It was a brown post, stout and agreeable; the smooth leg of it held the sunlight, while its neck, grooved by hitching-straps, tickled oneâs fingers. Carol had never been awake to the earth except as a show of changing color and great satisfying masses; she had lived in people and in ideas about having ideas; but Hughâs questions made her attentive to the comedies of sparrows, robins, blue jays, yellowhammers; she regained her pleasure in the arching flight of swallows, and added to it a solicitude about their nests and family squabbles.
She forgot her seasons of boredom. She said to Hugh, âWeâre two fat disreputable old minstrels roaming round the world,â and he echoed her, âRoaminâ roundâ âroaminâ round.â
The high adventure, the secret place to which they both fled joyously, was the house of Miles and Bea and Olaf Bjornstam.
Kennicott steadily disapproved of the Bjornstams. He protested, âWhat do you want to talk to that crank for?â He hinted that a former âSwede hired girlâ was low company for the son of Dr. Will Kennicott. She did not explain. She did not quite understand it herself; did not know that in the Bjornstams she found her friends, her club, her sympathy and her ration of blessed cynicism. For a time the gossip of Juanita Haydock and the Jolly Seventeen had been a refuge from the droning of Aunt Bessie, but the relief had not continued. The young matrons made her nervous. They talked so loud, always so loud. They filled a room with clashing cackle; their jests and gags they repeated nine times over. Unconsciously, she had discarded the Jolly Seventeen, Guy Pollock, Vida, and everyone save Mrs. Dr. Westlake and the friends whom she did not clearly know as friendsâ âthe Bjornstams.
To Hugh, the Red Swede was the most heroic and powerful person in the world. With unrestrained adoration he trotted after while Miles fed the cows, chased his one pigâ âan animal of lax and migratory instinctsâ âor dramatically slaughtered a chicken. And to Hugh, Olaf was lord among mortal men, less stalwart than the old monarch, King Miles, but more understanding of the relations and values of things, of small sticks, lone playing-cards, and irretrievably injured hoops.
Carol saw, though she did not admit, that Olaf was not only more beautiful than her own dark child, but more gracious. Olaf was a Norse chieftain: straight, sunny-haired, large-limbed, resplendently amiable to his subjects. Hugh was a vulgarian; a bustling business man. It was Hugh that bounced and said âLetâs playâ; Olaf that opened luminous blue eyes and agreed âAll right,â in condescending gentleness. If Hugh batted himâ âand Hugh did bat himâ âOlaf was unafraid but shocked. In magnificent solitude he marched toward the house, while Hugh bewailed his sin and the overclouding of august favor.
The two friends played with an imperial chariot which Miles had made out of a starch-box and four red spools; together they stuck switches into a mouse-hole, with vast satisfaction though entirely without known results.
Bea, the chubby and humming Bea, impartially gave cookies and scoldings to both children, and if Carol refused a cup of coffee and a wafer of buttered knäckebrÜd, she was desolated.
Miles had done well with his dairy. He had six cows, two hundred chickens, a cream separator, a Ford truck. In the spring he had built a two-room addition to his shack. That illustrious building was to Hugh a carnival. Uncle Miles did the most spectacular, unexpected things: ran up the ladder; stood on the ridgepole, waving a hammer and singing something about âTo arms, my citizensâ; nailed shingles faster than Aunt Bessie could iron handkerchiefs; and lifted a two-by-six with Hugh riding on one end and Olaf on the other. Uncle Milesâs most ecstatic trick was to make figures not on paper but right on a new pine board, with the broadest softest pencil in the world. There was a thing worth seeing!
The tools! In his office Father had tools fascinating in their shininess and curious shapes, but they were sharp, they were something called âsterized,â and they distinctly were not for boys to touch. In fact it was a good dodge to volunteer âI must not touch,â when you looked at the tools on the glass shelves in Fatherâs office. But Uncle Miles, who was a person altogether superior to Father, let you handle all his kit except the saws. There was a hammer with a silver head; there was a metal thing like a big L; there was a magic instrument, very precious, made out of costly red wood and gold, with a tube which contained a dropâ âno, it wasnât a drop, it was a nothing, which lived in the water, but the nothing looked like a drop, and it ran in a frightened way up and down the tube, no matter how cautiously you tilted the magic instrument. And there were nails, very different and cleverâ âbig valiant spikes, middle-sized ones which were not very interesting, and shingle-nails much jollier than the fussed-up fairies in the yellow book.
II
While he had worked on the addition Miles had talked frankly to Carol. He admitted now that so long as he stayed in Gopher Prairie he would remain a pariah. Beaâs Lutheran friends were as much offended by his agnostic gibes as the merchants by his radicalism. âAnd I canât seem to keep my mouth shut. I think Iâm being a baa-lamb, and not springing any theories wilder than âc-a-t spells cat,â but when folks have gone, I reâlize Iâve been stepping on their pet religious corns. Oh, the mill foreman keeps dropping in, and that Danish shoemaker, and one fellow from Elderâs factory, and a few Svenskas, but you know Bea: big good-hearted wench like her wants a lot of folks aroundâ âlikes to fuss over âemâ ânever satisfied unless she tiring herself out making coffee for somebody.
âOnce she kidnapped me and drug me to the Methodist Church. I goes in, pious as Widow Bogart, and sits still and never cracks a smile while the preacher is favoring us with his misinformation on evolution. But afterwards, when the old stalwarts were pumphandling everybody at the door and calling âem âBrotherâ and âSister,â they let me sail right by with nary a clinch. They figure Iâm the town badman. Always will be, I guess. Itâll have to be Olaf who goes on. And sometimesâ âBlamed if I donât feel like coming out and saying, âIâve been conservative. Nothing to it. Now Iâm going to start something in these rotten one-horse lumber-camps west of town.â But Beaâs got me hypnotized. Lord, Mrs. Kennicott, do you reâlize what a jolly, square, faithful woman she is? And I love Olafâ âOh well, I wonât go and get sentimental on you.
âCourse Iâve had thoughts of pulling up stakes and going West. Maybe if they didnât know it beforehand, they wouldnât find out Iâd ever been guilty of trying to think for myself. Butâ âoh, Iâve worked hard, and built up this dairy business, and I hate to start all over again, and move Bea and the kid into another one-room shack. Thatâs how they get us! Encourage us to be thrifty and own our own houses, and then, by golly, theyâve got us; they know we wonât dare risk everything by committing lezâ âwhat is it? lez majesty?â âI mean they know we wonât be hinting around that if we had a cooperative bank, we could get along without Stowbody. Wellâ âAs long as I can sit and play pinochle with Bea, and tell whoppers to Olaf about his daddyâs adventures in the woods, and how he snared a wapaloosie and knew Paul Bunyan, why, I donât mind being a bum. Itâs just for them that I mind. Say! Say! Donât whisper a word to Bea, but when I get this addition done, Iâm going to buy her a phonograph!â
He did.
While she was busy with the activities her work-hungry muscles foundâ âwashing, ironing, mending, baking, dusting, preserving, plucking a chicken, painting the sink; tasks which, because she was Milesâs full partner, were exciting and creativeâ âBea listened to the phonograph records with rapture like that of cattle in a warm stable. The addition gave her a kitchen with a bedroom above. The original one-room shack was now a living-room, with the phonograph, a genuine leather-upholstered golden-oak rocker, and a picture of Governor John Johnson.
In late July Carol went to the Bjornstamsâ desirous of a chance to express her opinion of Beavers and Calibrees and Joralemons. She found Olaf abed, restless from a slight fever, and Bea flushed and dizzy but trying to keep up her work. She lured Miles aside and worried:
âThey donât look at all well. Whatâs the matter?â
âTheir stomachs are out of whack. I wanted to call in Doc Kennicott, but Bea thinks the doc doesnât like usâ âshe thinks maybe heâs sore because you come down here. But Iâm getting worried.â
âIâm going to call the doctor at once.â
She yearned over Olaf. His lambent eyes were stupid, he moaned, he rubbed his forehead.
âHave they been eating something thatâs been bad for them?â she fluttered to Miles.
âMight be bum water. Iâll tell you: We used to get our water at Oscar Eklundâs place, over across the street, but Oscar kept dinging at me, and hinting I was a tightwad not to dig a well of my own. One time he said, âSure, you socialists are great on divvying up other folksâ moneyâ âand water!â I knew if he kept it up thereâd be a fuss, and I ainât safe to have around, once a fuss starts; Iâm likely to forget myself and let loose with a punch in the snoot. I offered to pay Oscar but he refusedâ âheâd rather have the chance to kid me. So I starts getting water down at Mrs. Fagerosâs, in the hollow there, and I donât believe itâs real good. Figuring to dig my own well this fall.â
One scarlet word was before Carolâs eyes while she listened. She fled to Kennicottâs office. He gravely heard her out; nodded, said, âBe right over.â
He examined Bea and Olaf. He shook his head. âYes. Looks to me like typhoid.â
âGolly, Iâve seen typhoid in lumber-camps,â groaned Miles, all the strength dripping out of him. âHave they got it very bad?â
âOh, weâll take good care of them,â said Kennicott, and for the first time in their acquaintance he smiled on Miles and clapped his shoulder.
âWonât you need a nurse?â demanded Carol.
âWhyâ ââ To Miles, Kennicott hinted, âCouldnât you get Beaâs cousin, Tina?â
âSheâs down at the old folksâ, in the country.â
âThen let me do it!â Carol insisted. âThey need someone to cook for them, and isnât it good to give them sponge baths, in typhoid?â
âYes. All right.â Kennicott was automatic; he was the official, the physician. âI guess probably it would be hard to get a nurse here in town just now. Mrs. Stiver is busy with an obstetrical case, and that town nurse of yours is off on vacation, ainât she? All right, Bjornstam can spell you at night.â
All week, from eight each morning till midnight, Carol fed them, bathed them, smoothed sheets, took temperatures. Miles refused to let her cook. Terrified, pallid, noiseless in stocking feet, he did the kitchen work and the sweeping, his big red hands awkwardly careful. Kennicott came in three times a day, unchangingly tender and hopeful in the sickroom, evenly polite to Miles.
Carol understood how great was her love for her friends. It bore her through; it made her arm steady and tireless to bathe them. What exhausted her was the sight of Bea and Olaf turned into flaccid invalids, uncomfortably flushed after taking food, begging for the healing of sleep at night.
During the second week Olafâs powerful legs were flabby. Spots of a viciously delicate pink came out on his chest and back. His cheeks sank. He looked frightened. His tongue was brown and revolting. His confident voice dwindled to a bewildered murmur, ceaseless and racking.
Bea had stayed on her feet too long at the beginning. The moment Kennicott had ordered her to bed she had begun to collapse. One early evening she startled them by screaming, in an intense abdominal pain, and within half an hour she was in a delirium. Till dawn Carol was with her, and not all of Beaâs groping through the blackness of half-delirious pain was so pitiful to Carol as the way in which Miles silently peered into the room from the top of the narrow stairs. Carol slept three hours next morning, and ran back. Bea was altogether delirious but she muttered nothing save, âOlafâ âve have such a good timeâ ââ
At ten, while Carol was preparing an ice-bag in the kitchen, Miles answered a knock. At the front door she saw Vida Sherwin, Maud Dyer, and Mrs. Zitterel, wife of the Baptist pastor. They were carrying grapes, and womenâs-magazines, magazines with high-colored pictures and optimistic fiction.
âWe just heard your wife was sick. Weâve come to see if there isnât something we can do,â chirruped Vida.
Miles looked steadily at the three women. âYouâre too late. You canât do nothing now. Beaâs always kind of hoped that you folks would come see her. She wanted to have a chance and be friends. She used to sit waiting for somebody to knock. Iâve seen her sitting here, waiting. Nowâ âOh, you ainât worth God-damning.â He shut the door.
All day Carol watched Olafâs strength oozing. He was emaciated. His ribs were grim clear lines, his skin was clammy, his pulse was feeble but terrifyingly rapid. It beatâ âbeatâ âbeat in a drum-roll of death. Late that afternoon he sobbed, and died.
Bea did not know it. She was delirious. Next morning, when she went, she did not know that Olaf would no longer swing his lath sword on the doorstep, no longer rule his subjects of the cattle-yard; that Milesâs son would not go East to college.
Miles, Carol, Kennicott were silent. They washed the bodies together, their eyes veiled.
âGo home now and sleep. Youâre pretty tired. I canât ever pay you back for what you done,â Miles whispered to Carol.
âYes. But Iâll be back here tomorrow. Go with you to the funeral,â she said laboriously.
When the time for the funeral came, Carol was in bed, collapsed. She assumed that neighbors would go. They had not told her that word of Milesâs rebuff to Vida had spread through town, a cyclonic fury.
It was only by chance that, leaning on her elbow in bed, she glanced through the window and saw the funeral of Bea and Olaf. There was no music, no carriages. There was only Miles Bjornstam, in his black wedding-suit, walking quite alone, head down, behind the shabby hearse that bore the bodies of his wife and baby.
An hour after, Hugh came into her room crying, and when she said as cheerily as she could, âWhat is it, dear?â he besought, âMummy, I want to go play with Olaf.â
That afternoon Juanita Haydock dropped in to brighten Carol. She said, âToo bad about this Bea that was your hired girl. But I donât waste any sympathy on that man of hers. Everybody says he drank too much, and treated his family awful, and thatâs how they got sick.â
XXVII
I
A letter from Raymie Wutherspoon, in France, said that he had been sent to the front, been slightly wounded, been made a captain. From Vidaâs pride Carol sought to draw a stimulant to rouse her from depression.
Miles had sold his dairy. He had several thousand dollars. To Carol he said goodbye with a mumbled word, a harsh handshake, âGoing to buy a farm in northern Albertaâ âfar off from folks as I can get.â He turned sharply away, but he did not walk with his former spring. His shoulders seemed old.
It was said that before he went he cursed the town. There was talk of arresting him, of riding him on a rail. It was rumored that at the station old Champ Perry rebuked him, âYou better not come back here. Weâve got respect for your dead, but we havenât got any for a blasphemer and a traitor that wonât do anything for his country and only bought one Liberty Bond.â
Some of the people who had been at the station declared that Miles made some dreadful seditious retort: something about loving German workmen more than American bankers; but others asserted that he couldnât find one word with which to answer the veteran; that he merely sneaked up on the platform of the train. He must have felt guilty, everybody agreed, for as the train left town, a farmer saw him standing in the vestibule and looking out.
His houseâ âwith the addition which he had built four months agoâ âwas very near the track on which his train passed.
When Carol went there, for the last time, she found Olafâs chariot with its red spool wheels standing in the sunny corner beside the stable. She wondered if a quick eye could have noticed it from a train.
That day and that week she went reluctantly to Red Cross work; she stitched and packed silently, while Vida read the war bulletins. And she said nothing at all when Kennicott commented, âFrom what Champ says, I guess Bjornstam was a bad egg, after all. In spite of Bea, donât know but what the citizensâ committee ought to have forced him to be patrioticâ âlet on like they could send him to jail if he didnât volunteer and come through for bonds and the Y.M.C.A. Theyâve worked that stunt fine with all these German farmers.â
II
She found no inspiration but she did find a dependable kindness in Mrs. Westlake, and at last she yielded to the old womanâs receptivity and had relief in sobbing the story of Bea.
Guy Pollock she often met on the street, but he was merely a pleasant voice which said things about Charles Lamb and sunsets.
Her most positive experience was the revelation of Mrs. Flickerbaugh, the tall, thin, twitchy wife of the attorney. Carol encountered her at the drug store.
âWalking?â snapped Mrs. Flickerbaugh.
âWhy, yes.â
âHumph. Guess youâre the only female in this town that retains the use of her legs. Come home and have a cup oâ tea with me.â
Because she had nothing else to do, Carol went. But she was uncomfortable in the presence of the amused stares which Mrs. Flickerbaughâs raiment drew. Today, in reeking early August, she wore a manâs cap, a skinny fur like a dead cat, a necklace of imitation pearls, a scabrous satin blouse, and a thick cloth skirt hiked up in front.
âCome in. Sit down. Stick the baby in that rocker. Hope you donât mind the house looking like a ratâs nest. You donât like this town. Neither do I,â said Mrs. Flickerbaugh.
âWhyâ ââ
âCourse you donât!â
âWell then, I donât! But Iâm sure that some day Iâll find some solution. Probably Iâm a hexagonal peg. Solution: find the hexagonal hole.â Carol was very brisk.
âHow do you know you ever will find it?â
âThereâs Mrs. Westlake. Sheâs naturally a big-city womanâ âshe ought to have a lovely old house in Philadelphia or Bostonâ âbut she escapes by being absorbed in reading.â
âYou be satisfied to never do anything but read?â
âNo, but Heavens, one canât go on hating a town always!â
âWhy not? I can! Iâve hated it for thirty-two years. Iâll die hereâ âand Iâll hate it till I die. I ought to have been a business woman. I had a good deal of talent for tending to figures. All gone now. Some folks think Iâm crazy. Guess I am. Sit and grouch. Go to church and sing hymns. Folks think Iâm religious. Tut! Trying to forget washing and ironing and mending socks. Want an office of my own, and sell things. Julius never hear of it. Too late.â
Carol sat on the gritty couch, and sank into fear. Could this drabness of life keep up forever, then? Would she some day so despise herself and her neighbors that she too would walk Main Street an old skinny eccentric woman in a mangy catâs-fur? As she crept home she felt that the trap had finally closed. She went into the house, a frail small woman, still winsome but hopeless of eye as she staggered with the weight of the drowsy boy in her arms.
She sat alone on the porch, that evening. It seemed that Kennicott had to make a professional call on Mrs. Dave Dyer.
Under the stilly boughs and the black gauze of dusk the street was meshed in silence. There was but the hum of motor tires crunching the road, the creak of a rocker on the Howlandsâ porch, the slap of a hand attacking a mosquito, a heat-weary conversation starting and dying, the precise rhythm of crickets, the thud of moths against the screenâ âsounds that were a distilled silence. It was a street beyond the end of the world, beyond the boundaries of hope. Though she should sit here forever, no brave procession, no one who was interesting, would be coming by. It was tediousness made tangible, a street builded of lassitude and of futility.
Myrtle Cass appeared, with Cy Bogart. She giggled and bounced when Cy tickled her ear in village love. They strolled with the half-dancing gait of lovers, kicking their feet out sideways or shuffling a dragging jig, and the concrete walk sounded to the broken two-four rhythm. Their voices had a dusky turbulence. Suddenly, to the woman rocking on the porch of the doctorâs house, the night came alive, and she felt that everywhere in the darkness panted an ardent quest which she was missing as she sank back to wait forâ âThere must be something.
XXVIII
I
It was at a supper of the Jolly Seventeen in August that Carol heard of âElizabeth,â from Mrs. Dave Dyer.
Carol was fond of Maud Dyer, because she had been particularly agreeable lately; had obviously repented of the nervous distaste which she had once shown. Maud patted her hand when they met, and asked about Hugh.
Kennicott said that he was âkind of sorry for the girl, some ways; sheâs too darn emotional, but still, Dave is sort of mean to her.â He was polite to poor Maud when they all went down to the cottages for a swim. Carol was proud of that sympathy in him, and now she took pains to sit with their new friend.
Mrs. Dyer was bubbling, âOh, have you folks heard about this young fellow thatâs just come to town that the boys call âElizabethâ? Heâs working in Nat Hicksâs tailor shop. I bet he doesnât make eighteen a week, but my! isnât he the perfect lady though! He talks so refined, and oh, the lugs he puts onâ âbelted coat, and piquĂŠ collar with a gold pin, and socks to match his necktie, and honestâ âyou wonât believe this, but I got it straightâ âthis fellow, you know heâs staying at Mrs. Gurreyâs punk old boardinghouse, and they say he asked Mrs. Gurrey if he ought to put on a dress-suit for supper! Imagine! Can you beat that? And him nothing but a Swede tailorâ âErik Valborg his name is. But he used to be in a tailor shop in Minneapolis (they do say heâs a smart needle-pusher, at that) and he tries to let on that heâs a regular city fellow. They say he tries to make people think heâs a poetâ âcarries books around and pretends to read âem. Myrtle Cass says she met him at a dance, and he was mooning around all over the place, and he asked her did she like flowers and poetry and music and everything; he spieled like he was a regular United States Senator; and Myrtleâ âsheâs a devil, that girl, ha! ha!â âshe kidded him along, and got him going, and honest, what dâyou think he said? He said he didnât find any intellectual companionship in this town. Can you beat it? Imagine! And him a Swede tailor! My! And they say heâs the most awful mollycoddleâ âlooks just like a girl. The boys call him âElizabeth,â and they stop him and ask about the books he lets on to have read, and he goes and tells them, and they take it all in and jolly him terribly, and he never gets onto the fact theyâre kidding him. Oh, I think itâs just too funny!â
The Jolly Seventeen laughed, and Carol laughed with them. Mrs. Jack Elder added that this Erik Valborg had confided to Mrs. Gurrey that he would âlove to design clothes for women.â Imagine! Mrs. Harvey Dillon had had a glimpse of him, but honestly, sheâd thought he was awfully handsome. This was instantly controverted by Mrs. B. J. Gougerling, wife of the banker. Mrs. Gougerling had had, she reported, a good look at this Valborg fellow. She and B. J. had been motoring, and passed âElizabethâ out by McGruderâs Bridge. He was wearing the awfullest clothes, with the waist pinched in like a girlâs. He was sitting on a rock doing nothing, but when he heard the Gougerling car coming he snatched a book out of his pocket, and as they went by he pretended to be reading it, to show off. And he wasnât really good-lookingâ âjust kind of soft, as B. J. had pointed out.
When the husbands came they joined in the exposĂŠ. âMy name is Elizabeth. Iâm the celebrated musical tailor. The skirts fall for me by the thou. Do I get some more veal loaf?â merrily shrieked Dave Dyer. He had some admirable stories about the tricks the town youngsters had played on Valborg. They had dropped a decaying perch into his pocket. They had pinned on his back a sign, âIâm the prize boob, kick me.â
Glad of any laughter, Carol joined the frolic, and surprised them by crying, âDave, I do think youâre the dearest thing since you got your hair cut!â That was an excellent sally. Everybody applauded. Kennicott looked proud.
She decided that sometime she really must go out of her way to pass Hicksâs shop and see this freak.
II
She was at Sunday morning service at the Baptist Church, in a solemn row with her husband, Hugh, Uncle Whittier, Aunt Bessie.
Despite Aunt Bessieâs nagging the Kennicotts rarely attended church. The doctor asserted, âSure, religion is a fine influenceâ âgot to have it to keep the lower classes in orderâ âfact, itâs the only thing that appeals to a lot of those fellows and makes âem respect the rights of property. And I guess this theology is OK; lot of wise old coots figured it all out, and they knew more about it than we do.â He believed in the Christian religion, and never thought about it, he believed in the church, and seldom went near it; he was shocked by Carolâs lack of faith, and wasnât quite sure what was the nature of the faith that she lacked.
Carol herself was an uneasy and dodging agnostic.
When she ventured to Sunday School and heard the teachers droning that the genealogy of Shamsherai was a valuable ethical problem for children to think about; when she experimented with Wednesday prayer-meeting and listened to store-keeping elders giving their unvarying weekly testimony in primitive erotic symbols and such gory Chaldean phrases as âwashed in the blood of the lambâ and âa vengeful Godâ; when Mrs. Bogart boasted that through his boyhood she had made Cy confess nightly upon the basis of the Ten Commandments; then Carol was dismayed to find the Christian religion, in America, in the twentieth century, as abnormal as Zoroastrianismâ âwithout the splendor. But when she went to church suppers and felt the friendliness, saw the gaiety with which the sisters served cold ham and scalloped potatoes; when Mrs. Champ Perry cried to her, on an afternoon call, âMy dear, if you just knew how happy it makes you to come into abiding grace,â then Carol found the humanness behind the sanguinary and alien theology. Always she perceived that the churchesâ âMethodist, Baptist, Congregational, Catholic, all of themâ âwhich had seemed so unimportant to the judgeâs home in her childhood, so isolated from the city struggle in St. Paul, were still, in Gopher Prairie, the strongest of the forces compelling respectability.
This August Sunday she had been tempted by the announcement that the Reverend Edmund Zitterel would preach on the topic âAmerica, Face Your Problems!â With the great war, workmen in every nation showing a desire to control industries, Russia hinting a leftward revolution against Kerensky, woman suffrage coming, there seemed to be plenty of problems for the Reverend Mr. Zitterel to call on America to face. Carol gathered her family and trotted off behind Uncle Whittier.
The congregation faced the heat with informality. Men with highly plastered hair, so painfully shaved that their faces looked sore, removed their coats, sighed, and unbuttoned two buttons of their uncreased Sunday vests. Large-bosomed, white-bloused, hot-necked, spectacled matronsâ âthe Mothers in Israel, pioneers and friends of Mrs. Champ Perryâ âwaved their palm-leaf fans in a steady rhythm. Abashed boys slunk into the rear pews and giggled, while milky little girls, up front with their mothers, self-consciously kept from turning around.
The church was half barn and half Gopher Prairie parlor. The streaky brown wallpaper was broken in its dismal sweep only by framed texts, âCome unto Meâ and âThe Lord is My Shepherd,â by a list of hymns, and by a crimson and green diagram, staggeringly drawn upon hemp-colored paper, indicating the alarming ease with which a young man may descend from Palaces of Pleasure and the House of Pride to Eternal Damnation. But the varnished oak pews and the new red carpet and the three large chairs on the platform, behind the bare reading-stand, were all of a rocking-chair comfort.
Carol was civic and neighborly and commendable today. She beamed and bowed. She trolled out with the others the hymn:
How pleasant âtis on Sabbath morn
To gather in the church
And there Iâll have no carnal thoughts,
Nor sin shall me besmirch.
With a rustle of starched linen skirts and stiff shirtfronts, the congregation sat down, and gave heed to the Reverend Mr. Zitterel. The priest was a thin, swart, intense young man with a bang. He wore a black sack suit and a lilac tie. He smote the enormous Bible on the reading-stand, vociferated, âCome, let us reason together,â delivered a prayer informing Almighty God of the news of the past week, and began to reason.
It proved that the only problems which America had to face were Mormonism and Prohibition:
âDonât let any of these self-conceited fellows that are always trying to stir up trouble deceive you with the belief that thereâs anything to all these smart-aleck movements to let the unions and the Farmersâ Nonpartisan League kill all our initiative and enterprise by fixing wages and prices. There isnât any movement that amounts to a whoop without itâs got a moral background. And let me tell you that while folks are fussing about what they call âeconomicsâ and âsocialismâ and âscienceâ and a lot of things that are nothing in the world but a disguise for atheism, the Old Satan is busy spreading his secret net and tentacles out there in Utah, under his guise of Joe Smith or Brigham Young or whoever their leaders happen to be today, it doesnât make any difference, and theyâre making game of the Old Bible that has led this American people through its manifold trials and tribulations to its firm position as the fulfilment of the prophecies and the recognized leader of all nations. âSit thou on my right hand till I make thine enemies the footstool of my feet,â said the Lord of Hosts, Acts II, the thirty-fourth verseâ âand let me tell you right now, you got to get up a good deal earlier in the morning than you get up even when youâre going fishing, if you want to be smarter than the Lord, who has shown us the straight and narrow way, and he that passeth therefrom is in eternal peril and, to return to this vital and terrible subject of Mormonismâ âand as I say, it is terrible to realize how little attention is given to this evil right here in our midst and on our very doorstep, as it wereâ âitâs a shame and a disgrace that the Congress of these United States spends all its time talking about inconsequential financial matters that ought to be left to the Treasury Department, as I understand it, instead of arising in their might and passing a law that anyone admitting he is a Mormon shall simply be deported and as it were kicked out of this free country in which we havenât got any room for polygamy and the tyrannies of Satan.
âAnd, to digress for a moment, especially as there are more of them in this state than there are Mormons, though you never can tell what will happen with this vain generation of young girls, that think more about wearing silk stockings than about minding their mothers and learning to bake a good loaf of bread, and many of them listening to these sneaking Mormon missionariesâ âand I actually heard one of them talking right out on a street-corner in Duluth, a few years ago, and the officers of the law not protestingâ âbut still, as they are a smaller but more immediate problem, let me stop for just a moment to pay my respects to these Seventh-Day Adventists. Not that they are immoral, I donât mean, but when a body of men go on insisting that Saturday is the Sabbath, after Christ himself has clearly indicated the new dispensation, then I think the legislature ought to step inâ ââ
At this point Carol awoke.
She got through three more minutes by studying the face of a girl in the pew across: a sensitive unhappy girl whose longing poured out with intimidating self-revelation as she worshiped Mr. Zitterel. Carol wondered who the girl was. She had seen her at church suppers. She considered how many of the three thousand people in the town she did not know; to how many of them the Thanatopsis and the Jolly Seventeen were icy social peaks; how many of them might be toiling through boredom thicker than her ownâ âwith greater courage.
She examined her nails. She read two hymns. She got some satisfaction out of rubbing an itching knuckle. She pillowed on her shoulder the head of the baby who, after killing time in the same manner as his mother, was so fortunate as to fall asleep. She read the introduction, title-page, and acknowledgment of copyrights, in the hymnal. She tried to evolve a philosophy which would explain why Kennicott could never tie his scarf so that it would reach the top of the gap in his turndown collar.
There were no other diversions to be found in the pew. She glanced back at the congregation. She thought that it would be amiable to bow to Mrs. Champ Perry.
Her slow turning head stopped, galvanized.
Across the aisle, two rows back, was a strange young man who shone among the cud-chewing citizens like a visitant from the sunâ âamber curls, low forehead, fine nose, chin smooth but not raw from Sabbath shaving. His lips startled her. The lips of men in Gopher Prairie are flat in the face, straight and grudging. The strangerâs mouth was arched, the upper lip short. He wore a brown jersey coat, a delft-blue bow, a white silk shirt, white flannel trousers. He suggested the ocean beach, a tennis court, anything but the sun-blistered utility of Main Street.
A visitor from Minneapolis, here for business? No. He wasnât a business man. He was a poet. Keats was in his face, and Shelley, and Arthur Upson, whom she had once seen in Minneapolis. He was at once too sensitive and too sophisticated to touch business as she knew it in Gopher Prairie.
With restrained amusement he was analyzing the noisy Mr. Zitterel. Carol was ashamed to have this spy from the Great World hear the pastorâs maundering. She felt responsible for the town. She resented his gaping at their private rites. She flushed, turned away. But she continued to feel his presence.
How could she meet him? She must! For an hour of talk. He was all that she was hungry for. She could not let him get away without a wordâ âand she would have to. She pictured, and ridiculed, herself as walking up to him and remarking, âI am sick with the Village Virus. Will you please tell me what people are saying and playing in New York?â She pictured, and groaned over, the expression of Kennicott if she should say, âWhy wouldnât it be reasonable for you, my soul, to ask that complete stranger in the brown jersey coat to come to supper tonight?â
She brooded, not looking back. She warned herself that she was probably exaggerating; that no young man could have all these exalted qualities. Wasnât he too obviously smart, too glossy-new? Like a movie actor. Probably he was a traveling salesman who sang tenor and fancied himself in imitations of Newport clothes and spoke of âthe swellest business proposition that ever came down the pike.â In a panic she peered at him. No! This was no hustling salesman, this boy with the curving Grecian lips and the serious eyes.
She rose after the service, carefully taking Kennicottâs arm and smiling at him in a mute assertion that she was devoted to him no matter what happened. She followed the Mysteryâs soft brown jersey shoulders out of the church.
Fatty Hicks, the shrill and puffy son of Nat, flapped his hand at the beautiful stranger and jeered, âHowâs the kid? All dolled up like a plush horse today, ainât we!â
Carol was exceeding sick. Her herald from the outside was Erik Valborg, âElizabeth.â Apprentice tailor! Gasoline and hot goose! Mending dirty jackets! Respectfully holding a tape-measure about a paunch!
And yet, she insisted, this boy was also himself.
III
They had Sunday dinner with the Smails, in a dining-room which centered about a fruit and flower piece and a crayon-enlargement of Uncle Whittier. Carol did not heed Aunt Bessieâs fussing in regard to Mrs. Robert B. Schminkeâs bead necklace and Whittierâs error in putting on the striped pants, day like this. She did not taste the shreds of roast pork. She said vacuously:
âUhâ âWill, I wonder if that young man in the white flannel trousers, at church this morning, was this Valborg person that theyâre all talking about?â
âYump. Thatâs him. Wasnât that the darndest getup he had on!â Kennicott scratched at a white smear on his hard gray sleeve.
âIt wasnât so bad. I wonder where he comes from? He seems to have lived in cities a good deal. Is he from the East?â
âThe East? Him? Why, he comes from a farm right up north here, just this side of Jefferson. I know his father slightlyâ âAdolph Valborgâ âtypical cranky old Swede farmer.â
âOh, really?â blandly.
âBelieve he has lived in Minneapolis for quite some time, though. Learned his trade there. And I will say heâs bright, some ways. Reads a lot. Pollock says he takes more books out of the library than anybody else in town. Huh! Heâs kind of like you in that!â
The Smails and Kennicott laughed very much at this sly jest. Uncle Whittier seized the conversation. âThat fellow thatâs working for Hicks? Milksop, thatâs what he is. Makes me tired to see a young fellow that ought to be in the war, or anyway out in the fields earning his living honest, like I done when I was young, doing a womanâs work and then come out and dress up like a show-actor! Why, when I was his ageâ ââ
Carol reflected that the carving-knife would make an excellent dagger with which to kill Uncle Whittier. It would slide in easily. The headlines would be terrible.
Kennicott said judiciously, âOh, I donât want to be unjust to him. I believe he took his physical examination for military service. Got varicose veinsâ ânot bad, but enough to disqualify him. Though I will say he doesnât look like a fellow that would be so awful darn crazy to poke his bayonet into a Hunâs guts.â
âWill! Please!â
âWell, he donât. Looks soft to me. And they say he told Del Snafflin, when he was getting a haircut on Saturday, that he wished he could play the piano.â
âIsnât it wonderful how much we all know about one another in a town like this,â said Carol innocently.
Kennicott was suspicious, but Aunt Bessie, serving the floating island pudding, agreed, âYes, it is wonderful. Folks can get away with all sorts of meannesses and sins in these terrible cities, but they canât here. I was noticing this tailor fellow this morning, and when Mrs. Riggs offered to share her hymnbook with him, he shook his head, and all the while we was singing he just stood there like a bump on a log and never opened his mouth. Everybody says heâs got an idea that heâs got so much better manners and all than what the rest of us have, but if thatâs what he calls good manners, I want to know!â
Carol again studied the carving-knife. Blood on the whiteness of a tablecloth might be gorgeous.
Then:
âFool! Neurotic impossibilist! Telling yourself orchard fairytalesâ âat thirty.â ââ ⌠Dear Lord, am I really thirty? That boy canât be more than twenty-five.â
IV
She went calling.
Boarding with the Widow Bogart was Fern Mullins, a girl of twenty-two who was to be teacher of English, French, and gymnastics in the high school this coming session. Fern Mullins had come to town early, for the six-weeks normal course for country teachers. Carol had noticed her on the street, had heard almost as much about her as about Erik Valborg. She was tall, weedy, pretty, and incurably rakish. Whether she wore a low middy collar or dressed reticently for school in a black suit with a high-necked blouse, she was airy, flippant. âShe looks like an absolute totty,â said all the Mrs. Sam Clarks, disapprovingly, and all the Juanita Haydocks, enviously.
That Sunday evening, sitting in baggy canvas lawn-chairs beside the house, the Kennicotts saw Fern laughing with Cy Bogart who, though still a junior in high school, was now a lump of a man, only two or three years younger than Fern. Cy had to go downtown for weighty matters connected with the pool-parlor. Fern drooped on the Bogart porch, her chin in her hands.
âShe looks lonely,â said Kennicott.
âShe does, poor soul. I believe Iâll go over and speak to her. I was introduced to her at Daveâs but I havenât called.â Carol was slipping across the lawn, a white figure in the dimness, faintly brushing the dewy grass. She was thinking of Erik and of the fact that her feet were wet, and she was casual in her greeting: âHello! The doctor and I wondered if you were lonely.â
Resentfully, âI am!â
Carol concentrated on her. âMy dear, you sound so! I know how it is. I used to be tired when I was on the jobâ âI was a librarian. What was your college? I was Blodgett.â
More interestedly, âI went to the U.â Fern meant the University of Minnesota.
âYou must have had a splendid time. Blodgett was a bit dull.â
âWhere were you a librarian?â challengingly.
âSt. Paulâ âthe main library.â
âHonest? Oh dear, I wish I was back in the Cities! This is my first year of teaching, and Iâm scared stiff. I did have the best time in college: dramatics and basketball and fussing and dancingâ âIâm simply crazy about dancing. And here, except when I have the kids in gymnasium class, or when Iâm chaperoning the basketball team on a trip out-of-town, I wonât dare to move above a whisper. I guess they donât care much if you put any pep into teaching or not, as long as you look like a Good Influence out of school-hoursâ âand that means never doing anything you want to. This normal course is bad enough, but the regular school will be fierce! If it wasnât too late to get a job in the Cities, I swear Iâd resign here. I bet I wonât dare to go to a single dance all winter. If I cut loose and danced the way I like to, theyâd think I was a perfect hellionâ âpoor harmless me! Oh, I oughtnât to be talking like this. Fern, you never could be cagey!â
âDonât be frightened, my dear!â ââ ⌠Doesnât that sound atrociously old and kind! Iâm talking to you the way Mrs. Westlake talks to me! Thatâs having a husband and a kitchen range, I suppose. But I feel young, and I want to dance like aâ âlike a hellion?â âtoo. So I sympathize.â
Fern made a sound of gratitude. Carol inquired, âWhat experience did you have with college dramatics? I tried to start a kind of Little Theater here. It was dreadful. I must tell you about itâ ââ
Two hours later, when Kennicott came over to greet Fern and to yawn, âLook here, Carrie, donât you suppose you better be thinking about turning in? Iâve got a hard day tomorrow,â the two were talking so intimately that they constantly interrupted each other.
As she went respectably home, convoyed by a husband, and decorously holding up her skirts, Carol rejoiced, âEverything has changed! I have two friends, Fern andâ âBut whoâs the other? Thatâs queer; I thought there wasâ âOh, how absurd!â
V
She often passed Erik Valborg on the street; the brown jersey coat became unremarkable. When she was driving with Kennicott, in early evening, she saw him on the lake shore, reading a thin book which might easily have been poetry. She noted that he was the only person in the motorized town who still took long walks.
She told herself that she was the daughter of a judge, the wife of a doctor, and that she did not care to know a capering tailor. She told herself that she was not responsive to menâ ââ ⌠not even to Percy Bresnahan. She told herself that a woman of thirty who heeded a boy of twenty-five was ridiculous. And on Friday, when she had convinced herself that the errand was necessary, she went to Nat Hicksâs shop, bearing the not very romantic burden of a pair of her husbandâs trousers. Hicks was in the back room. She faced the Greek god who, in a somewhat ungodlike way, was stitching a coat on a scaley sewing-machine, in a room of smutted plaster walls.
She saw that his hands were not in keeping with a Hellenic face. They were thick, roughened with needle and hot iron and plow-handle. Even in the shop he persisted in his finery. He wore a silk shirt, a topaz scarf, thin tan shoes.
This she absorbed while she was saying curtly, âCan I get these pressed, please?â
Not rising from the sewing-machine he stuck out his hand, mumbled, âWhen do you want them?â
âOh, Monday.â
The adventure was over. She was marching out.
âWhat name?â he called after her.
He had risen and, despite the farcicality of Dr. Will Kennicottâs bulgy trousers draped over his arm, he had the grace of a cat.
âKennicott.â
âKennicott. Oh! Oh say, youâre Mrs. Dr. Kennicott then, arenât you?â
âYes.â She stood at the door. Now that she had carried out her preposterous impulse to see what he was like, she was cold, she was as ready to detect familiarities as the virtuous Miss Ella Stowbody.
âIâve heard about you. Myrtle Cass was saying you got up a dramatic club and gave a dandy play. Iâve always wished I had a chance to belong to a Little Theater, and give some European plays, or whimsical like Barrie, or a pageant.â
He pronounced it âpagentâ; he rhymed âpagâ with ârag.â
Carol nodded in the manner of a lady being kind to a tradesman, and one of her selves sneered, âOur Erik is indeed a lost John Keats.â
He was appealing, âDo you suppose it would be possible to get up another dramatic club this coming fall?â
âWell, it might be worth thinking of.â She came out of her several conflicting poses, and said sincerely, âThereâs a new teacher, Miss Mullins, who might have some talent. That would make three of us for a nucleus. If we could scrape up half a dozen we might give a real play with a small cast. Have you had any experience?â
âJust a bum club that some of us got up in Minneapolis when I was working there. We had one good man, an interior decoratorâ âmaybe he was kind of sis and effeminate, but he really was an artist, and we gave one dandy play. But Iâ âOf course Iâve always had to work hard, and study by myself, and Iâm probably sloppy, and Iâd love it if I had training in rehearsingâ âI mean, the crankier the director was, the better Iâd like it. If you didnât want to use me as an actor, Iâd love to design the costumes. Iâm crazy about fabricsâ âtextures and colors and designs.â
She knew that he was trying to keep her from going, trying to indicate that he was something more than a person to whom one brought trousers for pressing. He besought:
âSome day I hope I can get away from this fool repairing, when I have the money saved up. I want to go East and work for some big dressmaker, and study art drawing, and become a high-class designer. Or do you think thatâs a kind of fiddlinâ ambition for a fellow? I was brought up on a farm. And then monkeyinâ round with silks! I donât know. What do you think? Myrtle Cass says youâre awfully educated.â
âI am. Awfully. Tell me: Have the boys made fun of your ambition?â
She was seventy years old, and sexless, and more advisory than Vida Sherwin.
âWell, they have, at that. Theyâve jollied me a good deal, here and Minneapolis both. They say dressmaking is ladiesâ work. (But I was willing to get drafted for the war! I tried to get in. But they rejected me. But I did try! ) I thought some of working up in a gentsâ furnishings store, and I had a chance to travel on the road for a clothing house, but somehowâ âI hate this tailoring, but I canât seem to get enthusiastic about salesmanship. I keep thinking about a room in gray oatmeal paper with prints in very narrow gold framesâ âor would it be better in white enamel paneling?â âbut anyway, it looks out on Fifth Avenue, and Iâm designing a sumptuousâ ââ He made it âsump-too-ousââ âârobe of linden green chiffon over cloth of gold! You knowâ âtilleul. Itâs elegant.â ââ ⌠What do you think?â
âWhy not? What do you care for the opinion of city rowdies, or a lot of farm boys? But you mustnât, you really mustnât, let casual strangers like me have a chance to judge you.â
âWellâ âYou arenât a stranger, one way. Myrtle Cassâ âMiss Cass, should sayâ âsheâs spoken about you so often. I wanted to call on youâ âand the doctorâ âbut I didnât quite have the nerve. One evening I walked past your house, but you and your husband were talking on the porch, and you looked so chummy and happy I didnât dare butt in.â
Maternally, âI think itâs extremely nice of you to want to be trained inâ âin enunciation by a stage-director. Perhaps I could help you. Iâm a thoroughly sound and uninspired schoolmaâam by instinct; quite hopelessly mature.â
âOh, you arenât either!â
She was not very successful at accepting his fervor with the air of amused woman of the world, but she sounded reasonably impersonal: âThank you. Shall we see if we really can get up a new dramatic club? Iâll tell you: Come to the house this evening, about eight. Iâll ask Miss Mullins to come over, and weâll talk about it.â
VI
âHe has absolutely no sense of humor. Less than Will. But hasnât heâ âWhat is a âsense of humorâ? Isnât the thing he lacks the back-slapping jocosity that passes for humor here? Anywayâ âPoor lamb, coaxing me to stay and play with him! Poor lonely lamb! If he could be free from Nat Hickses, from people who say âdandyâ and âbum,â would he develop?
âI wonder if Whitman didnât use Brooklyn back-street slang, as a boy?
âNo. Not Whitman. Heâs Keatsâ âsensitive to silken things. âInnumerable of stains and splendid dyes as are the tiger-mothâs deep-damaskâd wings.â Keats, here! A bewildered spirit fallen on Main Street. And Main Street laughs till it aches, giggles till the spirit doubts his own self and tries to give up the use of wings for the correct uses of a âgentsâ furnishings store.â Gopher Prairie with its celebrated eleven miles of cement walk.â ââ ⌠I wonder how much of the cement is made out of the tombstones of John Keatses?â
VII
Kennicott was cordial to Fern Mullins, teased her, told her he was a âgreat hand for running off with pretty schoolteachers,â and promised that if the school-board should object to her dancing, he would âbat âem one over the head and tell âem how lucky they were to get a girl with some go to her, for once.â
But to Erik Valborg he was not cordial. He shook hands loosely, and said, âHâ are yuh.â
Nat Hicks was socially acceptable; he had been here for years, and owned his shop; but this person was merely Natâs workman, and the townâs principle of perfect democracy was not meant to be applied indiscriminately.
The conference on a dramatic club theoretically included Kennicott, but he sat back, patting yawns, conscious of Fernâs ankles, smiling amiably on the children at their sport.
Fern wanted to tell her grievances; Carol was sulky every time she thought of The Girl from Kankakee; it was Erik who made suggestions. He had read with astounding breadth, and astounding lack of judgment. His voice was sensitive to liquids, but he overused the word âglorious.â He mispronounced a tenth of the words he had from books, but he knew it. He was insistent, but he was shy.
When he demanded, âIâd like to stage Suppressed Desires, by Cook and Miss Glaspell,â Carol ceased to be patronizing. He was not the yearner: he was the artist, sure of his vision. âIâd make it simple. Use a big window at the back, with a cyclorama of a blue that would simply hit you in the eye, and just one tree-branch, to suggest a park below. Put the breakfast table on a dais. Let the colors be kind of arty and tea-roomyâ âorange chairs, and orange and blue table, and blue Japanese breakfast set, and some place, one big flat smear of blackâ âbang! Oh. Another play I wish we could do is Tennyson Jesseâs The Black Mask. Iâve never seen it butâ âGlorious ending, where this woman looks at the man with his face all blown away, and she just gives one horrible scream.â
âGood God, is that your idea of a glorious ending?â bayed Kennicott.
âThat sounds fierce! I do love artistic things, but not the horrible ones,â moaned Fern Mullins.
Erik was bewildered; glanced at Carol. She nodded loyally.
At the end of the conference they had decided nothing.
XXIX
I
She had walked up the railroad track with Hugh, this Sunday afternoon.
She saw Erik Valborg coming, in an ancient highwater suit, tramping sullenly and alone, striking at the rails with a stick. For a second she unreasoningly wanted to avoid him, but she kept on, and she serenely talked about God, whose voice, Hugh asserted, made the humming in the telegraph wires. Erik stared, straightened. They greeted each other with âHello.â
âHugh, say how-do-you-do to Mr. Valborg.â
âOh, dear me, heâs got a button unbuttoned,â worried Erik, kneeling. Carol frowned, then noted the strength with which he swung the baby in the air.
âMay I walk along a piece with you?â
âIâm tired. Letâs rest on those ties. Then I must be trotting back.â
They sat on a heap of discarded railroad ties, oak logs spotted with cinnamon-colored dry-rot and marked with metallic brown streaks where iron plates had rested. Hugh learned that the pile was the hiding-place of Injuns; he went gunning for them while the elders talked of uninteresting things.
The telegraph wires thrummed, thrummed, thrummed above them; the rails were glaring hard lines; the goldenrod smelled dusty. Across the track was a pasture of dwarf clover and sparse lawn cut by earthy cow-paths; beyond its placid narrow green, the rough immensity of new stubble, jagged with wheat-stacks like huge pineapples.
Erik talked of books; flamed like a recent convert to any faith. He exhibited as many titles and authors as possible, halting only to appeal, âHave you read his last book? Donât you think heâs a terribly strong writer?â
She was dizzy. But when he insisted, âYouâve been a librarian; tell me; do I read too much fiction?â she advised him loftily, rather discursively. He had, she indicated, never studied. He had skipped from one emotion to another. Especiallyâ âshe hesitated, then flung it at himâ âhe must not guess at pronunciations; he must endure the nuisance of stopping to reach for the dictionary.
âIâm talking like a cranky teacher,â she sighed.
âNo! And I will study! Read the damned dictionary right through.â He crossed his legs and bent over, clutching his ankle with both hands. âI know what you mean. Iâve been rushing from picture to picture, like a kid let loose in an art gallery for the first time. You see, itâs so awful recent that Iâve found there was a worldâ âwell, a world where beautiful things counted. I was on the farm till I was nineteen. Dad is a good farmer, but nothing else. Do you know why he first sent me off to learn tailoring? I wanted to study drawing, and he had a cousin thatâd made a lot of money tailoring out in Dakota, and he said tailoring was a lot like drawing, so he sent me down to a punk hole called Curlew, to work in a tailor shop. Up to that time Iâd only had three monthsâ schooling a yearâ âwalked to school two miles, through snow up to my kneesâ âand Dad never would stand for my having a single book except schoolbooks.
âI never read a novel till I got Dorothy Vernon of Haddon Hall out of the library at Curlew. I thought it was the loveliest thing in the world! Next I read Barriers Burned Away and then Popeâs translation of Homer. Some combination, all right! When I went to Minneapolis, just two years ago, I guess Iâd read pretty much everything in that Curlew library, but Iâd never heard of Rossetti or John Sargent or Balzac or Brahms. Butâ âYump, Iâll study. Look here! Shall I get out of this tailoring, this pressing and repairing?â
âI donât see why a surgeon should spend very much time cobbling shoes.â
âBut what if I find I canât really draw and design? After fussing around in New York or Chicago, Iâd feel like a fool if I had to go back to work in a gentsâ furnishings store!â
âPlease say âhaberdashery.âââ
âHaberdashery? All right. Iâll remember.â He shrugged and spread his fingers wide.
She was humbled by his humility; she put away in her mind, to take out and worry over later, a speculation as to whether it was not she who was naive. She urged, âWhat if you do have to go back? Most of us do! We canât all be artistsâ âmyself, for instance. We have to darn socks, and yet weâre not content to think of nothing but socks and darning-cotton. Iâd demand all I could getâ âwhether I finally settled down to designing frocks or building temples or pressing pants. What if you do drop back? Youâll have had the adventure. Donât be too meek toward life! Go! Youâre young, youâre unmarried. Try everything! Donât listen to Nat Hicks and Sam Clark and be a âsteady young manââ âin order to help them make money. Youâre still a blessed innocent. Go and play till the Good People capture you!â
âBut I donât just want to play. I want to make something beautiful. God! And I donât know enough. Do you get it? Do you understand? Nobody else ever has! Do you understand?â
âYes.â
âAnd soâ âBut hereâs what bothers me: I like fabrics; dinky things like that; little drawings and elegant words. But look over there at those fields. Big! New! Donât it seem kind of a shame to leave this and go back to the East and Europe, and do what all those people have been doing so long? Being careful about words, when thereâs millions of bushels off wheat here! Reading this fellow Pater, when Iâve helped Dad to clear fields!â
âItâs good to clear fields. But itâs not for you. Itâs one of our favorite American myths that broad plains necessarily make broad minds, and high mountains make high purpose. I thought that myself, when I first came to the prairie. âBigâ ânew.â Oh, I donât want to deny the prairie future. It will be magnificent. But equally Iâm hanged if I want to be bullied by it, go to war on behalf of Main Street, be bullied and bullied by the faith that the future is already here in the present, and that all of us must stay and worship wheat-stacks and insist that this is âGodâs Countryââ âand never, of course, do anything original or gay-colored that would help to make that future! Anyway, you donât belong here. Sam Clark and Nat Hicks, thatâs what our big newness has produced. Go! Before itâs too late, as it has been forâ âfor some of us. Young man, go East and grow up with the revolution! Then perhaps you may come back and tell Sam and Nat and me what to do with the land weâve been clearingâ âif weâll listenâ âif we donât lynch you first!â
He looked at her reverently. She could hear him saying, âIâve always wanted to know a woman who would talk to me like that.â
Her hearing was faulty. He was saying nothing of the sort. He was saying:
âWhy arenât you happy with your husband?â
âIâ âyouâ ââ
âHe doesnât care for the âblessed innocentâ part of you, does he!â
âErik, you mustnâtâ ââ
âFirst you tell me to go and be free, and then you say that I âmustnâtâ!â
âI know. But you mustnâtâ âYou must be more impersonal!â
He glowered at her like a downy young owl. She wasnât sure but she thought that he muttered, âIâm damned if I will.â She considered with wholesome fear the perils of meddling with other peopleâs destinies, and she said timidly, âHadnât we better start back now?â
He mused, âYouâre younger than I am. Your lips are for songs about rivers in the morning and lakes at twilight. I donât see how anybody could ever hurt you.â ââ ⌠Yes. We better go.â
He trudged beside her, his eyes averted. Hugh experimentally took his thumb. He looked down at the baby seriously. He burst out, âAll right. Iâll do it. Iâll stay here one year. Save. Not spend so much money on clothes. And then Iâll go East, to art-school. Work on the side-tailor shop, dressmakerâs. Iâll learn what Iâm good for: designing clothes, stage-settings, illustrating, or selling collars to fat men. All settled.â He peered at her, unsmiling.
âCan you stand it here in town for a year?â
âWith you to look at?â
âPlease! I mean: Donât the people here think youâre an odd bird? (They do me, I assure you!)â
âI donât know. I never notice much. Oh, they do kid me about not being in the armyâ âespecially the old warhorses, the old men that arenât going themselves. And this Bogart boy. And Mr. Hicksâs sonâ âheâs a horrible brat. But probably heâs licensed to say what he thinks about his fatherâs hired man!â
âHeâs beastly!â
They were in town. They passed Aunt Bessieâs house. Aunt Bessie and Mrs. Bogart were at the window, and Carol saw that they were staring so intently that they answered her wave only with the stiffly raised hands of automatons. In the next block Mrs. Dr. Westlake was gaping from her porch. Carol said with an embarrassed quaver:
âI want to run in and see Mrs. Westlake. Iâll say goodbye here.â
She avoided his eyes.
Mrs. Westlake was affable. Carol felt that she was expected to explain; and while she was mentally asserting that sheâd be hanged if sheâd explain, she was explaining:
âHugh captured that Valborg boy up the track. They became such good friends. And I talked to him for a while. Iâd heard he was eccentric, but really, I found him quite intelligent. Crude, but he readsâ âreads almost the way Dr. Westlake does.â
âThatâs fine. Why does he stick here in town? Whatâs this I hear about his being interested in Myrtle Cass?â
âI donât know. Is he? Iâm sure he isnât! He said he was quite lonely! Besides, Myrtle is a babe in arms!â
âTwenty-one if sheâs a day!â
âWellâ âIs the doctor going to do any hunting this fall?â
II
The need of explaining Erik dragged her back into doubting. For all his ardent reading, and his ardent life, was he anything but a small-town youth bred on an illiberal farm and in cheap tailor shops? He had rough hands. She had been attracted only by hands that were fine and suave, like those of her father. Delicate hands and resolute purpose. But this boyâ âpowerful seamed hands and flabby will.
âItâs not appealing weakness like his, but sane strength that will animate the Gopher Prairies. Onlyâ âDoes that mean anything? Or am I echoing Vida? The world has always let âstrongâ statesmen and soldiersâ âthe men with strong voicesâ âtake control, and what have the thundering boobies done? What is âstrengthâ?
âThis classifying of people! I suppose tailors differ as much as burglars or kings.
âErik frightened me when he turned on me. Of course he didnât mean anything, but I mustnât let him be so personal.
âAmazing impertinence!
âBut he didnât mean to be.
âHis hands are firm. I wonder if sculptors donât have thick hands, too?
âOf course if there really is anything I can do to help the boyâ â
âThough I despise these people who interfere. He must be independent.â
III
She wasnât altogether pleased, the week after, when Erik was independent and, without asking for her inspiration, planned the tennis tournament. It proved that he had learned to play in Minneapolis; that, next to Juanita Haydock, he had the best serve in town. Tennis was well spoken of in Gopher Prairie and almost never played. There were three courts: one belonging to Harry Haydock, one to the cottages at the lake, and one, a rough field on the outskirts, laid out by a defunct tennis association.
Erik had been seen in flannels and an imitation panama hat, playing on the abandoned court with Willis Woodford, the clerk in Stowbodyâs bank. Suddenly he was going about proposing the reorganization of the tennis association, and writing names in a fifteen-cent notebook bought for the purpose at Dyerâs. When he came to Carol he was so excited over being an organizer that he did not stop to talk of himself and Aubrey Beardsley for more than ten minutes. He begged, âWill you get some of the folks to come in?â and she nodded agreeably.
He proposed an informal exhibition match to advertise the association; he suggested that Carol and himself, the Haydocks, the Woodfords, and the Dillons play doubles, and that the association be formed from the gathered enthusiasts. He had asked Harry Haydock to be tentative president. Harry, he reported, had promised, âAll right. You bet. But you go ahead and arrange things, and Iâll OK âem.â Erik planned that the match should be held Saturday afternoon, on the old public court at the edge of town. He was happy in being, for the first time, part of Gopher Prairie.
Through the week Carol heard how select an attendance there was to be.
Kennicott growled that he didnât care to go.
Had he any objections to her playing with Erik?
No; sure not; she needed the exercise. Carol went to the match early. The court was in a meadow out on the New Antonia road. Only Erik was there. He was dashing about with a rake, trying to make the court somewhat less like a plowed field. He admitted that he had stage fright at the thought of the coming horde. Willis and Mrs. Woodford arrived, Willis in homemade knickers and black sneakers through at the toe; then Dr. and Mrs. Harvey Dillon, people as harmless and grateful as the Woodfords.
Carol was embarrassed and excessively agreeable, like the bishopâs lady trying not to feel out of place at a Baptist bazaar.
They waited.
The match was scheduled for three. As spectators there assembled one youthful grocery clerk, stopping his Ford delivery wagon to stare from the seat, and one solemn small boy, tugging a smaller sister who had a careless nose.
âI wonder where the Haydocks are? They ought to show up, at least,â said Erik.
Carol smiled confidently at him, and peered down the empty road toward town. Only heat-waves and dust and dusty weeds.
At half-past three no one had come, and the grocery boy reluctantly got out, cranked his Ford, glared at them in a disillusioned manner, and rattled away. The small boy and his sister ate grass and sighed.
The players pretended to be exhilarated by practising service, but they startled at each dust-cloud from a motor car. None of the cars turned into the meadow-none till a quarter to four, when Kennicott drove in.
Carolâs heart swelled. âHow loyal he is! Depend on him! Heâd come, if nobody else did. Even though he doesnât care for the game. The old darling!â
Kennicott did not alight. He called out, âCarrie! Harry Haydock phoned me that theyâve decided to hold the tennis matches, or whatever you call âem, down at the cottages at the lake, instead of here. The bunch are down there now: Haydocks and Dyers and Clarks and everybody. Harry wanted to know if Iâd bring you down. I guess I can take the timeâ âcome right back after supper.â
Before Carol could sum it all up, Erik stammered, âWhy, Haydock didnât say anything to me about the change. Of course heâs the president, butâ ââ
Kennicott looked at him heavily, and grunted, âI donât know a thing about it.â ââ ⌠Coming, Carrie?â
âI am not! The match was to be here, and it will be here! You can tell Harry Haydock that heâs beastly rude!â She rallied the five who had been left out, who would always be left out. âCome on! Weâll toss to see which four of us play the Only and Original First Annual Tennis Tournament of Forest Hills, Del Monte, and Gopher Prairie!â
âDonât know as I blame you,â said Kennicott. âWeâll have supper at home then?â He drove off.
She hated him for his composure. He had ruined her defiance. She felt much less like Susan B. Anthony as she turned to her huddled followers.
Mrs. Dillon and Willis Woodford lost the toss. The others played out the game, slowly, painfully, stumbling on the rough earth, muffing the easiest shots, watched only by the small boy and his sniveling sister. Beyond the court stretched the eternal stubble-fields. The four marionettes, awkwardly going through exercises, insignificant in the hot sweep of contemptuous land, were not heroic; their voices did not ring out in the score, but sounded apologetic; and when the game was over they glanced about as though they were waiting to be laughed at.
They walked home. Carol took Erikâs arm. Through her thin linen sleeve she could feel the crumply warmth of his familiar brown jersey coat. She observed that there were purple and red gold threads interwoven with the brown. She remembered the first time she had seen it.
Their talk was nothing but improvisations on the theme: âI never did like this Haydock. He just considers his own convenience.â Ahead of them, the Dillons and Woodfords spoke of the weather and B. J. Gougerlingâs new bungalow. No one referred to their tennis tournament. At her gate Carol shook hands firmly with Erik and smiled at him.
Next morning, Sunday morning, when Carol was on the porch, the Haydocks drove up.
âWe didnât mean to be rude to you, dearie!â implored Juanita. âI wouldnât have you think that for anything. We planned that Will and you should come down and have supper at our cottage.â
âNo. Iâm sure you didnât mean to be.â Carol was super-neighborly. âBut I do think you ought to apologize to poor Erik Valborg. He was terribly hurt.â
âOh. Valborg. I donât care so much what he thinks,â objected Harry. âHeâs nothing but a conceited buttinsky. Juanita and I kind of figured he was trying to run this tennis thing too darn much anyway.â
âBut you asked him to make arrangements.â
âI know, but I donât like him. Good Lord, you couldnât hurt his feelings! He dresses up like a chorus manâ âand, by golly, he looks like one!â âbut heâs nothing but a Swede farm boy, and these foreigners, they all got hides like a covey of rhinoceroses.â
âBut he is hurt!â
âWellâ âI donât suppose I ought to have gone off half-cocked, and not jollied him along. Iâll give him a cigar. Heâllâ ââ
Juanita had been licking her lips and staring at Carol. She interrupted her husband, âYes, I do think Harry ought to fix it up with him. You like him, donât you, Carol?â
Over and through Carol ran a frightened cautiousness. âLike him? I havenât an Ă-dea. He seems to be a very decent young man. I just felt that when heâd worked so hard on the plans for the match, it was a shame not to be nice to him.â
âMaybe thereâs something to that,â mumbled Harry; then, at sight of Kennicott coming round the corner tugging the red garden hose by its brass nozzle, he roared in relief, âWhat dâ you think youâre trying to do, doc?â
While Kennicott explained in detail all that he thought he was trying to do, while he rubbed his chin and gravely stated, âStruck me the grass was looking kind of brown in patchesâ âdidnât know but what Iâd give it a sprinkling,â and while Harry agreed that this was an excellent idea, Juanita made friendly noises and, behind the gilt screen of an affectionate smile, watched Carolâs face.
IV
She wanted to see Erik. She wanted someone to play with! There wasnât even so dignified and sound an excuse as having Kennicottâs trousers pressed; when she inspected them, all three pairs looked discouragingly neat. She probably would not have ventured on it had she not spied Nat Hicks in the pool-parlor, being witty over bottle-pool. Erik was alone! She fluttered toward the tailor shop, dashed into its slovenly heat with the comic fastidiousness of a humming bird dipping into a dry tiger-lily. It was after she had entered that she found an excuse.
Erik was in the back room, cross-legged on a long table, sewing a vest. But he looked as though he were doing this eccentric thing to amuse himself.
âHello. I wonder if you couldnât plan a sports-suit for me?â she said breathlessly.
He stared at her; he protested, âNo, I wonât! God! Iâm not going to be a tailor with you!â
âWhy, Erik!â she said, like a mildly shocked mother.
It occurred to her that she did not need a suit, and that the order might have been hard to explain to Kennicott.
He swung down from the table. âI want to show you something.â He rummaged in the roll-top desk on which Nat Hicks kept bills, buttons, calendars, buckles, thread-channeled wax, shotgun shells, samples of brocade for âfancy vests,â fishing-reels, pornographic postcards, shreds of buckram lining. He pulled out a blurred sheet of Bristol board and anxiously gave it to her. It was a sketch for a frock. It was not well drawn; it was too finicking; the pillars in the background were grotesquely squat. But the frock had an original back, very low, with a central triangular section from the waist to a string of jet beads at the neck.
âItâs stunning. But how it would shock Mrs. Clark!â
âYes, wouldnât it!â
âYou must let yourself go more when youâre drawing.â
âDonât know if I can. Iâve started kind of late. But listen! What do you think Iâve done this two weeks? Iâve read almost clear through a Latin grammar, and about twenty pages of Caesar.â
âSplendid! You are lucky. You havenât a teacher to make you artificial.â
âYouâre my teacher!â
There was a dangerous edge of personality to his voice. She was offended and agitated. She turned her shoulder on him, stared through the back window, studying this typical center of a typical Main Street block, a vista hidden from casual strollers. The backs of the chief establishments in town surrounded a quadrangle neglected, dirty, and incomparably dismal. From the front, Howland & Gouldâs grocery was smug enough, but attached to the rear was a lean-to of storm streaked pine lumber with a sanded tar roofâ âa staggering doubtful shed behind which was a heap of ashes, splintered packing-boxes, shreds of excelsior, crumpled strawboard, broken olive-bottles, rotten fruit, and utterly disintegrated vegetables: orange carrots turning black, and potatoes with ulcers. The rear of the Bon Ton Store was grim with blistered black-painted iron shutters, under them a pile of once glossy red shirt-boxes, now a pulp from recent rain.
As seen from Main Street, Oleson & McGuireâs Meat Market had a sanitary and virtuous expression with its new tile counter, fresh sawdust on the floor, and a hanging veal cut in rosettes. But she now viewed a back room with a homemade refrigerator of yellow smeared with black grease. A man in an apron spotted with dry blood was hoisting out a hard slab of meat.
Behind Billyâs Lunch, the cook, in an apron which must long ago have been white, smoked a pipe and spat at the pest of sticky flies. In the center of the block, by itself, was the stable for the three horses of the drayman, and beside it a pile of manure.
The rear of Ezra Stowbodyâs bank was whitewashed, and back of it was a concrete walk and a three-foot square of grass, but the window was barred, and behind the bars she saw Willis Woodford cramped over figures in pompous books. He raised his head, jerkily rubbed his eyes, and went back to the eternity of figures.
The backs of the other shops were an impressionistic picture of dirty grays, drained browns, writhing heaps of refuse.
âMine is a backyard romanceâ âwith a journeyman tailor!â
She was saved from self-pity as she began to think through Erikâs mind. She turned to him with an indignant, âItâs disgusting that this is all you have to look at.â
He considered it. âOutside there? I donât notice much. Iâm learning to look inside. Not awful easy!â
âYes.â ââ ⌠I must be hurrying.â
As she walked homeâ âwithout hurryingâ âshe remembered her father saying to a serious ten-year-old Carol, âLady, only a fool thinks heâs superior to beautiful bindings, but only a double-distilled fool reads nothing but bindings.â
She was startled by the return of her father, startled by a sudden conviction that in this flaxen boy she had found the gray reticent judge who was divine love, perfect understanding. She debated it, furiously denied it, reaffirmed it, ridiculed it. Of one thing she was unhappily certain: there was nothing of the beloved father image in Will Kennicott.
V
She wondered why she sang so often, and why she found so many pleasant thingsâ âlamplight seen though trees on a cool evening, sunshine on brown wood, morning sparrows, black sloping roofs turned to plates of silver by moonlight. Pleasant things, small friendly things, and pleasant placesâ âa field of goldenrod, a pasture by the creekâ âand suddenly a wealth of pleasant people. Vida was lenient to Carol at the surgical-dressing class; Mrs. Dave Dyer flattered her with questions about her health, baby, cook, and opinions on the war.
Mrs. Dyer seemed not to share the townâs prejudice against Erik. âHeâs a nice-looking fellow; we must have him go on one of our picnics some time.â Unexpectedly, Dave Dyer also liked him. The tightfisted little farceur had a confused reverence for anything that seemed to him refined or clever. He answered Harry Haydockâs sneers, âThatâs all right now! Elizabeth may doll himself up too much, but heâs smart, and donât you forget it! I was asking round trying to find out where this Ukraine is, and darn if he didnât tell me. Whatâs the matter with his talking so polite? Hellâs bells, Harry, no harm in being polite. Thereâs some regular he-men that are just as polite as women, prettâ near.â
Carol found herself going about rejoicing, âHow neighborly the town is!â She drew up with a dismayed âAm I falling in love with this boy? Thatâs ridiculous! Iâm merely interested in him. I like to think of helping him to succeed.â
But as she dusted the living-room, mended a collar-band, bathed Hugh, she was picturing herself and a young artistan Apollo nameless and evasiveâ âbuilding a house in the Berkshires or in Virginia; exuberantly buying a chair with his first check; reading poetry together, and frequently being earnest over valuable statistics about labor; tumbling out of bed early for a Sunday walk, and chattering (where Kennicott would have yawned) over bread and butter by a lake. Hugh was in her pictures, and he adored the young artist, who made castles of chairs and rugs for him. Beyond these playtimes she saw the âthings I could do for Erikââ âand she admitted that Erik did partly make up the image of her altogether perfect artist.
In panic she insisted on being attentive to Kennicott, when he wanted to be left alone to read the newspaper.
VI
She needed new clothes. Kennicott had promised, âWeâll have a good trip down to the Cities in the fall, and take plenty of time for it, and you can get your new glad-rags then.â But as she examined her wardrobe she flung her ancient black velvet frock on the floor and raged, âTheyâre disgraceful. Everything I have is falling to pieces.â
There was a new dressmaker and milliner, a Mrs. Swiftwaite. It was said that she was not altogether an elevating influence in the way she glanced at men; that she would as soon take away a legally appropriated husband as not; that if there was any Mr. Swiftwaite, âit certainly was strange that nobody seemed to know anything about him!â But she had made for Rita Gould an organdy frock and hat to match universally admitted to be âtoo cunning for words,â and the matrons went cautiously, with darting eyes and excessive politeness, to the rooms which Mrs. Swiftwaite had taken in the old Luke Dawson house, on Floral Avenue.
With none of the spiritual preparation which normally precedes the buying of new clothes in Gopher Prairie, Carol marched into Mrs. Swiftwaiteâs, and demanded, âI want to see a hat, and possibly a blouse.â
In the dingy old front parlor which she had tried to make smart with a pier glass, covers from fashion magazines, anemic French prints, Mrs. Swiftwaite moved smoothly among the dress-dummies and hat-rests, spoke smoothly as she took up a small black and red turban. âI am sure the lady will find this extremely attractive.â
âItâs dreadfully tabby and small-towny,â thought Carol, while she soothed, âI donât believe it quite goes with me.â
âItâs the choicest thing I have, and Iâm sure youâll find it suits you beautifully. It has a great deal of chic. Please try it on,â said Mrs. Swiftwaite, more smoothly than ever.
Carol studied the woman. She was as imitative as a glass diamond. She was the more rustic in her effort to appear urban. She wore a severe high-collared blouse with a row of small black buttons, which was becoming to her low-breasted slim neatness, but her skirt was hysterically checkered, her cheeks were too highly rouged, her lips too sharply penciled. She was magnificently a specimen of the illiterate divorcee of forty made up to look thirty, clever, and alluring.
While she was trying on the hat Carol felt very condescending. She took it off, shook her head, explained with the kind smile for inferiors, âIâm afraid it wonât do, though itâs unusually nice for so small a town as this.â
âBut itâs really absolutely New-Yorkish.â
âWell, itâ ââ
âYou see, I know my New York styles. I lived in New York for years, besides almost a year in Akron!â
âYou did?â Carol was polite, and edged away, and went home unhappily. She was wondering whether her own airs were as laughable as Mrs. Swiftwaiteâs. She put on the eyeglasses which Kennicott had recently given to her for reading, and looked over a grocery bill. She went hastily up to her room, to her mirror. She was in a mood of self-depreciation. Accurately or not, this was the picture she saw in the mirror:
Neat rimless eyeglasses. Black hair clumsily tucked under a mauve straw hat which would have suited a spinster. Cheeks clear, bloodless. Thin nose. Gentle mouth and chin. A modest voile blouse with an edging of lace at the neck. A virginal sweetness and timorousnessâ âno flare of gaiety, no suggestion of cities, music, quick laughter.
âI have become a small-town woman. Absolute. Typical. Modest and moral and safe. Protected from life. Genteel! The Village Virusâ âthe village virtuousness. My hairâ âjust scrambled together. What can Erik see in that wedded spinster there? He does like me! Because Iâm the only woman whoâs decent to him! How long before heâll wake up to me?â ââ ⌠Iâve waked up to myself.â ââ ⌠Am I as old asâ âas old as I am?
âNot really old. Become careless. Let myself look tabby.
âI want to chuck every stitch I own. Black hair and pale cheeksâ âtheyâd go with a Spanish dancerâs costumeâ ârose behind my ear, scarlet mantilla over one shoulder, the other bare.â
She seized the rouge sponge, daubed her cheeks, scratched at her lips with the vermilion pencil until they stung, tore open her collar. She posed with her thin arms in the attitude of the fandango. She dropped them sharply. She shook her head. âMy heart doesnât dance,â she said. She flushed as she fastened her blouse.
âAt least Iâm much more graceful than Fern Mullins. Heavens! When I came here from the Cities, girls imitated me. Now Iâm trying to imitate a city girl.â
XXX
I
Fern Mullins rushed into the house on a Saturday morning early in September and shrieked at Carol, âSchool starts next Tuesday. Iâve got to have one more spree before Iâm arrested. Letâs get up a picnic down the lake for this afternoon. Wonât you come, Mrs. Kennicott, and the doctor? Cy Bogart wants to goâ âheâs a brat but heâs lively.â
âI donât think the doctor can go,â sedately. âHe said something about having to make a country call this afternoon. But Iâd love to.â
âThatâs dandy! Who can we get?â
âMrs. Dyer might be chaperon. Sheâs been so nice. And maybe Dave, if he could get away from the store.â
âHow about Erik Valborg? I think heâs got lots more style than these town boys. You like him all right, donât you?â
So the picnic of Carol, Fern, Erik, Cy Bogart, and the Dyers was not only moral but inevitable.
They drove to the birch grove on the south shore of Lake Minniemashie. Dave Dyer was his most clownish self. He yelped, jigged, wore Carolâs hat, dropped an ant down Fernâs back, and when they went swimming (the women modestly changing in the car with the side curtains up, the men undressing behind the bushes, constantly repeating, âGee, hope we donât run into poison ivyâ), Dave splashed water on them and dived to clutch his wifeâs ankle. He infected the others. Erik gave an imitation of the Greek dancers he had seen in vaudeville, and when they sat down to picnic supper spread on a lap-robe on the grass, Cy climbed a tree to throw acorns at them.
But Carol could not frolic.
She had made herself young, with parted hair, sailor blouse and large blue bow, white canvas shoes and short linen skirt. Her mirror had asserted that she looked exactly as she had in college, that her throat was smooth, her collarbone not very noticeable. But she was under restraint. When they swam she enjoyed the freshness of the water but she was irritated by Cyâs tricks, by Daveâs excessive good spirits. She admired Erikâs dance; he could never betray bad taste, as Cy did, and Dave. She waited for him to come to her. He did not come. By his joyousness he had apparently endeared himself to the Dyers. Maud watched him and, after supper, cried to him, âCome sit down beside me, bad boy!â Carol winced at his willingness to be a bad boy and come and sit, at his enjoyment of a not very stimulating game in which Maud, Dave, and Cy snatched slices of cold tongue from one anotherâs plates. Maud, it seemed, was slightly dizzy from the swim. She remarked publicly, âDr. Kennicott has helped me so much by putting me on a diet,â but it was to Erik alone that she gave the complete version of her peculiarity in being so sensitive, so easily hurt by the slightest cross word, that she simply had to have nice cheery friends.
Erik was nice and cheery.
Carol assured herself, âWhatever faults I may have, I certainly couldnât ever be jealous. I do like Maud; sheâs always so pleasant. But I wonder if she isnât just a bit fond of fishing for menâs sympathy? Playing with Erik, and her marriedâ âWellâ âBut she looks at him in that languishing, swooning, mid-Victorian way. Disgusting!â
Cy Bogart lay between the roots of a big birch, smoking his pipe and teasing Fern, assuring her that a week from now, when he was again a high-school boy and she his teacher, heâd wink at her in class. Maud Dyer wanted Erik to âcome down to the beach to see the darling little minnies.â Carol was left to Dave, who tried to entertain her with humorous accounts of Ella Stowbodyâs fondness for chocolate peppermints. She watched Maud Dyer put her hand on Erikâs shoulder to steady herself.
âDisgusting!â she thought.
Cy Bogart covered Fernâs nervous hand with his red paw, and when she bounced with half-anger and shrieked, âLet go, I tell you!â he grinned and waved his pipeâ âa gangling twenty-year-old satyr.
âDisgusting!â
When Maud and Erik returned and the grouping shifted, Erik muttered at Carol, âThereâs a boat on shore. Letâs skip off and have a row.â
âWhat will they think?â she worried. She saw Maud Dyer peer at Erik with moist possessive eyes. âYes! Letâs!â she said.
She cried to the party, with the canonical amount of sprightliness, âGoodbye, everybody. Weâll wireless you from China.â
As the rhythmic oars plopped and creaked, as she floated on an unreality of delicate gray over which the sunset was poured out thin, the irritation of Cy and Maud slipped away. Erik smiled at her proudly. She considered himâ âcoatless, in white thin shirt. She was conscious of his male differentness, of his flat masculine sides, his thin thighs, his easy rowing. They talked of the library, of the movies. He hummed and she softly sang âSwing Low, Sweet Chariot.â A breeze shivered across the agate lake. The wrinkled water was like armor damascened and polished. The breeze flowed round the boat in a chill current. Carol drew the collar of her middy blouse over her bare throat.
âGetting cold. Afraid weâll have to go back,â she said.
âLetâs not go back to them yet. Theyâll be cutting up. Letâs keep along the shore.â
âBut you enjoy the âcutting up!â Maud and you had a beautiful time.â
âWhy! We just walked on the shore and talked about fishing!â
She was relieved, and apologetic to her friend Maud. âOf course. I was joking.â
âIâll tell you! Letâs land here and sit on the shoreâ âthat bunch of hazel-brush will shelter us from the windâ âand watch the sunset. Itâs like melted lead. Just a short while! We donât want to go back and listen to them!â
âNo, butâ ââ She said nothing while he sped ashore. The keel clashed on the stones. He stood on the forward seat, holding out his hand. They were alone, in the ripple-lapping silence. She rose slowly, slowly stepped over the water in the bottom of the old boat. She took his hand confidently. Unspeaking they sat on a bleached log, in a russet twilight which hinted of autumn. Linden leaves fluttered about them.
âI wishâ âAre you cold now?â he whispered.
âA little.â She shivered. But it was not with cold.
âI wish we could curl up in the leaves there, covered all up, and lie looking out at the dark.â
âI wish we could.â As though it was comfortably understood that he did not mean to be taken seriously.
âLike what all the poets sayâ âbrown nymph and faun.â
âNo. I canât be a nymph any more. Too oldâ âErik, am I old? Am I faded and small-towny?â
âWhy, youâre the youngestâ âYour eyes are like a girlâs. Theyâre soâ âwell, I mean, like you believed everything. Even if you do teach me, I feel a thousand years older than you, instead of maybe a year younger.â
âFour or five years younger!â
âAnyway, your eyes are so innocent and your cheeks so softâ âDamn it, it makes me want to cry, somehow, youâre so defenseless; and I want to protect you andâ âThereâs nothing to protect you against!â
âAm I young? Am I? Honestly? Truly?â She betrayed for a moment the childish, mock-imploring tone that comes into the voice of the most serious woman when an agreeable man treats her as a girl; the childish tone and childish pursed-up lips and shy lift of the cheek.
âYes, you are!â
âYouâre dear to believe it, Willâ âErik!â
âWill you play with me? A lot?â
âPerhaps.â
âWould you really like to curl in the leaves and watch the stars swing by overhead?â
âI think itâs rather better to be sitting here!â He twined his fingers with hers. âAnd Erik, we must go back.â
âWhy?â
âItâs somewhat late to outline all the history of social custom!â
âI know. We must. Are you glad we ran away though?â
âYes.â She was quiet, perfectly simple. But she rose.
He circled her waist with a brusque arm. She did not resist. She did not care. He was neither a peasant tailor, a potential artist, a social complication, nor a peril. He was himself, and in him, in the personality flowing from him, she was unreasoningly content. In his nearness she caught a new view of his head; the last light brought out the planes of his neck, his flat ruddied cheeks, the side of his nose, the depression of his temples. Not as coy or uneasy lovers but as companions they walked to the boat, and he lifted her up on the prow.
She began to talk intently, as he rowed: âErik, youâve got to work! You ought to be a personage. Youâre robbed of your kingdom. Fight for it! Take one of these correspondence courses in drawingâ âthey maynât be any good in themselves, but theyâll make you try to draw andâ ââ
As they reached the picnic ground she perceived that it was dark, that they had been gone for a long time.
âWhat will they say?â she wondered.
The others greeted them with the inevitable storm of humor and slight vexation: âWhere the deuce do you think youâve been?â âYouâre a fine pair, you are!â Erik and Carol looked self-conscious; failed in their effort to be witty. All the way home Carol was embarrassed. Once Cy winked at her. That Cy, the Peeping Tom of the garage-loft, should consider her a fellow-sinnerâ âShe was furious and frightened and exultant by turns, and in all her moods certain that Kennicott would read her adventuring in her face.
She came into the house awkwardly defiant.
Her husband, half asleep under the lamp, greeted her, âWell, well, have nice time?â
She could not answer. He looked at her. But his look did not sharpen. He began to wind his watch, yawning the old âWelllllll, guess itâs about time to turn in.â
That was all. Yet she was not glad. She was almost disappointed.
II
Mrs. Bogart called next day. She had a hen-like, crumb-pecking, diligent appearance. Her smile was too innocent. The pecking started instantly:
âCy says you had lots of fun at the picnic yesterday. Did you enjoy it?â
âOh yes. I raced Cy at swimming. He beat me badly. Heâs so strong, isnât he!â
âPoor boy, just crazy to get into the war, too, butâ âThis Erik Valborg was along, waânât he?â
âYes.â
âI think heâs an awful handsome fellow, and they say heâs smart. Do you like him?â
âHe seems very polite.â
âCy says you and him had a lovely boat-ride. My, that must have been pleasant.â
âYes, except that I couldnât get Mr. Valborg to say a word. I wanted to ask him about the suit Mr. Hicks is making for my husband. But he insisted on singing. Still, it was restful, floating around on the water and singing. So happy and innocent. Donât you think itâs a shame, Mrs. Bogart, that people in this town donât do more nice clean things like that, instead of all this horrible gossiping?â
âYes.â ââ ⌠Yes.â
Mrs. Bogart sounded vacant. Her bonnet was awry; she was incomparably dowdy. Carol stared at her, felt contemptuous, ready at last to rebel against the trap, and as the rusty goodwife fished again, âPlanninâ some more picnics?â she flung out, âI havenât the slightest idea! Oh. Is that Hugh crying? I must run up to him.â
But upstairs she remembered that Mrs. Bogart had seen her walking with Erik from the railroad track into town, and she was chilly with disquietude.
At the Jolly Seventeen, two days after, she was effusive to Maud Dyer, to Juanita Haydock. She fancied that everyone was watching her, but she could not be sure, and in rare strong moments she did not care. She could rebel against the townâs prying now that she had something, however indistinct, for which to rebel.
In a passionate escape there must be not only a place from which to flee but a place to which to flee. She had known that she would gladly leave Gopher Prairie, leave Main Street and all that it signified, but she had had no destination. She had one now. That destination was not Erik Valborg and the love of Erik. She continued to assure herself that she wasnât in love with him but merely âfond of him, and interested in his success.â Yet in him she had discovered both her need of youth and the fact that youth would welcome her. It was not Erik to whom she must escape, but universal and joyous youth, in classrooms, in studios, in offices, in meetings to protest against Things in General.â ââ ⌠But universal and joyous youth rather resembled Erik.
All week she thought of things she wished to say to him. High, improving things. She began to admit that she was lonely without him. Then she was afraid.
It was at the Baptist church supper, a week after the picnic, that she saw him again. She had gone with Kennicott and Aunt Bessie to the supper, which was spread on oilcloth-covered and trestle-supported tables in the church basement. Erik was helping Myrtle Cass to fill coffee cups for the waitresses. The congregation had doffed their piety. Children tumbled under the tables, and Deacon Pierson greeted the women with a rolling, âWhereâs Brother Jones, sister, whereâs Brother Jones? Not going to be with us tonight? Well, you tell Sister Perry to hand you a plate, and make âem give you enough oyster pie!â
Erik shared in the cheerfulness. He laughed with Myrtle, jogged her elbow when she was filling cups, made deep mock bows to the waitresses as they came up for coffee. Myrtle was enchanted by his humor. From the other end of the room, a matron among matrons, Carol observed Myrtle, and hated her, and caught herself at it. âTo be jealous of a wooden-faced village girl!â But she kept it up. She detested Erik; gloated over his gaucheriesâ âhis âbreaks,â she called them. When he was too expressive, too much like a Russian dancer, in saluting Deacon Pierson, Carol had the ecstasy of pain in seeing the deaconâs sneer. When, trying to talk to three girls at once, he dropped a cup and effeminately wailed, âOh dear!â she sympathized withâ âand ached overâ âthe insulting secret glances of the girls.
From meanly hating him she rose to compassion as she saw that his eyes begged everyone to like him. She perceived how inaccurate her judgments could be. At the picnic she had fancied that Maud Dyer looked upon Erik too sentimentally, and she had snarled, âI hate these married women who cheapen themselves and feed on boys.â But at the supper Maud was one of the waitresses; she bustled with platters of cake, she was pleasant to old women; and to Erik she gave no attention at all. Indeed, when she had her own supper, she joined the Kennicotts, and how ludicrous it was to suppose that Maud was a gourmet of emotions Carol saw in the fact that she talked not to one of the town beaux but to the safe Kennicott himself!
When Carol glanced at Erik again she discovered that Mrs. Bogart had an eye on her. It was a shock to know that at last there was something which could make her afraid of Mrs. Bogartâs spying.
âWhat am I doing? Am I in love with Erik? Unfaithful? I? I want youth but I donât want himâ âI mean, I donât want youthâ âenough to break up my life. I must get out of this. Quick.â
She said to Kennicott on their way home, âWill! I want to run away for a few days. Wouldnât you like to skip down to Chicago?â
âStill be pretty hot there. No fun in a big city till winter. What do you want to go for?â
âPeople! To occupy my mind. I want stimulus.â
âStimulus?â He spoke good-naturedly. âWhoâs been feeding you meat? You got that âstimulusâ out of one of these fool stories about wives that donât know when theyâre well off. Stimulus! Seriously, though, to cut out the jollying, I canât get away.â
âThen why donât I run off by myself?â
âWhyâ ââTisnât the money, you understand. But what about Hugh?â
âLeave him with Aunt Bessie. It would be just for a few days.â
âI donât think much of this business of leaving kids around. Bad for âem.â
âSo you donât thinkâ ââ
âIâll tell you: I think we better stay put till after the war. Then weâll have a dandy long trip. No, I donât think you better plan much about going away now.â
So she was thrown at Erik.
III
She awoke at ebb-time, at three of the morning, woke sharply and fully; and sharply and coldly as her father pronouncing sentence on a cruel swindler she gave judgment:
âA pitiful and tawdry love-affair.
âNo splendor, no defiance. A self-deceived little woman whispering in corners with a pretentious little man.
âNo, he is not. He is fine. Aspiring. Itâs not his fault. His eyes are sweet when he looks at me. Sweet, so sweet.â
She pitied herself that her romance should be pitiful; she sighed that in this colorless hour, to this austere self, it should seem tawdry.
Then, in a very great desire of rebellion and unleashing of all her hatreds, âThe pettier and more tawdry it is, the more blame to Main Street. It shows how much Iâve been longing to escape. Any way out! Any humility so long as I can flee. Main Street has done this to me. I came here eager for nobilities, ready for work, and nowâ âAny way out.
âI came trusting them. They beat me with rods of dullness. They donât know, they donât understand how agonizing their complacent dullness is. Like ants and August sun on a wound.
âTawdry! Pitiful! Carolâ âthe clean girl that used to walk so fast!â âsneaking and tittering in dark corners, being sentimental and jealous at church suppers!â
At breakfast-time her agonies were night-blurred, and persisted only as a nervous irresolution.
IV
Few of the aristocrats of the Jolly Seventeen attended the humble folk-meets of the Baptist and Methodist church suppers, where the Willis Woodfords, the Dillons, the Champ Perrys, Oleson the butcher, Brad Bemis the tinsmith, and Deacon Pierson found release from loneliness. But all of the smart set went to the lawn-festivals of the Episcopal Church, and were reprovingly polite to outsiders.
The Harry Haydocks gave the last lawn-festival of the season; a splendor of Japanese lanterns and card-tables and chicken patties and Neapolitan ice-cream. Erik was no longer entirely an outsider. He was eating his ice-cream with a group of the people most solidly âinââ âthe Dyers, Myrtle Cass, Guy Pollock, the Jackson Elders. The Haydocks themselves kept aloof, but the others tolerated him. He would never, Carol fancied, be one of the town pillars, because he was not orthodox in hunting and motoring and poker. But he was winning approbation by his liveliness, his gaietyâ âthe qualities least important in him.
When the group summoned Carol she made several very well-taken points in regard to the weather.
Myrtle cried to Erik, âCome on! We donât belong with these old folks. I want to make you âquainted with the jolliest girl, she comes from Wakamin, sheâs staying with Mary Howland.â
Carol saw him being profuse to the guest from Wakamin. She saw him confidentially strolling with Myrtle. She burst out to Mrs. Westlake, âValborg and Myrtle seem to have quite a crush on each other.â
Mrs. Westlake glanced at her curiously before she mumbled, âYes, donât they.â
âIâm mad, to talk this way,â Carol worried.
She had regained a feeling of social virtue by telling Juanita Haydock âhow darling her lawn looked with the Japanese lanternsâ when she saw that Erik was stalking her. Though he was merely ambling about with his hands in his pockets, though he did not peep at her, she knew that he was calling her. She sidled away from Juanita. Erik hastened to her. She nodded coolly (she was proud of her coolness).
âCarol! Iâve got a wonderful chance! Donât know but what some ways it might be better than going East to take art. Myrtle Cass saysâ âI dropped in to say howdy to Myrtle last evening, and had quite a long talk with her father, and he said he was hunting for a fellow to go to work in the flour mill and learn the whole business, and maybe become general manager. I know something about wheat from my farming, and I worked a couple of months in the flour mill at Curlew when I got sick of tailoring. What do you think? You said any work was artistic if it was done by an artist. And flour is so important. What do you think?â
âWait! Wait!â
This sensitive boy would be very skilfully stamped into conformity by Lyman Cass and his sallow daughter; but did she detest the plan for this reason? âI must be honest. I mustnât tamper with his future to please my vanity.â But she had no sure vision. She turned on him:
âHow can I decide? Itâs up to you. Do you want to become a person like Lym Cass, or do you want to become a person likeâ âyes, like me! Wait! Donât be flattering. Be honest. This is important.â
âI know. I am a person like you now! I mean, I want to rebel.â
âYes. Weâre alike,â gravely.
âOnly Iâm not sure I can put through my schemes. I really canât draw much. I guess I have pretty fair taste in fabrics, but since Iâve known you I donât like to think about fussing with dress-designing. But as a miller, Iâd have the meansâ âbooks, piano, travel.â
âIâm going to be frank and beastly. Donât you realize that it isnât just because her papa needs a bright young man in the mill that Myrtle is amiable to you? Canât you understand what sheâll do to you when she has you, when she sends you to church and makes you become respectable?â
He glared at her. âI donât know. I suppose so.â
âYou are thoroughly unstable!â
âWhat if I am? Most fish out of water are! Donât talk like Mrs. Bogart! How can I be anything but âunstableââ âwandering from farm to tailor shop to books, no training, nothing but trying to make books talk to me! Probably Iâll fail. Oh, I know it; probably Iâm uneven. But Iâm not unstable in thinking about this job in the millâ âand Myrtle. I know what I want. I want you!â
âPlease, please, oh, please!â
âI do. Iâm not a schoolboy any more. I want you. If I take Myrtle, itâs to forget you.â
âPlease, please!â
âItâs you that are unstable! You talk at things and play at things, but youâre scared. Would I mind it if you and I went off to poverty, and I had to dig ditches? I would not! But you would. I think you would come to like me, but you wonât admit it. I wouldnât have said this, but when you sneer at Myrtle and the millâ âIf Iâm not to have good sensible things like those, dâ you think Iâll be content with trying to become a damn dressmaker, after you? Are you fair? Are you?â
âNo, I suppose not.â
âDo you like me? Do you?â
âYesâ âNo! Please! I canât talk any more.â
âNot here. Mrs. Haydock is looking at us.â
âNo, nor anywhere. O Erik, I am fond of you, but Iâm afraid.â
âWhat of?â
âOf Them! Of my rulersâ âGopher Prairie.â ââ ⌠My dear boy, we are talking very foolishly. I am a normal wife and a good mother, and you areâ âoh, a college freshman.â
âYou do like me! Iâm going to make you love me!â
She looked at him once, recklessly, and walked away with a serene gait that was a disordered flight.
Kennicott grumbled on their way home, âYou and this Valborg fellow seem quite chummy.â
âOh, we are. Heâs interested in Myrtle Cass, and I was telling him how nice she is.â
In her room she marveled, âI have become a liar. Iâm snarled with lies and foggy analyses and desiresâ âI who was clear and sure.â
She hurried into Kennicottâs room, sat on the edge of his bed. He flapped a drowsy welcoming hand at her from the expanse of quilt and dented pillows.
âWill, I really think I ought to trot off to St. Paul or Chicago or some place.â
âI thought we settled all that, few nights ago! Wait till we can have a real trip.â He shook himself out of his drowsiness. âYou might give me a good night kiss.â
She didâ âdutifully. He held her lips against his for an intolerable time. âDonât you like the old man any more?â he coaxed. He sat up and shyly fitted his palm about the slimness of her waist.
âOf course. I like you very much indeed.â Even to herself it sounded flat. She longed to be able to throw into her voice the facile passion of a light woman. She patted his cheek.
He sighed, âIâm sorry youâre so tired. Seems likeâ âBut of course you arenât very strong.â
âYes.â ââ ⌠Then you donât thinkâ âyouâre quite sure I ought to stay here in town?â
âI told you so! I certainly do!â
She crept back to her room, a small timorous figure in white.
âI canât face Will downâ âdemand the right. Heâd be obstinate. And I canât even go off and earn my living again. Out of the habit of it. Heâs driving meâ âIâm afraid of what heâs driving me to. Afraid.
âThat man in there, snoring in stale air, my husband? Could any ceremony make him my husband?
âNo. I donât want to hurt him. I want to love him. I canât, when Iâm thinking of Erik. Am I too honestâ âa funny topsy-turvy honestyâ âthe faithfulness of unfaith? I wish I had a more compartmental mind, like men. Iâm too monogamousâ âtoward Erik!â âmy child Erik, who needs me.
âIs an illicit affair like a gambling debtâ âdemands stricter honor than the legitimate debt of matrimony, because itâs not legally enforced?
âThatâs nonsense! I donât care in the least for Erik! Not for any man. I want to be let alone, in a woman worldâ âa world without Main Street, or politicians, or business men, or men with that sudden beastly hungry look, that glistening unfrank expression that wives knowâ â
âIf Erik were here, if he would just sit quiet and kind and talk, I could be still, I could go to sleep.
âI am so tired. If I could sleepâ ââ
XXXI
I
Their night came unheralded.
Kennicott was on a country call. It was cool but Carol huddled on the porch, rocking, meditating, rocking. The house was lonely and repellent, and though she sighed, âI ought to go in and readâ âso many things to readâ âought to go in,â she remained. Suddenly Erik was coming, turning in, swinging open the screen door, touching her hand.
âErik!â
âSaw your husband driving out of town. Couldnât stand it.â
âWellâ âYou mustnât stay more than five minutes.â
âCouldnât stand not seeing you. Every day, towards evening, felt I had to see youâ âpictured you so clear. Iâve been good though, staying away, havenât I!â
âAnd you must go on being good.â
âWhy must I?â
âWe better not stay here on the porch. The Howlands across the street are such window-peepers, and Mrs. Bogartâ ââ
She did not look at him but she could divine his tremulousness as he stumbled indoors. A moment ago the night had been coldly empty; now it was incalculable, hot, treacherous. But it is women who are the calm realists once they discard the fetishes of the premarital hunt. Carol was serene as she murmured, âHungry? I have some little honey-colored cakes. You may have two, and then you must skip home.â
âTake me up and let me see Hugh asleep.â
âI donât believeâ ââ
âJust a glimpse!â
âWellâ ââ
She doubtfully led the way to the hallroom-nursery. Their heads close, Erikâs curls pleasant as they touched her cheek, they looked in at the baby. Hugh was pink with slumber. He had burrowed into his pillow with such energy that it was almost smothering him. Beside it was a celluloid rhinoceros; tight in his hand a torn picture of Old King Cole.
âShhh!â said Carol, quite automatically. She tiptoed in to pat the pillow. As she returned to Erik she had a friendly sense of his waiting for her. They smiled at each other. She did not think of Kennicott, the babyâs father. What she did think was that someone rather like Erik, an older and surer Erik, ought to be Hughâs father. The three of them would playâ âincredible imaginative games.
âCarol! Youâve told me about your own room. Let me peep in at it.â
âBut you mustnât stay, not a second. We must go downstairs.â
âYes.â
âWill you be good?â
âR-reasonably!â He was pale, large-eyed, serious.
âYouâve got to be more than reasonably good!â She felt sensible and superior; she was energetic about pushing open the door.
Kennicott had always seemed out of place there but Erik surprisingly harmonized with the spirit of the room as he stroked the books, glanced at the prints. He held out his hands. He came toward her. She was weak, betrayed to a warm softness. Her head was tilted back. Her eyes were closed. Her thoughts were formless but many-colored. She felt his kiss, diffident and reverent, on her eyelid.
Then she knew that it was impossible.
She shook herself. She sprang from him. âPlease!â she said sharply.
He looked at her unyielding.
âI am fond of you,â she said. âDonât spoil everything. Be my friend.â
âHow many thousands and millions of women must have said that! And now you! And it doesnât spoil everything. It glorifies everything.â
âDear, I do think thereâs a tiny streak of fairy in youâ âwhatever you do with it. Perhaps Iâd have loved that once. But I wonât. Itâs too late. But Iâll keep a fondness for you. Impersonalâ âI will be impersonal! It neednât be just a thin talky fondness. You do need me, donât you? Only you and my son need me. Iâve wanted so to be wanted! Once I wanted love to be given to me. Now Iâll be content if I can give.â ââ ⌠Almost content!
âWe women, we like to do things for men. Poor men! We swoop on you when youâre defenseless and fuss over you and insist on reforming you. But itâs so pitifully deep in us. Youâll be the one thing in which I havenât failed. Do something definite! Even if itâs just selling cottons. Sell beautiful cottonsâ âcaravans from Chinaâ ââ
âCarol! Stop! You do love me!â
âI do not! Itâs justâ âCanât you understand? Everything crushes in on me so, all the gaping dull people, and I look for a way outâ âPlease go. I canât stand any more. Please!â
He was gone. And she was not relieved by the quiet of the house. She was empty and the house was empty and she needed him. She wanted to go on talking, to get this threshed out, to build a sane friendship. She wavered down to the living-room, looked out of the bay-window. He was not to be seen. But Mrs. Westlake was. She was walking past, and in the light from the corner arc-lamp she quickly inspected the porch, the windows. Carol dropped the curtain, stood with movement and reflection paralyzed. Automatically, without reasoning, she mumbled, âI will see him again soon and make him understand we must be friends. Butâ âThe house is so empty. It echoes so.â
II
Kennicott had seemed nervous and absentminded through that supper-hour, two evenings after. He prowled about the living-room, then growled:
âWhat the dickens have you been saying to Ma Westlake?â
Carolâs book rattled. âWhat do you mean?â
âI told you that Westlake and his wife were jealous of us, and here you been chumming up to them andâ âFrom what Dave tells me, Ma Westlake has been going around town saying you told her that you hate Aunt Bessie, and that you fixed up your own room because I snore, and you said Bjornstam was too good for Bea, and then, just recent, that you were sore on the town because we donât all go down on our knees and beg this Valborg fellow to come take supper with us. God only knows what else she says you said.â
âItâs not true, any of it! I did like Mrs. Westlake, and Iâve called on her, and apparently sheâs gone and twisted everything Iâve saidâ ââ
âSure. Of course she would. Didnât I tell you she would? Sheâs an old cat, like her pussyfooting, hand-holding husband. Lord, if I was sick, Iâd rather have a faith-healer than Westlake, and sheâs another slice off the same bacon. What I canât understand thoughâ ââ
She waited, taut.
ââ âis whatever possessed you to let her pump you, bright a girl as you are. I donât care what you told herâ âwe all get peeved sometimes and want to blow off steam, thatâs naturalâ âbut if you wanted to keep it dark, why didnât you advertise it in the Dauntless, or get a megaphone and stand on top of the hotel and holler, or do anything besides spill it to her!â
âI know. You told me. But she was so motherly. And I didnât have any womanâ âVidaâs become so married and proprietary.â
âWell, next time youâll have better sense.â
He patted her head, flumped down behind his newspaper, said nothing more.
Enemies leered through the windows, stole on her from the hall. She had no one save Erik. This kind good man Kennicottâ âhe was an elder brother. It was Erik, her fellow outcast, to whom she wanted to run for sanctuary. Through her storm she was, to the eye, sitting quietly with her fingers between the pages of a baby-blue book on home-dressmaking. But her dismay at Mrs. Westlakeâs treachery had risen to active dread. What had the woman said of her and Erik? What did she know? What had she seen? Who else would join in the baying hunt? Who else had seen her with Erik? What had she to fear from the Dyers, Cy Bogart, Juanita, Aunt Bessie? What precisely had she answered to Mrs. Bogartâs questioning?
All next day she was too restless to stay home, yet as she walked the streets on fictitious errands she was afraid of every person she met. She waited for them to speak; waited with foreboding. She repeated, âI mustnât ever see Erik again.â But the words did not register. She had no ecstatic indulgence in the sense of guilt which is, to the women of Main Street, the surest escape from blank tediousness.
At five, crumpled in a chair in the living-room, she started at the sound of the bell. Someone opened the door. She waited, uneasy. Vida Sherwin charged into the room. âHereâs the one person I can trust!â Carol rejoiced.
Vida was serious but affectionate. She bustled at Carol with, âOh, there you are, dearie, so glad tâ find you in, sit down, want to talk to you.â
Carol sat, obedient.
Vida fussily tugged over a large chair and launched out:
âIâve been hearing vague rumors you were interested in this Erik Valborg. I knew you couldnât be guilty, and Iâm surer than ever of it now. Here we are, as blooming as a daisy.â
âHow does a respectable matron look when she feels guilty?â
Carol sounded resentful.
âWhyâ âOh, it would show! Besides! I know that you, of all people, are the one that can appreciate Dr. Will.â
âWhat have you been hearing?â
âNothing, really. I just heard Mrs. Bogart say sheâd seen you and Valborg walking together a lot.â Vidaâs chirping slackened. She looked at her nails. âButâ âI suspect you do like Valborg. Oh, I donât mean in any wrong way. But youâre young; you donât know what an innocent liking might drift into. You always pretend to be so sophisticated and all, but youâre a baby. Just because you are so innocent, you donât know what evil thoughts may lurk in that fellowâs brain.â
âYou donât suppose Valborg could actually think about making love to me?â
Her rather cheap sport ended abruptly as Vida cried, with contorted face, âWhat do you know about the thoughts in hearts? You just play at reforming the world. You donât know what it means to suffer.â
There are two insults which no human being will endure: the assertion that he hasnât a sense of humor, and the doubly impertinent assertion that he has never known trouble. Carol said furiously, âYou think I donât suffer? You think Iâve always had an easyâ ââ
âNo, you donât. Iâm going to tell you something Iâve never told a living soul, not even Ray.â The dam of repressed imagination which Vida had builded for years, which now, with Raymie off at the wars, she was building again, gave way.
âI wasâ âI liked Will terribly well. One time at a partyâ âoh, before he met you, of courseâ âbut we held hands, and we were so happy. But I didnât feel I was really suited to him. I let him go. Please donât think I still love him! I see now that Ray was predestined to be my mate. But because I liked him, I know how sincere and pure and noble Will is, and his thoughts never straying from the path of rectitude, andâ âIf I gave him up to you, at least youâve got to appreciate him! We danced together and laughed so, and I gave him up, butâ âThis is my affair! Iâm not intruding! I see the whole thing as he does, because of all Iâve told you. Maybe itâs shameless to bare my heart this way, but I do it for himâ âfor him and you!â
Carol understood that Vida believed herself to have recited minutely and brazenly a story of intimate love; understood that, in alarm, she was trying to cover her shame as she struggled on, âLiked him in the most honorable wayâ âsimply canât help it if I still see things through his eyesâ âIf I gave him up, I certainly am not beyond my rights in demanding that you take care to avoid even the appearance of evil andâ ââ She was weeping; an insignificant, flushed, ungracefully weeping woman.
Carol could not endure it. She ran to Vida, kissed her forehead, comforted her with a murmur of dove-like sounds, sought to reassure her with worn and hastily assembled gifts of words: âOh, I appreciate it so much,â and âYou are so fine and splendid,â and âLet me assure you there isnât a thing to what youâve heard,â and âOh, indeed, I do know how sincere Will is, and as you say, soâ âso sincere.â
Vida believed that she had explained many deep and devious matters. She came out of her hysteria like a sparrow shaking off raindrops. She sat up, and took advantage of her victory:
âI donât want to rub it in, but you can see for yourself now, this is all a result of your being so discontented and not appreciating the dear good people here. And another thing: People like you and me, who want to reform things, have to be particularly careful about appearances. Think how much better you can criticize conventional customs if you yourself live up to them, scrupulously. Then people canât say youâre attacking them to excuse your own infractions.â
To Carol was given a sudden great philosophical understanding, an explanation of half the cautious reforms in history. âYes. Iâve heard that plea. Itâs a good one. It sets revolts aside to cool. It keeps strays in the flock. To word it differently: âYou must live up to the popular code if you believe in it; but if you donât believe in it, then you must live up to it!âââ
âI donât think so at all,â said Vida vaguely. She began to look hurt, and Carol let her be oracular.
III
Vida had done her a service; had made all agonizing seem so fatuous that she ceased writhing and saw that her whole problem was simple as mutton: she was interested in Erikâs aspiration; interest gave her a hesitating fondness for him; and the future would take care of the event.â ââ ⌠But at night, thinking in bed, she protested, âIâm not a falsely accused innocent, though! If it were someone more resolute than Erik, a fighter, an artist with bearded surly lipsâ âTheyâre only in books. Is that the real tragedy, that I never shall know tragedy, never find anything but blustery complications that turn out to be a farce?
âNo one big enough or pitiful enough to sacrifice for. Tragedy in neat blouses; the eternal flame all nice and safe in a kerosene stove. Neither heroic faith nor heroic guilt. Peeping at love from behind lace curtainsâ âon Main Street!â
Aunt Bessie crept in next day, tried to pump her, tried to prime the pump by again hinting that Kennicott might have his own affairs. Carol snapped, âWhatever I may do, Iâll have you to understand that Will is only too safe!â She wished afterward that she had not been so lofty. How much would Aunt Bessie make of âWhatever I may do?â
When Kennicott came home he poked at things, and hemmed, and brought out, âSaw aunty, this afternoon. She said you werenât very polite to her.â
Carol laughed. He looked at her in a puzzled way and fled to his newspaper.
IV
She lay sleepless. She alternately considered ways of leaving Kennicott, and remembered his virtues, pitied his bewilderment in face of the subtle corroding sicknesses which he could not dose nor cut out. Didnât he perhaps need her more than did the book-solaced Erik? Suppose Will were to die, suddenly. Suppose she never again saw him at breakfast, silent but amiable, listening to her chatter. Suppose he never again played elephant for Hugh. Supposeâ âA country call, a slippery road, his motor skidding, the edge of the road crumbling, the car turning turtle, Will pinned beneath, suffering, brought home maimed, looking at her with spaniel eyesâ âor waiting for her, calling for her, while she was in Chicago, knowing nothing of it. Suppose he were sued by some vicious shrieking woman for malpractice. He tried to get witnesses; Westlake spread lies; his friends doubted him; his self-confidence was so broken that it was horrible to see the indecision of the decisive man; he was convicted, handcuffed, taken on a trainâ â
She ran to his room. At her nervous push the door swung sharply in, struck a chair. He awoke, gasped, then in a steady voice: âWhat is it, dear? Anything wrong?â She darted to him, fumbled for the familiar harsh bristly cheek. How well she knew it, every seam, and hardness of bone, and roll of fat! Yet when he sighed, âThis is a nice visit,â and dropped his hand on her thin-covered shoulder, she said, too cheerily, âI thought I heard you moaning. So silly of me. Good night, dear.â
V
She did not see Erik for a fortnight, save once at church and once when she went to the tailor shop to talk over the plans, contingencies, and strategy of Kennicottâs annual campaign for getting a new suit. Nat Hicks was there, and he was not so deferential as he had been. With unnecessary jauntiness he chuckled, âSome nice flannels, them samples, heh?â Needlessly he touched her arm to call attention to the fashion-plates, and humorously he glanced from her to Erik. At home she wondered if the little beast might not be suggesting himself as a rival to Erik, but that abysmal bedragglement she would not consider.
She saw Juanita Haydock slowly walking past the houseâ âas Mrs. Westlake had once walked past.
She met Mrs. Westlake in Uncle Whittierâs store, and before that alert stare forgot her determination to be rude, and was shakily cordial.
She was sure that all the men on the street, even Guy Pollock and Sam Clark, leered at her in an interested hopeful way, as though she were a notorious divorcee. She felt as insecure as a shadowed criminal. She wished to see Erik, and wished that she had never seen him. She fancied that Kennicott was the only person in town who did not know allâ âknow incomparably more than there was to knowâ âabout herself and Erik. She crouched in her chair as she imagined men talking of her, thick-voiced, obscene, in barber shops and the tobacco-stinking pool parlor.
Through early autumn Fern Mullins was the only person who broke the suspense. The frivolous teacher had come to accept Carol as of her own youth, and though school had begun she rushed in daily to suggest dances, welsh-rabbit parties.
Fern begged her to go as chaperon to a barn-dance in the country, on a Saturday evening. Carol could not go. The next day, the storm crashed.
XXXII
I
Carol was on the back porch, tightening a bolt on the babyâs go-cart, this Sunday afternoon. Through an open window of the Bogart house she heard a screeching, heard Mrs. Bogartâs haggish voice:
ââŚÂ did too, and thereâs no use your denying itâ ââ ⌠no you donât, you march yourself right straight out of the houseâ ââ ⌠never in my life heard of suchâ ââ ⌠never had nobody talk to me likeâ ââ ⌠walk in the ways of sin and nastinessâ ââ ⌠leave your clothes here, and heaven knows thatâs more than you deserveâ ââ ⌠any of your lip or Iâll call the policeman.â
The voice of the other interlocutor Carol did not catch, nor, though Mrs. Bogart was proclaiming that he was her confidant and present assistant, did she catch the voice of Mrs. Bogartâs God.
âAnother row with Cy,â Carol inferred.
She trundled the go-cart down the back steps and tentatively wheeled it across the yard, proud of her repairs. She heard steps on the sidewalk. She saw not Cy Bogart but Fern Mullins, carrying a suitcase, hurrying up the street with her head low. The widow, standing on the porch with buttery arms akimbo, yammered after the fleeing girl:
âAnd donât you dare show your face on this block again. You can send the drayman for your trunk. My house has been contaminated long enough. Why the Lord should afflict meâ ââ
Fern was gone. The righteous widow glared, banged into the house, came out poking at her bonnet, marched away. By this time Carol was staring in a manner not visibly to be distinguished from the window-peeping of the rest of Gopher Prairie. She saw Mrs. Bogart enter the Howland house, then the Cassesâ. Not till suppertime did she reach the Kennicotts. The doctor answered her ring, and greeted her, âWell, well? howâs the good neighbor?â
The good neighbor charged into the living-room, waving the most unctuous of black kid gloves and delightedly sputtering:
âYou may well ask how I am! I really do wonder how I could go through the awful scenes of this dayâ âand the impudence I took from that womanâs tongue, that ought to be cut outâ ââ
âWhoa! Whoa! Hold up!â roared Kennicott. âWhoâs the hussy, Sister Bogart? Sit down and take it cool and tell us about it.â
âI canât sit down, I must hurry home, but I couldnât devote myself to my own selfish cares till Iâd warned you, and heaven knows I donât expect any thanks for trying to warn the town against her, thereâs always so much evil in the world that folks simply wonât see or appreciate your trying to safeguard themâ âAnd forcing herself in here to get in with you and Carrie, manyâs the time Iâve seen her doing it, and, thank heaven, she was found out in time before she could do any more harm, it simply breaks my heart and prostrates me to think what she may have done already, even if some of us that understand and know about thingsâ ââ
âWhoa-up! Who are you talking about?â
âSheâs talking about Fern Mullins,â Carol put in, not pleasantly.
âHuh?â
Kennicott was incredulous.
âI certainly am!â flourished Mrs. Bogart, âand good and thankful you may be that I found her out in time, before she could get you into something, Carol, because even if you are my neighbor and Willâs wife and a cultured lady, let me tell you right now, Carol Kennicott, that you ainât always as respectful toâ âyou ainât as reverentâ âyou donât stick by the good old ways like they was laid down for us by God in the Bible, and while of course there ainât a bit of harm in having a good laugh, and I know there ainât any real wickedness in you, yet just the same you donât fear God and hate the transgressors of his commandments like you ought to, and you may be thankful I found out this serpent I nourished in my bosomâ âand oh yes! oh yes indeed! my lady must have two eggs every morning for breakfast, and eggs sixty cents a dozen, and waânât satisfied with one, like most folksâ âwhat did she care how much they cost or if a person couldnât make hardly nothing on her board and room, in fact I just took her in out of charity and I might have known from the kind of stockings and clothes that she sneaked into my house in her trunkâ ââ
Before they got her story she had five more minutes of obscene wallowing. The gutter comedy turned into high tragedy, with Nemesis in black kid gloves. The actual story was simple, depressing, and unimportant. As to details Mrs. Bogart was indefinite, and angry that she should be questioned.
Fern Mullins and Cy had, the evening before, driven alone to a barn-dance in the country. (Carol brought out the admission that Fern had tried to get a chaperon.) At the dance Cy had kissed Fernâ âshe confessed that. Cy had obtained a pint of whisky; he said that he didnât remember where he had got it; Mrs. Bogart implied that Fern had given it to him; Fern herself insisted that he had stolen it from a farmerâs overcoatâ âwhich, Mrs. Bogart raged, was obviously a lie. He had become soggily drunk. Fern had driven him home; deposited him, retching and wabbling, on the Bogart porch.
Never before had her boy been drunk, shrieked Mrs. Bogart. When Kennicott grunted, she owned, âWell, maybe once or twice Iâve smelled licker on his breath.â She also, with an air of being only too scrupulously exact, granted that sometimes he did not come home till morning. But he couldnât ever have been drunk, for he always had the best excuses: the other boys had tempted him to go down the lake spearing pickerel by torchlight, or he had been out in a âmachine that ran out of gas.â Anyway, never before had her boy fallen into the hands of a âdesigning woman.â
âWhat do you suppose Miss Mullins could design to do with him?â insisted Carol.
Mrs. Bogart was puzzled, gave it up, went on. This morning, when she had faced both of them, Cy had manfully confessed that all of the blame was on Fern, because the teacherâ âhis own teacherâ âhad dared him to take a drink. Fern had tried to deny it.
âThen,â gabbled Mrs. Bogart, âthen that woman had the impudence to say to me, âWhat purpose could I have in wanting the filthy pup to get drunk?â Thatâs just what she called himâ âpup. âIâll have no such nasty language in my house,â I says, âand you pretending and pulling the wool over peopleâs eyes and making them think youâre educated and fit to be a teacher and look out for young peopleâs moralsâ âyouâre worse ân any streetwalker!â I says. I let her have it good. I waânât going to flinch from my bounden duty and let her think that decent folks had to stand for her vile talk. âPurpose?â I says, âPurpose? Iâll tell you what purpose you had! Ainât I seen you making up to everything in pants thatâd waste time and pay attention to your impertânence? Ainât I seen you showing off your legs with them short skirts of yours, trying to make out like you was so girlish and la-de-da, running along the street?âââ
Carol was very sick at this version of Fernâs eager youth, but she was sicker as Mrs. Bogart hinted that no one could tell what had happened between Fern and Cy before the drive home. Without exactly describing the scene, by her power of lustful imagination the woman suggested dark country places apart from the lanterns and rude fiddling and banging dance-steps in the barn, then madness and harsh hateful conquest. Carol was too sick to interrupt. It was Kennicott who cried, âOh, for Godâs sake quit it! You havenât any idea what happened. You havenât given us a single proof yet that Fern is anything but a rattlebrained youngster.â
âI havenât, eh? Well, what do you say to this? I come straight out and I says to her, âDid you or did you not taste the whisky Cy had?â and she says, âI think I did take one sipâ âCy made me,â she said. She owned up to that much, so you can imagineâ ââ
âDoes that prove her a prostitute?â asked Carol.
âCarrie! Donât you never use a word like that again!â wailed the outraged Puritan.
âWell, does it prove her to be a bad woman, that she took a taste of whisky? Iâve done it myself!â
âThatâs different. Not that I approve your doing it. What do the Scriptures tell us? âStrong drink is a mockerâ! But thatâs entirely different from a teacher drinking with one of her own pupils.â
âYes, it does sound bad. Fern was silly, undoubtedly. But as a matter of fact sheâs only a year or two older than Cy and probably a good many years younger in experience of vice.â
âThatâsâ ânotâ âtrue! She is plenty old enough to corrupt him!â
âThe job of corrupting Cy was done by your sinless town, five years ago!â
Mrs. Bogart did not rage in return. Suddenly she was hopeless. Her head drooped. She patted her black kid gloves, picked at a thread of her faded brown skirt, and sighed, âHeâs a good boy, and awful affectionate if you treat him right. Some thinks heâs terrible wild, but thatâs because heâs young. And heâs so brave and truthfulâ âwhy, he was one of the first in town that wanted to enlist for the war, and I had to speak real sharp to him to keep him from running away. I didnât want him to get into no bad influences round these campsâ âand then,â Mrs. Bogart rose from her pitifulness, recovered her pace, âthen I go and bring into my own house a woman thatâs worse, when allâs said and done, than any bad woman he could have met. You say this Mullins woman is too young and inexperienced to corrupt Cy. Well then, sheâs too young and inexperienced to teach him, too, one or tâother, you canât have your cake and eat it! So it donât make no difference which reason they fire her for, and thatâs practically almost what I said to the school-board.â
âHave you been telling this story to the members of the school-board?â
âI certainly have! Every one of âem! And their wives I says to them, âââTainât my affair to decide what you should or should not do with your teachers,â I says, âand I ainât presuming to dictate in any way, shape, manner, or form. I just want to know,â I says, âwhether youâre going to go on record as keeping here in our schools, among a lot of innocent boys and girls, a woman that drinks, smokes, curses, uses bad language, and does such dreadful things as I wouldnât lay tongue to but you know what I mean,â I says, âand if so, Iâll just see to it that the town learns about it.â And thatâs what I told Professor Mott, too, being superintendentâ âand heâs a righteous man, not going autoing on the Sabbath like the school-board members. And the professor as much as admitted he was suspicious of the Mullins woman himself.â
II
Kennicott was less shocked and much less frightened than Carol, and more articulate in his description of Mrs. Bogart, when she had gone.
Maud Dyer telephoned to Carol and, after a rather improbable question about cooking lima beans with bacon, demanded, âHave you heard the scandal about this Miss Mullins and Cy Bogart?â
âIâm sure itâs a lie.â
âOh, probably is.â Maudâs manner indicated that the falsity of the story was an insignificant flaw in its general delightfulness.
Carol crept to her room, sat with hands curled tight together as she listened to a plague of voices. She could hear the town yelping with it, every soul of them, gleeful at new details, panting to win importance by having details of their own to add. How well they would make up for what they had been afraid to do by imagining it in another! They who had not been entirely afraid (but merely careful and sneaky), all the barbershop rouĂŠs and millinery-parlor mondaines, how archly they were giggling (this secondâ âshe could hear them at it); with what self-commendation they were cackling their suavest wit: âYou canât tell me she ainât a gay bird; Iâm wise!â
And not one man in town to carry out their pioneer tradition of superb and contemptuous cursing, not one to verify the myth that their ârough chivalryâ and ârugged virtuesâ were more generous than the petty scandal-picking of older lands, not one dramatic frontiersman to thunder, with fantastic and fictional oaths, âWhat are you hinting at? What are you snickering at? What facts have you? What are these unheard-of sins you condemn so muchâ âand like so well?â
No one to say it. Not Kennicott nor Guy Pollock nor Champ Perry.
Erik? Possibly. He would sputter uneasy protest.
She suddenly wondered what subterranean connection her interest in Erik had with this affair. Wasnât it because they had been prevented by her caste from bounding on her own trail that they were howling at Fern?
III
Before supper she found, by half a dozen telephone calls, that Fern had fled to the Minniemashie House. She hastened there, trying not to be self-conscious about the people who looked at her on the street. The clerk said indifferently that he âguessedâ Miss Mullins was up in Room 37, and left Carol to find the way. She hunted along the stale-smelling corridors with their wallpaper of cerise daisies and poison-green rosettes, streaked in white spots from spilled water, their frayed red and yellow matting, and rows of pine doors painted a sickly blue. She could not find the number. In the darkness at the end of a corridor she had to feel the aluminum figures on the door-panels. She was startled once by a manâs voice: âYep? Whadyuh want?â and fled. When she reached the right door she stood listening. She made out a long sobbing. There was no answer till her third knock; then an alarmed âWho is it? Go away!â
Her hatred of the town turned resolute as she pushed open the door.
Yesterday she had seen Fern Mullins in boots and tweed skirt and canary-yellow sweater, fleet and self-possessed. Now she lay across the bed, in crumpled lavender cotton and shabby pumps, very feminine, utterly cowed. She lifted her head in stupid terror. Her hair was in tousled strings and her face was sallow, creased. Her eyes were a blur from weeping.
âI didnât! I didnât!â was all she would say at first, and she repeated it while Carol kissed her cheek, stroked her hair, bathed her forehead. She rested then, while Carol looked about the roomâ âthe welcome to strangers, the sanctuary of hospitable Main Street, the lucrative property of Kennicottâs friend, Jackson Elder. It smelled of old linen and decaying carpet and ancient tobacco smoke. The bed was rickety, with a thin knotty mattress; the sand-colored walls were scratched and gouged; in every corner, under everything, were fluffy dust and cigar ashes; on the tilted washstand was a nicked and squatty pitcher; the only chair was a grim straight object of spotty varnish; but there was an altogether splendid gilt and rose cuspidor.
She did not try to draw out Fernâs story; Fern insisted on telling it.
She had gone to the party, not quite liking Cy but willing to endure him for the sake of dancing, of escaping from Mrs. Bogartâs flow of moral comments, of relaxing after the first strained weeks of teaching. Cy âpromised to be good.â He was, on the way out. There were a few workmen from Gopher Prairie at the dance, with many young farm-people. Half a dozen squatters from a degenerate colony in a brush-hidden hollow, planters of potatoes, suspected thieves, came in noisily drunk. They all pounded the floor of the barn in old-fashioned square dances, swinging their partners, skipping, laughing, under the incantations of Del Snafflin the barber, who fiddled and called the figures. Cy had two drinks from pocket-flasks. Fern saw him fumbling among the overcoats piled on the feedbox at the far end of the barn; soon after she heard a farmer declaring that someone had stolen his bottle. She taxed Cy with the theft; he chuckled, âOh, itâs just a joke; Iâm going to give it back.â He demanded that she take a drink. Unless she did, he wouldnât return the bottle.
âI just brushed my lips with it, and gave it back to him,â moaned Fern. She sat up, glared at Carol. âDid you ever take a drink?â
âI have. A few. Iâd love to have one right now! This contact with righteousness has about done me up!â
Fern could laugh then. âSo would I! I donât suppose Iâve had five drinks in my life, but if I meet just one more Bogart and Sonâ âWell, I didnât really touch that bottleâ âhorrible raw whiskyâ âthough Iâd have loved some wine. I felt so jolly. The barn was almost like a stage sceneâ âthe high rafters, and the dark stalls, and tin lanterns swinging, and a silage-cutter up at the end like some mysterious kind of machine. And Iâd been having lots of fun dancing with the nicest young farmer, so strong and nice, and awfully intelligent. But I got uneasy when I saw how Cy was. So I doubt if I touched two drops of the beastly stuff. Do you suppose God is punishing me for even wanting wine?â
âMy dear, Mrs. Bogartâs god may beâ âMain Streetâs god. But all the courageous intelligent people are fighting himâ ââ ⌠though he slay us.â
Fern danced again with the young farmer; she forgot Cy while she was talking with a girl who had taken the University agricultural course. Cy could not have returned the bottle; he came staggering toward herâ âtaking time to make himself offensive to every girl on the way and to dance a jig. She insisted on their returning. Cy went with her, chuckling and jigging. He kissed her, outside the door.â ââ ⌠âAnd to think I used to think it was interesting to have men kiss you at a dance!ââ ââ ⌠She ignored the kiss, in the need of getting him home before he started a fight. A farmer helped her harness the buggy, while Cy snored in the seat. He awoke before they set out; all the way home he alternately slept and tried to make love to her.
âIâm almost as strong as he is. I managed to keep him away while I droveâ âsuch a rickety buggy. I didnât feel like a girl; I felt like a scrubwomanâ âno, I guess I was too scared to have any feelings at all. It was terribly dark. I got home, somehow. But it was hard, the time I had to get out, and it was quite muddy, to read a signpostâ âI lit matches that I took from Cyâs coat pocket, and he followed meâ âhe fell off the buggy step into the mud, and got up and tried to make love to me, andâ âI was scared. But I hit him. Quite hard. And got in, and so he ran after the buggy, crying like a baby, and I let him in again, and right away again he was tryingâ âBut no matter. I got him home. Up on the porch. Mrs. Bogart was waiting up.â ââ âŚ
âYou know, it was funny; all the time she wasâ âoh, talking to meâ âand Cy was being terribly sickâ âI just kept thinking, âIâve still got to drive the buggy down to the livery stable. I wonder if the livery man will be awake?â But I got through somehow. I took the buggy down to the stable, and got to my room. I locked my door, but Mrs. Bogart kept saying things, outside the door. Stood out there saying things about me, dreadful things, and rattling the knob. And all the while I could hear Cy in the back yard-being sick. I donât think Iâll ever marry any man. And then todayâ â
âShe drove me right out of the house. She wouldnât listen to me, all morning. Just to Cy. I suppose heâs over his headache now. Even at breakfast he thought the whole thing was a grand joke. I suppose right this minute heâs going around town boasting about his âconquest.â You understandâ âoh, donât you understand? I did keep him away! But I donât see how I can face my school. They say country towns are fine for bringing up boys in, butâ âI canât believe this is me, lying here and saying this. I donât believe what happened last night.
âOh. This was curious: When I took off my dress last nightâ âit was a darling dress, I loved it so, but of course the mud had spoiled it. I cried over it andâ âNo matter. But my white silk stockings were all torn, and the strange thing is, I donât know whether I caught my legs in the briers when I got out to look at the signpost, or whether Cy scratched me when I was fighting him off.â
IV
Sam Clark was president of the school-board. When Carol told him Fernâs story Sam looked sympathetic and neighborly, and Mrs. Clark sat by cooing, âOh, isnât that too bad.â Carol was interrupted only when Mrs. Clark begged, âDear, donât speak so bitter about âpiousâ people. Thereâs lots of sincere practising Christians that are real tolerant. Like the Champ Perrys.â
âYes. I know. Unfortunately there are enough kindly people in the churches to keep them going.â
When Carol had finished, Mrs. Clark breathed, âPoor girl; I donât doubt her story a bit,â and Sam rumbled, âYuh, sure. Miss Mullins is young and reckless, but everybody in town, except Ma Bogart, knows what Cy is. But Miss Mullins was a fool to go with him.â
âBut not wicked enough to pay for it with disgrace?â
âN-no, butâ ââ Sam avoided verdicts, clung to the entrancing horrors of the story. âMa Bogart cussed her out all morning, did she? Jumped her neck, eh? Ma certainly is one hellcat.â
âYes, you know how she is; so vicious.â
âOh no, her best style ainât her viciousness. What she pulls in our store is to come in smiling with Christian Fortitude and keep a clerk busy for one hour while she picks out half a dozen fourpenny nails. I remember one timeâ ââ
âSam!â Carol was uneasy. âYouâll fight for Fern, wonât you? When Mrs. Bogart came to see you did she make definite charges?â
âWell, yes, you might say she did.â
âBut the school-board wonât act on them?â
âGuess weâll more or less have to.â
âBut youâll exonerate Fern?â
âIâll do what I can for the girl personally, but you know what the board is. Thereâs Reverend Zitterel; Sister Bogart about half runs his church, so of course heâll take her say-so; and Ezra Stowbody, as a banker he has to be all hell for morality and purity. Mightâs well admit it, Carrie; Iâm afraid thereâll be a majority of the board against her. Not that any of us would believe a word Cy said, not if he swore it on a stack of Bibles, but still, after all this gossip, Miss Mullins wouldnât hardly be the party to chaperon our basketball team when it went out of town to play other high schools, would she!â
âPerhaps not, but couldnât someone else?â
âWhy, thatâs one of the things she was hired for.â Sam sounded stubborn.
âDo you realize that this isnât just a matter of a job, and hiring and firing; that itâs actually sending a splendid girl out with a beastly stain on her, giving all the other Bogarts in the world a chance at her? Thatâs what will happen if you discharge her.â
Sam moved uncomfortably, looked at his wife, scratched his head, sighed, said nothing.
âWonât you fight for her on the board? If you lose, wonât you, and whoever agrees with you, make a minority report?â
âNo reports made in a case like this. Our rule is to just decide the thing and announce the final decision, whether itâs unanimous or not.â
âRules! Against a girlâs future! Dear God! Rules of a school-board! Sam! Wonât you stand by Fern, and threaten to resign from the board if they try to discharge her?â
Rather testy, tired of so many subtleties, he complained, âWell, Iâll do what I can, but Iâll have to wait till the board meets.â
And âIâll do what I can,â together with the secret admission âOf course you and I know what Ma Bogart is,â was all Carol could get from Superintendent George Edwin Mott, Ezra Stowbody, the Reverend Mr. Zitterel or any other member of the school-board.
Afterward she wondered whether Mr. Zitterel could have been referring to herself when he observed, âThereâs too much license in high places in this town, though, and the wages of sin is deathâ âor anyway, beinâ fired.â The holy leer with which the priest said it remained in her mind.
She was at the hotel before eight next morning. Fern longed to go to school, to face the tittering, but she was too shaky. Carol read to her all day and, by reassuring her, convinced her own self that the school-board would be just. She was less sure of it that evening when, at the motion pictures, she heard Mrs. Gougerling exclaim to Mrs. Howland, âShe may be so innocent and all, and I suppose she probably is, but still, if she drank a whole bottle of whisky at that dance, the way everybody says she did, she may have forgotten she was so innocent! Hee, hee, hee!â Maud Dyer, leaning back from her seat, put in, âThatâs what Iâve said all along. I donât want to roast anybody, but have you noticed the way she looks at men?â
âWhen will they have me on the scaffold?â Carol speculated.
Nat Hicks stopped the Kennicotts on their way home. Carol hated him for his manner of assuming that they two had a mysterious understanding. Without quite winking he seemed to wink at her as he gurgled, âWhat do you folks think about this Mullins woman? Iâm not straitlaced, but I tell you we got to have decent women in our schools. Dâ you know what I heard? They say whatever she may of done afterwards, this Mullins dame took two quarts of whisky to the dance with her, and got stewed before Cy did! Some tank, that wren! Ha, ha, ha!â
âRats, I donât believe it,â Kennicott muttered.
He got Carol away before she was able to speak.
She saw Erik passing the house, late, alone, and she stared after him, longing for the lively bitterness of the things he would say about the town. Kennicott had nothing for her but âOh, course, evâbody likes a juicy story, but they donât intend to be mean.â
She went up to bed proving to herself that the members of the school-board were superior men.
It was Tuesday afternoon before she learned that the board had met at ten in the morning and voted to âaccept Miss Fern Mullinsâs resignation.â Sam Clark telephoned the news to her. âWeâre not making any charges. Weâre just letting her resign. Would you like to drop over to the hotel and ask her to write the resignation, now weâve accepted it? Glad I could get the board to put it that way. Itâs thanks to you.â
âBut canât you see that the town will take this as proof of the charges?â
âWeâreâ ânotâ âmakingâ ânoâ âchargesâ âwhatever!â Sam was obviously finding it hard to be patient.
Fern left town that evening.
Carol went with her to the train. The two girls elbowed through a silent lip-licking crowd. Carol tried to stare them down but in face of the impishness of the boys and the bovine gaping of the men, she was embarrassed. Fern did not glance at them. Carol felt her arm tremble, though she was tearless, listless, plodding. She squeezed Carolâs hand, said something unintelligible, stumbled up into the vestibule.
Carol remembered that Miles Bjornstam had also taken a train. What would be the scene at the station when she herself took departure?
She walked uptown behind two strangers.
One of them was giggling, âSee that good-looking wench that got on here? The swell kid with the small black hat? Sheâs some charmer! I was here yesterday, before my jump to Ojibway Falls, and I heard all about her. Seems she was a teacher, but she certainly was a high-rollerâ âO boy!â âhigh, wide, and fancy! Her and couple of other skirts bought a whole case of whisky and went on a tear, and one night, darned if this bunch of cradle-robbers didnât get hold of some young kids, just small boys, and they all got lit up like a White Way, and went out to a roughneck dance, and they sayâ ââ
The narrator turned, saw a woman near and, not being a common person nor a coarse workman but a clever salesman and a householder, lowered his voice for the rest of the tale. During it the other man laughed hoarsely.
Carol turned off on a side-street.
She passed Cy Bogart. He was humorously narrating some achievement to a group which included Nat Hicks, Del Snafflin, Bert Tybee the bartender, and A. Tennyson OâHearn the shyster lawyer. They were men far older than Cy but they accepted him as one of their own, and encouraged him to go on.
It was a week before she received from Fern a letter of which this was a part:
âŚÂ & of course my family did not really believe the story but as they were sure I must have done something wrong they just lectured me generally, in fact jawed me till I have gone to live at a boarding house. The teachersâ agencies must know the story, man at one almost slammed the door in my face when I went to ask about a job, & at another the woman in charge was beastly. Donât know what I will do. Donât seem to feel very well. May marry a fellow thatâs in love with me but heâs so stupid that he makes me scream.
Dear Mrs. Kennicott you were the only one that believed me. I guess itâs a joke on me, I was such a simp, I felt quite heroic while I was driving the buggy back that night & keeping Cy away from me. I guess I expected the people in Gopher Prairie to admire me. I did use to be admired for my athletics at the U.â âjust five months ago.
XXXIII
I
For a month which was one suspended moment of doubt she saw Erik only casually, at an Eastern Star dance, at the shop, where, in the presence of Nat Hicks, they conferred with immense particularity on the significance of having one or two buttons on the cuff of Kennicottâs New Suit. For the benefit of beholders they were respectably vacuous.
Thus barred from him, depressed in the thought of Fern, Carol was suddenly and for the first time convinced that she loved Erik.
She told herself a thousand inspiriting things which he would say if he had the opportunity; for them she admired him, loved him. But she was afraid to summon him. He understood, he did not come. She forgot her every doubt of him, and her discomfort in his background. Each day it seemed impossible to get through the desolation of not seeing him. Each morning, each afternoon, each evening was a compartment divided from all other units of time, distinguished by a sudden âOh! I want to see Erik!â which was as devastating as though she had never said it before.
There were wretched periods when she could not picture him. Usually he stood out in her mind in some little momentâ âglancing up from his preposterous pressing-iron, or running on the beach with Dave Dyer. But sometimes he had vanished; he was only an opinion. She worried then about his appearance: Werenât his wrists too large and red? Wasnât his nose a snub, like so many Scandinavians? Was he at all the graceful thing she had fancied? When she encountered him on the street she was as much reassuring herself as rejoicing in his presence. More disturbing than being unable to visualize him was the darting remembrance of some intimate aspect: his face as they had walked to the boat together at the picnic; the ruddy light on his temples, neck-cords, flat cheeks.
On a November evening when Kennicott was in the country she answered the bell and was confused to find Erik at the door, stooped, imploring, his hands in the pockets of his topcoat. As though he had been rehearsing his speech he instantly besought:
âSaw your husband driving away. Iâve got to see you. I canât stand it. Come for a walk. I know! People might see us. But they wonât if we hike into the country. Iâll wait for you by the elevator. Take as long as you want toâ âoh, come quick!â
âIn a few minutes,â she promised.
She murmured, âIâll just talk to him for a quarter of an hour and come home.â She put an her tweed coat and rubber overshoes, considering how honest and hopeless are rubbers, how clearly their chaperonage proved that she wasnât going to a loversâ tryst.
She found him in the shadow of the grain-elevator, sulkily kicking at a rail of the sidetrack. As she came toward him she fancied that his whole body expanded. But he said nothing, nor she; he patted her sleeve, she returned the pat, and they crossed the railroad tracks, found a road, clumped toward open country.
âChilly night, but I like this melancholy gray,â he said.
âYes.â
They passed a moaning clump of trees and splashed along the wet road. He tucked her hand into the side-pocket of his overcoat. She caught his thumb and, sighing, held it exactly as Hugh held hers when they went walking. She thought about Hugh. The current maid was in for the evening, but was it safe to leave the baby with her? The thought was distant and elusive.
Erik began to talk, slowly, revealingly. He made for her a picture of his work in a large tailor shop in Minneapolis: the steam and heat, and the drudgery; the men in darned vests and crumpled trousers, men who ârushed growlers of beerâ and were cynical about women, who laughed at him and played jokes on him. âBut I didnât mind, because I could keep away from them outside. I used to go to the Art Institute and the Walker Gallery, and tramp clear around Lake Harriet, or hike out to the Gates house and imagine it was a château in Italy and I lived in it. I was a marquis and collected tapestriesâ âthat was after I was wounded in Padua. The only really bad time was when a tailor named Finkelfarb found a diary I was trying to keep and he read it aloud in the shopâ âit was a bad fight.â He laughed. âI got fined five dollars. But thatâs all gone now. Seems as though you stand between me and the gas stovesâ âthe long flames with mauve edges, licking up around the irons and making that sneering sound all dayâ âaaaaah!â
Her fingers tightened about his thumb as she perceived the hot low room, the pounding of pressing-irons, the reek of scorched cloth, and Erik among giggling gnomes. His fingertip crept through the opening of her glove and smoothed her palm. She snatched her hand away, stripped off her glove, tucked her hand back into his.
He was saying something about a âwonderful person.â In her tranquillity she let the words blow by and heeded only the beating wings of his voice.
She was conscious that he was fumbling for impressive speech.
âSay, uhâ âCarol, Iâve written a poem about you.â
âThatâs nice. Letâs hear it.â
âDamn it, donât be so casual about it! Canât you take me seriously?â
âMy dear boy, if I took you seriouslyâ â! I donât want us to be hurt more thanâ âmore than we will be. Tell me the poem. Iâve never had a poem written about me!â
âIt isnât really a poem. Itâs just some words that I love because it seems to me they catch what you are. Of course probably they wonât seem so to anybody else, butâ âWellâ â
Little and tender and merry and wise
With eyes that meet my eyes.
Do you get the idea the way I do?â
âYes! Iâm terribly grateful!â And she was gratefulâ âwhile she impersonally noted how bad a verse it was.
She was aware of the haggard beauty in the lowering night. Monstrous tattered clouds sprawled round a forlorn moon; puddles and rocks glistened with inner light. They were passing a grove of scrub poplars, feeble by day but looming now like a menacing wall. She stopped. They heard the branches dripping, the wet leaves sullenly plumping on the soggy earth.
âWaitingâ âwaitingâ âeverything is waiting,â she whispered. She drew her hand from his, pressed her clenched fingers against her lips. She was lost in the somberness. âI am happyâ âso we must go home, before we have time to become unhappy. But canât we sit on a log for a minute and just listen?â
âNo. Too wet. But I wish we could build a fire, and you could sit on my overcoat beside it. Iâm a grand fire-builder! My cousin Lars and me spent a week one time in a cabin way up in the Big Woods, snowed in. The fireplace was filled with a dome of ice when we got there, but we chopped it out, and jammed the thing full of pine-boughs. Couldnât we build a fire back here in the woods and sit by it for a while?â
She pondered, halfway between yielding and refusal. Her head ached faintly. She was in abeyance. Everything, the night, his silhouette, the cautious-treading future, was as undistinguishable as though she were drifting bodiless in a Fourth Dimension. While her mind groped, the lights of a motor car swooped round a bend in the road, and they stood farther apart. âWhat ought I to do?â she mused. âI thinkâ âOh, I wonât be robbed! I am good! If Iâm so enslaved that I canât sit by the fire with a man and talk, then Iâd better be dead!â
The lights of the thrumming car grew magically; were upon them; abruptly stopped. From behind the dimness of the windshield a voice, annoyed, sharp: âHello there!â
She realized that it was Kennicott.
The irritation in his voice smoothed out. âHaving a walk?â
They made schoolboyish sounds of assent.
âPretty wet, isnât it? Better ride back. Jump up in front here, Valborg.â
His manner of swinging open the door was a command. Carol was conscious that Erik was climbing in, that she was apparently to sit in the back, and that she had been left to open the rear door for herself. Instantly the wonder which had flamed to the gusty skies was quenched, and she was Mrs. W. P. Kennicott of Gopher Prairie, riding in a squeaking old car, and likely to be lectured by her husband.
She feared what Kennicott would say to Erik. She bent toward them. Kennicott was observing, âGoing to have some rain before the nightâs over, all right.â
âYes,â said Erik.
âBeen funny season this year, anyway. Never saw it with such a cold October and such a nice November. âMember we had a snow way back on October ninth! But it certainly was nice up to the twenty-first, this monthâ âas I remember it, not a flake of snow in November so far, has there been? But I shouldnât wonder if weâd be having some snow âmost any time now.â
âYes, good chance of it,â said Erik.
âWish Iâd had more time to go after the ducks this fall. By golly, what do you think?â Kennicott sounded appealing. âFellow wrote me from Man Trap Lake that he shot seven mallards and couple of canvasback in one hour!â
âThat must have been fine,â said Erik.
Carol was ignored. But Kennicott was blustrously cheerful. He shouted to a farmer, as he slowed up to pass the frightened team, âThere we areâ âschon gut!â She sat back, neglected, frozen, unheroic heroine in a drama insanely undramatic. She made a decision resolute and enduring. She would tell Kennicottâ âWhat would she tell him? She could not say that she loved Erik. Did she love him? But she would have it out. She was not sure whether it was pity for Kennicottâs blindness, or irritation at his assumption that he was enough to fill any womanâs life, which prompted her, but she knew that she was out of the trap, that she could be frank; and she was exhilarated with the adventure of itâ ââ ⌠while in front he was entertaining Erik:
âNothing like an hour on a duck-pass to make you relish your victuals andâ âGosh, this machine hasnât got the power of a fountain pen. Guess the cylinders are jam-cram-full of carbon again. Donât know but what maybe Iâll have to put in another set of piston-rings.â
He stopped on Main Street and clucked hospitably, âThere, thatâll give you just a block to walk. Gâ night.â
Carol was in suspense. Would Erik sneak away?
He stolidly moved to the back of the car, thrust in his hand, muttered, âGood nightâ âCarol. Iâm glad we had our walk.â She pressed his hand. The car was flapping on. He was hidden from herâ âby a corner drug store on Main Street!
Kennicott did not recognize her till he drew up before the house. Then he condescended, âBetter jump out here and Iâll take the boat around back. Say, see if the back door is unlocked, will you?â She unlatched the door for him. She realized that she still carried the damp glove she had stripped off for Erik. She drew it on. She stood in the center of the living-room, unmoving, in damp coat and muddy rubbers. Kennicott was as opaque as ever. Her task wouldnât be anything so lively as having to endure a scolding, but only an exasperating effort to command his attention so that he would understand the nebulous things she had to tell him, instead of interrupting her by yawning, winding the clock, and going up to bed. She heard him shoveling coal into the furnace. He came through the kitchen energetically, but before he spoke to her he did stop in the hall, did wind the clock.
He sauntered into the living-room and his glance passed from her drenched hat to her smeared rubbers. She could hearâ âshe could hear, see, taste, smell, touchâ âhis âBetter take your coat off, Carrie; looks kind of wet.â Yes, there it was:
âWell, Carrie, you betterâ ââ He chucked his own coat on a chair, stalked to her, went on with a rising tingling voice, ââ âyou better cut it out now. Iâm not going to do the outraged husband stunt. I like you and I respect you, and Iâd probably look like a boob if I tried to be dramatic. But I think itâs about time for you and Valborg to call a halt before you get in Dutch, like Fern Mullins did.â
âDo youâ ââ
âCourse. I know all about it. What dâ you expect in a town thatâs as filled with busybodies, that have plenty of time to stick their noses into other folksâ business, as this is? Not that theyâve had the nerve to do much tattling to me, but theyâve hinted around a lot, and anyway, I could see for myself that you liked him. But of course I knew how cold you were, I knew you wouldnât stand it even if Valborg did try to hold your hand or kiss you, so I didnât worry. But same time, I hope you donât suppose this husky young Swede farmer is as innocent and Platonic and all that stuff as you are! Wait now, donât get sore! Iâm not knocking him. He isnât a bad sort. And heâs young and likes to gas about books. Course you like him. That isnât the real rub. But havenât you just seen what this town can do, once it goes and gets moral on you, like it did with Fern? You probably think that two young folks making love are alone if anybody ever is, but thereâs nothing in this town that you donât do in company with a whole lot of uninvited but awful interested guests. Donât you realize that if Ma Westlake and a few others got started theyâd drive you up a tree, and youâd find yourself so well advertised as being in love with this Valborg fellow that youâd have to be, just to spite âem!â
âLet me sit down,â was all Carol could say. She drooped on the couch, wearily, without elasticity.
He yawned, âGimme your coat and rubbers,â and while she stripped them off he twiddled his watch-chain, felt the radiator, peered at the thermometer. He shook out her wraps in the hall, hung them up with exactly his usual care. He pushed a chair near to her and sat bolt up. He looked like a physician about to give sound and undesired advice.
Before he could launch into his heavy discourse she desperately got in, âPlease! I want you to know that I was going to tell you everything, tonight.â
âWell, I donât suppose thereâs really much to tell.â
âBut there is. Iâm fond of Erik. He appeals to something in here.â She touched her breast. âAnd I admire him. He isnât just a âyoung Swede farmer.â Heâs an artistâ ââ
âWait now! Heâs had a chance all evening to tell you what a whale of a fine fellow he is. Now itâs my turn. I canât talk artistic, butâ âCarrie, do you understand my work?â He leaned forward, thick capable hands on thick sturdy thighs, mature and slow, yet beseeching. âNo matter even if you are cold, I like you better than anybody in the world. One time I said that you were my soul. And that still goes. Youâre all the things that I see in a sunset when Iâm driving in from the country, the things that I like but canât make poetry of. Do you realize what my job is? I go round twenty-four hours a day, in mud and blizzard, trying my damnedest to heal everybody, rich or poor. Youâ âthatâre always spieling about how scientists ought to rule the world, instead of a bunch of spread-eagle politiciansâ âcanât you see that Iâm all the science there is here? And I can stand the cold and the bumpy roads and the lonely rides at night. All I need is to have you here at home to welcome me. I donât expect you to be passionateâ ânot any more I donâtâ âbut I do expect you to appreciate my work. I bring babies into the world, and save lives, and make cranky husbands quit being mean to their wives. And then you go and moon over a Swede tailor because he can talk about how to put ruchings on a skirt! Hell of a thing for a man to fuss over!â
She flew out at him: âYou make your side clear. Let me give mine. I admit all you sayâ âexcept about Erik. But is it only you, and the baby, that want me to back you up, that demand things from me? Theyâre all on me, the whole town! I can feel their hot breaths on my neck! Aunt Bessie and that horrible slavering old Uncle Whittier and Juanita and Mrs. Westlake and Mrs. Bogart and all of them. And you welcome them, you encourage them to drag me down into their cave! I wonât stand it! Do you hear? Now, right now, Iâm done. And itâs Erik who gives me the courage. You say he just thinks about ruches (which do not usually go on skirts, by the way!). I tell you he thinks about God, the God that Mrs. Bogart covers up with greasy gingham wrappers! Erik will be a great man some day, and if I could contribute one tiny bit to his successâ ââ
âWait, wait, wait now! Hold up! Youâre assuming that your Erik will make good. As a matter of fact, at my age heâll be running a one-man tailor shop in some burg about the size of Schoenstrom.â
âHe will not!â
âThatâs what heâs headed for now all right, and heâs twenty-five or -six andâ âWhatâs he done to make you think heâll ever be anything but a pants-presser?â
âHe has sensitiveness and talentâ ââ
âWait now! What has he actually done in the art line? Has he done one first-class picture orâ âsketch, dâ you call it? Or one poem, or played the piano, or anything except gas about what heâs going to do?â
She looked thoughtful.
âThen itâs a hundred to one shot that he never will. Way I understand it, even these fellows that do something pretty good at home and get to go to art school, there ainât more than one out of ten of âem, maybe one out of a hundred, that ever get above grinding out a bum livingâ âabout as artistic as plumbing. And when it comes down to this tailor, why, canât you seeâ âyou that take on so about psychologyâ âcanât you see that itâs just by contrast with folks like Doc McGanum or Lym Cass that this fellow seems artistic? Suppose youâd met up with him first in one of these regâlar New York studios! You wouldnât notice him any more ân a rabbit!â
She huddled over folded hands like a temple virgin shivering on her knees before the thin warmth of a brazier. She could not answer.
Kennicott rose quickly, sat on the couch, took both her hands. âSuppose he failsâ âas he will! Suppose he goes back to tailoring, and youâre his wife. Is that going to be this artistic life youâve been thinking about? Heâs in some bum shack, pressing pants all day, or stooped over sewing, and having to be polite to any grouch that blows in and jams a dirty stinking old suit in his face and says, âHere you, fix this, and be blame quick about it.â He wonât even have enough savvy to get him a big shop. Heâll pike along doing his own workâ âunless you, his wife, go help him, go help him in the shop, and stand over a table all day, pushing a big heavy iron. Your complexion will look fine after about fifteen years of baking that way, wonât it! And youâll be humped over like an old hag. And probably youâll live in one room back of the shop. And then at nightâ âoh, youâll have your artistâ âsure! Heâll come in stinking of gasoline, and cranky from hard work, and hinting around that if it hadnât been for you, heâd of gone East and been a great artist. Sure! And youâll be entertaining his relativesâ âTalk about Uncle Whit! Youâll be having some old Axel Axelberg coming in with manure on his boots and sitting down to supper in his socks and yelling at you, âHurry up now, you vimmin make me sick!â Yes, and youâll have a squalling brat every year, tugging at you while you press clothes, and you wonât love âem like you do Hugh upstairs, all downy and asleepâ ââ
âPlease! Not any more!â
Her face was on his knee.
He bent to kiss her neck. âI donât want to be unfair. I guess love is a great thing, all right. But think it would stand much of that kind of stuff? Oh, honey, am I so bad? Canât you like me at all? Iâveâ âIâve been so fond of you!â
She snatched up his hand, she kissed it. Presently she sobbed, âI wonât ever see him again. I canât, now. The hot living-room behind the tailor shopâ âI donât love him enough for that. And you areâ âEven if I were sure of him, sure he was the real thing, I donât think I could actually leave you. This marriage, it weaves people together. Itâs not easy to break, even when it ought to be broken.â
âAnd do you want to break it?â
âNo!â
He lifted her, carried her upstairs, laid her on her bed, turned to the door.
âCome kiss me,â she whimpered.
He kissed her lightly and slipped away. For an hour she heard him moving about his room, lighting a cigar, drumming with his knuckles on a chair. She felt that he was a bulwark between her and the darkness that grew thicker as the delayed storm came down in sleet.
II
He was cheery and more casual than ever at breakfast. All day she tried to devise a way of giving Erik up. Telephone? The village central would unquestionably âlisten in.â A letter? It might be found. Go to see him? Impossible. That evening Kennicott gave her, without comment, an envelope. The letter was signed âE. V.â
I know I canât do anything but make trouble for you, I think. I am going to Minneapolis tonight and from there as soon as I can either to New York or Chicago. I will do as big things as I can. Iâ âI canât write I love you too muchâ âGod keep you.
Until she heard the whistle which told her that the Minneapolis train was leaving town, she kept herself from thinking, from moving. Then it was all over. She had no plan nor desire for anything.
When she caught Kennicott looking at her over his newspaper she fled to his arms, thrusting the paper aside, and for the first time in years they were lovers. But she knew that she still had no plan in life, save always to go along the same streets, past the same people, to the same shops.
III
A week after Erikâs going the maid startled her by announcing, âThereâs a Mr. Valborg downstairs say he vant to see you.â
She was conscious of the maidâs interested stare, angry at this shattering of the calm in which she had hidden. She crept down, peeped into the living-room. It was not Erik Valborg who stood there; it was a small, gray-bearded, yellow-faced man in mucky boots, canvas jacket, and red mittens. He glowered at her with shrewd red eyes.
âYou de docâs wife?â
âYes.â
âIâm Adolph Valborg, from up by Jefferson. Iâm Erikâs father.â
âOh!â He was a monkey-faced little man, and not gentle.
âWhat you done witâ my son?â
âI donât think I understand you.â
âI tâink youâre going to understand before I get târough! Where is he?â
âWhy, reallyâ âI presume that heâs in Minneapolis.â
âYou presume!â He looked through her with a contemptuousness such as she could not have imagined. Only an insane contortion of spelling could portray his lyric whine, his mangled consonants. He clamored, âPresume! Dotâs a fine word! I donât want no fine words and I donât want no more lies! I want to know what you know!â
âSee here, Mr. Valborg, you may stop this bullying right now. Iâm not one of your farmwomen. I donât know where your son is, and thereâs no reason why I should know.â Her defiance ran out in face of his immense flaxen stolidity. He raised his fist, worked up his anger with the gesture, and sneered:
âYou dirty city women witâ your fine ways and fine dresses! A father come here trying to save his boy from wickedness, and you call him a bully! By God, I donât have to take nothinâ off you nor your husband! I ainât one of your hired men. For one time a woman like you is going to hear de trutâ about what you are, and no fine city words to it, needer.â
âReally, Mr. Valborgâ ââ
âWhat you done witâ him? Heh? Iâll yoost tell you what you done! He was a good boy, even if he was a damn fool. I want him back on de farm. He donât make enough money tailoring. And I canât get me no hired man! I want to take him back on de farm. And you butt in and fool witâ him and make love witâ him, and get him to run away!â
âYou are lying! Itâs not true thatâ âItâs not true, and if it were, you would have no right to speak like this.â
âDonât talk foolish. I know. Ainât I heard from a fellow dot live right here in town how you been acting witâ de boy? I know what you done! Walking witâ him in de country! Hiding in de woods witâ him! Yes and I guess you talk about religion in de woods! Sure! Women like youâ âyouâre worse dan streetwalkers! Rich women like you, witâ fine husbands and no decent work to doâ âand me, look at my hands, look how I work, look at those hands! But you, oh God no, you mustnât work, youâre too fine to do decent work. You got to play witâ young fellows, younger as you are, laughing and rolling around and acting like de animals! You let my son alone, dâ you hear?â He was shaking his fist in her face. She could smell the manure and sweat. âIt ainât no use talkinâ to women like you. Get no trutâ out of you. But next time I go by your husband!â
He was marching into the hall. Carol flung herself on him, her clenching hand on his hayseed-dusty shoulder. âYou horrible old man, youâve always tried to turn Erik into a slave, to fatten your pocketbook! Youâve sneered at him, and overworked him, and probably youâve succeeded in preventing his ever rising above your muck-heap! And now because you canât drag him back, you come here to ventâ âGo tell my husband, go tell him, and donât blame me when he kills you, when my husband kills youâ âhe will kill youâ ââ
The man grunted, looked at her impassively, said one word, and walked out.
She heard the word very plainly.
She did not quite reach the couch. Her knees gave way, she pitched forward. She heard her mind saying, âYou havenât fainted. This is ridiculous. Youâre simply dramatizing yourself. Get up.â But she could not move. When Kennicott arrived she was lying on the couch. His step quickened. âWhatâs happened, Carrie? You havenât got a bit of blood in your face.â
She clutched his arm. âYouâve got to be sweet to me, and kind! Iâm going to Californiaâ âmountains, sea. Please donât argue about it, because Iâm going.â
Quietly, âAll right. Weâll go. You and I. Leave the kid here with Aunt Bessie.â
âNow!â
âWell yes, just as soon as we can get away. Now donât talk any more. Just imagine youâve already started.â He smoothed her hair, and not till after supper did he continue: âI meant it about California. But I think we better wait three weeks or so, till I get hold of some young fellow released from the medical corps to take my practice. And if people are gossiping, you donât want to give them a chance by running away. Can you stand it and face âem for three weeks or so?â
âYes,â she said emptily.
IV
People covertly stared at her on the street. Aunt Bessie tried to catechize her about Erikâs disappearance, and it was Kennicott who silenced the woman with a savage, âSay, are you hinting that Carrie had anything to do with that fellowâs beating it? Then let me tell you, and you can go right out and tell the whole bloominâ town, that Carrie and I took Valâ âtook Erik riding, and he asked me about getting a better job in Minneapolis, and I advised him to go to it.â ââ ⌠Getting much sugar in at the store now?â
Guy Pollock crossed the street to be pleasant apropos of California and new novels. Vida Sherwin dragged her to the Jolly Seventeen. There, with everyone rigidly listening, Maud Dyer shot at Carol, âI hear Erik has left town.â
Carol was amiable. âYes, so I hear. In fact, he called me upâ âtold me he had been offered a lovely job in the city. So sorry heâs gone. He would have been valuable if weâd tried to start the dramatic association again. Still, I wouldnât be here for the association myself, because Will is all in from work, and Iâm thinking of taking him to California. Juanitaâ âyou know the Coast so wellâ âtell me: would you start in at Los Angeles or San Francisco, and what are the best hotels?â
The Jolly Seventeen looked disappointed, but the Jolly Seventeen liked to give advice, the Jolly Seventeen liked to mention the expensive hotels at which they had stayed. (A meal counted as a stay.) Before they could question her again Carol escorted in with drum and fife the topic of Raymie Wutherspoon. Vida had news from her husband. He had been gassed in the trenches, had been in a hospital for two weeks, had been promoted to major, was learning French.
V
She left Hugh with Aunt Bessie.
But for Kennicott she would have taken him. She hoped that in some miraculous way yet unrevealed she might find it possible to remain in California. She did not want to see Gopher Prairie again.
The Smails were to occupy the Kennicott house, and quite the hardest thing to endure in the month of waiting was the series of conferences between Kennicott and Uncle Whittier in regard to heating the garage and having the furnace flues cleaned.
Did Carol, Kennicott inquired, wish to stop in Minneapolis to buy new clothes?
âNo! I want to get as far away as I can as soon as I can. Letâs wait till Los Angeles.â
âSure, sure! Just as you like. Cheer up! Weâre going to have a large wide time, and everythingâll be different when we come back.â
VI
Dusk on a snowy December afternoon. The sleeper which would connect at Kansas City with the California train rolled out of St. Paul with a chickâaâchick, chickâaâchick, chickâaâchick as it crossed the other tracks. It bumped through the factory belt, gained speed. Carol could see nothing but gray fields, which had closed in on her all the way from Gopher Prairie. Ahead was darkness.
âFor an hour, in Minneapolis, I must have been near Erik. Heâs still there, somewhere. Heâll be gone when I come back. Iâll never know where he has gone.â
As Kennicott switched on the seat-light she turned drearily to the illustrations in a motion-picture magazine.
XXXIV
I
They journeyed for three and a half months. They saw the Grand Canyon, the adobe walls of Sante Fe and, in a drive from El Paso into Mexico, their first foreign land. They jogged from San Diego and La Jolla to Los Angeles, Pasadena, Riverside, through towns with bell-towered missions and orange-groves; they viewed Monterey and San Francisco and a forest of sequoias. They bathed in the surf and climbed foothills and danced, they saw a polo game and the making of motion-pictures, they sent one hundred and seventeen souvenir postcards to Gopher Prairie, and once, on a dune by a foggy sea when she was walking alone, Carol found an artist, and he looked up at her and said, âToo damned wet to paint; sit down and talk,â and so for ten minutes she lived in a romantic novel.
Her only struggle was in coaxing Kennicott not to spend all his time with the tourists from the ten thousand other Gopher Prairies. In winter, California is full of people from Iowa and Nebraska, Ohio and Oklahoma, who, having traveled thousands of miles from their familiar villages, hasten to secure an illusion of not having left them. They hunt for people from their own states to stand between them and the shame of naked mountains; they talk steadily, in Pullmans, on hotel porches, at cafeterias and motion-picture shows, about the motors and crops and county politics back home. Kennicott discussed land-prices with them, he went into the merits of the several sorts of motor cars with them, he was intimate with train porters, and he insisted on seeing the Luke Dawsons at their flimsy bungalow in Pasadena, where Luke sat and yearned to go back and make some more money. But Kennicott gave promise of learning to play. He shouted in the pool at the Coronado, and he spoke of (though he did nothing more radical than speak of) buying evening-clothes. Carol was touched by his efforts to enjoy picture galleries, and the dogged way in which he accumulated dates and dimensions when they followed monkish guides through missions.
She felt strong. Whenever she was restless she dodged her thoughts by the familiar vagabond fallacy of running away from them, of moving on to a new place, and thus she persuaded herself that she was tranquil. In March she willingly agreed with Kennicott that it was time to go home. She was longing for Hugh.
They left Monterey on April first, on a day of high blue skies and poppies and a summer sea.
As the train struck in among the hills she resolved, âIâm going to love the fine Will Kennicott quality that there is in Gopher Prairie. The nobility of good sense. It will be sweet to see Vida and Guy and the Clarks. And Iâm going to see my baby! All the words heâll be able to say now! Itâs a new start. Everything will be different!â
Thus on April first, among dappled hills and the bronze of scrub oaks, while Kennicott seesawed on his toes and chuckled, âWonder what Hughâll say when he sees us?â
Three days later they reached Gopher Prairie in a sleet storm.
II
No one knew that they were coming; no one met them; and because of the icy roads, the only conveyance at the station was the hotel bus, which they missed while Kennicott was giving his trunk-check to the station agentâ âthe only person to welcome them. Carol waited for him in the station, among huddled German women with shawls and umbrellas, and ragged-bearded farmers in corduroy coats; peasants mute as oxen, in a room thick with the steam of wet coats, the reek of the red-hot stove, the stench of sawdust boxes which served as cuspidors. The afternoon light was as reluctant as a winter dawn.
âThis is a useful market-center, an interesting pioneer post, but it is not a home for me,â meditated the stranger Carol.
Kennicott suggested, âIâd phone for a flivver but itâd take quite a while for it to get here. Letâs walk.â
They stepped uncomfortably from the safety of the plank platform and, balancing on their toes, taking cautious strides, ventured along the road. The sleety rain was turning to snow. The air was stealthily cold. Beneath an inch of water was a layer of ice, so that as they wavered with their suitcases they slid and almost fell. The wet snow drenched their gloves; the water underfoot splashed their itching ankles. They scuffled inch by inch for three blocks. In front of Harry Haydockâs Kennicott sighed:
âWe better stop in here and phone for a machine.â
She followed him like a wet kitten.
The Haydocks saw them laboring up the slippery concrete walk, up the perilous front steps, and came to the door chanting:
âWell, well, well, back again, eh? Say, this is fine! Have a fine trip? My, you look like a rose, Carol. How did you like the coast, doc? Well, well, well! Where-all did you go?â
But as Kennicott began to proclaim the list of places achieved, Harry interrupted with an account of how much he himself had seen, two years ago. When Kennicott boasted, âWe went through the mission at Santa Barbara,â Harry broke in, âYeh, thatâs an interesting old mission. Say, Iâll never forget that hotel there, doc. It was swell. Why, the rooms were made just like these old monasteries. Juanita and I went from Santa Barbara to San Luis Obispo. You folks go to San Luis Obispo?â
âNo, butâ ââ
âWell you ought to gone to San Luis Obispo. And then we went from there to a ranch, least they called it a ranchâ ââ
Kennicott got in only one considerable narrative, which began:
âSay, I never knewâ âdid you, Harry?â âthat in the Chicago district the Kutz Kar sells as well as the Overland? I never thought much of the Kutz. But I met a gentleman on the trainâ âit was when we were pulling out of Albuquerque, and I was sitting on the back platform of the observation car, and this man was next to me and he asked me for a light, and we got to talking, and come to find out, he came from Aurora, and when he found out I came from Minnesota he asked me if I knew Dr. Clemworth of Red Wing, and of course, while Iâve never met him, Iâve heard of Clemworth lots of times, and seems heâs this manâs brother! Quite a coincidence! Well, we got to talking, and we called the porterâ âthat was a pretty good porter on that carâ âand we had a couple bottles of ginger ale, and I happened to mention the Kutz Kar, and this manâ âseems heâs driven a lot of different kinds of carsâ âheâs got a Franklin nowâ âand he said that heâd tried the Kutz and liked it first-rate. Well, when we got into a stationâ âI donât remember the name of itâ âCarrie, what the deuce was the name of that first stop we made the other side of Albuquerque?â âwell, anyway, I guess we must have stopped there to take on water, and this man and I got out to stretch our legs, and darned if there wasnât a Kutz drawn right up at the depot platform, and he pointed out something Iâd never noticed, and I was glad to learn about it: seems that the gear lever in the Kutz is an inch longerâ ââ
Even this chronicle of voyages Harry interrupted, with remarks on the advantages of the ball-gear-shift.
Kennicott gave up hope of adequate credit for being a traveled man, and telephoned to a garage for a Ford taxicab, while Juanita kissed Carol and made sure of being the first to tell the latest, which included seven distinct and proven scandals about Mrs. Swiftwaite, and one considerable doubt as to the chastity of Cy Bogart.
They saw the Ford sedan making its way over the water-lined ice, through the snowstorm, like a tugboat in a fog. The driver stopped at a corner. The car skidded, it turned about with comic reluctance, crashed into a tree, and stood tilted on a broken wheel.
The Kennicotts refused Harry Haydockâs not too urgent offer to take them home in his car âif I can manage to get it out of the garageâ âterrible dayâ âstayed home from the storeâ âbut if you say so, Iâll take a shot at it.â Carol gurgled, âNo, I think weâd better walk; probably make better time, and Iâm just crazy to see my baby.â With their suitcases they waddled on. Their coats were soaked through.
Carol had forgotten her facile hopes. She looked about with impersonal eyes. But Kennicott, through rain-blurred lashes, caught the glory that was Back Home.
She noted bare tree-trunks, black branches, the spongy brown earth between patches of decayed snow on the lawns. The vacant lots were full of tall dead weeds. Stripped of summer leaves the houses were hopelessâ âtemporary shelters.
Kennicott chuckled, âBy golly, look down there! Jack Elder must have painted his garage. And look! Martin Mahoney has put up a new fence around his chicken yard. Say, thatâs a good fence, eh? Chicken-tight and dog-tight. Thatâs certainly a dandy fence. Wonder how much it cost a yard? Yes, sir, they been building right along, even in winter. Got more enterprise than these Californians. Pretty good to be home, eh?â
She noted that all winter long the citizens had been throwing garbage into their back yards, to be cleaned up in spring. The recent thaw had disclosed heaps of ashes, dog-bones, torn bedding, clotted paint-cans, all half covered by the icy pools which filled the hollows of the yards. The refuse had stained the water to vile colors of waste: thin red, sour yellow, streaky brown.
Kennicott chuckled, âLook over there on Main Street! They got the feed store all fixed up, and a new sign on it, black and gold. Thatâll improve the appearance of the block a lot.â
She noted that the few people whom they passed wore their raggedest coats for the evil day. They were scarecrows in a shanty town.â ââ ⌠âTo think,â she marveled, âof coming two thousand miles, past mountains and cities, to get off here, and to plan to stay here! What conceivable reason for choosing this particular place?â
She noted a figure in a rusty coat and a cloth cap.
Kennicott chuckled, âLook whoâs coming! Itâs Sam Clark! Gosh, all rigged out for the weather.â
The two men shook hands a dozen times and, in the Western fashion, bumbled, âWell, well, well, well, you old hellhound, you old devil, how are you, anyway? You old horse-thief, maybe it ainât good to see you again!â While Sam nodded at her over Kennicottâs shoulder, she was embarrassed.
âPerhaps I should never have gone away. Iâm out of practise in lying. I wish they would get it over! Just a block more andâ âmy baby!â
They were home. She brushed past the welcoming Aunt Bessie and knelt by Hugh. As he stammered, âO mummy, mummy, donât go away! Stay with me, mummy!â she cried, âNo, Iâll never leave you again!â
He volunteered, âThatâs daddy.â
âBy golly, he knows us just as if weâd never been away!â said Kennicott. âYou donât find any of these California kids as bright as he is, at his age!â
When the trunk came they piled about Hugh the bewhiskered little wooden men fitting one inside another, the miniature junk, and the Oriental drum, from San Francisco Chinatown; the blocks carved by the old Frenchman in San Diego; the lariat from San Antonio.
âWill you forgive mummy for going away? Will you?â she whispered.
Absorbed in Hugh, asking a hundred questions about himâ âhad he had any colds? did he still dawdle over his oatmeal? what about unfortunate morning incidents? she viewed Aunt Bessie only as a source of information, and was able to ignore her hint, pointed by a coyly shaken finger, âNow that youâve had such a fine long trip and spent so much money and all, I hope youâre going to settle down and be satisfied and notâ ââ
âDoes he like carrots yet?â replied Carol.
She was cheerful as the snow began to conceal the slatternly yards. She assured herself that the streets of New York and Chicago were as ugly as Gopher Prairie in such weather; she dismissed the thought, âBut they do have charming interiors for refuge.â She sang as she energetically looked over Hughâs clothes.
The afternoon grew old and dark. Aunt Bessie went home. Carol took the baby into her own room. The maid came in complaining, âI canât get no extra milk to make chipped beef for supper.â Hugh was sleepy, and he had been spoiled by Aunt Bessie. Even to a returned mother, his whining and his trick of seven times snatching her silver brush were fatiguing. As a background, behind the noises of Hugh and the kitchen, the house reeked with a colorless stillness.
From the window she heard Kennicott greeting the Widow Bogart as he had always done, always, every snowy evening: âGuess thisâll keep up all night.â She waited. There they were, the furnace sounds, unalterable, eternal: removing ashes, shoveling coal.
Yes. She was back home! Nothing had changed. She had never been away. California? Had she seen it? Had she for one minute left this scraping sound of the small shovel in the ash-pit of the furnace? But Kennicott preposterously supposed that she had. Never had she been quite so far from going away as now when he believed she had just come back. She felt oozing through the walls the spirit of small houses and righteous people. At that instant she knew that in running away she had merely hidden her doubts behind the officious stir of travel.
âDear God, donât let me begin agonizing again!â she sobbed. Hugh wept with her.
âWait for mummy a second!â She hastened down to the cellar, to Kennicott.
He was standing before the furnace. However inadequate the rest of the house, he had seen to it that the fundamental cellar should be large and clean, the square pillars whitewashed, and the bins for coal and potatoes and trunks convenient. A glow from the drafts fell on the smooth gray cement floor at his feet. He was whistling tenderly, staring at the furnace with eyes which saw the black-domed monster as a symbol of home and of the beloved routine to which he had returnedâ âhis gipsying decently accomplished, his duty of viewing âsightsâ and âcuriosâ performed with thoroughness. Unconscious of her, he stooped and peered in at the blue flames among the coals. He closed the door briskly, and made a whirling gesture with his right hand, out of pure bliss.
He saw her. âWhy, hello, old lady! Pretty darn good to be back, eh?â
âYes,â she lied, while she quaked, âNot now. I canât face the job of explaining now. Heâs been so good. He trusts me. And Iâm going to break his heart!â
She smiled at him. She tidied his sacred cellar by throwing an empty bluing bottle into the trash bin. She mourned, âItâs only the baby that holds me. If Hugh diedâ ââ She fled upstairs in panic and made sure that nothing had happened to Hugh in these four minutes.
She saw a pencil-mark on a windowsill. She had made it on a September day when she had been planning a picnic for Fern Mullins and Erik. Fern and she had been hysterical with nonsense, had invented mad parties for all the coming winter. She glanced across the alley at the room which Fern had occupied. A rag of a gray curtain masked the still window.
She tried to think of someone to whom she wanted to telephone. There was no one.
The Sam Clarks called that evening and encouraged her to describe the missions. A dozen times they told her how glad they were to have her back.
âIt is good to be wanted,â she thought. âIt will drug me. Butâ âOh, is all life, always, an unresolved But?â
XXXV
I
She tried to be content, which was a contradiction in terms. She fanatically cleaned house all April. She knitted a sweater for Hugh. She was diligent at Red Cross work. She was silent when Vida raved that though America hated war as much as ever, we must invade Germany and wipe out every man, because it was now proven that there was no soldier in the German army who was not crucifying prisoners and cutting off babiesâ hands.
Carol was volunteer nurse when Mrs. Champ Perry suddenly died of pneumonia.
In her funeral procession were the eleven people left out of the Grand Army and the Territorial Pioneers, old men and women, very old and weak, who a few decades ago had been boys and girls of the frontier, riding broncos through the rank windy grass of this prairie. They hobbled behind a band made up of business men and high-school boys, who straggled along without uniforms or ranks or leader, trying to play Chopinâs Funeral Marchâ âa shabby group of neighbors with grave eyes, stumbling through the slush under a solemnity of faltering music.
Champ was broken. His rheumatism was worse. The rooms over the store were silent. He could not do his work as buyer at the elevator. Farmers coming in with sled-loads of wheat complained that Champ could not read the scale, that he seemed always to be watching someone back in the darkness of the bins. He was seen slipping through alleys, talking to himself, trying to avoid observation, creeping at last to the cemetery. Once Carol followed him and found the coarse, tobacco-stained, unimaginative old man lying on the snow of the grave, his thick arms spread out across the raw mound as if to protect her from the cold, her whom he had car